"I'm sorry."he said moments later. I refused to reply. We got in the car silently and It took at least 10 minutes before I said another word to him.
"He beat me over and over and over." I started abruptly, "There was nothing I could do to make him stop. He'd lose a match and beat me. He'd win a match and beat me. I would do everything he wanted me to and he just did the same thing almost every night." I bit my lip and focused on the red light in front of me.
"And on top of that all of you jackasses got pissed off at me for not telling you what was going on," I began, "Well I'm sorry if its hard to admit your husband beats you to all of your friends...and co-workers. Vince knew about it though. Do you know how embarassing that is for your boss to find out that-
"Wait a minute, that asshole knew about it and didn't do anything?!" Hunter looked at me shocked.
"He tried. He tried really hard to help me, he tried to punish Adam, but by law if I wanted out, I had to do something about it."
"And it took you a year?! We all love you and we didn't even know someone was hurting you! If you had just told us, we would have helped or at least talked to him."He replied looking deep into my eyes.
"What if I deserved it, huh? What if I just wasn't good enough? I just couldn't satisfy him obviously! And as for Chris, I'm surprised he's stayed-"
"Don't you dare say that. You didn't deserve that and you know it!"
I just sighed and decided to put it to rest. There was no way I could win that argument. When we got back to Jericho's house. we got out of the car and slammed the doors. I threw the buns, hot dogs, and bbq sauce towards Chris and walked back in the house angrily. I could feel his eyes on me as I made my exit.
"Ayodele wait up!" I heard a familiar voice call behind me.
Maybe I should just give up on men. After Phil, Adam, Jared, and Chris, maybe it just isn't worth it. Maybe I should just give up on love in general.
I ran into the room Chris and I have been sharing for the past 2 weeks.
"Ayo! Ayodele! " Phil called.
"No offense but I dont really want to talk to anyone with a dick right now." i said opening the door slightly.
"I just want to talk. I know that dramatic exit you make everytime you're pissed and I know what makes you feel better." he smiled, his tounge ring shining in the hall.
"Fine" I said letting him in the room. I sat on the king size bed and stared at him.
"First of all," he gave me a big bear hug. One of those where he lifts you off the ground and spins you around a couple times.
"Thanks." I said as we sat on the bed.
"Second, I already know what's going on and you dont have to explain it to me." I looked down, "Adam is an asshole. I only wish I could have stopped him, but what's done is done. Jared is and asshole, neither of them deserved you. Honestly I think Chris is a good guy. He's cheated, you've cheated, you're even."
I just sat there and stared at him. He put an arm around my shoulders and I leaned on his chest.
"I know but I just feel so weird with everything going on right now."
Phil just wrapped his arms around me and hugged me. We pulled away and I looked up at him with a kind smile. I knew he was trying to make me feel better.
"I understand. I can't say I've been through anything like this, but if you ever want to talk, I'm here."
"You're amazing" I said looking up at him.
"Why did we ever break up?" he chuckled without realizing what he had just said.
"Sorry" he immidiately retracted the comment and looked to the floor of the bedroom, ashamed.
"Its okay." I paused, " We just never saw eachother, being on different brands ruined our relationship." I said sadly.
"Oh THAT relationship!?" Chris said angrily as he walked in the room.
My eyes widened as I opened my mouth to speak.
"Chris its not-" I began as Phil and I let go of eachother awkwardly.
"You know what Ayodele, I don't know if I can deal with all of this right now." My heart started pounding as I thought he was going to break up with me.
"Chris he was just trying to make me feel better." I explained.
"On OUR bed?!" He yelled before turning around and punching the wall hard. He made a large dent and started pacing. At the time I didn't realize the intensity of his anger.
"Dude, It's not like that, I swear." Phil said sincerely. Chris didnt answer him.
"Please calm down" I said sheepishly as he continued to pace.
"This would be a great time for you to leave, Punk" he said with ocean-like eyes piercing mine. Phil shrugged and left the room. Chris took a couple of deep breaths and sat next to me.
"You were abused by Adam, raped by Jared, Shawn's your dad, Hunter made you feel like shit, and you probably still have feelings for Phil." He sighed, "Do you know how hard it is for me to deal with that. I have enough going on in my life, and I love you, but this is just too much.
Mkay, no more first person
Ayodele sat uncomfortably as possible, she couldn't utter a word. Her eyes became misty as she held back prickling tears.
"I dont know, baby. I walked in on you trying to kill yourself. I can't just let that go."