Half an hour later Tommy was sitting at the piano re-reading Jude's lyrics for what seemed to be the millionth time. He had no idea what they meant and every time he read them in the hope of understanding them he simply became more confused. Sure the lyrics could be about him, but what if they were about Speid? Tommy sighed and put the lyrics back where he found them before leaving the room in search of the kitchen. He hadn't been here for a while and he'd forgotten where it was. Luckily Tommy soon found the kitchen and had managed to figure out the oven in order to make a batch of pancakes. He put some on another plate and put them in the oven to keep warm for Jude.

Upstairs Jude still couldn't sleep properly. At about twenty past seven she completely gave up and made her way downstairs, still in yesterday's clothes. She followed the smell of pancakes in order to find the kitchen and froze in the doorway when she saw Tommy sitting there staring into space with an empty plate in front of him. "Morning" she murmured, awkwardly slipping past him to get to the fridge. She pulled open the door and inspected the contents, she was really avoiding meeting Tommy's eye after last night, before eventually selecting a cartoon of orange juice and pulling out the big bowl of fruit salad. As she located a bowl and spoon for her fruit salad Jude felt Tommy's eyes following her around the kitchen. She was determined not to bring up last night first, if he wanted to talk about it then fine but she wasn't going to start a conversation she didn't really want to have. Besides Tommy was the one who arranged all this so it was up to him to make the effort. As she slipped into a chair at the other end of the table in the middle of the kitchen Tommy rose from his chair and walked down to where she was sitting.

"This seat taken?"

"It's your house Quincy." Jude busied herself by looking round the kitchen. She was about to compliment Tommy on how he'd managed to make it look so good when he spoke.

"Jude about last night-"

"Tommy do we really have to talk about this now?"

"Yes we do Jude. You never want to talk about these things but for once you're gonna listen! That song last night I wrote while I was away. I wrote it about a month after I'd left. Do you really wanna know why I came here Jude? I came here because I knew I had to accept responsibility of the baby that had been caused by one stupid mistake. It was my responsibility to help and look after Kat away from the scrutiny of home. I'd just bought this house and I paid to fly her out here after I came here to furnish it. We didn't even talk the whole time we were here except polite conversation and arrangements for after the birth. Only one of us was meant to come back Jude, not both of us. Kat was going to stay here while I was going to come back. We agreed on that because Kat knew how much I love you and how much you love me. Or at least loved me. She felt guilty at having ruined our relationship and so she offered to stay here after I argued my point. I was going crazy without you. If you go through all those CDs in the music room every single song is about you. Or by you, I bought your music while I was out here because I missed hearing your voice and your songs, Jude your songs killed me because they were about how I'd hurt you but I still bought them and I still listened to them because it was you. And I know I was a jerk and an idiot and I hurt you, and I'm so sorry Jude." He paused. He reached over to her and took one of her hands. She finally looked at him and saw he was crying like she was. "Jude please, just give me another chance. I love you."

Jude sniffed and wiped away her tears shaking her head at him. "I don't know if I can Tommy."

"Do you still love me?"

"Tommy don't ask me that."

"Do you still love me?"

"Yes Tommy, yes I still love you."

"Then give me another chance, give us another chance."

"I don't know if I can Tommy, how can I trust you again after…after that?"

Tommy sighed and contemplated his answer briefly before replying. "I don't know Jude." He said honestly.

"Exactly." She stated sadly, pushing back her chair and leaving the kitchen. She located Tommy's keys and grabbed them from the side they were on. She needed to get away from the house for a little bit. Jude had heard the beach was nice here in California this time of year. She stuck the key in the ignition and pulled away from the house just in time to see Tommy chasing after the car yelling her name. Halfway down the driveway he ground to a halt, defeated. Jude wiped away another tear, turned on the radio and drove.

"Oh my God, Jude is that you? Where the hell have you been! Why didn't you call? Weren't you thinking at all? Have you any idea how worried I've been? Wait…Kwest no I will not ask about him…because I don't want to…fine…and have you seen Tommy because he hasn't been seen since you left…oh my gosh Jude you're with Tommy aren't you? Where are you?" Jude bit her lip to keep down her anger at Sadie's disapproval, she knew that Sadie was just worried about her and annoyed that she hadn't phoned earlier.

"I'm in California, Tommy brought me here for three weeks apparently. Darius was in on it too. They both planned it. Tommy is trying to win me back but I don't know if I can go back to him knowing what I know now about the reason he left. Or rather the reason he had to leave in the first place. I mean I love him so much Sadie but how do I know this won't happen again? Can I trust him? Should I trust him? And what about Speid because Speid kissed me the day I left and I don't know what to do about that because I like Speid, I mean he's a great guy but do I like him in that way? And will I be constantly comparing him to Tommy if I do give Speid a chance? Sadie pleeease help me!" Jude bent down and picked up a pebble from the few scattered around the shoreline. She rubbed her fingers over its smooth texture before skipping it out on the sea. At the other end of the line she heard Sadie sigh.

"Jude I don't know. Follow your heart."

"That's the problem Sades, my heart is confused. When I came here with Tommy I had it all sorted out in my mind: we were going to talk about everything and then I'd have my closure and move on, and give the whole thing with Speid a chance. But then last night when we got here Tommy played me this song and it was about how stupid he was and how he loved me, and then my emotions kicked in. And here I am. Lonely and confused, stuck in California for two weeks, five days and however many hours are left of this day."

"You could always come home Jude, Tommy can't exactly stop you. I'd come and get you if you want…"

"No thanks Sadie. I owe to myself to stick it out here. I need this no matter how weird it's gonna be." She sighed as she stared out to sea. "I'll phone you tomorrow. Love ya big sis."

"Love ya lil sis. Phone me if you change your mind, okay?"

"Yeah sure. Bye Sades." Jude closed her cell and sighed again. She sat down on the beach and pulled her knees close to her chest. She pulled off her shoes and socks and let the waves lap against her feet as she sat there contemplating things. She shouldn't have really taken Tommy's car like that. But she'd needed to get away from that house. When he mentioned Kat had been there, with their baby, she just couldn't stand it. Jude sighed and ran a hand through her hair as the sea wind whipped her face sending goosebumps running up her arms. She shivered and rubbed her hands up and down her arms trying to keep herself warm.

"Want a jacket?" She heard a familiar voice ask. She didn't feel like talking so she pretended not to have heard him, which could be believable given the roaring of the wind in her ears. Out of the corner of her eye she saw him sit down next to her. "Look I thought about it and I don't deserve your trust again, but I want to tell you that I've grown up. I was a stupid kid back then who made the most stupid mistake I will ever make no matter how long I live and it lost me you. I don't expect a miracle but you have to believe me when I tell you I love you Jude. You can hate me, and you can not trust me but you have to believe that."

"I know." She said in a tiny voice suddenly feeling very tired. She didn't want to fight but she still wanted to be alone, and she still needed to phone Speid. "Tommy look I'm sorry about taking the car I just needed to get away and the beach was too far to walk. You take the car and go back."

"What about you?"

"I'll get a cab. I just need some time by myself still, I need to phone Speid."

Tommy bit his lip, "What exactly is going on between you two?" He asked, dreading the answer.

"I honestly don't know right now. That's why I need to call him." Although he said nothing Tommy seemed to accept her answer. He kissed her on the cheek and took the car keys from her hand. She waited until she heard the car engine rev up and fade out as he drove off before dialling Speid's number. Something told her this would not be a fun phone call.