Jeff Hardy/Kaia
Here Without You- Three Doors Down
I've been out of the WWE for a few months now and there is only one thing I miss. I don't miss having matches and entertaining the fans, though I enjoyed it. I don't miss tag teaming with my brother, which I also enjoyed. The only thing I really miss is Kaia. I remember how I felt the week after I left…
A hundred days have made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights have made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same
It had been a week since I had been in or even near a wrestling ring. I hadn't even talked to Matt since I quit. The only thing I knew was how angry Kaia was at me. She just didn't understand. I had to leave. This life was killing me. Week after week as I stopped at nothing to entertain the hoards of screaming fans as they watched me in the ring had hurt my body and had started to mess with my mind. In needed a break before I hurt myself or worse. I was sitting at home when it dawned on me to call Kaia and see how she was doing. I didn't know if she was going to talk to me but I at least had to try.
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I picked up my cell phone that lay on the table and dialed her number. It rang a few times and then I heard her answer, "What do you want?" Her voice was full of such venom and spite that it almost cut me to the quick.
"Kaia…it's me. I just wanted to see how you're doing."
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
"How the hell do you think I'm feeling. I love you and you just up and left! How could you do that to me!?" Kaia asked.
"Sweetie, I explained this to you so many times. I have to get out. I may return later but for now I want to focus on other aspects of my life. My band's putting a new c.d. out in a couple of months. You'll like it, most of the songs are love songs." I tried to cheer her up.
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
"What do you know about love?" she asked.
That one hurt. Somewhere in my heart I feel like she had sliced me open and pulled out all of my intestines one at a time. "I know that I love you Kai. I always have…"
"Love isn't leaving the one you love! Do you have any idea of the rumors that have surfaced in the WWE?! They think you left because you got me pregnant!" she shouts. Though I can't see her, I can hear the tears in her voice.
but I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
"But I didn't…did I?" I ask.
"No you didn't." she replies. Her voice is suddenly soft, "Do you really have to be gone so long? I need you, Matty need's you."
"You both have me and you know that."
"Yeah, but you're not here with me."
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
I smile, "You can come see me anytime you want."
"I really don't want to see you right now," she sighs. "Jeff…is it okay if I move on?"
I catch myself before I growl my discontent. "Kai…do you really have to? Aren't you happy with me?"
Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls,
"Are we even still together Jeffy?" she asks.
"We are if you want to be." I reply.
"Look, long distance relationship's don't work with me. They never have. I love you but…Jeff…I think as long as we're both out of the WWE that we should see other people."
when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I die a little bit inside when she says that. "Oh…just remember I love you…" I hang up before I can hear whatever she says. I let the tears roll down my face. I can't hold them in. Out of all the things that she has ever said to me, that had to hurt the worst. I don't want to see other people. I want Kaia.
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me
Out of all the women that I have ever been with, Kaia has hurt me the worst. But that's okay. All I can do is wait. If I can make it through this pain, I can do anything.