Hurray for Jogan! Yesterday's update was one of the flashback that runs through Julian's mind in this interview btw. Sorry for the angst also. I just can't help it...
Reporter One: Do you have any plans for Valentine's Day this year?
Julian Larson: Plans? Um…
No. Julian didn't have plans. It was a week until Valentine's Day and Julian Larson, the pop icon, was single. He could think of some things he would like, no, love to do…but they weren't going to happen.
Julian Larson: Not really. I might go to a party or hang out with some friends.
He accompanied is comment with a winning smile towards the cameras, keeping everything light, showing none of his true emotions; the inner turmoil saying he was alone again.
Reporter Two: So there isn't anyone special in your life?
Julian Larson: …
There was someone special. Of course there was. There had been since he was a freshman. For a moment Julian felt his professionalism crack. He had the sudden urge to blurt out his pain to the world; to have it be known what he was going through. Why should he have to hide it, while Logan paraded his love for Kurt around everywhere he went?
Julian Larson: No. I wouldn't say there was anyone special at the moment.
Reporter One: Is there likely to be in the future? It's hard to imagine a heartthrob such as yourself would have trouble finding a date.
That comment stung. No, it seemed incredibly unlikely that Logan would suddenly decide to love Julian rather than Kurt. He bit his lip. He thought back to long days spent with Logan. How he felt he could trust him with anything. He remembered back to Christmas shopping last year. Just a day spent hanging out. They hadn't fought once. He blinked.
Julian Larson: In my immediate future no there probably isn't anyone.
But I can hope right? No one can take that away from me.
Reporter Two: Would you ever consider dating a co-star? It's hard to imagine that in such an intimate setting you don't become close with them.
Yes. Let's move away from Dalton. Let's talk about something else. Anything else
Julian Larson: Haha! No. I think of my fellow actors on Something Damaged as brothers and sisters. Dating is out of the question.
Julian laughed a little internally. His first kiss was Cameron when he was almost 14, but he didn't mention that.
Reporter One: But you're saying there isn't anyone outside of that whom you would consider seeing in a romantic capacity?
Julian sighed. So we're back to this are we? His thoughts flashed to Logan again; his smile, the way he didn't let anyone rule his life, the way he sang. Julian tried to snap himself out of it.
Julian Larson: No. There really isn't anyone I'd date right now.
Shit. My voice just cracked. My voice fucking cracked. You're an actor for god's sake! Pull yourself together. Logan is in love with Kurt. You don' stand a chance. Move on.
Reporter Two: You still go to school. How do you balance that with work?
God dammit. Can't we just focus on L.A. stuff. I don't want to talk about Dalton. I don't want to think about Logan; and Valentine's Day.
Julian Larson: It's a little difficult because the shooting schedule is so sporadic. Luckily my teachers understand and help me work around that.
Reporter One: Do you find it difficult to make close friends while at school? It must be hard to figure out who likes you for you and who just wants some of your limelight.
Julian made a mental note to never have an interview with any reporters from this magazine ever again. Their questions hit way to close to home. Julian had another set of flashbacks. The first day of school, meeting Derek and Logan, realizing he could trust them, falling in love, watching Logan fall in love. He took a deep breath before answering the question.
Julian Larson: I've been lucky enough to make some really great friends at school. It isn't difficult at all to figure out who's there for you and who's not. I try to trust the people around me.
Reporter Two: So I have to ask. We hear a lot about you and Clark Sawyer hanging out in each other trailers. Is there anything going on there?
Julian raised an eyebrow. Where on earth did these people get their information? They were hitting much closer to home than anyone before him had. His heart sped up as he formed his answer.
Julian Larson: Clark is my closest friend on set. We hang out a lot, but there isn't anything going on there.
Julian thought about how this was the kind of time you were supposed to come out. To just say you're bi, but he couldn't do it. He just wasn't ready to form those words; especially when he thought of Logan. What would he think? Would he ever be able to recuperate Julian's feelings?
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