Kaoru POV

That night after two weeks from our parents travel I was leaving the bathroom with Hikaru after having sex in the shower , I threw myself on the bed as thoughts rushed on my mind … Hikaru always told me I become over thinking sometimes but this… I don't know how to tell you about it … I faced the wall instead of Hikaru .. he asked for sex almost every two days .. I think our relation is all about sex now…he only shows me love by having sex and I don't want this to happen … I want to cuddle with him and kiss him … I want him to love me… I want him to back to the old him… it's odd… why did he change to this?... I am scared I had give him everything …that…that he might lose all the love for me .. just like how he felt with Haruhi… I don't want that … I want him to love me … to be mine just as a husband … I don't want him to get bored of me …

I dunno what to do … I don't want to face him with this because he might … he might leave me just as he left haruhi… and he might search for someone else … I know him more than I know myself … he gets bored easily … and this is also my fault … I shouldn't have give him so much …at least not at this point … Hikaru..he feels confused .. he doesn't feel the same as when he first left haruhi and back to me … I think… I should leave him for sometime … that we might miss each other and he would love me again ..

"Hika…" I said while still facing the wall , I noticed him setting on the bed beside me , I turned and have eyes contact with him .. he removed the towel from his hair " kaoru… I think I want a break …" I opened my eyes wildly to what he just said … okay.. I supposed to be the one asking for that not him … because now… I will be the one who will be waiting for him back … he won't get the point that ..I want him to love me again … as before " I meant a break NOT a break up ! kao ? " I turned myself to face the wall again .." do whatever you want hika.." I felt like something is stabbing me in the heart … again… the same pain as before… again … , I noticed him opening the door " I'll sleep on the other room then ..good night my kao" he said to me and left me alone in the huge bed , I brought the sheets and covered myself even my head … this is my fault …everything is my fault from the beginning with … "okay then… you want a break… I want a break too … but I want to be the one who decides when to start it and when to end it … you have been controlling this relationship since the beginning with … you have controlled me … like if I was a toy to you … " I stood up , tears falling from my eyes .. I walked in anger to the room where Hikaru is sleeping , I opened the door wildly , saw hikaru staring at me in shock " I AM NO FUCKING TOY TO YOU " I threw the ring he gave me to the room's floor and ran to my room again , I closed the door behind me and locked it … why does he do that … like if I am such an object to him … why did he change like this … I have had so much of him … I don't want to take the next step even "Kaoru open the door , we need to talk " I heard him speaking but I didn't answer … he has opened all the wounds again … I gave him love … I gave him myself … and he didn't appreciate it again …

I brought the sheets and rolled them around myself as I slept , I wanted to forget and to stop thinking …

Hikaru POV

Have I rushed with our relationship … why I feel so cold to him now .. he threw the ring I gave him back to me … I am sure I love him … I am sure of that… but I feel cold … I feel that I need my own space again … if he just could get it … just for one week… and I will back to him with more love than before … he instead took it to the heart … I don't know how he thinks anymore … this new him … I know kaoru as my brother .. but I don't know how does he act as a lover … he gets mad easily , he is over thinking , and he is… too sensitive … that I break his heart without noticing .. and he never tells me … he keeps everything for himself … how would I know ! I don't read minds … I can read him only when he gives me hints … but this .. keeping all his pain for himself and then explode all of a sudden ! .. he must have lost his logic !

I asked for the extra key for the room then I lied beside him while he was sleeping and passed my hand through his now so long hair . he looks peaceful as he sleeps … even thought his breath is still hard … I sighed … I kissed his forehead ..noticed a tear falling down his eye … he is sad … I promised to make him feel happy…now he is sad , and I am the reason … I pulled the sheets around him and carried him between my arms I left the room and walked while carrying him to the garden … it was kinda cold so I brought him closer to me as sat under a tree waiting for sun to rise … the sweet breeze and the flowers smell made me feel guilty … one wise man said in his book that you have to sacrifice for your love … or you would lose it … I think kaoru was giving me a lot … more than I'd ever ask for … oh my kaoru …

I looked down to him … this angelic face of him … even thought people think we looked alike , but that's bullshit . kaoru is way too pretty than me … he is perfect , I stared at him for a while … his eyelash , his cute little nose .. and his so kissable full lips ..I raised his chin , I moved my lips to his lips ..they were warm … I slipped my tongue inside his mouth and kissed him ..he is delicious … and I know how lucky I am for having him all to myself …kaoru's mine … and I shouldn't let him go …

" I am sorry.." I whispered to his ear .." I love you so much kaoru.." I kissed his forehead and noticed him opening his eyes slowly "..umm.." before he could say anything I kissed his lips again as a tear fell down my face to his cheek " I am sorry … you are my love kaoru…" I saw him blushing … " I forgive you.." he whispered to me … it's great how we forgive each other easily "kaoru…never close the room on yourself like that …you scared me .." he puts his arms around my west " sorry…won't do it again" I smiled to him "ah..why are we in the garden hika?" I laughed ..he just noticed " I felt like watching the sunrise with you between my arms , love " kaoru blushed "ah..idiot..you sound like tono " I laughed to that as it was getting colder , I noticed him hugging me closely ..I hugged him back with the sheets "warm…" he whispered "hmm?" "your body is warm…" I smiled as touching his nose with my nose , I took his hand to mine and kissed it "hika.." he blushed , I brought the ring , and put it in his finger again " never take it off again kao.." with that he sat straightly on my lap and kissed my lips quickly then hid his head on my shoulder "hika… " he took my hand "I want you to love me ..I know you do… it's just…I don't want it all to be about…you know .. sex" I paused for a moment "nether do I , I thought you if I don't give you sex without you asking me that you'll get mad so…I was asking you for it every two days…" I saw kaoru blinking "see kaoru , you have to be clearer with me… it's not like before , it's a little bit more complicated , if you don't tell me what's annoy you and what do you exactly want then I might be mistaken .. and it would lead us to this and also way more problems " I saw him smiling "Deal love " he said to me

"still want to marry me kao?"

"yes"

"even if nobody accepted us?"

"yes"

"idiot "

"hahaha why?"

"because… you always give me your all , while I think I don't give you everything.."

"Hikaru , you are the one who is not sure about the marriage "

"ah…it's not like that "

"what else?"

"..I am scared ..that people would eat us alive .. it's incent kaoru… "

"then .. lets keep it a secret ..just between both of us "as he said that I could feel my eyes shining

"kaoru …!"

"let's merry today , only us , we don't really care about others right? "

"yes… I love you kaoru"

"I love you too hika , and no break for you"

"HAHAHAHA! "

We laughed together as the sun raised up in the sky .. only the two of us , only the love we share .. no matter how hard time we'd face we'll go through it together as husbands .

AAAAAAAAAND THE END!

THANK YOU GUYS FOR KEEPING UP WITH THE STORY , I REALLY APPRECIATE IT A LOOOOT AND I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT AS I DID

so guys I am planing to write a story about them after getting married , I'll upload it when i finish my final exams , please wish me luck !

AND

as soon as I upload the manga , I'll post that on my account here

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