Title of the Series: Scars Make Us Who We Are
Author: PsychoGlambertLIVE
Author's Note: This is my first attempt at writing fan fiction. Any constructive criticism is appreciated.
Pairing: Adam Lambert/Tommy Joe Ratliff/Sauli Koskinen, Adam Lambert/Kris Allen, Tommy Joe Ratliff/Isaac Carpenter, Sauli Koskinen/Katri Utala
Rating: MA18+
Summary: Adam is scheduled to go on a radio tour for a week, leaving Sauli and Tommy at home. When something completely unexpected happens on tour, Adam is faced with some very hard decisions. He knows that he has to keep what happened a secret; no one can ever find out. But when Sauli and Tommy discover the truth, other secrets come to light that leave all of them second-guessing their relationship.
Warning: Some of the sexual practices depicted in this work of fiction may inappropriate to some readers. Viewer discretion is advised.
Disclaimer: This is a non-profit, non-commercial work of fiction using the names and likenesses of real individuals. This fictional story is not intended to imply that the events herein actually occurred, or that the attitudes or behaviors described are engaged in or condoned by the real persons whose names are used without permission. The names of some of the additional characters appearing in this work of fiction have been changed to protect the individual's identity. The author intends no offense to anyone. The events appearing in the following text are products entirely of the author's imagination and are not meant to be in any way taken as having actually happened. The author owns none of the characters.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Nights Are Getting Colder
"I'm having a barbeque this weekend for Memorial Day, and you're both invited," Adam tells his managers outside.
Monte nods. "Sunday?"
"Yeah." Adam grabs his last bag from the car. "Come over around noon."
"Okay," Marc says, turning the key in the ignition. "We'll be here."
"See you then," Monte says as Marc backs the car out of the driveway.
Adam turns back to the house, still wondering what Tommy and Sauli could possibly have been fighting about. Chewing on his bottom lip, he goes upstairs to his bedroom. No sign of Tommy or Sauli. Sighing, he begins unpacking his bags.
Once everything is put in its proper place, Adam walks down to the kitchen. He pours himself a glass of water, sipping it slowly. A glance out the french doors leading to the backyard answers his question of where Sauli is. Katri and Sauli's sister, Saara, are laying on the lounge chairs, while Sauli's head of blonde hair is just visible above the clear blue water of the pool. Narrowing his eyes, he does a double take. Who is the other blonde swimming in the pool with Sauli?
Frowning, Adam opens the door a fraction of an inch, straining to make out the conversation. Sauli is talking to the other guy in Finnish. So the dude is obviously Finnish, which means he most likely came here with Katri and Saara. But why wouldn't Sauli say anything about him?
Deciding to get to the bottom of this, Adam takes a breath before walking out onto the patio. "Hey," he greets the girls.
They both stand up, smiles on their faces. "Hello, Adam!" Katri exclaims, giving him a hug. "How are you?"
"Good. How are you?" Adam hugs Katri back. Turning to Saara, he holds out his arms.
"Hi, Adam!" Saara says, hugging Adam tightly.
Out of the corner of his eye, Adam notices Sauli watching him. "When did you guys get here?" Adam asks the girls.
"Tuesday," Katri replies, sitting back down.
Adam takes a seat on the lounge chair next to her, kicking off his sandals and reclining back. He watches as first Sauli, then the other guy, climb out of the pool. The two blondes walk over to Adam, water dripping off their tanned, toned bodies. Adam can now get a better look at the mystery guy. He has an awesome body, no doubt about that. Completely ripped and sexy.
"Adam," Sauli says, "this is Heikki."
Adam stands up, shaking Heikki's offered hand. "Hi."
"Heikki is Saara's boyfriend," Sauli says, glancing over at Katri and earning a disapproving look.
Adam nods, little warning bells going off in his head. His gaydar is telling him that Heikki is most definitely not straight. "Sauli? Can I talk to you for second?"
Sauli's eyes widen almost imperceptibly. "Okay."
When they're both seated at the table in the kitchen, Adam begins, "Why didn't you tell me about Heikki when you told me about Katri and Saara?"
Sauli shrugs, avoiding Adam's steady gaze. "I guess it just slipped my mind."
Adam purses his lips, nodding once. That's when he notices Sauli's face for the first time. "What happened to the side of your face? There's a big scratch."
Sauli swallows hard. Putting a hand up to rub the spot where Tommy scratched him several days ago, he replies, "It was an accident. I, uh, fell off the bed and scratched myself on the nightstand."
Adam bites his bottom lip. He knows that's a lie. Not wanting to get into it at the moment, he asks, "What were you and Tommy fighting about?"
Sauli clears his throat. "Um...Nothing?" It comes out sounding like a question.
Adam raises his eyebrows skeptically. "It sure didn't sound like nothing. You were ready to start tearing each other's hair out."
Sauli looks up at Adam from under his lashes. "We just got in a fight. It was stupid."
"Why can't you tell me what you were fighting about?" Adam persists.
"I don't want to talk about it!" Sauli shouts suddenly, standing up and storming out into the hallway.
Adam sits there for several minutes, shocked over Sauli's outburst. Still reeling from the Sauli's uncharacteristic mini-meltdown, Adam goes upstairs to Tommy's bat-cave. The door, of course, is shut tight, and when Adam tries the knob, locked. Straining his ears, he can make out the faint sound of an unamplified electric guitar being played. He knocks gently. The guitar stops.
A minute later, the door is opened a fraction of an inch and Tommy's brown eyes are visible in the crack. "Yeah?"
"Can I come in, Tommy?" Adam asks, his arms crossed in front of his chest to show that he means business.
In answer, Tommy opens the door wider, standing back several feet to let Adam in.
Adam takes a seat on the edge of the bed. Tommy sits next to him, leaving several feet of space between them.
"What were you and Sauli fighting about?" Adam questions.
Tommy turns his head away, his hair falling in front of his face to shield his eyes from Adam. "Nothing," he mumbles.
Adam sighs. "That wasn't nothing, Tommy."
"Don't concern yourself with it," Tommy replies flatly. "We've apologized to each other. It's over."
"Don't be getting sassy with me, Tommy Joe," Adam says, trying to control his temper.
"I'm not!" Tommy insists.
Adam only looks at him. Deciding to change the subject, Adam says, "Who is Heikki?"
"Saara's boyfriend," Tommy answers without missing a beat.
Adam sighs again, standing up. "Fine."
Tommy looks up at Adam quickly, his expression guarded. "What do you mean?"
"Just what I said," Adam replies coolly. With that, he walks out of the room, slamming the door shut behind him.
Tommy is sitting on the couch after a very tense dinner. He glances over at Sauli, who is typing on his phone, sitting on the floor next to the other side of the couch. He takes a long swig out of the glass he's holding. Nothing like his favorite whiskey to help calm his nerves.
Over dinner, the tension was palpable. Adam didn't talk to either Tommy or Sauli. In fact, he barely said five words throughout the whole meal. And as soon as he was finished pushing the food around on his plate to make it look like he ate, he went upstairs and hasn't come down since.
And to top it off, Tommy now has to deal with yet another person he doesn't know staying here. Needless to say, he's pretty pissed that Adam offered Kris the bedroom upstairs next to the bedroom he shares with him and Sauli.
Where does that leave Tommy now? Nobody is supposed to know about their three-way relationship.
Tommy takes another drink of whiskey. Then, he feels his phone buzzing in his back pocket. Sliding it out, he checks the screen. One new message.
-I miss you, beb.
Isaac.
Tommy taps out a reply.
-I miss u, 2, beb. We'll c ea. other on Sun. tho. :)
Tommy is just about to slip his phone back in his pocket when it buzzes again. Glancing over at Sauli, he sees the Finn's pretty blue eyes staring back at him, suspicion clearly evident in his steady gaze. Tommy makes a face at him before turning back to his phone. Isaac's message contains only a single question mark.
-Adam's having a BBQ on Sun. Ur invited, along with the rest of the band. xo, Tommy
-But we won't be able 2 do what I want... ;)
-At least we'll be 2gether. :) Luv u.
-Luv u, 2
Tommy slides the phone into his pocket, tipping his glass to his lips to drink the last of the alcohol. Standing up, he announces, "I'm going to bed."
"At 10:30?" Sauli asks, without looking up from his phone.
"I'm tired," Tommy responds. "Besides, I want to get reacquainted with our boyfriend."
Sauli glances up at Tommy at that last statement, and for the first time all night, smiles at him. "Good idea."
Tommy smiles back, holding out his hand. He doesn't feel the least bit guilty about his texts with Isaac. What Adam doesn't know won't hurt him. But Sauli knows, Tommy reminds himself. And there's a very good possiblity that Adam will eventually find out what's going on.
Sauli takes hold of Tommy's outstretched hand, intertwining their fingers together. Tommy leads them upstairs, knocking softly on the door to the bedroom they share with Adam. Opening the door slowly, Tommy and Sauli pad quietly into the room, stopping at the foot of the king-sized bed.
Adam is on his laptop, typing. A minute passes before he flips the top down and finally looks up at his boyfriends. He is in pajama bottoms and a t-shirt. Both are jet black, contrasting sharply with his blonde hair. As his smoky grey eyes meet both his boyfriends', he raises his dark eyebrows questioningly. "Yes?"
"Can we cuddle?" Sauli asks timidly.
"Please?" Tommy adds, just as timidly.
Adam purses his lips, his tongue tracing the inside of his cheek. "I suppose you can."
Tommy and Sauli both crawl onto the bed, one on each side of Adam. They cuddle into him, their heads resting on each of Adam's shoulders. Adam puts his arms around both his boyfriends, holding them close.
Tommy inhales the warm scent of vanilla that is clinging to Adam. He can tell Adam just came out of the shower. He presses himself closer to his boyfriend; the scent of Adam's vanilla shampoo always turns him on.
Adam nuzzles his face in Tommy's purple hair, then turns to do the same to Sauli's blonde curls. He pulls back the duvet, pushing it down to the foot of the bed. Pulling the sheets out from under them, Adam snuggles into bed, Tommy and Sauli following suit. "Aren't you going to put your pajamas on?" Adam asks them.
"We'll just sleep naked," Sauli whispers, already wriggling out of his jeans and t-shirt.
Tommy kisses Adam on the cheek before removing his clothes and tossing them on the floor. Pressing his leaking cock against Adam's warm, pajama-clad thigh, he adds, "Yeah, sleeping naked is better than having all these pesky clothes between us."
Adam chuckles low in his throat, amused at his boyfriends' not subtle hints. "So let me guess; you want me naked."
Tommy nods his head vigorously. Sauli pecks a kiss on Adam's cheek.
Adam pulls his shirt off, then his pants, tossing both out of the bed. Completely naked, Adam cuddles both Tommy and Sauli close to him.
Tommy snuggles into Adam's warm chest, his hand trailing down Adam's abdomen. His fingers gently brush the tender skin where Adam's leg meets his groin. He rests his hand fully on Adam's cock, disappointed to find that Adam isn't even hard. What the hell? Tommy thinks. He can feel Sauli's hand against his own, and he is sure that Sauli is having the same thoughts. Pressing his lips to Adam's neck, he trails kisses over his collar bone, then up to his ear, his tongue flicking out to tease the folds of Adam's ear. He squeezes Adam's cock, experimenting. Still not hard!
Only more determined now, Tommy lifts a leg over one of Adam's, grinding his erection into Adam's thigh. One hand still on Adam's flaccid cock, he uses his other hand to finger Adam's pierced nipples. Bringing his fingers to his lips, he wets them with his tongue, then rolls Adam's nipple between his slick fingers. Squeezing Adam's cock again, he can feel it's a little harder, but not much.
Sighing in exasperation, Tommy sits up in bed. "Adam?" he whispers.
No answer.
"Adam!" Tommy whispers louder.
Still no answer.
"Tommy?" Sauli says, sitting up in bed, too. "I don't think he's awake."
"What?!" Tommy exclaims loudly, not caring if he wakes Adam up.
"He's all limp, like he's sleeping," Sauli says, disappointment evident in his voice.
Tommy shoves Adam roughly. "Ass," he mutters.
"No kidding," Sauli grumbles, laying back down.
Tommy pushes Adam's arm away from his pillow, pissed off that Adam can't even stay awake to have sex with his boyfriends, who he hasn't seen in a fucking week! Out of spite, Tommy elbows Adam in the ribs, feeling a small bit of triumph when Adam mumbles what sounds like 'Ow.'
"Goodnight, Tommy," Sauli whispers from the other side of the bed.
"'Night," Tommy whispers back, tears already forming in his eyes. "Nights are getting colder," he sings very quietly to himself. Turning around with his back to Adam, he buries his face in the pillow and cries himself to sleep.