I'm so so sorry this has taken so long to update. I've been on holiday and then I got promoted in work so it's hard to find a minute to do anything. Hope this chapter was worth the wait.

Disclaimer: Not mine.

Chapter 14

Flack walked into the now empty OR. The floor was covered in blood, Lara's blood. Surgical equipment and bloodied gowns were strewn across the floor where the doctors and nurses had thrown them after their failed attempt to save Lara's life.

"She'd lost too much blood. The damage was too great." They'd told him.

Flack walked up to the operating table where Lara lay, a blood soaked sheet draped over her body. He wanted to see her, wanted to apologise for not protecting her like he said he would, and to say goodbye. He gently took hold of the sheet and pulled it back so he could see her face.

She was as beautiful as he remembered. He ran a lock of her hair through his fingers and that was as soft as he remembered. He reached up and softly ran the back of his fingers over her bruised cheek. He managed to choke back a sob but it didn't stop tears from running down his cheeks.

This all felt too familiar, seeing a loved one dead on an operating table. He couldn't handle it and he knew he had to get out of there before he had a total meltdown. So, he leant down and placed a soft and loving kiss on her forehead and tried not to pay attention to her cold skin beneath his lips. He softly whispered, I'm sorry, I love you so much.

He stood up to look at her face one more time. He almost fell backwards to see Lara's eyes open, she was staring right at him with eyes that looked like ice. "Don," she said, her voice just a whisper.

Flack suddenly sat upright in the chair he was sitting in. It took him a second to catch his breath. Once he had he looked up and glanced at Jo who was standing beside him. She smiled at him and placed her hand on his shoulder again. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you."

"I was just….I was having a stupid dream." he said as he watched Lara.

He watched her chest rise and fall in a slow steady rhythm. She was hooked up with tubes and wires to machines that bleeped and buzzed. The machines made him nervous, he kept waiting for something to go wrong with them. He knew nothing could afford to go wrong, Lara needed them.

"Sweetheart, you're exhausted." Jo said knowingly to him.

"I can't leave her bedside until she wakes up, Jo." he said.

"Has anyone been to talk to you yet?" Jo asked him.

"Not since the nurse told me I could come in here. She said a Doctor would be along to talk to me, but that was hours ago now." he said, sounding as exhausted as he looked. "Where is everyone?" he asked.

"Getting some food." she told him.

"How's Jace?"

"Two burgers and a large fries later and he is fast asleep." Jo said with a smile, "Adam's staying with him, think they're new best friends."

"He's a great kid." Flack said.

"He sure is." Jo replied, "Look, why don't you go get something to eat. I can stay here and keep an eye on her."

"I appreciate that, Jo, I do, but I can't leave until someone tells me what her chances are."

"She's a fighter Flack, I'd say her chances are high."

"Look at her, Jo. That son-of-a-bitch worked her over like she was a God-damn punching bag. I swear to God when I find him…." Flack said becoming more and more angry, more and more emotional.

"Hey, come on, she's gonna be fine." Jo said as she gave his shoulder a supportive squeeze.

They both looked up as there was a knock on the door and someone walked in. Flack stood upon seeing the male doctor who walked in, all he could hope was they were here bringing good news.

The doctor walked right over to them, he seemed confident but both Jo and Flack couldn't help but think he looked exhausted.

"Hi there, I'm Doctor Gates. I'm sorry I haven't been to speak to you sooner, but straight after Lara's surgery I was thrown into another emergency surgery. Unfortunately that patient wasn't as lucky as Lara was."

"So she's going to be okay?" Flack asked.

"You're her husband?" the Doctor asked.

"I'm her….she's my….I'm her boyfriend."

The Doctor looked at Flack for a moment and both Flack and Jo couldn't miss the sympathetic smile he offered.

"What is it?" Jo asked.

The Doctor turned back to look at Flack as he said, "Where you aware that Miss Deluca was pregnant?"

"What?" Flack asked in shock

"I'll take that as a no." the Doctor replied.

"How far along?" Flack asked.

"You said was?!" Jo said.

"The trauma done to her body and then the surgery required to keep her alive….well I'm afraid at such an early stage…."

"How far along was she?" Flack asked again.

"Three weeks at most."

Flack felt like he had been kicked in the chest. He knew what this meant, it meant the baby was his, his and Lara's. Hearing the Doctor speak to him again, and feeling Jo supportively grab his hand brought him out of his thoughts. "I'm sorry for your loss."

Jo nodded to the Doctor and thanked him. She then watched as he walked out leaving her alone to comfort Flack. The room fell silent, except for the noises from Lara's machines. It was why Jo almost jumped a mile when Flack punched the wall. The loud smack was almost deafening.

"Son-of-a-bitch!" he yelled as tears spilled from his eyes.

Jo rushed over to him and threw her arms around him. Flack wrapped his arms around her and rested his head on her shoulder as he cried for the unborn baby he would never get to know thanks to Cal.

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Two days later.

Jo was stood in her kitchen looking out of the window at the night-time traffic on the street below. Her apartment was quiet, too quiet now that Jace and Ellie where both sleeping. Jace had been staying with her since leaving the hospital. Although most would appreciate the peace the kids being in bed created, Jo found in it left her with too much opportunity to think and right now she didn't want to think, but as it where she was lost in her thoughts. She didn't hear the person behind her walk up to her, she just felt them wrap their arms around her and pull her into them.

She had to smile at the familiar feel of Mac's arms. "Jace okay?" she asked him.

"Fast asleep again."

Mac had been the one to go in and comfort the young boy when he had woken up crying out. He'd been having nightmares since being rescued. "I swear when I get my hands on Cal…"

"I know…. you wanna beat the crap out of him just like the rest of us do."

Jo laughed slightly as she turned around in Mac's arms and nuzzled her face into his chest and held him. "Yes. I just hate all the hurt he caused." she said.

"I know, we all do and believe me, Jo, he'll pay for it." Mac said before placing a loving kiss on top of her head.

"But that doesn't erase the stuff he did, the baby that Flack and Lara lost."

"Jo, none of what happened is fair, but what will be fair is the punishment Cal will receive."

"I just hope that that's enough for Lara and Flack." Jo said.

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One day later

Flack was sat in Lara's hospital room. She'd only been in this new hospital for a day after having been transported to a hospital back in Manhattan. It meant that Flack could have more of his own guys watching out for her, just in case Cal tried anything, and it made it easier for him to spend all his time at the hospital with her, waiting for her to wake up.

While he was waiting he could do nothing but think. Flack had never spent much time thinking about becoming a father. It was something he always wanted to be but he'd never really thought about the things he would do as a father, but right now that was all he could think about.

He could imagine the baby Lara had lost, he could see it's big brown eyes and dark chocolate brown coloured hair. He was sure the child would have been a girl, the image was so clear in his head. He could imagine teaching her to play basketball, with Danny and little Lucy playing with them.

He could imagine her first day at pre-school, her first day at high school, even her prom. He didn't doubt she would be as beautiful as Lara and so knew he would have had to keep a close eye on boys. It was a thought that made him smile. He could see it now; him and Jace interrogating the first boy she would bring home….. His smile quickly faded, because none of what he was imagining was going to come true…. He would never know whether the baby was a boy or the little girl he could picture.

What he did know was that he was going to make Cal pay for losing him his child, his and Lara's child.

He was suddenly brought out of his thoughts by a sudden change in the rhythm of beeps and blips of Lara's machines that he had become so used to. He looked up and was amazed to see Lara lying there, looking confused as she clearly tried to figure out where she was.

Flack ran over to the door, threw it open and yelled "I need a doctor!"

He turned on his heels and ran over to Lara's bedside. "Hey, baby, its me." he said, holding her hand and gently brushing her hair back of her face.

"Jace?" Lara said, her voice sounding raspy.

"He's fine. Mac and Jo are watching him."

The door to Lara's room suddenly burst open and Flack found himself being dragged backwards by a familiar looking nurse. "You'll have to wait outside while we do some checks." she told him.

"But I want to stay with her." he protested.

"You can come back in the second we're done. Go get yourself a drink, or phone your friends and tell them the good news." she said before she shut the door in his face.

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True to her word the nurse had called Flack as soon as they were done with their tests and the Doctor had finished talking to Lara. However, Flack couldn't help but notice the sombre look on the young nurse's face.

"What is it?" he asked her.

"We had to tell her about the baby…. She really needs you right now." she told him, giving his shoulder a supportive squeeze.

Flack nodded and thanked her then made his way into the small hospital room. It was like stepping into a totally different world, one where it was completely silent. He closed the door, trying not to make even the slightest sound. He then looked up at Lara who was propped up in the bed, with her hands held over her face. Flack could tell from the way her body was shaking that she was crying.

He made his way slowly over to her, the only sound in the room was the soft tap tap of his shoes against the hard shiny floor. The moment Lara felt the bed shift slightly, as he sat down beside her and wrapped his arms around her, she threw her arms around him and broke into loud heartbroken sobs. As Flack held her and listened to her cry for the baby she too would never know, he let his own tears fall.

TBC

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Again, sorry it took so long.