A/N: Yay another chapter! Hope you all enjoy this one!
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural.
The drive back home was fairly tense for Natalie. Marina had been to curious and began to ask her why every time she called Bobby, Natalie was never available. Natalie tried changing the subject several times but to no avail. There was no way someone who was intuitive as Marina could let any of this slip by her.
Natalie had finished telling Marina everything she learned about their family. Them coming from a long line of hunters, the hunt for Amdusias and the possibility that one of his demons killed dad and being hell bent on finishing off the rest of them. Marina didn't know whether to think her sister was crazy or that she was telling the truth. Instead, she settled for keeping her attention on driving. There was a silence that filled the car and it was becoming to much for Natalie to handle. "Look Mari I know you...are upset with me but it was the only way too-"
"Nad just don't. I can't believe you told Bobby to train you...to become a hunter. And I can't believe Bobby thought it was a good idea to allow you to do this!" Marina called out. Natalie flinched slightly at her sister's outburst. Marina wasn't one who vented her anger towards anyone. It brought back the memory back at the hospital when Marina told Natalie about their brother.
"Why Nad?" Marina finally asked.
Natalie stared at her sister and sighed, "Because I needed to make sure you and mom would be safe. I didn't want you getting involved with any of this Mari, so I took it upon myself."
Marina had nothing else to say about the matter. Marina knew that she was upset about Natalie doing this but she was more upset about the fact that Natalie would even be put into this position. If their father had left the job maybe they wouldn't be in this situation.
Marina sighed in defeat, "Let's just not think about it anymore Nad. You did what you thought was right. Even though I don't like it, I'm not one to tell you what's right and wrong." Natalie leaned back in her seat and closed her eyes. "But, that doesn't mean you are off the hook that easily Nad."
Natalie simply nodded her head. It felt so nice to have finally told Marina everything. While she was on the hunts, a heavy feeling sat on her shoulders and telling Marina helped lift it. But, Natalie wasn't in the clear just yet. She still had to deal with whatever was wrong with her mother.
The car pulled into the driveway to their home and Natalie stepped out of the car. Just standing there and looking at the house made her feel something she never thought she would feel. Natalie followed Marina into the house and she was met with a negative feeling. She didn't feel like this was her home, she didn't feel welcomed. The house she was standing in was no longer the home she had known for years. There was a dark essence that covered this entire house and it was to strong for Natalie's liking.
The two sisters stood at the foot of the staircase, neither of them quite knowing how to go from here. "I think I'm going to try and see mom." Natalie said before slowly making her way up the stairs.
Once she reached the top she turned around and gazed down at Mari who tried to give her an encouraging smile. Natalie gave her a small nod before walking down the hall towards their mothers' bedroom. The door was closed and Natalie walked up to it, her hand grabbing the door handle.
She raised her hand and timidly knocked on the door and tried turning the knob, finding that the door had been locked. She tried knocking again, "Mom? Mom it's me Natalie. Can you let me in?" There was no answer. Natalie pressed her lips together and knocked on the door once again with a lot more vigor. A loud thud against the door caused her to jump back. "Mom?" The thud came again and Natalie figured her mom was telling her to go away. Natalie stood there for a few more moments before huffing and walking back downstairs.
Marina was in the kitchen preparing a some tea for her and Natalie. She sat down at the table as Natalie walked into the kitchen with a distraught look on her face. Natalie sat down across from Marina who pushed a cup of tea towards her. "Didn't have any luck with mom?" Marina finally asked.
Natalie shook her head as she took a drink from her cup, "I tried talking to her to get her to open the door...all I got was something being thrown at the door."
Marina stared at her sister with sadness. If only Marina could try and talk some sense into her mother but her mother was not willing to listen.
"What are we going to do Nad?" Marina asked. Natalie tapped the side of her glass and thought for a moment. There was really nothing they could do if their mom kept her door locked the whole time. She needed to get in the room so she could talk with her mom face to face.
"I guess the only thing we can do is try to talk mom into letting us in. We can't do much from the other side of the door." Natalie offered and Marina silently agreed.
"I called someone who might be able to help us." Marina said suddenly. Natalie's eyes swept up to look at her sister, already gathering an idea as to who she called.
Natalie and Marina stared at each other for a few seconds before Natalie started shaking her head, "She is not going to help us Mari."
Marina sighed and leaned forward, "Natalie she is our aunt and she is a hunter-"
"She was a hunter Mari. She doesn't do that anymore and I know she wouldn't want us bringing all of this over to her." Natalie explained before taking another drink.
"She told me that if we needed help...she would help us." Marina finally admitted. Natalie stared at her sister, disbelief began to fill her.
Finally, Natalie scoffed causing Marina to narrow her eyes, "Oh yeah, now she wants to help. Where the hell was she when Dad died? Or even when Andrew died? From what I remember she never called us or even went to Dad's funeral. Was she there for Drew's funeral?" Natalie stared at Marina, seeing a small defeated look on her face. "Exactly. As far as I remember she never contacted us after that happened and now suddenly she wants to offer a helping hand." Natalie let out another scoff and leaned back in her chair. "As far as I am concerned, she can screw herself."
Marina's glare towards her sister grew deeper, "Aunt Clara was Dad's sister Nad. She deals with death differently, just like you and me. Isolating herself from us was a way of coping. And, we are her nieces, if we need help she will help us."
Natalie rubbed her hands down her face and sighed, "Yeah, okay fine, whatever. If we need her we can call her. But only if we really need her. Right now let's just see what we can do."
Natalie walked up the stairs and down the hall towards her mother's bedroom door. She grabbed the door knob hoping it would be unlocked, but it wasn't. Her hand raised and knocked on the door, "Mom? Mom please open the door." Natalie leaned her ear towards the wood of the door, trying to hear anything but there was only silence. "Mom...mom please can you just open the door?" In response, Natalie was only given silence.
She sighed and leaned against the wall next to the door and slid down to the floor. Her knees were pulled to her chest and she wrapped her arms around them. For a few minutes she sat there, in complete silence. Not one noise was heard from the bedroom and it began to worry Natalie.
Her head turned towards the door, "Mom? If you can hear me can you at least throw something or make a noise so I know?" Natalie listened intently for a few seconds before a thud against the door gave her relief, "Thank you."
Silence once again fell over the situation. Natalie was still sitting on the floor next to the door, hoping that her mother would come to her senses. She didn't want to leave her mom and she refuses to do so. Even though her mother had been giving her a bunch of crap over the past two years, she was here right now, able to do something for her mother.
"Mom, I know you probably hate me. I mean for the past two years you've done nothing but blame me. Now that...Drew is gone...there was a time when I did blame myself. All I could think about was that night. I should have made him turn around or done something, rather than just sit there. Trust me I have been beating myself up everyday since that night."
Natalie allowed her legs to stretch out before her and she sighed, "Being at Bobby's, he tried to get me to realize that I wasn't at fault for anything that happened...to Drew or Dad. I wanted to believe him but I just can't. You know Bobby, Dean, Sam and Marina, they all tell me that it wasn't my fault, that I shouldn't blame myself. I am so close to believing it, but there is one person I haven't heard it from...it's you mom. If I am going to get past this I need to know that you don't blame me." Natalie could hear her voice becoming more desperate. Her eyes began to sting with tears that were brimming her eyes. She never expected to go this deep within herself. Doing this only made the healing wounds open back up again.
"I forgive you mom. For everything you put me through, everything you ever said to me...I forgive you. Can you do the same for me? Just so I can move on from this horrible hell I am living in right now. Please mom." Natalie's eyes closed and her head turned to the side. The only thing she did was listen. Listen for any sign from her mother that could give her any kind of hope. Hope that will give you strength to move on and actually fully heal from all of this.
For several seconds, Natalie waited with anticipation. As seconds turned to minutes, Natalie began to give up that hope she was so desperately clinging to. The idea of helping her mom was slowly starting to diminish. If her mom wasn't willing to let her in, how was she supposed to help her? Then it came. A small, gently knock on the door alerted Natalie. Her eyes snapped open and she stared at the door. "Mom..." Another gently knock came again and a smile crossed her lips, "I'm going to take that as a good sign."
So we have Natalie digging in a little deep in this chapter! I am currently writing the next chapter so I might be able to get it up later on today. Anyways don't forget to review! xx