CHAPTER 14
"Shane?SHANE!" Rylen yelled. Shane snapped his head up and looked at her. She couldn't help but notice a weird look on his face. Almost, anger, but somewhat sad too.
"Huh." Shane replied.
"Well you kinda zone out there," Rylen laughed, "Are you ok baby? Are you getting sick? Do you want me to get you something?" She stood and walked to the fridge trying to find some juice or something healthy.
"Oh, no I'm fine. I was just thinking is all," Shane mumbled, watching her sit back down to finish her drawing. He was thinking about how much he liked Rylen, and how much he didn't deserve such an amazing person. He was a failure. A disgusting failure. Rylen was so pure, so genuine. He had lied to her. "I hate myself!" thought Shane. "I finally found this amazing girl who I have this amazing connection with, and now my past is going to ruin it." Shane hadn't spoken to AJ since that night, despite her hundreds of calls and texts. At first they were apologies, but they soon turned into angry messages about how he did it to, and she couldn't be to blame for his stupidity. He hated her . How could she have done that to him? He knew he was largely to blame, but she should have known better. He was scared of what AJ would do when she saw him. Maybe he should just tell Rylen, put it out there and hope she forgives him. He was certain that she wouldn't understand though. "No," he decided, "I'm not going to tell her. I'm just going to talk to AJ and ask that she doesn't say anything." She hadn't yet. It was worth a shot. He couldn't risk Rylen finding out. He didn't want to hurt her, didn't want to make her think that he WAS just a Rockstar who used and abused girls.
A little while later the bus pulled up in front of a studio where the boys would be practicing. They collected their instruments and walked into the studio. Shane jumped a little when he felt a hand in his, but sighed with relief when he looked over and it was Rylen, smiling up at him. He squeezed her hand and sat down his guitar. His stomach dropped after he looked up and saw two Blonde girls walking towards them.
"Well if it isn't the Jonas Brothers!" laughed Aly, "What a surprise hey? We're so excited to see you guys and tour with you!" She hugged Nate and Jason before turning to Joe. Aly glanced sideways at AJ who was just standing there looking around. She looked down at his hand, which was still holding Rylen's.
"Who's this?" Aly asked smiling.
"Uhm, my girlfriend Rylen," Shane mumbled.
"Hi! It's so nice to meet you guys! I'm actually the boy's assistant wardrobe manager as well! My boss got a day off today actually, so I'm going to be going over your guy's outfits later with you if that's alright?" Rylen beamed. She was so excited to be trusted with the job.
"Oh yeah, totally!" Aly beamed back, "Uhm, excuse my sister, I'm not sure what her problem is" she commented. Aly wondered why AJ wasn't introducing herself. Rylen seemed really nice. She guessed that AJ was just avoiding Joe, but she had told her that she broke up with HIM, so what was the problem?
"Sorry, I'm AJ," she took a small step forward and gave a half wave, "I hum, need to go to the bathroom, I'll see you guys on stage."
SHANE'S POV
Wow that went better then I thought. Rylen and Aly seemed like they were going to get along great. I glanced over at Nate and Jason who were starting to get there instruments out to tune them, and noticed Nate give me a strange look. I looked over, Rylen had let go of my hand and was showing Aly her sketchbook. I looked back at Nate, who returned another weird look and gestured with his head, nodding behind him. I glanced up quickly and noticed AJ standing in some doorway looking at me. She quickly turned in and a second later I felt my pocket vibrate. It said I had a new text. Uh-oh. I recognized this number. I opened the text and read to myself.
"Come here PLZ. Need to talk."
I snuck a peek around. Shane and Jason had gone backstage to set up and Aly and Rylen were sitting on the couches in the corner chatting. I quickly walked over to the doorway. It contained a hallway, which had a couple of doors on each side. AJ was nowhere to be found. I slowly walked down the hall, until I was pulled into the first room and heard a door lock behind me. Fuck.
"Well, well Shane Grey. Care to finally explain yourself?"
"More like, care to explain why YOU took advantage of me while I was WASTED and you KNEW I WAS AJ!"
"Oh puhLEASE. Like you didn't enjoy it." AJ smirked at me, and then slowly walked forward, grabbing my shirt. Greaaat. Watch someone walk in on this and take it the wrong way. I grabbed her hands and pulled them off.
"I would have enjoyed it a lot MORE if it was meaningful and with someone I LOVED after I got MARRIED AJ! What were you thinking?! You KNEW I made a promise to not have sex before marriage, did that mean NOTHING?! Obviously NOT since you made me BREAK IT! "
"Oh honestly Shane, it's just a stupid ring. It's not like I raped you or something. You were FULLY participating, not that I need to remind you. You LIKED it. You're just mad you didn't think of it first."
"Think of WHAT first?! You destroyed my life AJ. I hope you're fucking happy. You made me completely compromise my morals for you're selfish BULLSHIT. I didn't want to do that. I STILL feel dirty. It was wrong! " I slumped against the floor. I was NOT going to cry in front of her. I felt her sit beside me. She sat on my lap, facing me and leaned into my face.
"Shane, YOU did it. It was YOU'RE decision to lose you're virginity. Like you really believed you were dreaming?"
"How was I supposed to know?? I had never drank before in my life!"
"Well, hate to break it to you Shaney, but that's totally YOUR fault too." Fuck I hated her, but she was right. It was all my fault. Everything. I couldn't help it anymore and let the tears start to fall down my face.
"Shaney, I know how we can fix this you know."
"We CAN'T fix this AJ it's done ok?"
"No it's not! Shane! You can have a ceremony to cleanse yourself! And then maybe… I dunno" she leaned in a bit farther, " we could get back together. Then it wouldn't be so bad. Marry me Shaney! I know you still love me. You HAVE to." She gently touched her lips to mine. I really shouldn't be doing this. But I was so overwhelmed. I pressed mine back against hers, my old feelings for her stirring back up. I know Nate and Jason never liked her, but they couldn't see past her attitude. I knew she was an ok person, her parents had just messed her up a bit. They were never around. She rebelled so they would care. Aly never fell for those pressures. I found myself more into the kiss than I had thought. Maybe she was right. Maybe I could fix this. Maybe this would work.
NATE'S POV
"We need to start rehearsing, we have a long day ahead of us," Jason said, walking towards me. "Where did Shane get to?"
"Uh, bathroom, he wasn't feeling well this morning," I lied. I knew he was talking to AJ. They were probably just trying to figure out how to make things less awkward, "I'll go check on him." I walked towards the door that Shane disappeared through. I glanced over at Rylen and Aly while they talked. God Rylen was so gorgeous. She just had this, glow. It was KILLING me that she considered us best friends. Every time we hugged I just wanted to pull back and kiss her, then scream "Rylen I love you why can't you SEE that?!" She was so sweet and caring, and beautiful. She knew what to say to me to calm me down before a show, she didn't just say she liked my songs, she would tell me her HONEST opinion, help me with them. All the other girls I knew just giggled and said they were "amazing". She didn't let my fame get to her. The tabloids even knew we should be together! I guess they thought she should be with Shane to, but I always smiled when I saw a picture of us on the cover, just walking or talking. One time, holding hands. Not in a couple way, but in a "Best friends" way. Gag me. It was like that for her, I almost die inside every time we do. I needed to stop thinking about that though, and find Shane. I looked down the hallway and heard voices coming from behind one of the doors, I walked quietly to it, listening. I knew it was wrong, so sue me, I'm secretly nosy.
"Oh puhLEASE. Like you didn't enjoy it." I heard AJ's muffled voice coming through,
Enjoyed what? I pressed my ear to the door.
"I would have enjoyed it a lot MORE if it was meaningful and with someone I LOVED after I got MARRIED AJ! What were you thinking?! You KNEW I made a promise to not have sex before marriage, did that mean NOTHING?! Obviously NOT since you made me BREAK IT! " I heard Shane cry.
Woah. That was SO not what I was expecting to listen in on.