Love, Pain And The Whole Crazy Thing
Chapter 14 – Bath time, Bed time and Fighting time
Derek walked into the kitchen, taking a carton of orange juice from the fridge, he filled himself a glass and walked back into the living room where he was greeted by a sight that made him smile like he was retarded, Hailey and Justin were playing with Hailey's Barbies on the floor while Addison watched them from the couch.
''Hey sweeties shall we have bath time now?'' Addison asked. Justin's head shot up and he grinned. "With the ship?"
''Yeah with the ship but no flooding the bathroom this time please.'' She got up. Justin carefully placed the Barbie on the floor before following his mother.
''C'mon Hails.'' She held out her hand for her daughter. Hailey smiled, taking the hand her mother had offered and pulled herself up.
''Thank you.'' She walked up the stairs with them.
"Momma? If Justin gets the ship, do I get to play with the duck?" She asked.
''Mhm sure.''
"Yay! I want the pink one this time!"
''You can have the pink one.'' She walked into the nursery.
"Yay!" Hailey exclaimed and hugged her mother tightly.
''C'mon let's get you two undressed.''
Justin started to lift up his own shirt while he was still carried by his mother. She chuckled, putting them down on the floor in their room. Justin quickly threw away the shirt and then tapped his stomach while Hailey sat on the floor and started to remove her socks. Addison opened their closet getting out new diapers, underwear and their pyjamas. Just a few seconds later Justin ran out of the room, only wearing his socks.
''Hey Jussie, get back!''
Justin bit on his lip and returned to the room, well only to the doorway.
''Come here.''
He walked towards his mother, looking up to her.
''Do socks go in bath?''
He looked down to his feet. "Momma I forgot socks!"
''Yeah exactly, take them off.''
Justin grinned and sat on the floor, taking off his socks.
''Good boy. Hailey are you done?''
"Yes!" Hailey nodded and walked towards the door.
''Wait for me.'' Addison chuckled.
"Run!" Hailey grinned and carried on walking. Justin ran after his sister, leaving the socks lying on the floor.
''No.'' She followed them into the bathroom. Hailey pouted sadly before looking at the bathtub.
''What's wrong honey?'' Addison put the things she was holding down, laying a towel down in front of the bath.
"Mommy I want bubbles!" She exclaimed.
''It won't be a long bath time though sweetie.'' Addison pulled the plug in and started the bubble bath.
"Why not?" Justin yelped before getting into the tub.
''Because mommy is really tired.'' She lifted Hailey in. Hailey pouted again. "Whyyyyyy?"
''Honey I'm really tired and I need to take a bath as well.''
Hailey crossed her arms in front of her chest. "But I want to play with bubbles!"
''And you can, just not for an entire hour.''
She pouted again, bringing her arms higher on her chest.
''Hailey stop it.''
Hailey took some bubbles in her other hand and started poking them with her finger. Addison added some lotion into the bath.
"Can I get my duck nowwwww?" She asked with a pouty face.
''If you ask nicely.''
"Please?" She batted her eyelashes.
''Alright.'' Addison got the rubber duck for her.
"Yay!" Hailey grinned and held out her arms towards the duck. Addison laughed. ''Catch!'' She threw it at her.
Hailey tried, somehow managing to receive the duck. She looked at it happily.
"Candy, we get to take a bath now!"
''Candy?'' She chuckled. She nodded. "Her name is Candy!"
''Wow, what a nice name.''
"I know!" Hailey grinned proudly. Addison chuckled. Hailey started playing with the bubbles, making the rubber duck dive. Addison sat down on the closed toilet lit, watching them. Justin started tossing and turning in the bathtub, causing the water to get dangerously close to the edge.
''Be careful Jussie.''
"Whyyyyyy?" He didn't calm down.
''Because the water is going over the tub.''
"Oh." The little boy stopped the movement. "Can I get my shippppp?"
''If you calm down.''
"I will! I will!" The boy blinked his eyes, trying not to move.
''Okay.'' She got his ship out. Justin grinned. "Gigantic!"
Addison laughed, giving it to him.
He started to hum the theme song of Knight Rider as he played with his ship.
Addison sat back down. The kids carried on playing with their own toys, Hailey starting to sing for the duck. Addison rubbed her face tiredly. Hailey started to sing with a high pitched voice. Addison started laughing. Hailey gave her a disapproving look. "Momma. I can't hear my singing if you laugh."
''Sorry sweetie, sorry.''
Hailey pouted before she started singing another song. Addison had to clasp her hand in front of her mouth as she started to laugh loudly. Hailey stared at her mother before pouting. "MOMMA! Candy can't hear if you laugh!"
''Don't sing!'' Justin threw water over his sister. She looked shocked and splashed some water back to him. "Stupid Jussie I sing if I want to!"
''You sing ugly!'' He splashed it over her head.
''Hey, hey, hey!'' Addison got up.
"JUSSIE SPLASHED WATER INTO MY EYESS!" Hailey began to cry.
''Alright, bath time is over.'' Addison reached into the water, pulling out the plug.
"Noooo!" Hailey just cried harder.
''Yes.'' Addison got a towel. ''Up.''
Hailey held onto the edge of the bathtub. "Noo!"
''Hailey mommy is not in the mood for games now!''
Hailey held out her arms for her.
''Thank you.'' She wrapped Hailey in the towel and picked her up, not caring she was getting wet. Hailey nodded, tears still rolling down her cheeks.
''How's your eye?'' She looked at the little girl.
"It's wet and hurting." Hailey answered truthfully. Addison wiped at her eye with the towel carefully. Hailey sniffed but soon the sad pouting disappeared.
''Do you want me to give a kiss on it?''
She nodded her head slowly. She gave a soft kiss on her eye. A small smile appeared on Hailey's face and she wrapped her arms around her mother's neck.
''You're making me all wet silly.''
"Sorry momma, do you want me to stop?" Hailey asked with a sad expression on her face as she pulled back.
''No, that's okay.'' She hugged her close. Hailey hugged her mother back as tight as she could.
''I love you sweetheart.''
"I love you too mommy." She mumbled against her shoulder.
''And I think you have a lovely voice.''
"Really?" Hailey asked hopefully.
''Mhm.'' She smiled. ''Really.''
"Thanks mommy." Hailey dropped a wet kiss on her cheek.
''You're welcome sweetie.'' She gave her one more kiss on the lips before putting her down to the floor. Hailey pouted sadly. "Can I go to mine and Justin's room?"
''Yeah go there and then I'll get you two ready for bed.'' She turned to the now nearly empty bath. Hailey nodded before leaving the room, the towel still around her.
''Up honey.''
Justin pouted sadly. "But I don't want to!"
''Come on sweetheart, it's bedtime.''
"But I still want to play!" He stood up.
''You can play tomorrow.'' She wrapped his towel around his little body. He pouted angrily before stepping out of the bathtub.
''Hey!'' She bent down to his eyelevel. He crossed his arms in front of his chest.
''You can say night to daddy and then I'll read you a bedtime story.''
A wide grin spread on his face before he ran out of the room. "DADDAAAAA!"
''Justin come back.'' Addison sighed tiredly.
"But I'm gonna say night to dadda!" He exclaimed, leaning against the doorframe.
''Yeah but you and Bug need to get dressed first.''
He pouted sadly. "Me no naked?"
''No.'' She chuckled.
"Oh." He said a little disappointed.
''Come on.'' She gave him a kiss.
Justin pecked his mother's lips before making a mad dash towards his and Hailey's room. She shook her head laughing, getting up as she walked into the nursery with the diapers and clothes. Hailey grinned widely when Addison stepped into the room. "Mommy!"
''Hey Bunny.''
She held out her hands. "I want to get dressed! Now."
''Alright.'' She picked her up and laid her on the changing table. Hailey started playing with her own hair absently. She put on her diaper. Hailey casually started humming again which then turned into a silent singing. "Hush little baby don't you cry..."
Addison smiled at her, putting her underwear on.
"Daddy's gonna buy you a mocking bird... I'am give you the world... I'am buy a diamond ring for you... I'am sing for you..." She stopped to remember the lyrics. Addison gave her a kiss. ''Who thought you that song?''
"It was in the radio." She batted her eyelashes.
''Oh.'' She put on her pyjamas. She nodded once her mother had finished, sitting up straight.
''I'm gonna sit you on the bed, go comb your hair until I'm done with Jussie okay?''
"But I like it when you comb it..."
''You do?''
She nodded her head. "It feels funny."
''When I do it or when you do it?'' She chuckled.
"When I do it." She smiled widely, "It doesn't tickle when you do it…"
''Then I'll comb it for you.'' She placed a tender kiss on her forehead.
"Yay." She smiled.
She leaned in and gave her daughter a hug. Hailey hugged her back tightly as Justin tugged at Addison's jeans.
''Yeah sweetie?'' She pulled back from Hailey a bit to look at her son.
"Do I have to get dressed?"
''Yeah baby, you can't go around naked.''
"Why not?" He asked honestly.
''Because it's not something you can do.''
"Oh... why not?"
''You will get cold.''
"Oh." He held out his arms as to be picked up. She picked him up and sat him next to Hailey. Justin looked at his mother, waiting for her to start. She dried him a little before putting his diaper on. Justin rubbed his face tiredly. Addison gave him a kiss and put on his little boy's underwear. Justin let out a chuckle, pecking her nose. She smiled widely at her little boy. Justin grinned widely just when Derek walked in. Addison didn't notice her husband and started putting Justin's pyjamas on.
"I came to say goodnight to you." Derek walked closer to them.
"Daddy!" Hailey smiled widely.
''Dadda.'' Justin smiled.
"Hey babies." Derek finally reached the changing table and picked up Hailey. Addison smiled a little at them. Derek placed a kiss on the top of his baby girl's head. Addison got a comb and carefully brushing Justin's hair.
"Hmm did you have fun?" Derek softly talked to his daughter, placing small kisses on her forehead.
''I played with Candy.'' She wrapped her arms around his neck carefully.
"Candy? Who has such a lovely name?" Derek held her close to him, swaying a little.
''My little ducky.'' She put her thumb into her mouth closing her eyes.
"Aww honey that is a wonderful name." Derek whispered against her hair.
''Thank you daddy.'' She whispered tiredly. ''Shall we name the baby Candy?''
"You can name your own baby Candy when you grow up, we wouldn't steal your baby's name." Derek smiled at his daughter.
''I won't have a baby.''
"You will, someday you will." Derek placed a kiss on her hair.
''When I'm really big?''
"When you're really big." He nodded. She leaned back to give her daddy a sloppy kiss on his cheek before laying her head back in the crook of his neck, her thumb back in her mouth. He smiled widely at her, dropping a few kisses on the top of her head, hugging her close to him.
''Daddy?'' She asked sleepily.
"Yes bunny?" He replied, softly stroking her back.
''Will you sleep in my bed?''
"Honey, that bed is a little too small." Derek smiled softly.
''I can lie against you.''
"Aww honey." Derek looked at Addison, raising his eyebrows.
''Hmm?''
"Honey I'll sleep with you tomorrow night, okay?" Derek directed his question to Hailey, slowly shifting her.
''Why not this night?''
"Daddy is very tired now." Derek answered.
''But that's why you can sleep in my bed, it's really soft and I will be a good girl and go sleep.''
Derek chuckled softly. "Tomorrow, I promise."
''Daddy pleaaaaseeeeee.''
"I'll sleep with you tomorrow night, the whole night I'm gonna be holding you close to my chest, okay?"
''Okay then.'' She sighed heavily.
"I promise." He pressed a kiss on her hair.
''I love you daddy.''
"I love you too princess." He placed a kiss on her forehead. Hailey smiled. Derek gently brushed her hair.
''Daddy mommy has to comb my hair now.''
"Oh okay." Derek smiled a little before placing his daughter onto the changing table, taking Justin from Addison, placing a sweet peck on Addison's cheek as he did so. Addison smiled a little at him. Derek gave her a smile back and then started stroking Justin's back.
''Hey daddy.''
"Hi Jussie, are you tired?"
''No.'' He lied.
"I think you are a little tired..." He placed a small kiss on his lips.
''Just a little.'' He pouted.
"Aw, well a boy your age should be a little tired at this hour." Derek smiled softly.
''Yeah?''
"Yeah you should be."
''Are you going to bed too?''
"Daddy will take a quick shower and then daddy will go to bed."
''With mommy?''
"Going to where with mommy?"
''Bed.''
"Yeah I'm going to sleep with mommy."
''On top of each other?'' He asked innocently.
"No, next to each other sweetheart."
''Why?''
"Because both, mommy and daddy are very tired."
''And then you sleep next to each other?''
"Yes."
''That's weird.''
"Why do you think it's weird?"
''It just is.''
"Okay." He pecked his son's lips.
''Mommy has boobies!'' He suddenly said grinning.
"Excuse me?" Derek stared at him in shock.
''Mommy has boobies!'' He said again.
"Yes she does sweetie." Really big... round... nice... very squeezable.. and massagable ones
''Big boobies.''
"Honey, it's not nice to think about other people's boobs." Yeah... do not think... about them... but they look so good. Just one quick peek Derek, JUST ONE. His gaze dropped to Addison's chest for a small moment.
''Why not?'' He asked while Addison was combing Hailey's hair, talking to her. Derek unwillingly returned his gaze to his son. "It just isn't, honey."
''But whyyyyyyyy?''
"Because women can be really sensitive about that kind of stuff, so don't talk to mommy about it." He pecked his son's lips.
''Oooookaaaay.''
"Good boy now let me take you to the bed."
''Okays.''
Derek smiled and carried his little boy to the bed and slowly laid him down.
He instantly crawled under the covers. Derek tucked him in to the bed, placing a kiss on his forehead. "Good night baby."
''Night daddy.''
"Sweet dreams."
''You too!''
Derek pecked his lips once more when Addison carried Hailey towards her bed. Addison tucked her daughter into bed. Derek moved towards the other bed, looking down to Hailey who was still saying her goodnights to Addison.
"Goodnight mommy" Hailey held out her arms.
''Night baby girl.'' Addison leaned down to give her a kiss. Hailey pecked her mother's lips twice, her arms wrapping around her neck.
''I love you pretty girl.''
"I love you too honey momma sugar." Hailey mumbled.
''Aww.'' Addison smiled. Hailey smiled back to her sweetly once she pulled back.
''Sweet dreams princess.''
"You too mommy." Hailey leaned her head against the pillow.
''Thanks sweetie.''
Derek smiled at the sight. She stood up. Derek placed a small kiss on her cheek once again.
''I'm gonna take a bath.''
"Okay, try to relax." He said softly.
''Thanks.'' She gave him a small smile. He returned a small weak smile.
''Well, I'm gonna go to the bathroom now.''
"Okay, I'm gonna go to the bed, read a little and take a quick shower after you."
''Okay.'' She nodded. ''I won't take long then.''
"Okay." He nodded as well, dropping a kiss on Hailey's lips who was already fast asleep. She walked out of the room. He followed her after a while, walking straight into the bathroom.
''What are you doing?'' She asked confused.
"I'm just gonna brush my teeth." He said, grabbing his toothbrush.
''Oh okay.'' She awkwardly waited with undressing. He looked down to the sink as he started brushing his teeth. She tried to think of things to busy herself.
"You can go to bath, I promise not to look." He mumbled, carrying on staring at the sink.
''No... I'll wait.''
"Okay." He said, his heart skipping a beat... in a bad way.
''Sorry just... after what you said today... I don't feel comfortable undressing in front of you.'' She said honestly.
"Okay, are you thinking that I don't like your body now?" He asked. She shrugged, he had no idea how he had hurt her with his words today. He looked at her through the mirror. "I'm sorry about that Addison, I didn't mean those things. I do love you and your body."
She simply nodded though her face was written in sadness. He spit out the toothpaste, hating to see her like this. She let out a deep sigh, rubbing her face. He took a mouthful of water and then spit it out, he could hear her sighing. She closed her eyes. He turned around so that he could look at her. "There's nothing wrong with your body, don't you doubt that."
''You're making me doubt it.'' She opened her eyes.
"I'm sorry for that Addison." Derek replied, looking into her eyes. She looked back into his.
He made a sad smile. "Do you need me to make a list? I love everything about you Addie."
''No.''
"Addison look, there's nothing wrong with you."
''I feel like there is.''
"And I gave you that feeling?"
''Partly yeah.''
"And how could we fix that?"
''I don't know honestly.''
He nodded. "Okay, well..." He turned to face the sink, placing his toothbrush where it belong. "I'm gonna go to bed."
''Night...''
"Good night." He said quietly, starting to walk out of the room. "Can I get a kiss?"
She shrugged. He sighed. "Enjoy your bath." He walked out.
She closed her eyes when he left though the tears fell anyway. He crawled into the cold bed, under the covers, intending on getting some sleep. She put on the tap and got undressed before stepping into the hot water. Derek closed his eyes, the bed was way too cold. But soon he realised that what he really needed wasn't warmness, it wasn't a stupid sheet, it was actually... Addison. After about 30 minutes Addison was done and silently tip-toed into their bedroom, getting a blanket. He rolled onto his side. "I don't want to be kidnapped." He mumbled. ''What?'' She whispered, jumping a bit. "Stupid British puppies kidnapping sleeping people." He murmured against his pillow. She frowned, taking a spare blanket from the closet. He rolled onto his stomach and stayed asleep. She made her way out of the room. Derek didn't have any idea of his wife's actions. She walked down the stairs with the blanket. She walked into the living room, sighing as she looked at the couch. Slowly she laid down, putting the blanket over herself as she curled up her legs to fit on the couch. She shut her eyes closed, one arm wrapped around her stomach. She held her stomach, hoping it would get better for the baby. It didn't deserve to be born like this. It had done nothing wrong, it was innocent in this. She wanted to keep it that way, protect her baby. She kept her eyes shut tightly, rubbing her stomach. She tried to catch some sleep, hoping she wouldn't dream about anything. It didn't matter anymore. She just wanted to fall asleep, forget about how he breath felt stocked in her throat, how her heart literally ached and how the tears stung behind her closed eyes. She just wanted to forget everything and fall into a dreamless sleep.
It was 1 am when he woke up, he groaned and tossed to the other side, his hand reaching for a human contact. It hit the cold mattress. He opened his eyes so that they were wide open. Where was she? He got up and looked around the room, then walking into the nursery to see if she was there. There was no sight of her, had she even got in to the bed? Oh. Dear. God. His heart seemed to drop and his face fell. He made a mad dash towards the bathroom. Maybe she was depressed? What if... what if she had done something? He opened the door. Luckily the bathroom was empty. He let out a sigh of relief and leaned his head against the doorframe. Thank god... the colour started returning to his face. He closed the door, going down the stairs. He walked into the kitchen. Midnight snack? The room was empty. What was happening? He went into the living room, seeing a curled up body lying on the couch in the dark room. He felt relieved, and angry, there was a blanket over her so she had planned this, she hadn't just walked downstairs and fell asleep. She had actually planned on leaving him alone in their bed. He shook his head at her. She curled up her body even tighter. He walked closer to her, he needed to know if it really was her. She laid with her head buried in her arms, like she was protecting herself from something. He kneeled down next to the couch and simply watched her chest rise up and down. She kept on sleeping. He sat on the floor, wondering why in the world she did this. He softly took her hand. He looked at her features, was she depressed? Was she lonely? He checked her face, stroking her hand. He softly linked his fingers with hers, hoping that this really was just a phase. A small sigh escaped his lips which made Addison stir. Derek softly played with her fingers, waiting for her to wake up so that he could get his answer. Her breathing got more unsteady though she didn't wake up.
"Addie..?" He asked quietly, brushing away a stray of hair.
''Hmm.'' She stirred.
"Addison..?" He couldn't help but smile at her. Her eyes fluttered open.
"You're sleeping on the couch." He stated, his smile fading. She blinked her eyes at him, not saying anything.
"You're sleeping... on the couch." He said again, this time you could hear hurt in his voice.
''Yeah..'' She looked down.
"Why? Why did you sleep on the couch?"
''I thought it would be better...''
"Better for who? It isn't going to solve anything, it'll just hurt me."
''Why?''
"You could have at least told me to move to the couch, I was worried, I didn't know where you were."
''Where else would I be?''
"I don't know Addison, I don't know anymore."
''I didn't tell you because you were asleep.''
"Leave a note? Addison, you have no idea how it felt to find an empty bed and then realise she hadn't even slept in the bed."
''Why would I leave a note, it's not like I went anywhere outside.''
He shook his head. "Avoiding is getting us nowhere."
''I'm not avoiding you.''
"Okay, then why aren't you even sleeping in bed? This is not good for your back."
''I wouldn't be able to sleep if I lied next to you.''
"Oh. Why not?" He stared into her eyes.
''Because of what happened.'' And because I don't wanna lie next to you wishing you'd turn around and wrap your arms around me because that won't happen.
"Okay... well you know I didn't mean it..." He shifted uncomfortably, looking down to the floor not knowing what to do. "You know I love you."
She looked at the wall, not giving an answer.
"Addison please come to the bed."
''I'm fine with sleeping here.''
"Go to bed Addison, I'm taking the couch."
''No.''
"Why not?"
''Because I don't want you to sleep on the couch.''
"Addison I'm okay with the couch, go to the bed now, I don't want you to be cold and aching."
''I'm not cold and aching.''
"Go to bed, now. Please just go there."
''I won't let you sleep on the couch because of me.''
"You will and you are. Now go. It's not a big deal." Except that it is.
''No, I'm staying here. I'm fine and you hadn't even noticed I wasn't there until you woke up.''
"Well that is called sleeping, of course I didn't know you weren't there. Now go to the bed."
''No!''
"Addison I'm not arguing at 1 am, now go to the bed please."
''I'm sleeping here.''
He got up. "I'm not letting you stay here."
''You have no other choice. I won't sleep next to you and I'm not going to sleep alone in that bed either.''
"Well I won't sleep there alone either." He crossed his arms, looking down to her.
''You already did.''
"Because I thought you'd be there sleeping next to me later."
''Go sleep with Hailey.''
"I'm already going don't you worry about it." He left the room, walking towards the stairs, shaking his head. Addison sighed and closed her eyes again, mumbling something. He took support from the railing and walked up the stairs with quick steps. She desperately tried to fall back asleep. Derek opened the door of his children's room and stepped inside, walking towards Hailey's bed. She looked so innocent when she was asleep. Her thumb was in her mouth. He crawled into the bed with her, moving her to lay on his chest while whispering comforting things to her so that she'd know it was just Derek.
''Daddy?'' She sleepily opened her eyes.
"Yeah it's daddy..." Derek mumbled into her ear, bringing up the covers. "Daddy's here..."
''Are you sleeping here?''
"Yeah daddy didn't want to see the pouting face of his little princess."
''But what about mommy? Is she alone now?''
"Mommy is a big girl and she has many warm blankets with her."
''Shall I wake up Jussie and ask if he will sleep in her bed?''
"Honey you don't need to do that, Jussie is very tired."
''Are you sure daddy? Because I'm sure he would do that.''
"Yeah daddy's sure about this." He mumbled.
''But I don't want mommy to be alone.'' She said innocently.
Derek sighed. "Me neither but this night mommy wants to be alone and sleep on the couch."
''On the couch?'' Her head shot up and she looked at her father shocked.
"On the couch because she'll get up early tomorrow to make breakfast, it's not a big deal honey." Derek gently brushed her back.
''She isn't sad because you went to sleep in my bed right? Is she sleeping on the couch for that?''
"No it's not because of that sweetie, it has nothing to do with you. I promise."
"Can I go tell her that she'll have you back tomorrow?''
"No you don't have to, she knows I'll be there always for her."
''Oh. How?'' The little girl asked.
"Because we're married, and we love each other. And because she has that necklace, I'll always be in her heart and she'll be in mine."
''Oh.'' She smiled.
"Yeah, so sleep pumpkin, daddy's here." Derek placed a kiss on Hailey's cheek. She nodded. ''Night daddy.''
"Night sweetie" He closed his eyes.
''I love you.'' She mumbled sleepily.
"I love you too, so much." He replied, knowing he wasn't going to sleep this night. The girl already was on the first train to dreamland.