She sighed. How could she move on? She still loved him. Oh, how she loved him. She would love him forever and ever and ever. Even though he left did he leave? Would he come back? He was unpredictable after all. She hoped he would come back.
Everyone was telling her to move on. She wanted to ask them how but she didn't. Of course she didn't, she wanted to appear strong.
She is drowning in her own emotions and fears. She can't do this any more. Why? Because all she does is lay there at the bottom of the ocean humming his favorite song. The only physical thing she is capable of doing in the state she is currently in.
Humming his song the exact way he sang it. He sang it slower and deeper then the singer does. He sings beautifully.
Loving someone shouldn't be this hard, but no matter how hard it is she will love him forever. Who cares what other people think? He could walk right back into her life and she wouldn't be effected. She would welcome him with open arms. The others might not. They care though, she doesn't. She doesn't remember what caring is. She is lost.
He was absolutely perfect to her. He was like a song she couldn't shake out of her head. Constantly ringing his tune through her, never truly leaving her. How could he do this? He will always be with her in her memories. He will forever have an effect on what she does. Everything changed when he left, nothing will ever be the same.
She feels him where ever she goes. Haunting her. Helping her. Giving her advice when she needs it. She should stay strong. He is telling her not to give into her sadness. Why should she go on? Everything she had is gone. What is the point?
She closed her eyes. Flicking through her memories. She doesn't know what to do. A DARK PARADISE.
She does this on a regular basis. Smile at every silly thing they did together. But it only caused her more pain and sadness. She can't do this anymore. She wants to remember him but it gets harder. Remembering him only hurts.
A tormented mind wants to forget, but a broken heart will always remember.
Unfortunately.
She can't forget because she sees him whenever she closes her eyes. She sees him looking back at her.
Now that he his gone she feels like she will never love again. He was amazing and she took advantage of that. Who wouldn't? She misses him now that he is gone. Now that its too late.
And what if he's not there. What if he isn't on the other side. What if there is nothing. No Heaven. No Hell. What then? What would happen?
Her friends ask her why she is still strong. What was the point of dwelling over someone who is never coming back? She tells herself that he will come back. He did it once before, so he could do it again. Right?
Even though she was supposed to stop loving him when he left. She didn't hence she is drowning. She loved this man and will do so forever.
Seeing him is both good and bad. It hurts her yet its better than not seeing him at all, right? What good would it be if he totally left her?
At least she could still see him in her dreams.
Why wake up? She doesn't want to.
She thinks about him all day and all night. Life was hard. Everyone telling her what to do, how to do it and when to do it. Like they run her life yet she feels him. She feels him touching her. Watching over her.
Skulduggery Pleasant was dead and Valkyrie Cain was suffering the consequences.
What do you think? Listen to this song it is amazing.