Heart Of A Dragon

Author: Nightstar Fury from Nightstar Productions.

Rated:Mfor Mature.

Pairing:[Toothless/Hiccup].

Disclaimer:I do not own Dreamworks Dragons or How To Train Your Dragon.

14; Sick.

There was absolutely no going back now. Toothless had said it, had admitted without pause that he was in love with Hiccup. But it wasn't all happiness and celebrating just yet, Toothless still didn't know how Hiccup felt and it was going to be nerve-wracking until he knew. For now it was enough that had Hiccup's word he'd stay by his side no matter what the answer. Toothless was very aware that Hiccup would never forgive him if he had lied in his answer, Astrid had lied to Hiccup and now the mention of her name set him off to the point he could create fire in his hands. This was actually something Toothless wanted to ask about but now wasn't the time.

Hiccup didn't move, he didn't blink, he couldn't think, and he certainly didn't say anything. He was very much in shock but it didn't show because this was serious, this was major. Toothless loved him, was in love with him. Hiccup knew Toothless wasn't lying, he knew his dragon, his friend sometimes better than he knew himself. How Hiccup came to the discovery was still beyond him, as was how he felt about it all. This was something he would need a lot of time to figure out, Hiccup had a feeling about it from the moment Toothless saved him from Rago.

Toothless was very protective of him. Toothless had put a claim on him before the plan to act as lovers even started, before it was even suggested. Toothless had threatened to kill Rago then and there if he even mentioned trying to take him, for touching what was his. That wasn't rehearsed, it was pure emotion. Hiccup had been wondering about it since it happened but never asked since Toothless stated he did it only to make sure Rago stayed away from him. But seeing it all the way he was, Hiccup knew that Toothless had done it because genuinely cared and refused to let anyone touch him.

All memories of the last two weeks came back to him. All of him and Toothless, just them. Starting from their first kiss, the one Toothless had said was to test his reactions to being kissed by him. That led in to the acting like soon to be mates, like lovers. Then during the change process, Toothless had been right there beside him. Helping him through it, risking himself being burned and hurt just to help him. Hiccup remembered the hug Toothless gave him when it was realized that Hiccup could control the dragon features and he'd be able to return to Berk without blowing the secret.

Hiccup then finally thought about everything since then, he was accepted by everyone in the pack. They welcomed him with open arms and he'd made a lot of friends. Not to mention Toothless's family adored him like a treasure almost, and here they were acting like lovers, lying to everything. That just made Hiccup feel worse about it all, Toothless was trying to protect him because he loved him and Hiccup had thought it was just an act. It was to him, but not to Toothless. Every hug, kiss, anything they did in front of everyone was real to Toothless. But this last kiss with Toothless just in the cave, that is where Hiccup realized it wasn't an act and Toothless actually loved him.

They were alone, no one was watching them. Everyone thought they went to bed, Toothless had been comforting him reading all the letters from home. And when Hiccup read Astrid's and got so mad, Toothless immediately thought to kiss him to calm him down. That was fine, Hiccup could deal with it knowing he was trying to make sure their cover wasn't blown. But again, they'd been alone in there. Toothless didn't stop when he was calmed down, he kept going. This is where Hiccup began to get confused, sure giving reactions to being kissed that was okay. But Hiccup wasn't acting this time, it was just them and he was fully giving in to Toothless's kisses and actions, he even pulled him closer to keep going. Then when he started to get hard he snapped back to reality.

This wasn't a dream about Toothless getting him turned on, this was...no it actually happened. It'd been happening frequently, where he was getting dreams about him and Toothless together. This was another make out session and it wasn't to act it was just because they'd wanted too do it. Did it mean he cared about Toothless? Did he...like him? Love him even? Hiccup closed his eyes, he needed to figure this out. It was bothering him deeply and Toothless could see it. "Hiccup. Do you hate me?" Toothless asked after so much silence.

He didn't. He couldn't. He wouldn't. Just like the day he shot him down 3 years ago. Hiccup hadn't wanted to kill him, he couldn't kill him, and wouldn't kill him. It was the very same now. He didn't hate Toothless, he couldn't, and wouldn't. What point was there to hate him? It wasn't his fault, all creatures and humans of Odin loved and felt emotions and sometimes you get no control in that. Hiccup did have other questions for him but right now he needed to think about things. Hiccup got to his feet as Toothless watched him, "No, Toothless. I don't hate you. Honestly I don't think I ever could." Hiccup replied finally. That was a little relief to Toothless to hear that. "But..." Toothless winced a bit, why was there always a but in it? "Its...a lot to take in right now on top of what just happened at the den...and since we're not there...I'm going to take a walk...by myself. I won't go far, not like it's a big island...I just...need to clear my head. Is that...okay?" Hiccup asked him.

"Stay within earshot...The waves make it harder and I don't want you to be in danger and not be able to hear you if you need help. Do that and yes it is okay with me." Toothless told him. As awkward as things were at the moment, he still cared and loved his human and wasn't going to let harm befall him. Hiccup nodded and then turned heading in to the forest walking down the path and disappearing behind the fog. Toothless sighed. 'Stupid dragon...stupid. You showed to much at once and now he's more confused than before. You idiot!' Toothless yelled at himself. All he could do was hope now.

(In the forest)

Hiccup didn't know how far he walked in, he could still hear the waves so he knew he was still with in ear shot. The island was actually pretty quiet, just the basic sounds of night you'd hear. Crickets, woodland creatures scurrying around. It was peaceful to Hiccup and hopefully he could sort out his feelings. One had been, he was definitely over Astrid. He didn't love her anymore but what she did still bothered him so maybe staying away longer was a good idea. Then again, it would always bother him to know she saw him as half a man, never loved him, denied his proposal, broke up with him, and then further lie when he left to say she did love him but the leg freaked her out.

Hiccup grumbled a bit as he stumbled over a branch on the path. "Stupid leg..." He sighed. But was it stupid? This is one of the things that bonded him and Toothless. Hiccup took Toothless's left tail fin by accident when he shot him down. And then Toothless took his left leg to save him from the explosion when they defeated the Red Death. This leg, this metal leg was the reason he and Toothless could fly the way they did. His leg controlled Toothless's tail so they needed one another in a way. That's when something hit him, well reminded him.

The day he and Toothless fought over the automatic tail! Toothless insisted he didn't want it. But why? He would be able to fly on his own. He wouldn't need Hiccup anymore...Hiccup's eyes widened,'Wait...wait...if he had the automatic tail then he wouldn't need me anymore and...he doesn't want to fly without me...Oh gods how did I not see it before. Its all been there! He said that to his dad, if he had his choice to fly alone or with me...he'd choose me. Because of the trust we have. I'm such an idiot! Since then...no...since Berk when Astrid left me, he's been very protective of me. More than usual...I wonder if that's where it started, him loving me. I'm going to have to add that to my list of questions.' Hiccup thought with a sigh.

That all made sense to him now. All the sign had been there and Hiccup just over looked everything because he was upset by what Astrid did. And he thought it was just part of the act to fool everyone but after tonight he knew that wasn't true. Yes they were acting but Toothless was doing it because he wanted too and Hiccup was doing it because he felt he had too. Big difference there. Hiccup knew there had to be something there, something for Toothless or he wouldn't of reacted to him the way he did. Toothless was so...gentle with him. His kisses lit his body on fire and put something in his heart that he thought Astrid had killed in him.

And getting aroused by him, that was different but hey if it happened than Hiccup had to feel something towards his dragon. This happened more than once. Usually the dreams are what woke Hiccup up, and he'd wake up hard as a rock. He'd lay there until it went down. This one was caused directly by Toothless grinding his hips against Hiccup's and it started to get hard. The nip on his ear is what made him shiver with what Hiccup assumed was pleasure. If he didn't feel something towards Toothless, none of those reactions would of happened. Still was it enough to say he loved Toothless? Sexual stimulation could get anyone going with the right mind set. Hiccup wasn't hard now, it faded as soon as he'd told Toothless to stop.

Hiccup growled a bit, this was so frustrating to not know how to feel about what happened. Hiccup plopped down in the grass with his knees up, arm resting on his knee caps. "I don't know if you're listening up there mom but if you are could you please help me out...I don't know what to do here..." Hiccup sighed out. Hiccup closed his eyes now, it took him back to the kiss they'd shared tonight. It was so full of passion, something Hiccup never felt with Astrid. Sure he'd loved Astrid with his everything, or so he thought until now. He was trying to remember something Toothless said about that. Hiccup felt a different feeling now, he looked down to find himself getting hard again. "Really?...Really!...Why now..." Hiccup said with wide eyes.

Was it because he was thinking about Toothless and their kiss? His length twitched. Yep that'd be why. But why, he's thought about Toothless before and it never happened! What was it Toothless had told him before the ceremony? Hiccup knew it was something to do with this. His length began to hurt and Hiccup knew how to deal with it but could he? Out here? What if Toothless found him or heard him? He didn't need that. Hiccup had only done it a few times before when he hit puberty just because the feeling was new and it hurt if he didn't. As he got older it stopped bothering him and that was when he was with Astrid. Its like he couldn't get hard around her.

But here he was getting hard thinking about Toothless. What the actual hell! Hiccup cringed a bit, he couldn't ignore it and couldn't go back to Toothless like this. It'd only hurt until he did something about it. Hiccup needed to remember what Toothless told him, it was right before the ceremony on the sea stack after the first kiss when Hiccup was confused about what had happened. Here he was again just as confused maybe more so, Hiccup glanced around quickly. He couldn't hear the waves so he must of been out of ear shot, exactly what Toothless told him not to do. Hiccup sighed as he reached for the tie on his brown pants and loosened them slightly, pushing them down so they'd be out of the way, he already noticed the pre-cum leaking from the tip.

*Hiccup masturbating scene. Don't like, don't read. I did warn that this is a Rated M fanfiction*

"Gods forgive me..." Hiccup said as he reached his hand down around his fully hardened length and started to stroke up and down slowly. His eyes closed as he kept a steady pace, he knew he couldn't drag it out because Toothless would start to worry and come looking for him. Hiccup's mind went back to the kiss they had shared and he began to stroke faster letting a soft moan escape his lips. "Toothless..." He breathed out leaning back to relax a little. He loved how it felt, stroking himself. He is sitting here in the dead of the night, with his pants down stroking himself to the thought of Toothless ravaging his body.

What else would make him do this if it weren't because of loving Toothless? Was this love? Or just lust? Hiccup was part dragon now and not just any dragon, part Night Fury. And they mated with males or females, was he just...new to the feeling of it. Were these just urges and because Toothless was his best friend, the one he'd been acting with about being a lover. Was that all it was? An uncontrolled urge to release. He hadn't had one in the last 3 years, since dating Astrid. The thought of Astrid made him sick, and the thought of ever loving anyone else beside Toothless made him sad. A life without Toothless is a life he didn't want to live. That was it! What Toothless said on the sea stacks right before his initiation in to the pack...Reactions. Night Furies didn't react to anyone other than their soulmate. Toothless was Hiccup's soulmate, and Hiccup was Toothless's. Hiccup smiled softly now as his breathing hitched in his throat and the moans continued. "Oh Toothless yes...yes!" Hiccup moaned as he stroked himself faster and harder, his climax was already building with the thoughts of Toothless's tongue licking his body up and down, nipping at his neck and ears.

Hiccup smiled wide as he felt himself ready to cum, to avoid a mess he moved on to his knees behind a bush. "Toothless...Tooth yes...Oh Gods yes...I want you...I want you to be the one doing this...I want you to make me cum..." Hiccup moaned out. He wouldn't be able to do this all the time, and it was certainly the first time it'd happened in 3 years. Hiccup did a few more fast strokes as he gripped the tree for support as his length twitched, Hiccup threw his head back in pleasure, "Gods I'm gonna cum...Toothless..." He panted out trying to go faster, Toothless would be looking for him soon being he'd been gone close to an hour. He felt it, it was cumming. He was cumming, "T–T–Tooth...less...I'm cumming! Oh gods I'm cumming..." Hiccup moaned as he cringed grinding his teeth together as he came hard and fast behind the bush, strings of white stickiness shooting from his length on to the ground.

*End scene*

Hiccup panted hard as he waited for it to pass, the feeling was incredible. Hiccup waited close to 10 minutes for it to pass before he stood up sighing. And now he felt worse than before, he just masturbated for 20 minutes in the middle of the forest on a strange island to the thought of his dragon. He was a sicko! What was wrong with him! This was never a problem before he became part dragon, part Night Fury. And what made it worse he was wishing Toothless had been the one to make him cum. Hiccup was so lost and unsure of what to think or do anymore. Was it love, or lust? Or was he just caught up in everything that happened?

Hiccup needed time to figure this out but he knew he couldn't stay out here in the forest. Maybe he could stay close to his parents then Toothless would ease off the protective detail? Or maybe Hiccup took some time in the cave to sit with his thoughts a while. He could say he didn't feel good, that would make it so people could leave him alone. It was worth a shot to try at least. Hiccup knew that he was Toothless's soulmate now, after what just happened it couldn't be anything other than that. Yet, he still needed to let it sit with him a while. That his soulmate, the one he was meant to be with was his dragon. Hiccup got to his feet and looking down to see his length had thankfully calmed down and was soft again. "For the love of Thor please don't do that again..." He pleaded.

Hiccup sighed, before he went back to Toothless he'd go to the bathroom first. He didn't know why, and he didn't care. It happened after any masturbation session so he'd go then walk back to Toothless, he doubted he'd be getting any sleep tonight anyway. He closed his eyes feeling his bladder empty out. Hiccup didn't take more than a few seconds before he was done urinating and gave a small shake before fixing his pants and turning to walk back in the direction he came from.

"Great..." Hiccup mumbled looking around. He walked a bit for 5 minutes before sighing, yeah he was lost. Hiccup cupped his hands over mouth, "TOOTHLESS!" He yelled out.

Sitting on the ledge still, beating himself up over what happened, he heard Hiccup call for him. His eyes widened with fear as he rushed off on all fours to follow the direction Hiccup's voice came in, after 10 minuted he'd made it seeing Hiccup sitting against a tree with his head down. He didn't look hurt, just confused like before. "Hiccup what's wrong, why'd you yell like that?..." Toothless asked coming near him.

"I sorta...got lost...I wasn't...paying attention to where I was going...Sorry..." Hiccup said quietly.

"You're lucky you were close and I could hear you...this is way out of ear shot, Hiccup...Are you okay? You didn't get hurt did you?" Toothless nuzzled his cheek.

"I didn't get hurt..." Hiccup replied calmly. Toothless felt Hiccup's skin, he was warm. Did he have a fever? Was he getting sick?

"Hiccup you're...really warm. Are you alright?" Toothless asked again.

Hiccup knew the warmth in his face was just because of the masturbation session he had 15 minutes ago but maybe he could use it to his advantage. He has figured he could get some time to think things out if he was alone because they thought he was sick. He was still human which meant he wasn't immune to basic illnesses. "Not really Toothless...I'm feeling...sick...Ca–can we go back to the den...I just...want to lie down..." Hiccup said weakly coughing a bit. Okay maybe he was actually getting sick. Just want he needed right now. Not.

"Of course we can...you should of come back sooner...How long have you been feeling ill?" Toothless asked as Hiccup climbed on his back and opened the tail, Toothless took off.

"I–I don't know...20-30 minutes maybe...Started with a headache...then I got dizzy and nauseated and had to sit down...I'm sorry...if I worried you, Toothless..." Hiccup said softly as they were flying through the night sky back to the den.

"Don't worry about it. You always worry me, Hiccup. When we get back you just lay down. In the morning I'll get our medicine worker to look at you if you still feel sick okay?" Toothless told him. Hiccup nodded and stayed quiet most of the flight back, it was weird originally he was going to fake being sick to get some time to think. Now he was actually feeling sick to his stomach.

"Toothless...hurry..." Hiccup pleaded almost.

"Why, what's wrong...Are you in pain?" Toothless asked with worry in his tone. He loved the boy, why hide the fear and worry?

"I th–think I'm gonna...throw up..." Hiccup whimpered. Toothless flew faster to reach the den, once there Hiccup climbed off his back as soon as he landed down and puked behind a large rock. He heaved heavily, gagging to get it up. Toothless was worried, when had he gotten so sick? He showed nothing before. Was he reacting to the essence? That was two weeks ago, could it still be having an effect? Toothless's father had said the change could be instant or delayed. The physical change had happened but this was a new development.

"Hiccup...I don't like this. I'm getting the medicine woman..." Toothless told him with concern.

"N–no...I'm...okay...Its probably...just a bug Toothless. I've gotten it before on...Berk..." Hiccup threw up again.

"You mean eel pox?" Toothless asked.

"Something like...that...Ugh...that sucked..." Hiccup said spitting to try and get the taste out of his mouth. "Yeah...definitely need to lie down...My head is pounding..." Hiccup mumbled as he came out from behind the rock wiping his mouth. Toothless could see his face, he was paler and looked miserable.

"Come on, I'll take you the cave...You need your rest..." Toothless sighed softly. He was hoping they'd get to talk tonight about everything but with Hiccup sick it would have to wait. His health mattered more to Toothless than anything else. Hiccup sat on Toothless's back as he was walked inside, few minutes later they reached the room and Hiccup laid down on his bedroll covering up. "Are you cold?" Toothless asked.

"Ma–maybe a lil–little..." Hiccup shivered and coughed hard again.

"Odd...even as part dragon you should be able to stay warm...Look I know its kind'a...awkward right now with us..." Toothless was pulled down next him as Hiccup cuddled against him.

"Ju–just...sh–shut up...and hold me damnit..." Hiccup said through his chattering teeth. Toothless chuckled a bit as he adjusted his wings so that he could wrap Hiccup in them gently. Toothless closed his eyes as he heated his body up for Hiccup, soon his shivering stopped and he relaxed in his dragons embrace.

"Better?" Toothless asked, he didn't get an answer. He looked down and saw Hiccup was already asleep comfortably. Toothless smiled softly, it felt good to know that even in the awkward state things were Hiccup would still want him around. It must of been their bond, Hiccup was miserable when Toothless wasn't around. Toothless closed his eyes and laid his head down, hopefully he'd feel better tomorrow so they could talk about things. Toothless wondered if Hiccup figured anything out about how he felt but he'd have to wait for an answer.

Toothless's mind was mainly focused on Hiccup's sudden sickness, where had it come from. He was fine, he had been fine the last two and a half weeks. He was even fine through dinner and since being in the forest he's sick? It felt off, very off. Toothless knew Hiccup was part human and could still get sick but being part dragon should fight off some of the more basic illnesses, so what was causing this. All he could figure was that it was due to the change but that didn't seem right either. And he knew Hiccup wasn't expecting because they hadn't done anything other than kiss. It was bothering him, he wanted to know. He promised Stoick he'd keep Hiccup safe and so far he'd done anything but. Hiccup was almost raped his second day there, he had to act like Toothless's lover in order to be kept from being raped, and now he was sick. Stoick would have his head.

Toothless had taken notice of the moon when they were flying, it was nearing midnight maybe a little after. Toothless tried to sleep but couldn't, he worried about Hiccup who kept tossing and turning in his sleep. Hiccup was in a sweat but still had a fever and more than once through the course or the night, Hiccup was throwing up harshly in the bucket in the room. Around 4am, Hiccup seemed to sleep peacefully but was extremely tired and almost seemed sicker. Toothless would get the healer in as soon as his mother or father was awake, he didn't want to leave Hiccup alone. Nothing about this felt right, and he wanted to know what caused this. For now all he could do was wait until the sun rose.