It's really kind of funny. I'm assuming all you guys are like, "GO STOP THE WEDDING!"

…this is why I love being an author. There are so many guesses at the plot line. It makes me laugh. Ha-ha. See? I'm laughing.

I don't own.

Edward

It was just about four in the morning when I heard their voices calling my name. Alice and Jasper.

Immediately I ran out into the hallway to see them coming up the last flight of stairs. My first instinct was to read her mind, which I did. Alice and Jasper were doing their best to keep their minds blank, which led me to believe that this was something important. Obviously it was, otherwise they wouldn't immediately come back to tell me something.

"What is it?"

My voice sounded cold. Dead, even to me.

"Edward!" Alice gasped. "You have to help us-" she said as she grabbed my shirt sleeve. "She's getting married, Edward, you have to stop it!"

I immediately pulled my arm back. "What are you talking about, Alice? Jasper, what is she talking about?"

They were at either side of me in an instant. Jasper was sending strokes of calm through me.

"Jasper! Stop it and tell me what the hell you two are talking about!"

"It's Bella! She's engaged!"

My world came crashing down as I dealt with so many emotions.

I was happier than I had been in… Years. My beautiful, sweet, darling Bella Swan; She was alive.

Jasper and Alice looked at me tentatively.

And then, as I processed the last bit of the sentence, my world came crashing down on me.

Engaged.

"No… No! NO!" I said, pounding the wall and creating a dent that perfectly sculpted my fists.

I suddenly felt so exhausted. I fell to the floor in a crumpled heap and buried my face with my hands.

Alice set her hand on my shoulder and said, "Edward, you can stop it."

I shook my head franticly. "No… I can't. She wouldn't want me, Alice."

"Jasper!" She said, her voice was panicked. I felt the faint echo of happiness engulf me. But it wasn't enough. My Bella was getting married.

Married.

"Edward, what are you talking about? Of course she'll want you!"

Again, I shook my head.

"Why not?" Alice demanded.

I bit my lip.

"I've searched for her. And I couldn't find her. Do you expect me to just show up at her wedding and ask her to take me back?" Before either of them could respond, I said, "Alice, Jasper, she must be relatively happy. She's getting married. Do you think I would take that away from her?"

I breathed in and out, deeply.

Alice swatted Jasper and said, "Told you so. You jinxed it."

No. I wouldn't do that to Bella. I'd already done enough damage in her life. Much too much damage, she deserved anormal, happy human life.

As if Alice possessed my talent, and she could read my mind, she said, "Edward, she's immortal."

Immortal… My beautiful, sweet, darling Bella. I would never see her blush scarlet, or hear her beautiful heart pound in her chest.

But worse than that; it had happened. What I had been trying to prevent. All these years had been in vain. All of my pain, all of her pain.

Worse still, my Bella would be united with another for eternity.

I started to dry sob, and Alice and Jasper went away.

I couldn't bear the fact that someone, other than myself, was going to be Bella's partner in life, her best friend.

I couldn't think about it.

Later in the week.

I walked slowly down the stairs and into the living room where Alice and Jasper were sitting on the couch.

Alice's eyes were wide, as were Jaspers. Surprised to see me out of my room, I guessed.

When they looked at me, I joined them on the couch.

"I want to see her," I said. Before Alice or Jasper could interrupt, I added, "But no more than that. She won't see me, or you. You're not even going." I said.

"Edward!" Alice complained. "You can't tell me that you're going to keep me from her."

"That's exactly what I'm going to do, Alice!"

She stood up. When Jasper grabbed her hand, she turned on him. "Jasper! Stop it, will you!?"

Alice turned to me. "And you!" Her nostrils flared. "You think you're the only one who misses her?"

I stood up, to fight back. "Of course I don't think that, Alice!" I threw my hands up in exasperation. "You don't think I know how hard it is for the rest of you guys?"

"Exactly, Edward! It's hard for us! It'll be better if you go talk to her! Not just for you, but everybody!"

I stared at her, my eyes full of… intense dislike. "How selfish can you get, Alice? Think about how hard it is for 'everybody'. Increase that by a hundredfold and maybe, just maybe will you be able to come close to even standing in the shadow of how much pain I'm in."

My words stung her. I saw it in her eyes, but I was too angry to even care. And then Jasper stood up so as to defend his partner.

"Don't talk to her like that!"

Jasper jumped off of the couch and moved in front of his petite wife.

"I'll talk to anybody anyway I want!" I shouted.

"Edward!"

My head whipped around to see Esme and Carlisle, standing next to Rosalie and Emmett.

"What are you doing here?" It was meant to be a question, but my voice was so saturated with rage that it sounded more like a statement.

"Edward, we came home because-"

"Because what?" I demanded, infuriated. "Because you felt sorry for me? You wanted to watch me wallow in self loathing? Congratulations! You've gotten your wish." I yelled.

Nobody moved, except Rosalie. She was up in my face in about two seconds.

"No, you idiot! We came because you're our brother, and we love you! Edward, we only want what's best for you. We want you to be happy!" she screamed at me.

I shook my head and turned around, making my way towards the stairs. "I'll never be happy again."

"Edward, I'm-"

"You're what? Sorry? No, Alice! Just… don't. Okay? I really do not want to hear it. I need to get out. After I take care of some things."

I then ran up to my room and bent besides the bedside table. I pulled out a jewelry box and then ran downstairs.

I'm sorry, Edward. Alice's voice occupied my brain.

I looked at her and shook my head, disgusted.

I bolted out the door, running. My destination was just... away. I needed to get away. With the wind in my face, I felt a little better.

I finally came to a secluded place in the forest. Immediately I sunk down to the moist earth, and started to dry sob.

Some time later…

I couldn't do it any longer.

No more pretending that I was happy.

No! I told myself. If Bella is happy, I'm happy.

Well, it was worth a shot. Right?

I loved Bella more than I loved life itself, which is why I was letting myself attempt to let her do this. Why I would be standing in the shadows when the vows started to pour out of her beautiful mouth.

With a sigh, I set the Jewelry box down and slowly opened it.

She would never know that I was there. And if all went the way I wanted it to, nobody would go with me. I needed to do this alone. And Bella deserved her happy ending. Who was I to take that away from her?

I began to sift through the collection of baubles that I had accumulated over time.

I knew I was cutting it close. Her wedding was mere weeks away and I had yet to pick out a gift for her. The rest of my family had already purchased their gifts, and I knew I had little time to decide.

For a bit, I contemplated giving her a car – surely she would not be as apposed to the speed now? – but in the end I decided against it. I wanted to give her something more personal.

Which was why I was sifting through my mother's things.

There were necklaces, rings, and many other treasures. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I found it.

The brilliant, heart shaped crystal. In the light of the full moon, it sparkled.

But would she wear it?

Of course not.

But I needed something of mine to be in her possession. Something that was close to me. Hopefully it would be close to her.

I sighed and pocketed it.

"Bella, darling…" I muttered. "I miss you so much sometimes. No, I miss you so much all the time. I miss the way you laugh, and the way your eyes sparkle. Your beautiful brown eyes…

"I don't know how I can go on without you. I must try, though. You're more important than anything I could want. Of course."

I continued talking to the air as if it were Bella. It felt good, but also painful. My mind was making up replies that I though she might say, but I knew they were just faint echoes.

As I lay down on the moist floor, I closed my eyes. And in doing so, I began to dream of Bella.

Her face would stay there, etched on the insides of my eyelids, until the end of time.

No, he wasn't really asleep. Just imagining, you know. I feel so bad for poor Edward. It's painful. Ahh. You guys are going to be angry with me. I already know that. I know, it's a little OOC. Okay, maybe a lot OOC. But that's the way that it needs to be for what I'm planning on writing.

R&R, Por Favor.

After you do that… GO read the next chapter.