A/N

Soooo i've been gone for a while for multiple resons : exams, boyfriend, writersblock, motivationless,

I really need more reviews they motivate me to continue writing and stuff also i want to thank MyFantasySoul she is amazing. She kindoff beta's my story and makes it readable...

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"Bella let me wash you?"

Edward's eyes were almost pleading with me, but still lustful. I simply
nodded.

Edward walked around me and began washing my shoulders. It felt great. As if
he was giving me a long needed massage. His long and strong fingers applied
just the right amount of pressure to my shoulders. Within minutes, my
shoulders were in the most relaxed state they had probably ever been.

He turned me around so the water could rinse away the soap. His expression was
different now. It was not pleading, lustful, it wasn't even love. It was
apologetic but also determined. He reached behind me for my shampoo. He
squirted some in his hands and began slowly washing my hair. His eyes were on
my face. The intensity was too much. I had to close my eyes.

He rinsed the shampoo out of my hair and grabbed my conditioner. He
conditioned my hair and rinsed it out again. He did it so well I began
wondering how he had learned it.

I will ask later.

I opened my eyes and found Edward staring at me. He had the body wash in his
hands again. He didn't take his eyes of me as he slowly began washing my
arms.

He washed them gently and slowly. When he was finished with my arms, he
squatted and began washing my feet. It felt amazing and I closed my eyes. When
he was done with my feet, he moved to my calves and he washed higher and
higher. When he was almost up to my core, I squirmed a bit. It felt so good
but I didn't know if I was really ready for that.

I was about to protest and tell him he had to stop, when he stood up again. He
grabbed some more of the body wash and began washing my neck. His hands went
lower and lower. His hands slightly grazed my breasts.

I immediately got goose bumps over my whole body and my nipples became, if
possible, even harder.

I opened my eyes again and found Edward looking straight at me with
fascination. He cupped both of my breasts in his hands. His hands were really
big.

Edward slid his hands down to my ribcage. He softly pushed me backwards until
I was backed up against the wall. His hands slid up again and he began slowly
rubbing my nipples.

OH MY GOD!

It felt so good that my knees buckled underneath me. He caught me before I
fell. He backed me against the wall again and pushed his pelvis against me so
I wouldn't fall again.

His erection was pressed against my thigh. It sent a bolt of lust trough my
veins. I was practically dripping arousal right now.

Edward resumed the nipple rubbing, but this time he lowered his mouth on my
neck and began lightly sucking and kissing along the length of it. It felt so
good - his mouth against my wet skin. I was panting and when Edward's mouth
found my nipple, I let out a loud moan. Edward's head snapped up.

Woops.

Embarrassment flooded trough me and I clasped my hand over my mouth.

"Isabella don't …." he started saying. I cut him off "Edward, I'm so sorry I
will try to keep quiet", I said staring at the tile floor. My cheeks were
flaming red.

"That's not what I meant; I want you to make those sounds. They tell me I did
something right and made you feel good. And that's all I want to do. Make you
feel good"

The muscles deep inside my belly contracted.

He grasped my face in his hands and our eyes met. Sincerity and lust was
written all over his face. It was damn sexy. I totally lost control.

I grabbed his face and pulled his mouth down on mine. I kissed him
passionately and trusted my tongue in to his mouth. Edward groaned and pushed
me up against the wall harder. His pelvic bone rubbed right against my core.
The sensation was overwhelming. I broke away from to kiss to desperately gasp
for air. Edward resumed kissing my nipples but he never stopped grinding
against me. Pleasure was building up quickly and I turned my head from the
left to the right over and over again as if I was trying to escape the
pleasure.

The weirdest sounds escaped my mouth. But I simply didn't care. All I cared
about at this moment was Edward and the way he made me feel. I wanted him. I
wanted more than this….

"Edward… ughh... please…"

"Something wrong baby?" he asked hoarsely. He stilled his movements.

"No!" I rubbed myself against him. "I want… ugh... I need… moreee!"

Immediately Edward's lips were on me. He laid his hands on my upper thighs,
slid them up to my hips and slid his hands under my buttocks. Out of nowhere,
he lifted me up.

"Bella wrap your legs around me"

I did as I was told and my core met his eight-pack.

Wow.

Edward slowly slid me down his stomach towards his penis. The friction his toned
abs gave me was divine. He kept sliding me down on him until I felt the head
of his penis against me. He slid his penis between my vagina lips and the head of his penis
moved against my clit, while his shaft was rubbing my entrance.

"Bella is this all right?"

I let out a loud moan. "Aaaagghh… God… YES… Edward… please!"

And that was all he needed to know. He became frenzied. He moved harder and
faster against me and I was losing any control I had. I gripped his hair in my
hands and yanked his head down. We kissed and we kept rubbing and grinding
against each other.

All of the sudden I saw specks of white lights behind my eyelids. The pleasure
inside of me exploded. I screamed Edward's name and I bit into his shoulder.
With that Edwards penis twitched and he groaned loudly while chanting my name at
the same time. His seed landed on my stomach and the water washed it away
instantly.

We stayed in the same position for a little while. Neither of us was able to
move. Our breaths were laboured.

After a while, I began stroking his face. He was so beautiful and I couldn't
keep my hands of him.

Edward let out a content sigh and he put me on my feet. He led me outside of
the shower cubicle. He grabbed a towel and began drying me. The towel was soft
and fluffy. I grabbed another towel and began drying Edward at the same time.
We were both gentle and unhurried. When we were done, Edward put the towels in
the hamper and turned the bathroom lights off. Both completely naked, we
walked towards his bed. He lay down and patted the spot next to him.

I hesitated.

"Bella I'm not going to do anything to you," he said sensing my hesitation.

I climbed in to bed with him and lay next to him. We lay side by side in a
pretty lame manner. Realization hit me. I just had an amazing **, given by
Edward and now I'm being rigid and afraid and… stuff. I giggled.

Edward immediately sat up. "What's so funny?" he asked with a bewildered
expression.

I stopped giggling." It's nothing, just me…" I giggled again… "and you"

"Us?" he asked.

"Yep" I said popping my lips at the p.

"You think we're funny?" He asked with a hurt expression. "You think I'm joking Bella?"

"What! No. I didn't mean it like that, it was just that you made me feel incredible just minutes ago in the shower and then… you are like come to bed with me and I am like… no I don't want to because I'm afraid and then, I'm like ok I'm going to lay next to you and be all rigid."

Edward's eyes went wide with amusement.

"And now you are going to laugh at me while I'm trying to explain," I grumpily said while burying my hands in my hair.

With that, he let out a loud laugh.

Great.

I let my hair hang before my face so he couldn't see my face.

"Bella?" he said.

Ignore him, Bella, be strong.

I felt him move so he sat behind me.

He started poking me. I just kept on ignoring him. When he finally realized I wasn't going to respond to his poking, he began planting hot wet open-mouthed kisses along my exposed shoulder.

"Bella *kiss* I *kiss* thought *kiss* that *kiss* you regretted *kiss* what we did" He moved his kisses towards toward my neck.

"Ok", I let out a in a breathy moan. I lifted my head and I could see Edward smiling softly at me.

"Shall we sleep now?" He asked.

"No I'm not tired," I said with a smug expression.

"Yes you are," he countered.

"No I'm not," I argued. I wasn't ready to sleep yet, I was afraid, that if I went to sleep, I would wake up and found that everything was a just a dream.

Then I yawned loudly.

Woops my bad.

"Bella, sleep my love, " Edward said as he lay down again.

Love? ( italic)

I lay down beside him, our arms nearly touching.

Edward leaned over and began toying with my hair. "Bella, what's wrong?"

How could I tell him the truth without him getting angry at me?

"Nothing Edward," I said avoiding his eyes.

"Bella," he said in a warning voice.

"It's nothing Edward, just…just go to sleep," I said.

Edward didn't answer, just grabbed me like I was a doll and lay my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and I was engulfed in warmth as he pulled the duvet over us. I could hear his heart in my ear, it was very comforting, so much so that within minutes I was on brink of falling asleep.

"Edward?" I whispered.

"Yes?"

"We gotta talk."

"What is it, love?" He asked.

There's the love again.

"Maybe in the morning, I'm too tired."

And not because I'm too much of a chicken to do it now.

"About what do you want to talk?" he asked curiously.

"You," I whispered.

"Why me?" he asked surprised.

"Because I don't understand how…" I trailed off.

"How what?" he prompted.

"It's just weird how you seemed to go from hating me to you know…" I trailed off.

Edward was about to answer but I cut him off. "Can we just talk about it tomorrow?"

"Yes, off course." He said and he planted a soft kiss on my hair.

We stayed silent for a while and I wrapped my legs around him.

"Bella?" he whispered.

"Yes," I mumbled.

"Don't leave when you hear the truth, ok?"

"Huh? Why would I leave?"

Ooooow no he played me. How could I be this stupid? I unwrapped myself from him, but he held on to me tighter.

"Bella it's not what you think it is," he said while his green eyes pierced trough me.

"Sleep and we will talk about it tomorrow."

And that's just what I did. I lay my head down on his chest again waiting to fall asleep and holding on to him for dear life. Enjoying his presence as much as I could, because in the morning it might all be gone.

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