Day 14
I hung out with Johanna all day because Mags was taking Annie to see a therapist in the Capitol. I'm not sure the therapist is going to help though. Annie doesn't even speak to us so how is a therapist going to be able to diagnose and help her if she doesn't even speak? It's Mag's decision I suppose.
I like hanging with Johanna, but sometimes she makes me uncomfortable. I feel like I never know what she's thinking. She's been through a lot in the arena and I'm sure she's been through a lot back at home too, but she won't tell us anything. Any time I try to get her to tell me things, she won't say anything. She prefers to keep everything bottles up inside. I mean, I'm not really an open book either. I will keep a lot of things to myself because I hate the idea of putting my emotional burdens on someone else. However, if I trust the person enough I tell them everything.
We ended up stealing some of the liquor from Mag's cabinet which she had from when Brooks was alive. Mags barely ever drinks herself so I highly doubt she'll notice it's gone. Johanna is only 16 but there really isn't a definite drinking age. She told me that people in Seven usually start drinking at a very young age and she has also had alcohol because of the Capitol parties she went to on her victory tour.
We hung out just drinking and swinging on the porch swing, when Johanna started getting kind of tipsy. She's young and I'm not completely sure how much she's had to drink before so she probably can't hold her alcohol as well as I can. Then I think she passed the line between tipsy and drunk because she started talking about her past.
Her mother left when she was young because her mother was always more of a free spirit. I don't think Johanna was really planned so I think her mother freaked out and left. Then her father was devastated that she left and he abused Johanna from a very young age. Then when Johanna was 13 she started to think she was gay and he found out and went completely ballistic so she went to go live with an aunt. Then her aunt died but Johanna didn't want to go back to her father so she stayed alone in her aunt's house and had to hide from the Capitol so they wouldn't put her in an orphanage.
Then she got reaped which of course sucks. So on top of her having a pretty sucky life, she also was probably going to die. She knew she kind of had some skills and could possibly win the games but she also knew that she would be a huge target if she showed off, so she played it weak until the end.
I don't know if Johanna remembers telling me all of this because she's sobered up since then and she hasn't said anything about it. I'm glad she told me though even if she wasn't drunk. I feel closer to her now that I know more about her.
Should I stop here?
Yeah.
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