Can you turn my black roses red? Chapter 14
The more I learn about reality the more it sounds like fiction – Me.
He had left the bathroom before she got, he had taken her clothes with him and returned with a simple sleeping yukata for her. Maya didn't protest and got up from the bath allowing him to wrap it around her.
-"What time is it?"
-"She's around nine-a-clock in the afternoon." He responded simply.
-"Oh…….so we are not going out tonight?" She dragged on the rest of the yukata herself and tied the ribbon around her waist.
-"No that would be unwise. Considering that the last two were of a higher class then the others, and we will need your assistance for the plan, since you volunteered. So you need to rest up before we do anything." He excepted her to say something but she just continued to stare at the bathroom wall so he took up the word again. "We will leave around four in the morning, since at that time there are as few people out as possible. So I suggest that you should go to sleep now. You are tired anyhow."
-"What about you?" She wrapped her arms around herself.
-"I don't need much sleep Kitajima-san. One half hour will be fine."
-"Ah…………." Her silence spoke more then if she actually had expressed herself with words. 'Is it because you're a youkai?' was what she wanted to say. More questions started popping up in her head, such as 'How much do you need to eat.' 'Do you need to eat?' 'Do you…..'She shook that last one away, but she couldn't quite get it away from her head now when it had finally caught her attention. Like when you've watched a horror movie. You don't really fear the dark unless you have imagined what is hiding in it.
-"Shuuichi…" She somehow found it a bit awkward to call him by first name. "Did you……eat humans?"
-"No." He answered, his tone had a bit more firm tone to it, as if he disliked that she'd even raised the subject. Maya closed her eyes, she felt relieved over that as if a stone had lift from her chest. "What would you have done if I had said the opposite?" The question took her by surprise and made her raise her mental guard again.
-"I………don't really know."
-"Can you live with that you will never know all things about me Kitajima-san?" At this she finally turned around to face him. Her arms still wrapped around her waist. "Because when this ordeal is over we would do best in parting ways. Considering your situation."
"And it's my first love to. It's so romantic!" "You didn't know?"
"You should be getting home."
"You didn't answer my question…" "Well just say it. I'm ready. I'm listening."
I can't. If I told her she'd only be put in danger.
"Sorry."
"I understand. I'll go home."
Steps interrupted his thoughts that had forced themselves into his mind without him allowing it. She dragged up the door to the bathroom.
-"Kitajima-san I!- He cut himself of, getting embarrassed that he had uttered any of those words outloud. But he'd caught her attention, he had to distract her away somehow. "You remember where your room was right?" She nodded in response. "Then I'll wish you goodnight."
Maya laid down on the futon in the same room that she'd woken up in a few hours ago and she closed her eyes at ones. (Soon. Soon it will be done and overwith. Those youkai things will be gone and I can go back to my ordinary life…………) She found her thoughts pondering away from the subject at hand. (Ordinary life? But I know of Shuuichis secret. He will just let me slip by with it? Does he trust me that I won't say anything to anyone? He really…puts that weight of trust on me? I mean the others ones, they all seem to be involved with this. But he just plans on letting me go on, trust me that I won't say anything?...Well I've always like supernatural things….But this is…But maybe we can still spend time with eachother after this? I mean if he trusts me that I won't say anything, that means I can ask him of other things. I don't need to ask about himself, I guess everyone got things in their past they want to keep hidden……But ask him of other things.) She rolled over on her side. (No………that'll be so rude in so many ways. Maybe I'll break his trust if I ask something like that to straightforward. I should wait with it these are sensitive subjects after all.) She couldn't sleep so she turned over on her back again. (What will we do when all of this is over? What paths will we take from there? What do we tell Ayumus parents? Will we still be able to go out together like before?...It would be rather sad if we couldn't.) She admitted to herself. (We were really getting on good terms with eachother.) She completely spun around burring her head in the pillow beneath her. (I need to sleep I can't think of things like this, I need to be well and focused when I'm getting woken up. Of course we'll be able to go out like before. I shouldn't need to waste a thought on that.)
-"Kitajima-san?" The voice was but a whisper, strangely, she had no memory of the slide-door opening and closing.
-(Shoot, is it already morning?) She tried to burry her face harder, she needed to get rest; she needed to be at her best. A few seconds of silence passed until she felt a hand caress her head and trace down her hair lying spread over her back. (I didn't hear him move…I didn't "sense" him move either.)
He could feel the faint smell of shampoo from her still not fully dried hair. It was lavender, he could have guessed that Yukinas hair must smell the same. But he could safely assume that her hair, or Keikos, Genkais, Botans or Shizurus hair for that matter; didn't feel this much like silk between his fingers. But he let go of it, respecting her privacy to sleep. (To love is to let go…)
-"Shuuichi…" He jumped on the inside from hearing her voice, muffled by the pillow. "Don't tell me it's morning already?" He smiled and almost allowed a chuckle to escape his lips.
-"No Kitajima-san. You've only been lying here for fifteen minutes. Now go to sleep with you."
Maya felt the vague smell of pollen that she couldn't quite place in her mind. But she found her thoughts becoming heavy. (Did he do something to make me tired?) But she found that her own thoughts were drifting by the seconds, but somehow the smell of that pollen got stronger aswell. (I've been like this before……I think. Strange…) But then she was forced to sleep.
That day, so many years ago. I were together with you, and you were together with me. But it's merely a childish memory. (Strange. How come I've never thought of that before? I met you in the abounded warehouse so many years ago.) You looked at me with eyes so sad, eyes that strained themselves from going mad.
I see my memories dropping down through the subtext of a dream. They crawl up in my mind like water crawls up skin as you fill up a bathtub.
There were screams, there was something. Familiar arms held me, but only for a few seconds.
"I'm not heavy am I?"
You carried me on your back as best friends or lovers do. Oh how I wish I'd never forget that I'd confessed my love to you. No one else can fill your place, because you were all to special. I'd subconsciously wait for someone that could fill my unknowing demand for the supernatural. But somewhere I knew; that they just didn't pass the line. Not that it matters now. Things are different, that was so many years ago.
-"Oi Kurama is that girl really such a heavy sleeper?" Voices in the distance.
-"Urameshi don't yell let Maya-chan sleep, it's been hard on her show some compassion." They sound a bit far away. I can lean my head against something as I tilt it. I think I'm coming around from my sleep.
-"Kuwabara-kun is right, let Kitajima-san have her time, we still have plenty of it." Shuuichis voice. It sounds rather close. I think he's holding me, caring me in his arms like so many years ago. It so strange how some things just comes to light like this. But it doesn't…change anything. Right?
-"Kurama." The red head felt the familiar hand of Urameshi Yusuke on his shoulder. So he looked over at him.
-"Yes?" The black haired young man pointed at Kitajima Maya in his arms and his mouth shaped the words "Do you like her?" in response Kurama jus smiled calmly.
-"Don't you know Yusuke. Do you think I am the type of person who'll share such things with you?" Yusuke looked disappointed at the response. But well he hadn't received an outright "no" had he? Yusuke walked on ahead up to Kuwabara, who seemed to be a but sulky. Maybe only because they had to leave Yukina at Genkais temple like always. Kurama cast a glance down at her sleeping face. (I can't erase her memories………But from here on we will be forced to walk different paths Kitajima-san. It's for the best of our lives.) Her face was so peaceful when it was asleep. Some strands of hair was hanging over her face as she was tucked up in his arms having her head leaning against his chest. Her heavy breathing told him that she was still sleeping. Maybe even dreaming.
-"You should wake her up. It's unpractical to have her sleeping like that. It minimizes your flexibility." Hieis voice was unmistakable, and so was the tone of it. Kurama could clearly see what Hiei thought of the situation. He thought that Kurama was going soft and that he was doing unnecessary and unpractical things. That he wasn't avoiding the matter but he was denying it. He didn't distance himself, but he dodged it. "Either you should get involved for real, or better, not getting involved at all. The humans turn you into a weak bastard. Soon you won't be able to kill lower class youkais and have your head clear at the same time."
-"You're speaking from experience?" Kurama waved Hieis opinion away, but he could feel that his red eyes narrowed.
-"Not your business." His voice had a more hissing tone; apparently, he didn't like Kuramas statement.
-"If that is not my business to me, then this is not your business to you."
-"Don't be a bastard." His voice was restored to it's usual tone. "But it's better being a bastard then a fool." Kurama didn't have time to respond before Hiei decided to take his own path. Then again the fire koorime had never been one to walk the path placed out for him. Kurama let his glance down on Kitajima-sans face a second time. His mind could conjure without a problem what her lips would taste like and just how dry they would be from breathing through her mouth in the open air for several minutes. He held affection for her, but it seemed the affection wasn't responded. Since it would be all to rude of him to do it against her when she was awake, and since they wouldn't be seeing eachother much after this event. He bent down and decided to check if his theory concerning the taste of her lips.
You can rarely explain the smell a specific of human body and hair with words. Yet when we burry our face in the hair of the person we love, and drag in that specific smell, then we are filled with joy; even if we cannot defy the smell other then "that persons smell." Having that smell so close is a confirming, that the person you love is there, right beside you, so very close, the smell pumps adrenaline and can give you as much happiness as sadness depending on the situation. And Kurama had always had an unusually good noose. He heard a small muffled sound from her mouth and at ones removed his lips from hers. She blinked sluggishly.
-"Shuuichi…………" It seemed she took a pause as if calling his name was merely a statement, but then she filled on with the actual question. "Are we there yet?"
-"Almost." He responded calmly. "We're almost there Kitajima-san."
-"You can call me Maya if you want to. I won't feel offended." He blinked to response.
-"I'll consider it Kitajima-san." He smiled slightly and she returned it before she closed her eyes and let her head rest against him again.
-"I'm still a bit tired……"
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-"They're so obvious." Yusuke wanted to raise his voice but he was quickly hushed by Kuwabara.
-"I know. The saying "Everyone knows it except the ones involved." It's really true when it comes to them."
-"You know I hate being up at this hour." Yusuke said louder as it to confirm to Kurama what they were talking about, since he could guess they looked suspicious whispering like that. What they didn't know, but should have guessed, was that Kurama heard them perfectly.