Chapter 14 "I am Fine"

Brenda went in the house and slumped on to the couch. She sat there quiet and then realized everybody was staring at her.

Kelly went over and sat next to her on the couch.

"Are you ok? Can I get you anything?"

"No, I am fine." Brenda took a deep breath, "I lost one Kel. There were two." She said it loud enough for everyone to hear.

Kelly took a deep breath, "Twins? I am so sorry Brenda"

Dylan made his way into the kitchen not knowing what to say and not wanting to hear the story again. That's how he dealt with things the best was to run away from them. He decided to make Brenda a sandwich and make her eat something.

"Jim went over to Brenda and sat on the other side of her. "Honey, I am sorry…I am sorry for this morning…I am sorry about the baby…." Jim had tears in his eyes and Brenda had never seen her father cry before.

"It's ok dad." She said smiling, she was still mad at him but it just didn't seem important anymore.

"Where's Dylan?" She noticed he was not there.

"I think I saw him go into the kitchen I will find him."

Brandon walked into the kitchen and saw a sandwich plate made but Dylan was sitting at the kitchen table slumped over with his hands covering his face.

"Bren is asking about you?" Brandon said slowly

"I have always known what to say to Brenda, always." He looked at Brandon "But not now, I am at a complete blank."

"Dylan, my sister loves you, she isn't looking for you to come and be a hero. You need to deal with your feelings and talk to her about it. Shutting her out will only tear you apart. She is still carrying your baby."

"I know."

Dylan got up and picked up the sandwich plate. Brandon patted him on the back and they

went back into the living room to join everyone else. Dylan walked over to Brenda and looked at Kelly hoping she would get the hint and move over so he can sit by her, which Kelly did get.

"You have to eat something." handing her the sandwich.

"Thanks" she looked at him and smiled and patted the space next to her so he would sit down.

It was a pretty quiet evening and Jim and Cindy retired early. Brandon and Kelly stuck around for a little while.

"Are you sure your ok, both of you?" Brandon asked.

"Yes I am fine, Dylan, are you fine?" Dylan nodded. "See we're fine."

"Its fine, it just happened." Brenda continued

"Now Brenda, your not going to try to do the thing where you tell everyone your fine when your really not." Brandon joked.

"No, I am fine and if you ask me again I might slap you."

Brandon knew she was joking yet serious at the same time. Brenda had always been feisty and that's what most everybody loved about her unless you were the one she was mad at."

"Well I guess we are going to go." Brandon said looking at Kelly. "I have an interview tomorrow early."

"Fingers crossed." Kelly smiled

Dylan walked them out, saying goodbye, "Thanks guys, it meant a lot you being here."

Kelly gave Dylan friendly hug, "Take care of her Dylan, you always said that she wasn't as strong as she put on to be."

Dylan nodded, "Thanks bro" as they slapped hand and ended with a snap.

Kelly rolled her eyes; "I can't believe you guys still all do that" she finished with a smile. "Can we go? I want to get out of these clothes and take a bubble bath."

"That's my cue." Brandon said as he lifted his eyebrow.

"Ok, have fun with that." Dylan said as he shifted to the side looking uncomfortable.

"Come on" Kelly grabbed Brandon's hand and pulled him out of the house.

Dylan slowly walked over and stopped as he looked at Brenda looking down playing with the tie on her sweats. He walked over to her and sat next to her. He looked over at her but she didn't return his glance.

"Bren? What are you thinking about?"

Brenda sighed, "Nothing"

"Breeenda" he dragged out her name and she smirked because he always did that when he was getting frustrated with her. "You know I can read you like a book."

"I know you can." She looked up and finally found his eyes.

"You know we are going to be ok right? Dylan said reassuring

"I am fine."

"You are not fine."

"Are you fine?"

Dylan sighed, he knew what he had to do and it was tell the truth. "No, I am not"

"Me neither" she gave him a sad smile.

Dylan put his arm around her and pulled her close to him. Brenda instantly started crying and he could hear her and feel her sobs on his chest. Dylan let the tears go without blinking them away and Brenda could feel him begin to shake.

Brenda pulled away and rubbed her nose on his, she saw the pain in his eyes and her heart ached.

"You can tell me anything. You know that." Dylan nodded.

Brenda got a big smile on her face, "Remember our first date?"

Dylan wiped his face and laughed, "Hell yeah I remember, you thought I was going crazy."

"You were a little scary but every time I saw you around school, you always looked so cool and mysterious. That night, I saw you in a whole different light and I knew I could fall in love with you."

"I felt the same way, and that kiss…that kiss was intense."

They both laughed. "Oh god we were so young." Brenda sighed "And look at us now."

"Come on baby, let's go to bed. You need your rest." Dylan got up and held his hand out.

Brenda grabbed his hand and started walking toward the stairs. Dylan pulled her back to him and kissed her lips hard yet slow, after several minutes they came up for air and Brenda felt her legs get weak.

Dylan bit his bottom lip, raised his eyebrows and smiled, "We still got it."

Brenda giggled, "pshhh like it was ever gone." she said scrunching her nose up

They headed up to bed and held each other the whole night. They talked about the baby, the future, the past, the good times, the bad. They cried, they laughed, the reminisced of Baja, the endless make out sessions, her father, when they tried living together which was always a funny thing to remember because since then they had lived together a bunch of times and it was always fine. Dylan and Brenda had been through a lot of stuff together and they knew that losing this baby was just going to keep them close if not even closer and having the baby would make their family complete.

Ok sorry kind of a mushy chapter. Good stuff and a little comedy will be coming back thank god, this took a sadder approach than I had wanted but hey plans change, ideas come at 2 am. You know how it goes. You can't have an emotional and passionate couple like Brenda and Dylan lose a baby and not acknowledge it. A tease to the next chapter, time is passing and the girls will be a lot farther along. I have ideas but haven't started writing just yet. Send me your comments and it will make me write faster. If that's what you want that is. :P