14. Traitor

I walk aimlessly down the mysterious streets of Tortuga. My angry soul is lost as I think about Jack. I hated Jack right now…but how could I go from being in love to hating someone so fast? Because he lied to me…that's why. He lied to get me into bed with him…he made me believe that he actually cared for me. He turned out to be like every other guy I'd fallen for. That bastard! I knew it all too well, the hurt that I now felt. Yet this hurt was somehow more painful than other hurts I'd felt in previous times. This hurt was deeper…more integrated. I had slept with Jack! I gave myself to him…literally, and this is how he responded to the that night I gave him. My tears flow endlessly down my cheeks as I grow to hate and continue to love Jack.

"Milady, you look lost." A voice comes from behind. I turn around abruptly to see no other than Commodore Norrington.

"Commodore." I squeak, wiping away my tears.

"There, there, milady. No tears. I understand you've been kidnapped. There's no more reason to cry. We're going to take you back to Port Royal."

Right now, that sounds pretty good to me. A life back in Port Royal. A simple plain life back in Port Royal away from Jack and away from Tortuga. I nod my head and agree to go with Norrington back to the boat.

"There is on little thing, however, milady..." Norrington says, putting his arm around my shoulder.

"What?"

"Tell me where Sparrow is." He says. I pause for a moment. Do I want to give up Jack's location? I was angry with him, possibly even hating him now…didn't I? He broke my heart! But then again, I knew this would happen all along--it's my own fault, isn't it? Wait…Jack might be anywhere right now though. I couldn't give up his location even if I wanted to.

"He was in a tavern with me, Commodore." I reply, not thinking clearly.

"Jack! Jack!" Will and Elizabeth scream as they run down the streets of Tortuga. "Have you seen Jack Sparrow?"

"He's over there!" Exclaims one person, pointing to a pitiful Jack, sitting drunkenly slumped over.

"Jack!" Will exclaims as he runs over to his friend. Jack looks up at his two friends with a groggy expression on his face. His eyes are filled with melancholy.

"Jack, what's wrong? What's been going on? Why did you kidnap out friend from the music store?" Elizabeth asks, sitting down with Will and Jack.

Jack sighs and drunkenly sits up and clears his throat. "Yer friends with 'er?" He asks drunkenly.

"Yes, we are." Will replies. "Tell us what's been going on, Jack."

"Alright." He replies huskily. "That girl…I didn't kidnap her. I met 'er one day and it's rather a long story…but to put it in terms ye both will understand…I lthink I love 'er."

"Where is she?" Elizabeth asks frantically.

"You love someone, Jack?" Will asks in shock.

"Whoa, too many questions all at once!" Jack says, holding up his hands waving them around to calm down Will and Elizabeth.

"Where is she?" Elizabeth asks again.

"I dunno. She run off." Jack replies, embarrassed and ashamed.

"Why?" Elizabeth asks.

"It wasn't my fault! Really, it wasn't!" Jack explains. "This girl named Giselle came over and sat on me lap and started kissing me, ye know, and I couldn't really not kiss her back, you know? And then she came back from gettin' rum and saw me n' Giselle like that. I didn't want Giselle to be kissin' me…I tried to get 'er off me…but I couldn't make 'er stop. I ruined everything, Will."

"Oh you poor thing." Elizabeth exclaims, taking Jack's hand.

"But you didn't mean anything by it?" Will asks.

"No! Of course not! I'd never 'urt her. She's different, Will."

"Wow…I never thought I'd hear this from Jack Sparrow." Will says with a laugh.

"Well, it's wonderful Jack's finally in love…but we have to find her before Norrington does!" Elizabeth exclaims.

"What?! Norrington's 'ere?!" Jack exclaims, suddenly jumping to his feet.

"Yes! That's how we got here, Jack!" Will exclaims. "We came to save you both."

"Norrington's ready to hang you, Jack." Elizabeth explains. "He really means it this time."

"Please! I'm Captain Jack Sparrow, savvy? I can get meself outta this." Jack says, his words slurred together in a drunken manner. He turns drunkenly and swaggers down the street until suddenly, Norrington and Gillette grab him.

"This is the night that Captain Jack Sparrow almost escaped." Norrington says, arrogantly.

"Jack!" Shouts Will. "Norrington, let him go!"

"Mr. Turner…why would I ever do such a thing?" Norrington asks.

"Please, Commodore." Elizabeth pleas.

"Sorry…there's no wedding to bargain with this time." Norrington snaps back at Elizabeth, who in turn blushes in shame. Will takes her under his arm and the walk with both Gillette and Norrington who drag Jack back to the ship.

I'm standing on deck of the Dauntless and in the distance, I see five figures coming towards the ship. As they come nearer, I make out that it is Will, Elizabeth, Norrington and Gillette and that they are dragging Jack along with them. I suddenly begin to cry and I run into a corner on deck to hide from them as I hear them begin to board the ship. Luckily, they brush past without knowing I'm there; I hear them lock Jack up in the brig below deck and I hear the Commodore and Gillette coming back upstairs to the main deck. I watch as they move into the cabin and shut the door. Suddenly, I hear voices from the brig below deck. I move closer to the stairs to hear more clearly what is being said.

"Will, Elizabeth…if they find her…please will ye tell 'er me story and that I didn't mean t' hurt 'er?"

"Yes, Jack. We will." Will replies.

"Oh, and could ye do one more favor fer me?"

"Sure…anything, Jack."

"Tell 'er that I love 'er. I never actually got to tell her."

"Of course." Elizabeth replies, sniffling and wiping away tears. I back away from the stairs and move back into my corner and cry. I can't believe what I've done. I too loved Jack…yet I assisted in his arrest! I deserved to hang; not Jack.

I hear Elizabeth walking up the stairs. She stops abruptly, hearing something on deck. She walks around and suddenly, she spots me.

"Oh my God!" She exclaims as she runs over to me. She kneels down next to me and lifts your head. "Are you alright?" I shake my head in angst.

"Oh God. Jack's been captured and he's going to hang." She pleas to me. "Will and I know everything. Jack…he never meant to hurt you…he loves you." my tears begin to flow even harder.

"I hated him, Elizabeth. But I love him."

"I understand, I really do. I know you love him…and he loves you!"

"I just don't understand why did that? I know I probably over reacted but I just saw them and something inside of me just snapped."

"He didn't mean to." She says.

"He broke my heart."

Elizabeth doesn't say anything in response…knowing what it's like to have your heart broken.

"I know how that feels." She says finally. "And it's awful."

"He's going to hang?" I ask suddenly.

"Yes." She replies in sorrow.

"What have I done?" I say, wanting to die right then and there.

"Nothing." She says, trying to make me feel better.

"No, you don't understand. I told Norrington that Jack was in a tavern with me." I confess to her.

"You did?"

"Yes. I was so angry and confused and sad…I didn't know what to say Elizabeth! I was…and still am…so hurt. I'm a traitor."

"No…no you're not." She says.

"But they got Jack and now he's gonna hang. I deserve to hang…not Jack."

"No! No one deserves to hang. You deserve to be with Jack. You love each other." I don't respond to her comment. I just think back to all of my time spent with Jack. A smile breaks on my lips and I look up at Elizabeth.

"You're right. I do love him." She smiles back at me.

Elizabeth leaves me alone on the deck after I tell her I wished to be alone. I stand up and gaze out at the sea. I hadn't even realized that we were out to sea already.

"I really fucked up this time." I say to myself . Suddenly, the song comes to my mind.

I make believe

That you are here,

It's the only way,

That I see clear

What have I done?

You seem to move on easy…

Elizabeth had said Jack hadn't meant it…but I wanted to hear it from him. It seemed like he moved on easy…but yet I still loved him.

My weakness caused you pain…

I sigh, wishing for there to be an easier way to lessen the pain. I gave yourself to Jack pretty easily and without doubt.

At night I pray,

That soon your face,

Will fade away…

I gave him myself…all of me…and he took it with nonchalance and moved on to someone else, thinking I wouldn't notice or care—or at least that's how it seemed. What else am I to think? A woman sitting on his lap kissing him! I loved him but I wanted to forget him just the same. Am I truly a traitor?