Hi guys, here is the second half of the pervious chapter, they conversation between TJ and Spinelli continues in this one, so I hope you enjoy it!
On a seprate note, don't you just love it when your friends are acting all pissy with you, but wont actually tell you what is wrong, or what you're supposted to have done? Ugh, !
Chapter 14: Do you love him
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"Do you think I wanted to lie to you Spin? Do you think I wanted to leave?" replied TJ, who was equally as upset as Spinelli.
"How tell hell am I supposed to know? I didn't even know that you were alive until today! Come on then, you were saying you wanted to explain! SO EXPLAIN! WHY DID YOU LEAVE?" replied Spinelli, tears of anger sliding down her face.
"Look, I shouldn't be telling you this, but I will. But you've got to promise that you won't tell anyone?"
"Why bother telling me? You didn't see it fit to tell me you were alive for the past ten years, so why should you tell me now?"
"I want to tell you, believe me, please just promise, and then I'll explain everything"
"Fine, I promise."
"I'm in the witness relocation programme" explained TJ.
"What?"
"That night, my parents, and Becky died, and I came so close to dying too. Jimmy, Becky's husband of the time, he's part of a criminal gang, things turned out really badly between him and Becky, and he tried to kill us all to get revenge"
"I remember" nodded Spinelli "Jimmy was violent, but I had no idea he was part of a gang"
"Well he was, it was a revenge killing. I was the only living witness, and if they'd of known that I survived they'd of tried to kill me again, or gone after the people I care about. That's why I was put straight into the witness relocation programme"
"I really had no idea Teej, I'm so sorry to hear that you went through all of that, it must have been awful"
"It was, I wanted nothing more than to call you Spin, I needed you"
"Then why didn't you? Why the hell didn't you call? Didn't you trust me? I wouldn't have told anyone, I'd of been able to keep it quiet!"
"I couldn't take the risk" replied TJ.
"What? You couldn't risk calling your own friend to tell her you weren't dead?" whispered Spinelli, clearly hurt by the whole situation.
"All the decisions had been made for me. They told me that it was too much of a risk and they were right. People like Jimmy, they don't give up, if he and the gang thought we were all dead, they'd of left me alone"
"But once everything had calmed down and the heat was off, you could've let me know then" reasoned Spinelli.
"No, I couldn't, because you'd done your grieving and moved on"
"No, I never stopped grieving for you Teej" said Spinelli shaking her head "never"
"and I realised that, when I met you, why I saw the tattoo and saw how upset you were on the ten year anniversary" replied TJ sadly.
"Is that supposed to make me feel better for the fact that I've spent ten years mourning for someone that never actually died?"
"No, of course it wasn't" pleaded TJ tearfully "It nearly killed me. I was alone, I'd lost my family, and I'd lost my best friend, I had no one in the world. I lived my life, knowing that you thought I was dead, and I missed you. I felt guilty and to think you were going on, living your life without me and not realising truth, has been the worst thing in the world! But you have lived your life and you've lived it without me"
"Do you think that's what I wanted? I never wanted to live without you" said Spinelli shaking her head "and I didn't, not really. I thought you'd died, but I'd always taken you with me, the memories, and the feelings. I never really gave up and moved on, how could I?"
"Do you still have feelings for me?"
"What does it matter if I do or don't? I'm married TJ."
"Are you happy?"
"What does it matter if I'm happy or not? What does it matter if I have feelings for you or not? I'm married TJ! I'm married to Lawson!"
"I know that Spinelli" replied TJ "Do you remember the last day we spent together? Our last conversation? You said if you ever wound up with Lawson, that I could put you into a full nelson until you saw sense. You might have to wait until the casts are off though..."
"Now really isn't the time for joking TJ"
"Sorry, I know it isn't. Do you remember what else we said in that conversation? You said that there was one guy you were interested in, and that he was your best friend, and then you said that I was-"
"I remember. TJ I shouldn't be having this conversation, I'm married"
"Do you love him?"
"I'm taking you back inside, it's getting cold, and I need to get home" said Spinelli hurriedly, getting up quickly, and pushing TJ back into the hospital.
"You don't love him, do you?" replied TJ, as Spinelli returned to the side of his bed.
"I'm not having this conversation, I've had a lot to deal with tonight with all this news. I need to go home and go to sleep"
"Spin" called TJ, but it was useless, Spinelli had hurried away, leaving TJ sat helplessly watched her leave.
"Good, you're back" said Lawson, as Spinelli walked through the door.
"Yes, but I'm not in the mood for any crap Lawson, I'm tired, I just want to go to bed"
"Good, I was wanted the same thing" slurred Lawson, leering at Spinelli as he stumbled toward her "Let's go you bed, just you and me" as he said this, Lawson pressed himself up against Spinelli, kissing her neck.
"Not tonight, I'm really not in the mood Lawson" said Spinelli, pushing him away as the smell of alcohol from his breath made her feel sick.
"Not tonight, that's what I always hear" said Lawson, pointing his finger at her "But a man has needs Ashley. We've not done it for weeks! Come on, you're my wife"
"Well I'm not in the mood! You're drunk" snapped Spinelli, again trying to push Lawson away as he pulled her closer, forcing his body onto her "seriously, just get the hell off of me!"
"But I'm horney! There's only so many times you can tell a man no" replied Lawson, forcing his hands up Spinelli's top.
"I SAID GET OFF OF ME" screamed Spinelli, forcing herself out of his grasp.
"I WANT TO HAVE SEX!" shouted Lawson.
"AND I DONT!" shouted Spinelli in return, Lawson, aimed to punch Spinelli, but stumbled and missed, struggling to regain his balance. Angrily, Spinelli kicked Lawson in the crotch "I said no, I'm not doing anything with you tonight. You disgust me!"
"Fine" replied Lawson, stumbling away "Then I'll just find someone who will, someone who'll give me what I want! Especially since you never put out anyway!
"GO ON THEN! YOU GO DO THAT! PISS OFF!"
"I WILL!" shouted Lawson, storming from the flat and slamming the door.
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So, Spinelli has heard TJ out now but she's still upset about the whole thing, and has a lot to get her head around! What will happen next? As you can see, Lawson is back to his old ways, and being a prick!
RandalXSpinelli: Thank you :) Spinelli is definitely truly angry (and hurt) at TJ! The rest of the gang aren't going to be showing up, but they will be spoken about, since they are a pretty big part of recess (originally i hadn't even planned to bring them into conversation, but not you've mentioned it, it makes sense to at least have them spoken about!) I've noticed that there isn't may episodes of recess just concentrating on the rest of the gang, (there are the odd ones, like they Bonkey episode, and 'operation relocation') i noticed that when trying to write my last fic (as each of the gang had some form of storyline). Anyway, back to this fic, hopefully Spinelli will forgive TJ, but she's still got a lot to get her head around before she can do that!
Omgpear: At least Spinelli has now listened to TJ's explanation, and heard him out, but now she really has a lot to get her head around! Lawson is definitely back to his old self, we'll give him credit, as he lasted maybe a few days? Gotta applaud that effort :p I hope you enjoyed this chapter aswell, im glad you liked the emotions of the characters in the last chapter, and hope you liked the emotions in this one too!
VeVe2491: Thank you :) I know some of my chapters are longer than others (and the last one is pretty short. I'd like them to be longer, but often they just wind up being a certain length because of the way the story works out –on the bright side, the fic lasts longer this way :) I hope you enjoyed the update!
Heatherfeatherz: Thank you :) I'm glad you do! I hope you enjoyed this update!
Burton's Disney Princess: Thank you :) I'm glad you enjoyed it, and glad you found Spinelli's reaction real! Like you said, it would have been nice for her to accept everything right away, but it would have been kinda unrealistic, especially for Spinelli! Hopefully she will finally accept it, but first she's got a lot to get her head around! I hope you liked the update!
Sexehbunneh: It would have been nice for them to get together right away, but there is still time for that! I hope you enjoyed the update!
I'm dyslexic, so I'll apologise now for any spelling and grammar mistakes, I've done my best to make sure they're not there!
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