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Chapter 14
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The light was shining through the curtains into Savannah's room. The streaks of light were hitting, not one, but the two bodies on the bed. Savannah laid curled up in Juice's arms, both of their bodies now bare of clothing. Juice was the only one of the two awake as he held her in his arms. He was watching as she slept soundly, as if last night hadn't happened and she hadn't found out that he had cheated on her. He knew that she wouldn't have forgiven him so quickly, but he couldn't lose her. He had to come up with something to tell her that would convince her not to leave him. He needed her in his life. She kept him grounded and . . . and well, she kept him human.
She kept him from getting all wrapped up in the club and letting it control his entire life. He was hoping by showing her that she couldn't resist him the night before, he had proved to her that she needed to be with him as much as he needed to be with her. "What? Where am I? Juice?" he looked down at her slowly, her eyes widening when she remember what had happened between them. "Oh, god. We didn't. Oh, no, please tell me I'm dreaming. I can't believe we did that." she said out as she started to get herself into a panic as she jolted up from her spot beside him on the bed.
"What do you mean?" he asked her, not understanding what could be wrong with her.
Last night had to have settled things between them, hadn't it? She still cared about him, he could hear it in her voice while they were making love. He could hear it when she said his name repeatedly. He felt his world starting to shatter around him as she pulled the sheet around her while she started to search for her clothes. "Sleeping with you, Juice! I slept with you, even after you cheated on me with some sweet butt." she snapped at him as she started to pull on her underwear in a frantic pace. Even though he was her room, she knew that it would just be easier if she was the one to leave than kicking him out.
Juice didn't know what to tell her. He didn't want her to believe that he could cheat on her, he knew that was where she drew the line. He knew that, so why did he still do it? He didn't even know, he wasn't thinking. He regretted it the second he did it, but if he let her believe that he did it, he'd regret it even more later on. She'd never forgive him for cheating on her, he knew that as well as he knew his own name. "Savannah, come on. You can't still believe that, not after last night." he tried to tell her as he watched on as she strained to get her shirt on over her head. He would have laughed if not for the seriousness of the situation.
She didn't seem to believe him, which hurt the worst. He could see that she wanted to, but the facts were against him. The only thing he had going for him was the fact that she wanted to believe him so badly. She cared about him, and she wanted to trust him still. The only thing screwing him over was the fact that the facts were against him. "I heard what Half Sack said, Juice! You took some sweet butt into the back. All you had to do was wait to get back home to me! A few hours top!" she cried out to him as she continued to search around for the rest of her clothes. She couldn't seem to find her pants anywhere.
It wouldn't be long until she was all set to leave, though. He could see that much was clear as she finally found her pants and started to fix them so she could slip her legs inside. He had to do something to stop her, to get her to listen to him. He couldn't let her just leave. "He didn't see anything, Savannah! Come on!" he tried to tell her as he hurried to slip back on his boxers so he could follow after her and stop her from walking out on him. He managed to get himself tangled up in the sheet, which made him growl out in frustration as he fought against the sheets left on the bed.
She rolled her eyes at him, obviously not believing him. She knew that Half Sack wouldn't have said what he did if it wasn't true. He wouldn't lie to her about that, especially not after what she had just told him was going on. "Really? I'm sure he's glad for that! I wouldn't want to have seen you with that whore either." she snapped at him as she finally got to slip her legs through the pant legs of her jeans. There was a little struggle, but mostly because she was frustrated and couldn't focus right. All she could focus on was the imagine of Juice with some other girl. She couldn't get the idea out of her head, and she knew that was what was keeping her from letting him explain.
He rounded the bed as quick as he could once he had gotten loose from the evil bed sheets that had had him entangled in them. He hurried to her and pulled her back from the door as soon as he could. She swatted off his hands, not wanting him to touch her again. He sighed, knowing that this wasn't going to be easy. "Savannah, will you just listen to me? Just let me explain what happened. Just trust me." he tried to tell her, but if he had done anything by asking her to trust him? It was make things even more worse than before.
She completely snapped on him as she turned to him, her eyes burning with fire now as she glared at him. Her glare seemed to bury him ten feet under as she looked at him. He had to be joking, he just had to be. Was he seriously asking her to trust him? After what he did to her? "Trust you?! Yeah right! I trusted you, Juice, and you go sleep with some random girl because Tig was messing with you. Do you really think that I'm going to trust you now?" she snapped at him, her anger toward him now loud and clear as she shoved him back a little.
After shoving him back, she spun on her heels and turned to go to the door again. She was so out of here now. She couldn't be alone with him in this room any longer. She was afraid more for her being able to resist him and hearing him out if she stayed any longer. "That wasn't how it happened, Savannah! Just hear me out, babe, please!" he shouted out after her, pleading for her to just understand. All she had to do was listen to him, that was all that he wanted from her. All she had to do was sit there and let him tell her what happened from his point of view. She needed to understand how it was for him.
She made it to the doorway, pausing as she got the knob halfway twisted, when she finally stopped herself from going any further. Even as she was hesitating, it was like a part of her had kept moving as she got the door halfway open. She finally caved when she looked back and saw his expression. "Fine, you have five minute only, Juice." she told him as she shut the door again and turned to face him. She let her back hit the door, pushing as much space between them as she possibly could. Juice seemed to be over the moon with relief when she said that to him. He opened his mouth to start explaining, when a knock cut him off. He grew even more frustrated when they heard Happy's voice calling out for her.
Unlike him, she saw it as a sign instead of an interruption. She saw it as fate trying to tell her not to listen to whatever Juice wanted to tell her. She didn't waste a second in throwing the door open. She moved to the bed and grabbed a hold of the rest of his clothes. She crossed the room again and shoved them in his arms before she pushed him out of the room. "Will you please just take him somewhere else? Please, Happy?" she asked the older man in front of him, pleading with him to do this one thing for her.
Happy looked between them and didn't look surprised. He had seen and heard the fight between her and Juice the day before. With seeing their appearances, he'd say that they both had a pretty rough night. Though, from the looks of it? He'd say that their morning was the only worse part of their night. "No problem, princess. At all." he told her as he glanced over at Juice to see that he was struggling to get the rest of his clothes on before Happy threw him out to the wolves and let Jax have a go at him.
He needed to get her to just hear him out, to believe him. Even if he was technically lying, he knew that it was for the right reason. He needed Savannah, and she was slipping though his fingers. He couldn't let that happen, he couldn't let her walk right out of his life like she was seeming to be doing now. He had to do something, but he had no idea what that something was. "Savvy, please, just let me explain. I-it's not what you think it is." he tried again, but this time he couldn't even get her to look at him.
She wouldn't even turn her head to glance at him. She knew that she couldn't even do that with him. She was so close to cracking, and she knew that if he saw her eyes, he'd know exactly that. She couldn't let him in again. Not so soon at least. She just wished that he would leave, especially since she was near tears by now. "Happy, please, just-just get him out of here. Please." she begged the older man, knowing that he would do anything for her, especially if it was kicking a guy out that she didn't want to be around.
Happy had no problem with helping her out with this. He personally didn't like any guy who was even hinted at cheating on Savannah. At that point, he's written them off onto the 'doesn't deserve her' list. The list was getting longer every day too. Something he was sure Savannah had no idea about either. Which, he'd like to keep it that way. "No problem at all, Savvy. I'll come back to check on you later." he told her as he gave her a tip of his head, a mock salute to go with it as well. She mouthed 'thank you' to him and closed the door behind her as she slipped back inside of her room.
Juice looked at the closed door with a pained expression, wishing that there was something else that he could do. He just wanted to make things right again. Though, that would have to wait, seeing as Happy still hadn't let him go yet. "Y-you're going to let me leave, right, Happy?" he asked him, mentally praying that he let him go free with only a warning, that he knew right now that he would break. Happy just gave him a look, his words he was trying to get across loud and clear to him. "Right, didn't think so." he muttered out before he was dragged off by Happy. Well this was it, or was it?
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Later that day, Savannah had left the clubhouse to go help her mom and the other ladies set up their booth for the town's little event. She was happy to help, not because it got her away from the club for the day, but because it got her away from Juice too. She knew the more she was away from him, and the less chance of them being left alone together, then the better off she was. "Tell everyone to leave room for the buses." Gemma said back to her daughter as she got the plastic bowls ready while Savannah stirred the chili.
"Who we busing?" she asked back to her mom.
Gemma set down the bowls on the booth table and started laying them out for people to take when they got here. "Oakdale assisted living." she explained to her as she finished up and returned to the other table beside Savannah. The two shared a look, knowing the same thing when it came to the seniors. "Seniors are all compulsive gamblers, baby girl. Triples our raffle dollars. God bless social security." she reminded her as she continued to move around to finish up with the setting up of their booth. She shared a little smile with Luann Delaney, another one of the old ladies that she was close friends with.
"Gemma." another voice said out to her.
Savannah turned her head around as Gemma looked up to see one of the old wives from one of the club's ex members coming up to the booth. Savannah vaguely remembered her, she had been a teenager when she was around and didn't pay much attention to any of the wives or most of the guys in the club at the time. Her mom seemed to know exactly who she was though. "Oh, hey, April. Appreciate you coming to help." Gemma said out to the woman on the other side of the table. Savannah didn't bother hiding her curiousness as she openly stared at her mom and the other woman.
She was trying so hard to put the name to the face, because something was familiar about her, but she was finding it harder said than done as she was drawing a blank on who she was to the club. "No problem. Can I ask you something?" she heard the other woman say back to her mom. She was brought back from her watching by Luann tapping her arm to get her attention. She looked over to see her holding up forks, as if silently asking her to go and get more of them. She nodded and stopped what she was doing before telling her mom that she was going to get more forks and such at the store and that she'd be right back.
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Savannah was looking around the town's little store for the plastic silverware. She knew as well as anyone how fast they went thanks to the chili. She was rounding the corner to head into the next aisle when she suddenly stopped. She felt like she was going to be sick. She looked around and stopped the bathroom not far from her. She jogged over to get inside, just barely making it to one of the sinks inside before she released any content of food that she had had that morning already. She felt sick to her stomach as she knew that she wasn't finished. She jumped when someone touched her arm. She looked over to see Tara standing there.
The doctor gave her a small smile before Savannah heaved again. She pulled back the younger girl's hair and rubbed her back until she was finished. While Savannah was cleaning the sink, Tara went over and grabbed some paper towels and wet them. She returned to the other girl and handed them to her. She gave her a smile of thanks as she used them to clean herself up. "Do you mind getting me something to wash out my mouth?" she asked her. Tara nodded her head, not even going to argue, and left really quick to go find some mouthwash she could buy just as quick and bring back to her.
While she was gone, Savannah settled down against the wall, letting herself slide down and fall to the floor. She had been so worried about not running into Juice all day, she hadn't even thought of the baby currently growing inside of her. She had no idea what she was going to do with it now. She couldn't tell Juice. She felt bad for considering keeping the baby from him, but she couldn't be near him. If he were to know, she knew that it had to be from her that he heard it from. She couldn't be alone with him, though. She knew that she wouldn't last long alone with him. She had almost caved just that morning when he begged for her to listen to him.
She knew who Juice was, she knew that he would push even more if he knew that she was pregnant. She knew that he wouldn't give up, and she just really needed space away from him right now. She needed time to think, and she couldn't have that if he was pushing to get back together with her. Her thoughts were interrupted when Tara came back in with some water and a pack of gum. "I didn't want to leave you in here alone for too long. We can get some mouthwash on the way out if you still want it." she told her as she passed her the water first. Savannah, with Tara's help, lifted herself up from the floor and went back over to the sink.
She uncapped the bottle of water and took a swig of it. She swished it around in her mouth for a minute before spitting it back out into the sink. She took another sip and swallowed it back since her mouth was dry. She took the pack of gum from Tara and opened it to take out a stick to pop into her mouth. "Sorry, I'll pay you back for these. It's just, I've had a rough day so far and completely forgot about . . . well, you know." she told her as she started pacing around the room, her earlier thoughts coming back to her mind.
Tara watched on she paced around, not having a clue as to what she was talking about. She had been fine the last time she had seen her, besides finding out that she was pregnant of course. The was only one thing that she could think of that could get Savannah this worked up. "Did you tell him about the baby?" she asked her, but Savannah just shook her head, now leaving her confused. "Then what happened, Savannah? What's going on? Did you have another fight with Juice? What happened after I left yesterday?" she asked her, suddenly remembering what she had seen when she was leaving. Savannah kept pacing around though, and Tara finally had enough of the pacing and grabbed a hold of her hand, pulling her to a stop in front of her. "You can trust me, Savannah. You know that." she told her, knowing that Savannah needed to tell someone what was going on inside of her head.
More stress on Savannah was worse for the baby, she knew that for a fact. After what she had seen the day before, it was already bad for Savannah with the stress, she could only imagine what had happened after she left. "We slept together, Tara. I couldn't say no to him. He kissed me, and I couldn't push him away. I was weak, and I can't stop letting him in, even when he cheated on me." she told her as tears rolled down her cheeks. She finally was able to tell someone. She knew that Tara wouldn't judge her, but she just needed someone to tell her how it was without having a biased opinion.
Tara sighed as she took a hold of Savannah's hand and pulled her over to the sinks. The two lifted themselves up onto the sink counter and sat in silence for a moment as they settled themselves. "You're not weak, Savannah. Nowhere near it, you've been stronger than a lot of other girls would have been in your position. You just need to sit him down and tell him. Just because he cheated, doesn't take away his right to know he's having going to have a child in a few months." she said to the younger girl beside her. She knew how it was to be in her position, not that Savannah knew that, but she knew how hard that choice was.
There was a big difference in her situation and Savannah's. She might have just come back to town, but she's seen Juice and Savannah when they're out around town or at the hospital visiting Abel. Even if they were trying to hide it, it was obvious how much they both cared about the other. She didn't understand how hard it was now to just be in the same room as Juice though. She didn't know how much self control it took out of her to just kick him out of her room that morning. "But I can't even be in the same room as him, Tara. How can I tell him, when I can't even trust myself alone with him?" she told him, her confliction clear in her eyes as she looked over at her.
Tara sighed, knowing how that was. She couldn't even look at Jax since she got back to town and not want to fall right into his arms. She took another deep breath before looking over at the girl beside her. She surprised her by putting her hand on her shoulder, causing her to look over at her. "Just try your best. Just tell him all you want to do is talk and nothing more. If he tries anything, you leave. If you want, Savannah, I'll come with you for support." she told her, just wanting to help her anyway that she can. She felt like she owed her at least that much.
She appreciated the offer of support, but she knew that it wouldn't work with Juice. He would feel like she's caging him in by tag teaming him. It wouldn't end well for anyone if that was the case. She knew that when, if, she ever told him, that she would need to do it on her own when it was just the two of them alone. She just didn't know when that would be. "No, he'll just feel cornered if you come. I know that I need to tell him, but I know Juice, Tara. I know that he'll just push more if he knows that I'm pregnant." she told her as she shook her head as she wiped her eyes.
Tara knew that nothing with the club was easy, she found out that the hard way when she was younger and dating Jax. She never learned, even now when she had a good career going for her. The SamCro boys were just too addictive, no woman can help having to go back to them. Savannah was stuck for life though, seeing as Jax was her brother and Clay was her step father. It didn't help that she was in love with Juice either. "Hey, it's going to be okay, Savannah. We'll figure it all out, together." she told her as she rubbed her back. "Just tell Juice the truth, but tell him that you still need time for yourself. To process everything and that you just wanted to let him know about the baby." she went on to explain to her. It was the only thing that she could think of that Savannah could try.
Savannah nodded as a new round of fresh tears rolled down her face. She couldn't control her emotions. She knew that she shouldn't have been crying, but she couldn't help it. It was like she was on auto-cry or something. One thing she did know, was that she was glad Tara had come back to town. She needed a friend right now, and she didn't have a lot of those that weren't connected to club directly. "I'm glad you came back Tara. I really missed you." she told her as she tried to hold back her sobs. Tara had always been her to go to girl. She wasn't just Jax's girlfriend before she left town, she was her best friend too. She talked her through break ups and she sat and watched stupid corny movies while they ate ice cream together.
Tara looked over at her with a sad smile, thinking of the same thing. One thing she never got when she was in Chicago, was a new best friend. Even if Savannah was a few years younger than her, it didn't change that they were close friends. The both understood the club and what came with it when it came to them. They stuck together, and there was no forgetting that. Not even leaving Charming could change that. "I'm glad I did too. And I've missed you too, Savannah." she told her as she wrapped her arm around her and pulled her to her. The sobs finally broke loose as Tara's arms tightened around her, letting her cry on her and use her for support. She'd always be able to lean on her, and that would never change.