Never Give In

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Chapter Fourteen

Someone knocked on my door and when I went to go answer it I saw Alex at the door. I ran up to him with my hands outstretched but when I wrapped my arms around his neck he didn't return it instead he just pushed me away. I stumbled back and gave him a confused look. I thought he loved me.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"I only came here so I can get it through your head that I don't want to ever see you again so stop calling" He sneered. I felt a tear slide down my cheek as his hurtful words hit home. Alex would never say something like that to me no matter what the circumstances were so why now?

"Alex, this isn't you" I whispered. He smirked at me as though he knew something I didn't and it was already bugging me.

"You know nothing about me anymore" He scoffed before turning away and leaving me. I tried to run after him but my legs didn't seem to work.

"ALEX!" I screamed after him but he never returned.

I shot up in bed, gasping loudly and I had tears falling from my eyes. That was the worst nightmare I had ever had. Not even sleep could take me away from Alex anymore. I had nothing to hide behind. He could get to me whenever and there was nothing I could do about it. I got off my bed and walked over to where some clothes lay on the floor and changed. I tried to get my mind to focus on Andy coming round. He would always make me feel better no matter what. I just need his lips on mine and it will all go back to normal.

There was a knock at the door and I was suddenly on guard. I was scared in case that dream was a premonition. I was convinced that when I opened that door I would see and angry Alex that was just trying to get me out of his life for good. When I opened the door I saw Andy standing there was a smile on his face and some flowers. I took the flowers from his hands and put them on the counter before running back and wrapping my arms around him.

"Are you ok?" He asked. I shook my head as I took in his scent. If he had experienced the pain from my dream then he would know how shaken up it had made me and I believe that I have good reason to be shaken up. I had never thought that Alex was capable of doing that but dream Alex was. Andy's hand were at the small of my back as he hugged me back and gave me time to answer him. He was being patient with my which I respected. At the moment I don't feel like getting pushed around by anyone no matter who it is.

"I had a dream about Alex and it didn't end well" I explained. I realised then that I must sound like such an idiot for getting worried about a dream. Andy hugged me back even harder since he knew how I was feeling at the moment. I was glad that I had him at this moment. If I couldn't hug him then I would probably end up going off the rails. I backed away slightly but I made sure that I was still holding Andy so there was enough room for me to close the door. As soon as it was shut I went over to the sofa and sat down with Andy by my side.

"Are you feeling ok?" Andy asked when he saw my tear stained cheeks. I nodded slowly and tried my best to manage a weak smile. I wanted to kiss Andy so bad but he was facing the other way so I couldn't. I wanted his lips to block out any of the shit that I've had to deal with. I sat up slightly so I could get to Andy easier.

"Kiss me" I sighed and Andy turned to look at me. He nodded slightly before letting his lips rest on mine. I was still thinking about Alex so I didn't think the kiss was deep enough. I moved my mouth and let his follow but I still had Alex in my head. I tried my best to get the image of him pushing me away out of my mind but it was there to stay. It didn't matter how passionate the kiss was between me and Andy. I couldn't get rid of that image. I pulled away once I figured that out and Andy sent me a look that showed complete confusion. I felt bad for pulling away but it didn't seem right to be kissing Andy when my thoughts were on Alex and how the dream had affected me.

"What's wrong?" He asked. I tried to block out the hurt tone in his voice but it was impossible. I had hurt Andy and Alex but I knew that if I explained it to Andy then I could put it right but Alex was too stubborn to even think about listening to me. I wrapped arm around Andy's waist to show that I still cared for him.

"I can't get Alex out of my head" I answered. I felt Andy's chin rest on the top of my head and his arms went around me as he tried his best to comfort me but I still felt like a part of me was broken. These last few days had been so difficult to cope with but I was trying and failing. I could feel Andy kissing the top of my head and it calmed me down ever so slightly. I knew that Andy was trying to think of something appropriate to say back to that.

"He will come back" Andy reassured. Everyone seemed to be saying that to me lately but I was finding it too difficult to believe. I closed my eyes and shook my head firmly. He made it pretty clear that he didn't want anything to do with me in the phone so why should I even try anymore? I was out of ideas. Unless... When Andy goes on tour I could always get the train down to where he lives and try to apologise in person and hope for the best. I would plant that nearer the time and there was no point in worrying Andy about it. That wasn't really the reason that I'm not telling him. I don't want him to know because he'll try and stop me if he knew what I was planning to do.

"Do you want to listen to some cheerful music?" I asked with what I knew was a hopeful look. Andy grinned but nodded anyway. I put my Ipod on the docking station and searched through it before settling on David Archuleta since that was the only thing happy that was on my Ipod. I could feel Andy chuckling when the song started playing and soon my head was bobbing along with it.

"I didn't know you liked this kind of music" Andy sighed. I looked up at him and grinned even more. I used to like it but couldn't be bothered to take it off my Ipod and it did cheer me up. Andy leaned down slightly and pecked my lips. It didn't make me forget about Alex but I felt better about everything that had happened. After about three songs Andy leaned forward and let Eyes Set to Kill. I felt even better when I was back in my own music taste. We sang along and it felt like the first time I had ever had fun in a while.

"Thank you for being here for me" I whispered. I didn't expect Andy to hear it but he did and shrugged. I couldn't help but giggle when he moved the hair away from my face. He took my hand in his own and kissed my finger lightly. Before I knew Andy personally I didn't expect him to be the romantic type but he was proving me wrong. I looked into his eyes and he was staring into my own and just as I thought he was about to kiss me again he stopped and began to speak again.

"Do you like the flowers?" He asked. At first I didn't know what he was talking about since I had been so quick to hug him but when I looked around the room a little bit I soon found them on the counter. It was a bunch of roses that looked pretty badass because there was one black one in the centre. I stood up and ran over to them as I searched for a vase. I filled it with water and placed the flowers in. I took it over to my windowsill and place them there and they looked beautiful.

"They're amazing. Why did you get me flowers?" I asked. I didn't want to sound impatient or ungrateful bit I was merely curious of his reasons behind his romantic gesture. I took my place next to him again and he wrapped his arm around me again. I took in his scent as he thought about how to phrase his answer. I could smell the roses on his shirt and it made him smell even nicer, if that was even possible.

"You've been through a rough patch lately and I felt like you deserved something that would cheer you up" Andy said as he gestured towards the flowers. I leaned up so I could press my lips to hers. I loved how all he seemed to think about was my best interests. I loved everything that he done and that was more than I could say about Alex. I loved Alex as a friend but he was beginning to act like a selfish brat and I was already sick of it. Why couldn't he just move on and forgive?

"I love you" I sighed as Andy turned the television on. It was comfortable to just lie next to Andy while he chose what he wanted to watch. He was on the channel Kerrang and when Black Veil Brides new music video for Fallen Angels came up he grinned and chuckled. I looked up at him as I tried to think about why he would chuckle. I started to watch and I was amazed by how talented Andy really was. A few weeks back if I'd have seen this I would be jumping around screaming and experiencing a fan girl moment.

"Have you seen this before?" Andy asked. I was ashamed to admit that I had not seen this but it's better late than never in my eyes. The music had fire and it seemed pretty badass. When it was over Andy chuckled again and kissed the top of my head. I could tell that he was very pleased to have his music video on Kerrang. I was proud of him to so I kissed his hand which was the only part of him I could get to because his arm was restricting me but I didn't care about it.

"I'm proud of you" I sighed. The rest of the day was spent by us watching movies and television and listening to music. Andy did a good job of keeping my mind of Alex and for that I am thankful. When Andy next saw the clock he got up.

"I'll have to get off" He sighed before kissing the top of my head and leaving. I was alone now so Alex would probably end up haunting me again. I sighed as I lay down on the couch and closed my eyes as I tried to block him out but it was barely impossible. He was haunting my dreams again.

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