Bella's POV

Three days without Edward. Three whole days without him controlling me. It hasn't kept him from calling me every day trying to call the shots but he can't. Alice knows the deal by now. If her plan doesn't work I am killing myself at the end of Renesmee's cycle. I can't do this anymore and if I try to leave him he will hunt me down until the day I die if not kill everyone I care about to get me to come back.

Human blood is surprisingly not as good as I thought it would be. I thought it would taste better than anything but it's just ok. I mean it's slightly better than the animal blood I drink but it's not so much better that I would kill for it. I guess I've never meet my singer so maybe if I smelled their blood everything would be different.

"Mom! Are you ready?" Renesmee asks bounding into the room I have inhabited. I couldn't face another night in Edward's and I room. It just reminded me to much of him so I moved into the only free room in the house, Jasper's. I like the feel of the room. It's very comfortable and relaxing. My daughter, Rose, and Esme thought it was strange but Alice helped me come up with a lie. We told them it was too hard for me to smell Edward every day. I know I am not right. I shouldn't still care for him and love him but he gave me Renesmee and he I did love him so much once. It's all just so hard to separate.

"Yes I am!" I tell her. We are going hunting together today. I haven't gone hunting in years now. I am really excited to track an animal and take it down. Renesmee has been insistent that I take her hunting and after Alice pumped me full of human blood I am strong enough to go now. I honestly think that a possum could have over powered me a few days ago.

We jump out of Jasper's window and run across the yard. We both find an animal we like and we start tracking them. I found a deer and I take off after it. I feel a bit rusty but I quickly catch up to it and take it down. It feels good to hunt again. It feels good to be full again. Alice is still a bit worried because of how long I went without proper nutrients but I feel so much better. I still have some mending to do before I am fully back together but I am doing great.

On the way back to the house I run into Renesmee. "Looks like you're doing ok with the blood now." She says to me. I know she knows something is up.

I smile at her and I'm glad I can't blush. "I guess I just needed a little push to get back into it. I enjoyed that very much." Renesmee comes up next to me and wraps her arms around my waist and leans her head on my shoulder. "Mom what is going on? I know something is wrong."

Those are some of the words I have dreaded the most from her. I don't want to bad talk her father to her and ruin their relationship but he is not treating me right. It took me a long time to come to that realization. Actually I think it took me getting back with my family to realize that. I thought I was the problem, that I wasn't good enough. I'm finally starting to understand that the problem isn't me it's him. "Darling I don't want you to worry about it. I am fine now, no I'm great now. Let's just enjoy the rest of the day."

Renesmee pushes off me and gives me a stern look. It's funny that my daughter looks older than me. She can almost put me in my place but I am still her mom. "Mom don't lie to me. Something is wrong and I think it has to do with dad. What is he doing to you?" I should have known my daughter would see past it all and figure out what the problem is.

I let out a long sigh and I pull Renesmee with me deeper into the forest going away from the house. I find a nice spot near a small pond and I take a seat pulling her down next to me. "Honey you know that I love you more than anything and so does your father right?" Renesmee shakes her head yes. "Well the past few years they haven't been the greatest with him."

"What do you mean haven't been the greatest? Does it have something to do with why you don't like blood or why you always wear turtlenecks and long sleeves?"

I can't look her in the eyes. I don't know if I should be doing this. I don't want to ruin her relationship with her father. I don't want to risk anyone in my family. I grab her hands and look her in the eyes. "Your father and I have had a difference of opinion and how I and we should live our lives. He doesn't like me drinking too much blood and has been limiting my intake."

Renesmee's eyes grow large and she looks at me confused. "Mom that is bullshit. He is keeping you from eating? He is killing you? Can't he tell that you are slipping further and further? Every day that went by you were turning almost more human. You were jittery and clumsy, your skin and your hair were dull, you were exhausted and looked sickly. What do you mean he has been limited you? He looked fine! Looks like has been eating whatever the fuck he wants!" I wince at her tone of voice.

"Honey your father was just limiting me. He thought it would help me with my control." Why am I rationalizing his behavior?

Renesmee stands up and stomps her leg. "Your control? Your fucking control? You are the most in control vampire I have ever met! When you were changed you didn't even crave human blood! Hell right now you are drinking human blood and you don't want it at all! Control my ass!"

I pull on her hand. "Please honey calm down. I realize that my control is fine. I didn't realize how bad it had gotten."

"Is he hurting you?" She asks me point blank. I look at her and I can't keep her eye contact and I look away. She grabs my face and makes me look at her. "Is he hurting you?" She asks again.

If I could cry I would. "Yes." I whisper. Renesmee takes off towards the house I run after her screaming for her to stop. She finally does and looks at me. "Where are you going?" I ask her.

"I am getting Grammy, Rose, and Alice. Then I am going to go find dad and beat the shit out of him!" She yells at me.

"No Renesmee. He is still your father. I don't want that. Please don't tell Esme or Rose I'm not ready for that yet. Alice knows. She been helping me cope with it for awhile now and she has a plan to get me out of it."

Renesmee eyes get angry. "What do you mean Alice has known for awhile? How long has this been going on?"

Oh god this is tough. I bite on my lip and fidget a bit. "It started about 35 years ago. It started with small stuff and just got worse."

"35 YEARS! Are you fucking kidding me? 35 years he has been keeping you from drinking and hurting you! No wonder you were getting so weak." I give her a nod and look down at me feet. I feel her hands on my shoulders. "Mom how did he hurt you?"

I look at her and shake my head. "Honey there are some things you don't need to see."

"Mom I want to know." She says staunchly back at me.

I shake my head no again. "No, Renesmee. I don't want you to see it. It's bad enough I have to look at it in the mirror every day. I don't want those images in your mind has well. I just want you to see me has you do."

"Is it like Uncle Jasper?" She asks me. I shake my head yes. It really is the best analogy for it. He is riddled in scars from bite marks and ripping of limbs too. "I am going to kill him." She says quietly.

I grab her arm. "No, he is your father. It is going to be alright now."

"Is this why you never told dad about your ability to talk to people with your mind?" She nods again. "I couldn't let him know that about me. I would have no freedom. The only hint of freedom I had was to talk to you or Jake or Alice with my mind without him hearing it."

"Why didn't Alice say something?" Her anger is beginning to boil over. I am going to have to let her have some time to cool down after all of this.

"She couldn't honey. Your father threatened her mate if she got involved. Her mate is just a human toddler. I told her not to risk him. Her hands were tied has well."

"He was blackmailing Aunt Alice?" I slowly shake my head yes. "I hate him."

I grab her into a hug. "Don't say that honey. I don't even hate him. He gave me you. How can I hate a man that gave me the most wonderful daughter in the world?"

She pushes away from me. "How can I love a father who has been hurting the most wonderful mother in the world?"

"You pretend I never said anything. I do not want you to tell anyone about this. Your father has made it clear that he will stop at nothing to keep things as they are and I don't want you telling everyone. Keep it a secret. You wanted to know and I told you. Your Aunt Alice said she has some kind of plan for me to get away from him. I can't just leave or he would hunt me down for the rest of my life."

"Not if I kill him!" Renesmee snarls.

"You will not kill him. He is your father Renesmee and he's the only one you are ever going to have."

Renesmee shakes her head no. "He is not my father. I refuse to call him that anymore. I have more than enough family with Uncle Jasper, Uncle Emmett, and Gramps. I don't need or want him in my life anymore."

"Please honey don't say that. I didn't tell you this so you would hate your father. You asked me for the truth and I gave it to you. Everything is going to be alright." It will be. I can just feel it. "Now please do not tell your Grammy or Aunt Rose about this. I don't want to talk to them about it."

She starts to fight me but give me a resigned shake of her head. "I will keep it a secret till dad comes back but if you think I am going to let him take you back to Wyoming and continue to beat you are out of your mind."

I nod in agreement. "I will not be going back to Wyoming with him. Now that I know what life should be like I can't go back to that again."

Renesmee launches onto me and starts to sob on my shoulder. "I love you mommy." She cries in to hair. "I love you too honey."

Renesmee continued to cry on me for awhile. When she was done she ran off into the woods to destroy whatever she could get her hands on. I know she is horny as hell to add to all of her stress. I wish Jake could be here but for her but I understand why he is afraid to try and have a child with her. They don't know what they would make and Jake loves her too much to survive without her if something happened to her.

Alice is standing on the front porch when I arrive back home and she smiles at me. She waves me over and I dash quickly, quicker than I have been in decades. "I am glad you told her. She needed to know. I was going to make you tell her so that my plan would work."

"Alice what are you planning on doing?" I need to know. I just need to be able to prepare for it. Alice jumps off the porch in an easy move and gracefully lands on her feet. "You are afraid that he will not leave you alone if you leave him right?" I shake my head yes. "You are right, he won't. I have seen it. He will follow you till the ends of the earth until someone kills him or you're his again. And he has not problem trying to kill anyone who gets in his way."

"I didn't need your visions to tell me that. He has told me if I ever think of leaving him or I ever tell anyone about him he will kill me or kill you or kill your mate or Jake. He's made it clear that he will find me no matter where I hide." I have been living with that fear for so long that it almost doesn't even scare me anymore.

"I am going to fake your death Bella. He won't look for someone he thinks is dead. I am going to set a fake trail for him to follow that keep him busy trying to find your murderer for years. Anytime you want you can come back and we can kill him." I have never heard Alice talk with such vehemence before. She wants him dead.

"No Alice, I don't want him dead. I know everything he has done to me but he is still my husband and the father of my child. I do not want him dead." She shakes her head in reluctant agreement. "Are we going to tell the family I am dead too? I don't want Renesmee thinking I am dead."

"I will do whatever you want Bella. It will kill everyone to think you are dead. I think we should tell them the truth once he leaves trying to hunt down your murderer. There might be a risk that they would slip to him at one point but by then you would be long gone and safe."

"Where am I going?" This all seems so crazy but it also seems like it will work.

"I am sending you with Jasper." She says quietly.

"With Jasper?" Why would she send me with him? Why would he want to leave him family and his life behind to go on the run with me?

She slowly shakes her head yes. "He cares about you and has been worried like the rest of us. He wants to help you. I haven't told him what happened yet and I am going to let you decide when and what you want to tell him. I have it all set up don't worry about a thing." Alice will make sure that every single detail is thought of long before her plan even starts.

She hands up a package and shakes it. "Peter sent me this today and I need you to rub it all over your skin a few times a day until it smells like you."

I take the package in my hands, shake it, and then smell it. "What is this?" I ask with her with a laugh.

She smiles at me. "It's a vampire's ash. Peter must have known that I would need this and he sent it to me. It's going to be the nail in the coffin that convinces Edward you're dead."

I really don't want to rub this all over my skin but I will. "So who will he think killed me?' I ask her.

"I am going to make it seem like an old adversary of his. He will blame himself for it." She says with a hint of glee in her eye. She is glad that he is going to hurt and quite frankly a little bit of pain might do him some good.