IS IT HARD UNDERSTANDING, I'M INCOMPLETE

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN MCR or any of their music, any of the characters, or anything… barely some imagination… barely…

Chapter 14

Always (FPOV)

I knew exactly what Gerard was going through when he told me. I couldn't be mad at him for disappearing for a week, I'm just glad it wasn't a month and that Mikey had come out of this alive unlike my big sister Stephanie… she had killed herself thirteen years ago, my mum was the one to find her and I can still see what it did to her, so I was going to make this as easy as possible for him.

I was by nature a clean freak so I didn't mind cleaning up and doing the things that Gerard shouldn't have to deal with right now, I could see in his eyes how shocked he still was, and taking care of him made me happy, if I could see him smile then it will all be worth it.

I aired the house cause it stank of blood and chlorine and put some music on to break the cold silence surrounding us, while I made some pasta. I know I was hungry and I had lunch a couple hours ago, so I'm betting Gerard must be starving.

A soft whisper behind me broke my trance making me lift my eyes from the bubbling water in front of me.

"Frankie? Would you mind staying with me tonight? I don't want to be alone…"

I could hear the pain and hesitance in his voice, I wanted to turn around and face him as I answered-yelled at him an OF COURSE! But something called my attention and stopped me, he called me Frankie… it was the first time he had ever referred to me as anything other than Frank, and he wanted me to stay with him tonight… I just couldn't fight the smile that came over me. I didn't turn around cause my huge ass grin would have probably freaked him out and that was the last thing I wanted to do, so I answered him as calmly as I could but when I felt his arms around me, constricting me, I couldn't help the giggle that escaped me.

I turned around to face him still encased in his arms, "What was that for?" I asked him barely focused at the lack of distance between us, he looked as clueless as I felt, just shrugged and dropped his arms to his sides, I felt so defeated, it had been such a perfect little moment and I go and ruin it by asking stupid questions, why the fuck does it matter the reason for him hugging me? I should be way more focused on the action than the fucking reason behind it.

Suddenly I felt Gerard's hands forcefully placed on my face, and before I got a chance to react his lips were on mine.

My mind went completely blank and my body went absolutely numb all in a second, and in the next it was gone… my body still couldn't react, my mind stayed blank except for what seemed to be a huge question mark. I felt so empty all of the sudden…

I managed to open my eyes to find Gerard two inches away panting with a shocked expression on his face, both hands up as in surrender; I swear he looked more surprised than I did about what had just happened. He opened his mouth and barely got "I'm-" to what I think was an apology before I grabbed the back of his neck with one hand and the front of his shirt with the other and clash my mouth back on his.

It took him a second to react and then I could feel his arms encasing me once more, pressing me against him, his lips moving with mine in perfect synchrony. After a while, don't know how long I softly pulled away, just enough that our mouths weren't touching, but keeping my forehead touching his and my arms around his neck.

"I've wanted to do that for so long…" I whispered, my breath mixing with his laboured one. Both our chests pressed together, rapidly going up and down. He caressed my nose softly with his; "I know… me too…" he chuckled and I could help but join him. I pulled back just enough to look at him in the eyes and smile at him, his smile was blinding and I couldn't help but get on my tippy toes and reach for his lips once more, I had barely grazed his beautiful lips when a splutter sound followed by a sizzle behind me made us both part and pay attention to the pot behind me that was spilling boiling water all over the stove, I turned around and let go of the beautiful man in front of me to take the lid of the pot so the water would go down.

I looked inside the pot to see a blob of what used to be defined strings of spaghetti, and laughed turning the stove off, I turned back around to see Gerard holding back the laughter, "So what now?" I asked him trying not to laugh at the situation at hand, "I say we go for it…" he smiled and reached for my hand, and I knew he wasn't talking about food anymore, I smirked back at him "Yeah… lets give it a shot" He stepped forward and pecked me in the cheek then went to grab a colander.

As we sat in the kitchen eating a deformed blob soaked in tomato sauce I couldn't help but be more than in awe at how things had turned out today. I had walked out of that school prepared to get over this amazing man and now here we were, eating dinner, in his kitchen, together…

I lifted my eyes from my plate and choked on the view as I tried to laugh without spitting all over the kitchen table. There was Gerard sitting with a perplexed expression, mouth full, spaghetti sauce all over his face… he could not be more adorable, only he would make eating pasta challenging.

"Wha…" he tried to say with his mouth full

"Attractive" I joked chuckling, "You have a little something on your face"

The idiot lifted his left hand to try and get it off with the fork still in his hand successfully getting sauce on his hair and sideburn. His confused face when he felt something wet on his head was too much to handle and I couldn't breathe I was laughing so hard, he just pouted and made puppy eyes at me.

"Help me?" he asked me in the cutest voice ever, I just couldn't resist, so I pulled myself together and took deep breaths. I walked to the counter to get some napkins and walked back to see him still pouting, he looked ten years old, which made the feeling of raping him oh-so-wrong.

I walked up to him and started wiping the side of his head, when his hair was relatively clean I moved to his face cleaning his cheeks. When I pulled away he was almost clean, just a little sauce on the left of his mouth,

"Clean?" he asked me in a child-like voice beaming, I swear to god this boy is four. I grabbed his chin in one hand closing the distance; I looked at him in the eyes and seductively licked the side of his mouth pulling away again,

"Clean" I stated with a smirk as I watched his little tongue peek out and lick the same spot with a perplexed look on his face.

He was just too hot to resist, and with the satisfaction of having frustrated him at least as much as I was I sat back down in front of him finishing my cold remains of pasta watching his stunned face.

After dinner Gerard insisted on doing the dishes since I had "cooked", or tried at least, it was his fault that we had to eat deformed food anyways… he had distracted me. So I offered to make our bed that was still messy from the last weekend I had spend the night.

As I was making the bed I lifted a pillow and found Gerard's phone there, it was off, the battery had died on Thursday, so I thought I would charge it for him, I bet his mum would want to be able to reach him in case of emergency or something. "Hey Gee? I found your phone, its dead, want me to charge it?" I yelled into the kitchen, "Yeah! That would be great! The charger's in my room somewhere" he yelled back. As I walked upstairs I thought to myself that Gerard's room probably was in the same condition as last time, which means it's a fucking mess… great.

In his room somewhere… okay Frank, if you where a charger where the fuck would you be… as I looked around his messy room filled with boxes and tarp I couldn't think of a single place it could be, not a specific one in any case. Okay… a plug! That's where I would be… I looked around trying not to step over anything for plugs, but they were all empty, of course they are, we painted, he must have removed every pluggable thing here… so where the fuck is it! I was getting frustrated after maybe fifteen minutes searching everywhere, it was just so messy!

"Gerard! I can't find your fucking charger!" I yelled frustrated downstairs only to be startled by a soft cough behind me, "Jesus Christ! Give me a fucking heart attack why don't you!" there stood Gerard calmly leaning against the door frame holding the damn charger in his hand, a smirk on his face, "I just came up here to tell you that I forgot that since we painted the bedroom the charger was in the bathroom…" he said coolly, "How long have you been standing there?" I asked him suspicious, "Enough to see you freak over my mess" he chuckled, "Not funny" I hated mess, and I swear to Buda the second he's not looking I'm cleaning this place up. "It kinda is" he chuckled and came to kiss my cheek, then he took my hand and led me back downstairs.

"Hey did you finish the dishes?"

"Uhh… I was going to but then I remembered about the charger and…"

"I'll finish them, you go charge your phone" I smiled at him as I walked to the kitchen and he headed to the living room.

As soon as I was done I headed to the living room to finish tidying up cause I bet my ass Gerard hasn't done shit, but when I walked in I stopped dead in my tracks, Gerard was facing the other way but I could tell he was crying, and he was holding the phone to his ear. A million scenarios came to mind, all including Mikey and a more than unfortunate outcome. I ran towards him and turned him around freaking the fuck out, but when I saw his face he was smiling. Confused was an understatement to how I felt.

"Gee what's wrong? Why are you crying?" I asked him softly grabbing his face between my hands. He just sniffled and lent forward kissing me. "Thank you" was all he said after he pulled back… okay so if I thought I was confused before? Now we're on a whole new level of confusion people, some clearing up please? "Huh?" was all I could utter, he gave one soft chuckle and handed me his cell phone, a little voice came from the receiver so I put it to my ear,

You have 23 new messages, to listen press…

"23?" I asked looking up at him, he nodded, one lone tear leaving his glossy eyes, "And that's the half that's left… I already listened to like 10… I can't believe you care so much about me…" he sniffled again. He was crying because he was listening to my messages? I thought he was going to think I was pathetic. I closed the distance and hugged him, "I've always cared… and I always will… it's a promise." I told him against his neck as I squeezed him.

After he calmed down we lay down in our makeshift bed, I was laying looking at the ceiling and he crawled next to me softly putting his head on my chest, I hugged him and he hugged my torso back, "Thank you for being there for me, you have no idea how much it means to me" he smiled looking up at me, I lent forward and kissed his forehead, "Always" I promised… and I meant it with all my heart.

A/N: Okay… hope you guys like it, I'm really sorry it took me long, I've just been very distracted lately, but hopefully it was worth it and you don't think it's shit like I do… so there you have it, Gee and Frankie are finally together :3 and like I promised I took it as slow as I deemed necessary and realistic :D there's still much to come hopefully cause I'm not done with this cuties yet :B so yeah, bye lovelies! Review please, tell me what you thought…