Arizona and Callie spent the rest of that night getting some rest after a very commotion-filled day. There would still be more to talk about, but they were both exhausted. The next day while Callie was making them breakfast Arizona decided to broach the topic.
"So, Calliope, now that you're not my professor, what does that mean for us?" Callie poured some pancake batter into the pan and looked behind her to look at Arizona who was sitting at the counter.
"What do you mean?"
"Can we be girlfriends out in the world, around school or at events? If it were to come up in conversation could I tell people that you're my girlfriend? Can we be together on campus without being careful not to touch or talk to each other in the wrong way?" It wasn't that Arizona absolutely hated keeping her girlfriend a secret. She honestly didn't know that many people in the city outside of Callie, Teddy, Callie's friends, and some acquaintances in her classes, but she didn't like having to monitor herself. She didn't like not knowing what she should say in certain situations or having to watch herself when she was around other students to make sure nothing slipped out. She was damn proud to be with Callie and she didn't care what anyone else thought as long as she was being true to herself.
"Arizona…people are going to be talking about me being replaced in your class enough as it is. If we're seen together right after I get taken out as your instructor it won't exactly be hard for people to put two and two together."
"Why does it matter what anyone else thinks?"
"I'm not just trying to uphold my own reputation here. What do you think other students will say or think? They'll question your grades and you could be harassed. You shouldn't have to have anyone question the merits you've earned with hard work and perseverance."
"Don't play the martyr here." At Arizona's response Callie turned completely to be face to face Arizona, abandoning the pancakes on the stove. "This isn't about my classmates potentially finding out and making comments. This is about you trying to keep your reputation in tact at the expense of publicly expressing who you really are."
"The workplace is not somewhere for people to express who they really are! I'm there to do my job and you can tell people or not, but it's not like I can go around telling my co-workers what happened. For someone young you dating your professor could be hot, but from people my age it looks weird Arizona. I-I don't know what to do." The whole time Callie was talking Arizona was losing her patience. It felt like they were having the same argument for the millionth time. She wanted to shut Callie up and calm her down, but she also wanted to talk to her and explain her rationalities for everything. By the time Callie finished her rant she seemed more defeated and tired than anything else so Arizona went over and wrapped her arms around her. Callie tried to shrug her off at first, but Arizona just held on tighter and rubbed her back.
"You get to express who you are no matter what you're doing. Acknowledging that you have a girlfriend or talking about me is not inappropriate and I hate that this heteronormative society makes you think that. What we have together is not weird so don't you ever say that. Would it be inappropriate for a female professor to mention her boyfriend or husband? No. Would it be a scandal if a man was dating someone eight or nine years younger than him? No. You are so strong and smart, but it will eat you up inside if you're not true to yourself in everything that you do. You shouldn't feel the need to hide any part of you because, baby, you need to live your life as you are and you will feel and be so much better for it." Callie suddenly broke down, crying in Arizona's arms.
"I want to be brave for you Arizona, it's just so hard." Arizona turned her head slightly so her forehead rested against Callie's. She brought her hands up to wipe the tears from her girlfriend's face and cupped her cheeks.
"It will be hard at first, but you've got to push through these insecurities. Once you do you will feel so much better. When I was first starting to realize that I'm gay I didn't tell anyone for the longest time. I didn't know what to make of anything. I didn't feel like I fit and I didn't think anyone could understand what I was going through and I felt so depressed and I didn't know why. When my sexuality caught up to me I was a wreck, but then, then, when I finally admitted it to myself and later on others, I felt so brave and relieved. So, so relieved Calliope. There was this huge weight lifted off of me and people could either take me or leave me, but I wasn't going to hide myself or pretend a piece of me wasn't there."
"I'm not ashamed of being gay Arizona; I mean I'm the one who approached you. And I introduced you to my friends as my girlfriend; we go out on dates and in public as a couple." Callie had this indignant look on her face and Arizona was not trying to make her defensive, but this issue kept coming up and scaring Callie so she wanted to help her girlfriend get to the bottom of it.
"Isn't it possible that a tiny little part of you isn't comfortable with being gay in the workplace? It would make sense, Sweetie. We're not privileged Calliope. We live in this world where being gay women has more disadvantages than I can count and maybe you don't want to make things harder on yourself. And that is understandable, and fine Calliope, it is. If I'm pushing you or asking too much of you, just tell me."
"How are you so wise while I'm a blubbering mess? I don't want to think these things; I just can't always fight against them."
"You've told me about your family. You come from a religious upbringing so shame is something that you might have to fight against. Even if they didn't outright say that not being heterosexual is bad, those messages get through and are there. I just want you to be happy Calliope." Arizona leaned in and kissed Callie's forehead and stroked her cheek.
"I know, baby. I'll work on it and I'll try to be more open about it, in a professional way of course."
"And I'll be patient. It's not that I want you to talk about me non-stop to everyone you work with, but maybe an appropriate picture of us on your desk? Or if you're talking with co-workers about weekend plans or whatever and we're going to be together you could say that you'll be with your girlfriend?"
"I can do that." Callie leaned in and kissed her girlfriend. Callie hadn't even realized that she had struggled with this which made her even more grateful to have Arizona.
"You know…I'm going to miss having you as a professor, Calliope." Arizona ran her fingers through Callie's hair and then rested them on the top of her chest. "Seeing you domineer a classroom in your very sexy professional wear never failed to turn me on." All other thoughts were erased from both their heads as Arizona's hands started to massage Callie's breasts a little roughly.
"Domineer is an interesting choice of words there baby." Callie let out a hiss as Arizona squeezed her nipples through her clothes. "Mmm, fuck." Callie's arms wrapped around her girlfriend and went to her ass. She dipped her hands below the blonde's clothes and squeezed as she pulled Arizona closer to her. She kissed Arizona's neck up to Arizona's ear and the blonde's ear felt moist from Callie's hot breaths against her. "Do you like it when I'm domineering?" She bit down on Arizona's earlobe and then soothed the sensation by running her tongue over it.
"Mhm, you're so hot." In an instant one of Callie's hands was out of her pants and smacked the area it had just been massaging.
"That's Dr. Torres to you." Arizona squealed when Callie's open palm connected with her clothed butt cheek. There had been some hair pulling in the past, but this was something new and Arizona liked it.
"Oh I like this." Callie's palm slapped against Arizona's butt again. "I like this, Dr. Torres." She felt the burn of a slap through her jeans another time.
"Don't speak unless I tell you to." Callie brushed her lips against Arizona's in such a gentle way that the contrast between her past few actions was almost startling. Arizona pressed her lips onto Callie's like she normally would, but realized her mistake when she was spanked again. "Don't do anything unless I tell you to." Callie groped both of Arizona's breasts roughly as she bit the blonde's lower lip. It took everything Arizona had to not react. Callie broke apart from her and stepped behind her. "Walk in front of me to the bedroom. Make sure there's some sway in your hips so I can appreciate your delicious ass." Arizona did as she was told and stopped when she go to the foot of their bed. Callie told her to stop there and not to turn around as she plugged her phone into her speaker system and put on some sultry music. Then Callie sat on the mattress in front of Arizona. Her tone was strict and demanding as she told Arizona "Strip for me." Callie was dead serious and Callie's demeanor reminded Arizona of when she was giving assignments to the class in such a no-nonsense manner. Arizona was hesitant at first. Not so much at stripping for Callie as much as the dancing alone with Callie watching her every move part. Callie could sense this so she put her hands on Arizona's hips and rode them up and under her shirt. She manipulated her girlfriend's body so her hips would start moving. Callie's eyes were burning into Arizona's and though it might've made Arizona more self-conscious, it actually made the blonde more confident. As Arizona started to get more into it Callie dropped her hands from her hips. Arizona's body was moving like Callie had never seen, so rhythmically and smoothly. Arizona brought her hands down to grip the bottom of her shirt with her arms crossed.
"Take it off, now." Arizona ripped her shirt off and tossed it aside. She was wearing a lacy bra that highlighted her full, fleshy breasts that were in harsh contrast with the black fabric. She continued her dance as she removed her jeans. Once she was down to her bra and underwear she straddled Callie's hips, but made sure not to make contact in case she needed to be told to do so. Lust overcame Callie as Arizona rolled her body as close to hers as she could get without touching. She grabbed the back of Arizona's neck and pulled her down onto her as she clashed their lips together. Callie thrust her tongue into Arizona's mouth as they kissed sloppily until Callie remembered what they were doing and she turned her head away to break their kiss. She flipped them over so Arizona was on her back and she stood up.
"Get on your knees." Arizona obeyed with a smirk on her lips. Callie ran her eyes over Arizona's body from behind and thought for a second how lucky she was to have this gorgeous girlfriend that she loved more than life itself. Callie kneeled on the bed behind Arizona and ran her hand up and down Arizona's bare back and thigh. "Are you a good girl, Arizona?"
"Yes, Dr. Torres." Callie's hand cracked on Arizona's cheek and the sound bounced off the walls in their silence.
"I don't think you're a good girl Arizona. I think you're a bad, bad girl." Callie went back to caressing Arizona's body starting at the now pink skin on her butt cheek and working up to underneath Arizona's bra. In another couple moments Arizona's bra was unhooked and the straps were being pushed down her shoulders before it was tossed on the floor. One of Callie's legs was in-between Arizona's with the other on the outside of one of Arizona's. The feel of Callie's smooth legs against hers and the feeling of Callie's soft stomach rubbing against her back made Arizona realize that her girlfriend had stripped down to her underwear and she couldn't help but shiver at the feeling. Callie leaned forward and placed a light kiss on Arizona's shoulder and Arizona realized that Callie had taken off her bra. Arizona wasn't even sure that it was a kiss, but she didn't have time to think about it because her hair was pulled back by one of Callie's fists at the same time that Callie reached her hand under Arizona's body and gripped on of her breasts. Those sensations plus the feel of Callie's harden nipples rubbing against her back almost made Arizona combust.
"Fuck!" Arizona knew as soon as the word passed her lips that she would be punished for it, but she couldn't contain herself. Her body needed to react in some way. The hand that had just started massaging her breast trailed down her stomach and straight into her underwear. Callie ran her fingers through Arizona's folds one time, flicking her fingers against Arizona's clit. Callie pulled Arizona's hair tighter and further back into her so she could have access to her neck where she gently kissed right before she smacked her hand against Arizona's ass again. Arizona hissed at the feeling, but bit her lip to stop herself from making noise. Callie kissed right below Arizona's ear and then let her grip on Arizona's hair go. She kissed, sucked, and bit her way down Arizona's spine leaving hickies in her trail and massaged and grabbed Arizona's breasts the whole time. When her lips met fabric she leaned back and pulled Arizona's underwear down her legs and off her body with the blonde's help before stripping the rest of her own clothes.
"I think you're a bad girl who loved to make her professor soaking wet every class. Did you wear those outfits just for me?"
"Yes, Dr. Torres."
"And you'd hike up your skirts and wear low-cut shirts just for me didn't you?"
"Yes, Dr. Torres."
"What else did you do for me?" Callie grabbed Arizona's ass and massaged it gently. Then she ran her lips against Arizona's butt cheek and bit down.
"I'd wear push-up bras." Callie slapped where she just bit and started to kiss her way back up Arizona's back. "I would ask for help when I didn't really need it." Callie slapped Arizona's butt again a little harder. "I would come in a little late sometimes so you'd watch me walk in. I did it on days I wore heels and I wouldn't look at you because I knew you'd be watching." Callie smacked her ass a little harder again. Callie's kisses reached the back of Arizona's neck and she sucked her girlfriend's earlobe into her mouth. The sensations of Callie's sweet and harsh actions felt amazing to Arizona. She was in a vulnerable position, but knowing that Callie would stop immediately if she said to gave her the safety to let herself go and just trust. Both their breath was labored and they could feel their own wetness gathering.
"I want to slide my fingers into your hot, wet, pussy now. Is that okay?" Those were the words Arizona had been waiting to hear.
"Yes, Dr. Torres." Callie brought her index and middle fingers up to Arizona's mouth and Arizona took them in to wet them. Callie brought them down and pushed them into Arizona from behind. She set a rhythm as she pumped her fingers in and out of Arizona, after every couple pumps bringing her fingers up to circle Arizona's clit. She kissed Arizona's lower back and could feel Arizona's body shaking beneath her. She brought her other hand up in the air and brought it down, hard, against Arizona's butt cheek as she curled her fingers inside her girlfriend. She never felt Arizona as wet as she was just then. She could hear Arizona trying to suppress her moans so she told her that she could speak freely again.
"Thank you, Dr. Torres." Callie spanked her one last time.
"You can call me 'Calliope' again, baby." Arizona let out a howl of pleasure when Callie's fingers circled her clit again and pinched her nipple with her other hand. Callie's lips were on her jaw so Arizona turned her head as much as her body would allow and their lips meet in a frantic show of pleasure. Callie circled Arizona's opening and then slowly pushed her fingers back into her girlfriend.
"Fuck, Calliope!" Arizona was getting closer and closer to cumming, but she was trying to hold on to this feeling as long as possible. "Spank me again baby." Callie smiled into their next kiss and gave her breast one last squeeze before bringing her hand up and quickly bringing it down onto Arizona's butt. Arizona's body felt such ecstasy that she came while screaming "Fuck!" Callie could feel Arizona's vagina squeezing her fingers and it turned her on so much she was close to cumming herself. Arizona collapsed onto the mattress with Callie still in her. Callie started rubbing herself against Arizona's thigh that she was straddling.
"Is this okay?" Arizona's body was spent, but when she felt Callie's hot center rubbing against her she thought she could quickly come again.
"God, yes." Callie was working herself up with and wiggled her fingers inside Arizona every few seconds because she loved to feel herself inside of her girlfriend. Arizona couldn't stand not seeing Callie's face so she swiftly flipped herself over – the leg Callie wasn't sitting on going over her and to her other side and Callie's fingers remaining in place. Before she got the chance to lower her leg onto the bed Callie bend it over her shoulder and leaned her body into Arizona's - stretching the blonde's leg with her – and started kissing her again. One of Arizona's hands grabbed Callie's breast, her fingers toying with her nipple, as her other hand went down between her own leg and Callie's body. The brunette was so wet that Arizona slipped her fingers right into her and watched Callie's face as she gasped. Their kisses became more frantic as their fingers worked each other to orgasm, one coming soon after the other. The feelings were more intense than either could remember ever having experienced. Callie collapsed next to Arizona, removing both their fingers from each other on her way and they focused on getting their breathing under control. After a couple minutes they opened their eyes and looked at each other in wonder and adoration.
"That was really fucking hot Calliope. I mean, wow! I've never done anything like that before, have you? And you're just so sexy baby." Callie giggled at Arizona's energy. She was back to looking adorable and it amazed Callie.
"I've never done something quite like that before, and I agree it was 'really fucking hot.'" Arizona cuddled up into her body and kissed her lips.
"I love doing new things with you Calliope. When I feel how much you want me and how powerful you are it's super sexy." Arizona kissed her again and Callie brushed her hair behind her ear.
"Well you know I'd do anything for you right? I would give anything in my life to make you happy so once in a while I've got to show you that I'm not just a big ole softy." Arizona snuggled further into her chest and inhaled the scent of her girlfriend mixed with sex.
"I love you. You don't have to be rough to show me how tough and gay you are. I know. I know you. I loved tonight just like I love it when you rub your finger against my hand before you hold it as if you're asking permission first. You're the love of my life Calliope. You balance yourself out. We balance each other."
"We do don't we?"
"Mhmm." Arizona looked up and traced Callie's jawline with her finger.
"You're the love of my life too, Arizona. I've never loved someone as much as I love you. I want to be with you for the rest of my life."
"Me too…Me too." Arizona turned her back to Callie and wiggled her butt into her and pulled Callie's arm around her. "You know, after finals are over I'm supposed to move out of my dorm for the break and go home. That would be an awful long time without you."
"I've been thinking a lot about that. What do you think about staying here with me until a couple days before Christmas Eve? I know your parents want you back as soon as possible, but we can see the tree at Rockefeller Center and go ice skating. On our first date you talked about wanting to go and we never made it happen."
"I think that sounds awesome. You can help me tell my mom though. I swear she already loves you more than me." Callie nuzzled her nose into Arizona's hair and gave her a light squeeze.
"Deal. Speaking of family, how would you feel about meeting mine? They'll be up here for the holidays and if you stay here and want to we could go to one of their holiday parties together. You might not want to because of what I've told you about them not being very accepting, but I'd still like you to meet them."
"If you want me to I would love to meet your family. I want to know about every part of your life." After a little while in silence Arizona spoke up. "So when I go home for Christmas what are you going to be doing? I mean we have almost a month off of school after that. I'm sure you'll probably want to spend the holidays with your family and be in the city for the ball drop on New Year's Eve, but what about after that? I'm sure my parents would love to have you visit and stay with us."
"Oh I know they would. Your mom said so when we were talking the other day."
"See, I told you she loves you more. So, if your parents like me then maybe next year we can do a joint family kinda deal for the holidays. I'm going to miss you."
"About this year, I was thinking if you agreed, maybe I could come home with you for Christmas and New Year's. If you're not ready for that this year I completely understand, but I love you and your family is amazing now that your father and I have gotten passed our rocky beginning. It's just, I'm still not that close to my family and I can't imagine not being with you." Arizona held Callie tightly and kissed her forehead.
"Of course, baby. I'd love nothing more. We can tell my parents the plan tomorrow. They're going to be so excited. I'm excited! We can go to the beach and you can see my house! Oh and since we have so much time off maybe we should see if there are any cheap flights online and go away for a little. Wouldn't that be great?" Callie smiled so brightly. Her girlfriend was taking her in to every aspect of her life without a second thought because it would make her happy.
"That sounds amazing. Can we look up places tomorrow though? I'm worn out from earlier."
"Of course! I can't wait to plan everything." Arizona kissed Callie again before turning back around so Callie could cuddle her from behind. "Sweet dreams."
"Goodnight my love."