A/N: Okay, so i got the idea for this one when i was watching Death Note: The Abridged Series by 1KidsEntertainment. It was in episode 17. Feet. Light says L's eyes resemble "a glass half full" and L respondes by saying, "Actually, it's a glass half empty and they really need to get that UFO off the damn set." Random, i know, but that's where i got the idea. And i know i said i wasn't gonna post till friday, but i figured i would post this now anyway. I'll post tomorrow, too. 3 days of consecutive updates to make up for the fact that i'm going on vacation and won't be posting for a while.
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Okay, huge, rambling author's note done now (seriously, longest i've ever written). Now on with the story!
L's eyes were so empty, those last few months.
No one else realized it, but I did. To the others, they were always devoid of emotion. That was just who L, Ryuuzaki, was. There was no questioning it. But I could see through the façade. The truth was so clear in his onyx eyes, at least to me.
Back before I gave up my notebook, when I knew I was Kira, his eyes were so steely and strong-willed. There was raw determination there, and anger. There was immense pain, but he hid that best. I only caught glimpses of it. And there was… something akin to understanding, like he knew why Kira was doing this, and could sympathize, possibly even empathize, though I knew nothing of his past so I could not know this for sure. When we talked, there was excitement, fear, and competitiveness, because he had never met someone who could match him in intelligence before. I was the only one.
But even though I saw all of this, the others saw nothing. Perhaps this was because of the last reason, that I was the only one who could even come close to his level of smarts. And in the way I saw through him, he saw through me. He could read me like a book, as I could him. And we the only ones. I guess we bonded over that.
But after I'd given up my Death Note, lost my memories, and been let out of confinement after fifty or so days, there was nothing. At first I thought being locked up away from any human being for so long had just thrown off my skills for a bit. But if that was the problem, then those skills were apparently gone forever, because I could never read him again.
No, that wasn't it. I could read him, just as easily as I had before. But the thing was… there was nothing there to find. Absolutely nothing. It was like he was empty. That was all I could see in his eyes. The others noticed no change. He'd always seemed like this to them. But I noticed.
Then, when I killed him, and held him as he died, smirking evilly and hating myself more so than ever before, his eyes finally came alive again. It threw me off for a second, so I might've of missed something, but I saw the confusion, the hurt, the pure hatred. Then relief. Then they were empty again.
That's what my eyes resemble now. There is no more burning desire to win, to create my perfect world. I honestly don't care anymore. But it still startles me, somewhat, when I look into the mirror, and almost see you as my reflection.
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