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I am not happy with this chapter but my friend told me to post it anyway so thanks to Mel here is Chapter 14.

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"We should go now." Emily suddenly said, after they spent what felt like hours sitting at the lake.

"Why?" JJ asked confused.

"Because you are freezing." The brunette turned her head to face her lover.

"No I am not." The blonde lied.

"Jennifer I can feel you shivering and your goose bumps."

The younger woman rolled her eyes. "I don't want to go."

"Why?"

"Because this here, feels so perfect and surreal. I am afraid if we go now, I wake up and figure out that it was just a dream."

Emily turned around and faced the blonde woman. Cupping her face she placed a soft kiss on her lips. "Does this feel like a dream?"

The blonde looked deep into the dark brown eyes. "Hmm I'm not convinced yet."

The brunette smirked and placed another, this time more passionate kiss on the blonde's soft lips. JJ started to moan. Gently pushing the younger woman on the ground Emily was now lying on top of her deepening the kiss. Her hands wandered down JJ's body and back up to her hair. Breaking the kiss she looked at her lover, the usual light blue eyes were dark now and full of lust.

"You still think this is a dream?" she asked teasingly.

"I umm… "JJ couldn't think straight she was too turned on. "No, I don't, now I have the feeling that you love to torture the people you love."

Emily stiffened when JJ finished her sentence.

The blonde gasped when she realized what she had said.

"Em I am sorry I didn't mean…"

"It's alright. I have to get over it."

"I know but still, sometime I just don't think before I speak."

Emily rolled down and lay down beside the blonde taking the blonde's hand in her own.

"He broke me JJ." Emily felt tears streaming down her cheeks. "I will never be the same again."

"Emily looks at me."

The brunette turned around and their eyes locked.

"Now listen to me. He didn't break you, don't think like that. He made you stronger than you were before. You survived him, everything he did to you. Don't let him control you life Em."

"Thank you."

"Always."

The blonde smiled at her lover.

"I want to go home now. Please?"

"Yeah sure. I'm sorry I ruined this."

"No, don't be. You didn't ruin anything, this night was perfect in every way." Emily placed a kiss on the blonde forehead and got up.

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"Hey, what are you doing here? Is everything alright?"

"I don't know, you tell me." Morgan asked the brunette profiler cold.

"What do you mean?" Emily didn't know why he was so angry with her. She knew that they hadn't talk that much since she didn't work anymore, but that was just because they didn't see each other every day anymore. They have talked on the phone a few times and it seemed like everything was fine, but now the dark man was standing in her door way looking at her like she has done something to really piss him off.

"Can I come in?" he asked without looking at her.

"Umm sure come in."

She stepped aside to make him room to enter her condo. He went to the couch and sat down. Waiting for her to join him.

"So why are you here?" She asked and tried to look him into the eyes, but he looked away.

"You know, I always thought we are friends, hell best friends even."

"We are Derek."

"Then why do I have the feeling that you don't trust me and talk to me anymore?"

Emily looked down on her lap.

"See that is exactly what I mean, I've been worried sick when JJ called us you had to me admitted to the hospital because you've lost too much blood."

"Derek I .."

"No let my finish Em." He interrupted her. "I know that the little story JJ told us wasn't true. But I thought you would tell me sooner or later, I guess I was wrong."

He now looked at her. She could see the hurt in his eyes and it tore her apart. She felt guilty, he trusted her with so much and she didn't even have the guts to tell him the truth about her torture, even though she knew how much he cared and worried about her.

"Can I now?" She asked softly.

The dark man nodded.

"You are one of my best friends Derek and you mean a lot to me, you know that. And yes you are right I didn't tell you everything." Her voice started to shake and she could feel tears coming up.

Derek Morgan didn't expect for her to start crying and it wasn't his intention to get her started. He put a hand on her shoulder to encourage her.

She looked up and continued. "He umm.. he raped me and the doctors said I wasn't pregnant when they ran the tests. But when I got home I didn't get my period and I felt sick all of the time, I started to panic and that was the reason of my nervous breakdown. It came to my mind that I could be pregnant. I went to the doctor shortly after I was feeling better and she told me that I was pregnant. I was bleeding very badly that day I was admitted to the hospital, it was because of the pregnancy and not 'cause of the scar."

The brunette was sobbing now and Derek held her tight. His teeth clenched, this bastard raped her, and if that wasn't bad enough she was pregnant now too. He stroke her hair trying to calm her down. After a couple of minutes she stopped crying. He didn't want to let her go, he wanted to hold her, comfort her. Derek Morgan had no romantic feelings for his co worker, but he still enjoyed her company more than he ever had with his girlfriends. He trusted her with his life.

She pulled out of her friend's embrace. "I'm sorry Derek, I didn't want to break down in front of you and I am sorry I didn't tell you, I just wasn't ready."

"I am not mad at you Em; I was just worried that's all. Are you gonna keep the baby?"

The brunette cleared her throat. "I will, yes."

She could feel him tense.

"Emily if you need any help, I am always gonna be here for you."

"I know Derek, and I appreciate it, but I think I will be fine."

And here you are again Prentiss, lying again. Great. She wasn't ready to tell him about her and Jennifer. JJ. Emily looked at her watch, it was 8:30 in the evening and JJ should be home soon. How was she supposed to explain why the blonde agent comes to her condo after a work day? She couldn't.

"It's late already Morgan, I don't want to throw you out but.."

He smiled. "I understand."

They got up and she walked him to the door. "Thanks for stopping by."

"No problem Princess. I've missed you."

"I miss you too Derek. But hey, next week you will have me back."

"God, already? It was so nice and quiet without you being at work."

"Hey!" She nudged him in the arm. "Don't be mean okay?"

"I am sorry. I will see you next week then. Can't wait, teasing Reid wasn't as much fun without you."

Emily had to laugh. They hugged and she closed the door behind him.

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JJ parked her car on the side walk and got out of it. She had a major headache, she had a whole day of paperwork behind her and all she wanted was to cuddle up on the couch with Emily. Everything had been great between them. When she walked up to the elevator she froze.

"Derek hi, what are you doing here?"

"I was going to ask you the same question."

JJ blushed. "I umm I wanted to see how Emily is doing."

"Oh I just checked on her, she seems to be fine."

JJ could feel the tension in the room.

"Yeah umm well have a nice evening Derek."

Without anymore words she got in the elevator and made her way to Emily's door.

Derek shook his head. "Not that this was weird." He said to himself. Why is she really here? You just told her that Emily was fine; she could have just left with you.

"Em I am home." JJ took of her jacked and threw the keys in the little basked.

She didn't get an answer.

"Emily?"

Still no answer, JJ started to worry. She ran up the stairs and stopped immediately when she saw the brunette standing in front of the mirror her shirt slightly pulled up so that it revealed her stomach. Emily had her hand on her stomach, which showed a tiny bump already, and sighed.

"You look beautiful."

The brunette jumped and turned towards the blonde woman.

"I didn't hear you coming." She blushed a little bit.

"I am glad you didn't, that was priceless."

Walking towards her lover JJ couldn't hold back a grin. She wrapped her arms around her and kissed her cheek.

"I feel stupid."

Emily looked deep into the blue eyes she loved so much.

"You don't have to." JJ almost whispered.

"Derek was here."

"I know, I met him on my way up here."

Emily let go of JJ and looked at her in concern.

"You did?"

"Yes."

"Great."

"What?" The blonde looked at her confused.

"He is going to suspect something."

"No he won't I am just a friend checking on you. But it was kind of weird. Why did he came?"

Emily sat down on her bed. "He wanted to talk, he knew that something was wrong with me."

"And, did you tell him?"

The brunette nodded. "Yes I did. He offered help."

JJ sat down next to the older agent and took her hand. "You have me."

"I know, but I couldn't tell him that right? So I had to lie to him again."

"I am sorry Em."

"You don't have to be Jayj, I could have told him but I didn't want to, not yet."

"Alright. How about we call it a day and go to bed. I am super tired."

"I have absolutely no problem with that." Emily smiled and kissed JJ.

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They were lying in bed and JJ felt Emily shake next to her.

"Em are you okay?"

"Yes I am fine, go back to sleep Jayj." Emily sounded colder than she intended to and felt bad for her harsh tone.

"You sure?"

"Yes I am, I was just dreaming." Emily lied.

"Okay. I love you." The blonde wrapped her arms around her lover and pulled her close to her. She rested her hands on Emily's stomach taking the brunette's hand into hers gently stroking the back on her hand.

"I love you too Jennifer."