CHAPTER 14:

Allison ran into her trailer and slammed the door. Tears were streaming down her face. How could Adam do that? How could he purposely hurt himself?! WHY? Was it because of those stupid guys? Did they REALLY upset him that much?! That wasn't really a big deal. They were just a group of assholes. Their opinion shouldn't matter to him. Why did it then? How long had this gone on without her knowledge? Adam had always seemed like a dark person to her; the black clothes, black nail polish, and the dark make-up and all. But this?! It was just too hard to believe. He'd always seemed like an optimist to her. Didn't care what people thought of him. Almost always had a smile on his face. ALMOST always.

There had been a few times she'd caught him on the verge of tears. He always held it in though. He would say he was fine. He would be brave though and put a plastered smile on his face. She could usually see through it though. She would try to comfort him, try to see what was wrong and cheer him up. He'd just shrug it off though. Say everything was fine. Or, he'd storm off. Like he did today off the stage. And today he cut himself. He CUT himself. ADAM. It was all so just...out there.

When she had seen him there with his wrist all bloody, her head had been spinning. Her mouth had went dry. Her head went blank. She couldn't speak. She couldn't think of anything to say. And finally when she did speak, it came out all wrong. Not how she wanted it at all. Her words were full of hatred. Full of judgment. No sympathy, no compassion. Nothing. She had tried to stop, but she couldn't. The words just kept flowing out.

That look on Adam's face would forever be implanted in her brain. He look devastated. Miserable. Heartbroken. She had caused him so much pain. He'd probably never speak to her again.

Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. She wiped her eyes, then got up to open it. Maybe it was Adam. Maybe. Hopefully. He deserved an apology.

Allison opened the door. Nope, not Adam. It was Kris. She quickly wiped her eyes. "Hey Allison, do..." he looked up at her, noticing her tear-stained face. "Hey, what's wrong?" he asked, putting a hand on her shoulder. She glanced over at it. Should she tell him? Did he even know?

"I...just...I..." she started fumbling for words. "Eh, just...never mind. It's...not important. I guess. It's...just nothing."

"You sure?" Kris asked, his voice full of sympathy and disbelief. He obviously didn't buy her pitiful attempt at a lie.

"Yeah, I'm sure," she lied. "Just stupid teenage girl issues. You wouldn't understand." she looked down, avoiding his gaze. He still didn't believe her. He knew her too well.

"Well...okay..." Good. At least he was leaving the subject alone. She wiped her eyes again.

"So, why are you here anyway?" she asked, quickly changing the subject.

"Oh yeah. I was just seeing if Adam was here with you, that's all..." Allison's breath caught in her throat at the mention of Adam's name. Her throat went dry.

"What...what do you mean?" she finally managed to say.

"I went looking for him a few minutes ago, and he wasn't in his trailer. Wasn't backstage either. He seemed upset, so I wanted to make sure he was okay. I figured he was here with you since you guys are close again..."

"Were..." she interrupted sadly.

"Awww sweetie, is that why you were crying?" She nodded grimly. He pulled her into a hug. "I'm sorry Allie. Don't worry, I'm sure we can work things out. What happened?"

She debated telling Kris everything. What she had seen. All of that blood... She shivered thinking about it. Maybe she should tell him. He could probably help her out with this whole ordeal. He was good like that.

Just as she was about to tell him, his phone rang. "One sec Allison..." he said, taking his phone out of his pocket and answering it. She watched him intently, listening to his responses. "Uh huh...uh huh...REALLY?! Sh...I mean, crap...Yeah, okay. Thanks. Bye." He hung up.

"What was that about?" Allison asked him.

"Well, apparently my car's gone. Someone stole it. God, this sucks..."

As soon as he said that, Allison knew where Adam was. What he was trying to do. Her mouth dropped open. She brought a hand up it it. Her lip started quivering. "No...please no..." The tears began to come back. She collapsed to the ground, sobbing. Kris immediately dropped to his knees by her side.

"Allison, what's wrong?" he said, putting a hand on her shoulder.

"I've...I've killed him!" she shouted, burying her face in her hands and continuing to sob. "...I've killed him! I've killed him! I've killed him..."