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My Secret Sin
Chapter Fourteen: Happy Family? I Think Not
I woke up the morning after the dinner party with another body in my bed. Rolling over I found Edward snoozing, topless next to me, one of his arms wrapped round my waist. The boy had some nerve; he was seriously risking our hidden relationship.
As fast as possible I whipped myself out of the bed and ran to my door to lock it. Once I heard the click I rooted around in my desk, pulled out some duct tape and taped the gorgeous mans' mouth shut. Edward began to rouse when I straddled his lap and his eyes open quickly.
"MMHHM!" he moaned, startled. He was most likely trying to talk. Foolish boy, the duct tape should have told him I didn't want to hear him talk.
"Listen up, as nice as it is to wake up next to you, we can't do that. If our parents had come to check on us during the night and found this then the shit would have hit the fan." I pushed his hair away from his face and kissed his cheeks. "We have to be careful, I don't want this to end."
Edward nodded and moved one of his hands from my hips up to the tape. He pulled a small bit away, wincing while doing so then took my hand and indicated for me to pull it off. He braced himself for the pain and I quickly ripped it off of his lips, seeing the angry pink skin below.
"Motherfucker!" he cursed in a whisper, remembering to keep quiet. "Next time just put your hand over my mouth." Edward glared and little as he rubbed his mouth and then pouted at me.
"I'm sorry." I leant down and kissed him softly.
"Well if there's one thing I've learnt from this, it's that you aren't opposed to pinning me down and taping me up." He grinned and then flipped us over, so that I was pinned to the bed.
Edward ground himself against me, pushing his straining erection inside his boxers against my small pyjama shorts. He smirked at me and kissed my neck a little before pulling back, looking all serious.
"I came in here last night because I really missed you."
"Okay."
"I don't want you thinking I came in here for sex."
"That hadn't even crossed my mind until you mentioned it."
"Oh. Well don't think that I'll never come in here looking for sex cause we both know I will at some point. I also know you'll come to me for the same. Anyway, that's not why I came in last night. I just wanted to be with you." He leant down on his arms and kissed his way from my lips to my collarbone.
"Mhmm, as much as I'm enjoying this you need to go."
"No," he said defiantly against my skin.
"You really do have to."
"I don't want to," he mumbled, not moving away.
"Edward let's not risk it. Now please go, I'll see you later." He groaned his protests but did in fact get up and leave the room.
I lay there for a few minutes just thinking about him and how good it felt to wake up with him before rolling off the bed. I went over to the shared bathroom and knocked but was glad to see it empty. A half naked Edward encounter would kill my plan of acting like things were normal while the parents were in the house.
The warm water of the shower was very inviting and as I was lathering up my hair I heard the door open. Edward had to learn that we couldn't do this, piss about and hope we don't get caught. So, I voiced my thoughts.
"You shouldn't be here. What if they find out?" I'd ease him into this argument, and if my words of persuasion didn't work I'd flash him. Soapy breasts are bound to be a weakness.
"I know I should be with Carlisle but he'd get suspicious if I sat for five minutes in our bathroom. Plus I'm hoping they don't find out until I'm sure." Renee's voice startled me and I slipped when I tried to spin. On the way down I hit my hip against the tiled wall and then cursed loudly.
Sitting down on the floor in the bath I moved the shower curtain back and peeked out. In my mother's hands was the worst thing I could have ever seen. A pregnancy test.
"Oh my God, what the fuck is that?!" I yelled, ignoring the pain of the soap in my eyes stinging like a bitch.
"Bella shush, I don't want them hearing," she scolded. "I need to take this."
"Mum please tell me you're not pregnant. You're not allowed to be."
"Do you think I honestly planned this?" she asked, looking a lot more frazzled than usual. "Look I just need to find out. Finish showering and we'll look at the results after." I nodded, completely stunned and got back up again, albeit a bit shakily.
I finished showering and peeked back out, finding the bathroom empty. Where the hell had Renee gone? There's no way she can drop that bombshell and then fuck off. Angrily I stormed out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel and went to Edward's room.
"Well ding dong." Edward grinned from his bed. "What do I owe the pleasure?"
"My mother took a pregnancy test." All the blood ran from his face and he became so much paler.
"And is she?!" he screeched, exceedingly high pitched.
"I don't know, she buggered off before I saw. Go check and see if she's alone, will you?"
"Of course." Edward was up off the bed and about to leave when he turned to me. "If she is we'll sort it out. Now please go and put some clothes on cause you look too damn good in that towel. The fantasies are running crazy right now and we really don't want to push our luck by getting caught shagging on the floor." I rolled my eyes at him and left the room as he trailed behind me then went down the stairs.
I dried my hair and changed into some jeans and a top, waiting for him to come back. This whole situation was fucked up. I mean what the hell was going on in Renee's head. A child could and would change everything. It was not what we needed right now.
Renee has never really been the responsible one and having a child is the worst possible thing she could do. I was an accident, as I was told at twelve years old when I asked. Apparently she had a small fling with the town's up-and-coming cop, Charlie, and I was the proof of said fling. They married to play happy families, which they were until Charlie died.
All it took was one guy to run a stop sign and everything turned upside down. When Renee married husband number four I was at the age of understanding she was a gold-digger, and I had been told by many before. I did ask her why she always married rich guys and she said that she needed to find a way to support me. Although that would explain husband number one it certainly didn't explain husband number four, or Carlisle, number five.
If she had a baby that would either mean she stays with Carlisle for good or she runs with the cheque and I end up looking after the baby. That would be dreadful, the worst possible outcome of this whole thing. Plus, what would that mean for me and Edward?
Our family would be much closer, making our secret relationship that much harder. Hell, we just got together, why are things getting so complicated? Can we not catch a break? Apparently not, especially if that test is positive.
Edward's footsteps coming up the stairs broke me from my thoughts and I turned, ready to hear what he was going to say.
"She's glued herself to Carlisle; you won't be able to find out anytime soon." He shut the door and locked it, then walked over, wrapping his arms round my waist. "What do we do if she is? I mean, that would just fuck this up completely."
"I don't know but I think it would be better if we just didn't talk about this until we're sure."
"Okay." He placed his head in the crook of my neck and kissed the skin. "You look good but I think you'd look better without these silly things called clothes on." He began clawing at the t-shirt.
"Nope, you told me to change. I'm not taking them off." He pouted but didn't give up either.
"The top's going." I laughed at the look of determination on his face.
Edward pulled it off of me quickly, not bothering at all. His grin widened considerably as he unclipped my bra and threw it to the floor. He groaned and kissed me, but not taking his eyes off my exposed breasts. It sounded like he was whispering to them, as I just stood there.
"God I love these." His hands cupped them and I moaned at his touch. "And I think they love me too." Edward leant down and kissed each breast once before pulling me over to the bed.
He lay me down and crawled over my body, like a predator stalking his prey, which I think were my breasts. Right enough, he planted himself between my legs and began kissing the right nipple before working his way across. I let Edward do what he wanted with my body as I lay there, grinding into him.
He began unbuckling my jeans, trying to get them down my legs. I kept myself firmly planted down, so they wouldn't come off. Edward must have realised this so he started on his own, undoing his belt and then pulling down his zipper. Things were picking up pace, a little too fast for my liking.
I hadn't quite gotten to the stage where I trust Edward completely. There was that nagging feeling in the back of my head that we'll have sex and he'll ignore me all over again. I just had to take precautions here, like putting this off for another time.
"We need to stop," I said, pushing on Edward's chest.
"Mmmhhm, why?" His lips continued their path across my chest and then up my neck to my lips.
"Just stop," I said again. Edward pushed himself up on his arms and looked at me frantically.
"What's wrong? Have I hurt you?"
"No, no. It's just I think we're moving too fast. Remember, we agreed to take things slow?"
"Oh right, yeah. Sorry." Edward moved off of me and grabbed my bra and top from the floor. I put them back on and redid my jeans while Edward did the same. He came back over and sat down next to me once we were both dressed. "I didn't mean to rush or pressure you there into thinking that we had to have sex immediately."
"I know you don't mean to Edward, I think its second nature for you now."
"That's not a good thing," He said, frowning at his lap.
"No, it's not. Maybe we should take some more precautions when we do in fact have sex."
"I don't mind using a condom."
"Good but just in case it breaks I think maybe I should go on the pill or something. I'll go to the clinic this week to get something sorted out."
"Alright, thanks." He kissed my forehead and scrambled off the bed. "I'm going to go and get something to eat, kay?"
"Yeah." Edward kissed me softly once more before leaving the room.
I flopped back on his pillows; feeling like my head was going to explode. There were just too many thoughts going round it right now, and half of them were 'what if…'situations. This crap just needed to be sorted out and the only way that would be possible was by talking to Renee. Hopefully she'd be some help in my time of crisis.
Venturing downstairs I found Edward chatting to her and Carlisle who were sitting happily in the living room together. Playing and planning happy families it seemed. What a shit load of crock.
"Mum can I talk you a sec?" I asked, hoping she'd understand how much I needed to.
"Oh not right now Bella, we're having some family time together. Come join us." I sighed quietly, going unnoticed by her or Carlisle, and sat down next to Edward.
I frowned down at my lap until I felt Edward's fingers caress my cheek. With wide eyes I was wondering what the fuck he was doing, this would so get us caught.
"You have a hair in your mouth," he lied because no I did not. His fingers touched my chin and pushed it upwards slightly, as he whispered into my ear and at an angle so the parentals couldn't see. "Chin up, don't let things get you down."
"Thanks," I said once his hands had returned to his side of the couch.
"No problem."
When I looked back over at Carlisle and Renee they were both talking animatedly together about God only knows what. I had little to no interest in finding out what they were discussing so made myself comfortable and began the waiting. At some point Carlisle would have to part Renee's side and that's when I'd make my move.
My plan may have been good in theory but in reality it sucked. Edward and I had sat with them for over two hours, listening to stories about their youth and crap like that. All the while I'm panicking about the baby that could be growing only a few feet away.
God did take pity on me though, when the phone rang and it was work calling for one Dr C Cullen. Thank you God, I truly appreciate this and promise to pray next time I'm at church. Renee looked worried but she knew now was the right time to do this and after a little prodding we were both alone in the kitchen with Carlisle in his study and Edward going up to his room.
"Are you pregnant?" I asked, not caring about dancing around the issue.
"No."
"Thank God."
"Bella, would it be so bad? I think it would be good to have another baby."
"You cannot do that."
"Why?" she asked, genuinely not realising it was such a bad thing.
"Cause it would be disgusting."
"Please, try and act mature."
"I am, you seem to be the immature one here. Yeah, it sounds great, have a baby who'll love you etc but remember the night feedings, the crying at all hours, changing nappies, and all the other shit that goes on with it. How about when it starts teething? Or when it hits the rebellion years and you just can't cope? It's not worth it."
"Well I can see you're not going to give me grandchildren." I rolled my eyes, pissed that she was trying to brush this off. "When the test came back negative I was upset, I wanted to be pregnant, to create a baby that was part of Carlisle and me. To have a part of him inside of me."
"You can get that with sex, he's in you then. There's no need to have a baby," I said disgusted by this entire conversation.
"I'm going to talk to Carlisle and see what he says," Renee said, completely ignoring my first comment.
Shaking my head I went upstairs and straight to Edward's room. I opened the door and slammed it shut behind me. He looked at me with wide eyes, knowing I was pissed off. I threw myself on the double bed next to him and wrapped my arms round his chest, snuggling into it.
"I think they're going to try for a baby." Edward remained silent, stroking my hair as he did. "If they do we have to break up."
"Whoa, why?!" Edward propped me up so I was facing him.
"Cause if they have a baby we can't be together."
"Again, why?" As though what I said wasn't good enough.
"Because my sibling would be your sibling and that sounds twisted and weird." Edward pondered that for a minute or two.
"I don't see the issue here. We're not going to be related, ever. Yes, we'll have a half-brother or sister but we will never share the same blood, ever." That did ease my worries but I still wasn't sure.
"Edward I…this is just too weird and wrong."
"We're wrong?"
"No, not us. This, the situation we're in."
"Okay, it may not be very orthodox but who cares? I certainly don't. Look, if this is going to be a problem for you then we either end it here or sort this out right now because I don't have a problem. Yes, it could get weird, what with them having a baby but it doesn't change anything for me. I still want to be with you, regardless of what they're up to. It may be difficult for a while but I'm certain we can get past that. The ball's in your court now."
I looked at him for a few minutes, taking in all I could see. It was clear I was in too deep. Keeping my heart secure around Edward was impossible. He'd wormed his way in and seemed to have no plans of leaving, not that I would want him to. That was the problem now. They were considering having a baby which would complicate matters. With the ultimatum of get over it or get lost I was one hundred percent positive about which one I'd pick. Him, every time.
"I can get passed this, just give me a little time." Edward brightened up immediately, smiling happily at me.
"Good, I'm so glad." I couldn't help but return the smile. "Why don't we do something, just you and me?" I looked at him like he had gone crazy, us out in public? Then again people could just think we were bonding as siblings.
"I'd like that."
Just like that our worries were pushed away, to the back of our minds, and we were on to something new. Edward grabbed his car keys and we left the house, not even mentioning something to the parentals. He took my hand as we walked to the garage and kissed my knuckles, making me just feel safe in his presence. I had no qualms with taking his vanquish; I'd actually wanted to get back in this thing. It gave me plenty of opportunities to just stare at my boy as he drove.
We pulled out and Edward revved the car before speeding down the lane. Usually I hated being driven so fast but with him I had full confidence he wouldn't hurt me, or us. God, how things have changed. The silence wasn't a problem for either of us; in fact we both seemed more relaxed due to it. I was content just being, there with him.
Although I'd lived here all my life, once you get passed the reservation I didn't know the area. Edward appeared to know however, as we drove round and down all the roads. Who knows where we were going, but that didn't seem to matter. As long as I had my boy I was satisfied.
I don't know how long we drove around, with just the purr of the engine and the idle chatter and music from the radio as company. Edward had taken my hand and was caressing small circles into it, making me feel relaxed and calm. It really gave me some time to think.
If Renee and Carlisle did have a baby I'd try and make sure that while that child was growing up things wouldn't be weird or stressful in the family. Either due to the relationship Edward and I have or because of Renee. If Edward and I are still together at that time it would need to be taken into consideration. That baby would need to understand that Edward and I are not brother and sister, that incest is 100% wrong even if it seems like that's what we're doing.
I'd try and be the best sister I could, and hell even mother if I had to. There's no way I could let that baby grow up under similar circumstances as I have. That would just be a serious no. Carlisle seemed like the type of father who would step up, take charge and protect his kids. After all, there's no way Edward would have gotten away with so much without the help of daddy dearest. Which means there's a high chance if things do go wrong, again, and there's a divorce he'd stand by this baby and definitely be there. Though I'd have to ask Edward how much Carlisle is around a he does work an awful lot.
God, here I was worrying about a baby that hasn't even been, or might not even be conceived. Plus, it's not even my baby.
Shaking my head I looked over at Edward, focused on the road, looking like a complete sin.
"You're staring at me," he said, sounding amused.
"I know I am."
"Any reason why?"
"Just cause I can." He chuckled at that then kissed the hand he had been holding.
"Are you hungry?" I looked ahead and noticed the diner at the side of the road.
"Actually I am."
"Me too." He pulled over and parked, coming round to help me out of the car. "We are pretty far away from Forks but just to be careful, I say we keep affection down to a minimal, so just act like we're siblings. That okay?"
"Of course." Thank God he seemed to be taking the need for secrecy serious. I would just die if someone found out. Not because I'm embarrassed of him –who could be having Edward as a boyfriend?- but simply because I'd hate for our relationship to end and cause a riff in the family.
"Good." He smiled and then let go of my hand, but ushered me inside.
There were only a couple of other patrons in, an old trucker guy, and a family of four at the back. The waitress gave us a friendly smile as we walked over to one of the booths and sat down. She handed us some menus and took our drink order before giving us some time to flick through them and see what we wanted.
I was in some desperate need for comfort food so ordered a burger and chips, which looked amazingly greasy and fulfilling. I had wanted to pounce on it when the order went to the other table. Edward got the same and we waited for it to cook, quietly drinking our water and soda.
Once our food arrived conversation picked up between us. We both just needed something to eat to replenish our energy levels and then we were back to normal, chatting away without a care in the world. It felt good; to be worry free for just several hours and I'm sure it did us a whole load of good.
We left the diner happy, laughing and I felt like we were friends as well as boyfriend and girlfriend. So if that relationship ever failed at least I knew we could still be friends out of it. Though I had no intention of us breaking up.
The drive back was not like the drive out. Our discussions continued on right up until we parked in the garage. That trip had made me much closer to Edward than before and it was something I definitely needed. My trust for him grew and he no longer was a wolf in sheep's clothing.
"What do you want to do now?" I asked as we walked to the door.
"Play some games, you know, the shooting one we played last time?" I nodded; glad we were going to be doing something that would continue our light atmosphere. I didn't need anything dark right now.
"Em, Bella could I talk to you a moment?" Carlisle asked, giving me a soft smile and gesturing towards his study, after Edward and I walked in through the front door.
I turned to Edward and told him I'd be up in a minute to kick his ass then headed on in after Carlisle, shutting the door behind me. I had no clue what this could be about but was hoping it wasn't the name thing again, I didn't want to be pressured into that.
"What can I do for you?" I asked, taking a seat across from him.
"Actually I was wondering what I could do for you." I frowned and shrugged.
"Don't think so."
"Are you sure, because I am a doctor and could help you with these matters?" That stumped me, what the hell was he talking about?
"Sorry, what matters are we talking about here?"
"Birth control." I paled considerably, I didn't even need to see myself to know, I could feel it.
"Birth control?" Oh my God please do not tell me he heard Edward and I discussing that. Though, if he did wouldn't he be kicking Edward's ass for sleeping with me?
"Yes, I saw the pregnancy test in the bin and want you to know that there are precautions that can be taken here, if you are having sexual intercourse. Though if you would rather discuss it with another doctor let me know. I do understand but I am here for you, always."
My brain was scrambling to pick up the pieces of what he had just said. Clearly my mother hadn't told him she took a test. Bloody idiot.
"Carlisle that wasn't my pregnancy test." He frowned at me and held a bemused look.
"Well it certainly wasn't Edward's or mine so who el-" he cut off, eyes going wide, before flying out the chair and his office. "Renee!"
"Yes! What is it?! What's happened?!" she asked, frantic and worried.
I didn't want to hear their conversation so went upstairs just as Carlisle asked her about the test. Edward was waiting for me on the third floor, arms out open. I smiled and fell into his embrace, inhaling his scent and kissing his Adam's apple quickly.
"Cat's out of the bag then?"
"Oh yeah." He nodded and slipped me out of his arms.
"Want to go and kick my ass on the games console?"
"Why not." He smirked and led me back down the stairs again.
"That's my girl." I loved hearing him say that, claiming me as his.
I'd definitely made the right decision by sticking with him despite what our parents were up to. Yes, things just got complicated for everyone but I was sure we'd make it, with or without the possible baby on the way.