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"Wait now; tell me that it isn't over.
Hang on, just long enough.
If this is heaven
Or if it's just a warning,
Say you will stay with me
Even if it's just till morning.
If this is over
Then why is it so hard?
Just say you will stay with me
One more night"
-Dashboard Confessional
Chapter 14
Stay
It felt like a dream…a very, very good dream.
I couldn't contain the desperate moan that escaped me as the feeling of his lips upon mine was increasingly becoming too much to bear. I had dreamed of this moment, wished for this moment, for this second chance.
"Bella," He whispered in between kisses, clutching my body tightly to his. "God, Bells"
I fisted the front of his t-shirt dragging his body further into mine, kissing him roughly pulling him deeper into me. His rough calloused hands gripped me hard around the waist, kneading and rubbing, setting a fire ablaze within me. My knees buckled beneath me as his tongue was suddenly wet, slick, and hot against my own waging an endless war inside my mouth. I could never get tired of the way he tasted. I let out a strangled sob and fisted my hands in his hair pulling him roughly to me. I wanted him closer, needed him closer to me.
The rain fell in torrents around and upon us, soaking us through our clothes. As he kissed me and clutched onto me tightly I could feel the hot tears that fell incessantly from his eyes as he poured himself into me.
I reveled in the way his body fit mine, every piece of him molding to me, wrapping around me like a warm thick blanket. I wanted nothing more than to bury myself into him, to sink beneath his skin into his very being; to become a part of him.
I let out a frustrated grunt as he tore his lips from mine, reaching for him desperately trying to pull him back to me. Did he not understand how much I needed this?
"Jake, please-"
A pleasurable sigh filled my body as his mouth moved across my neck, sucking and licking marking me as his.
"God…" I could barely speak as I sunk into his embrace as he continuously made love to my neck.
His hands danced across the skin of my back, slipping beneath the drenched fabric of my shirt, the heat of his palms warming my bare flesh.
"I need you," He groaned in my ear, nibbling and licking every surface he could reach. "I need you so bad."
I drug my nails upon his back across the wide expanse of his strong shoulders eliciting a loud groan from him. His hands fell lower gripping my backside tightly through my jeans.
"Bells," he groaned burying his face into my hair taking in the scent of me. "Please,"
"Take me," I placed an opened mouth kiss upon his chest. "Now, right now."
He squeezed me through my jeans and lifted me effortlessly into his arms. I wrapped my legs around him upon instinct and resumed his job and began to go to work upon the taut skin of his jaw, moving quickly down to his neck. I kissed and bit across the skin that lay above his collar bone. Jacob fumbled slightly as he practically ran us back to the house. We stumbled through the doorway and he kicked the front door shut as my grip around him remained firm.
I tore my mouth away from him as he gazed down at me with smoldering eyes. His eyes were black and intense with lust, need, and love.
"Upstairs," I breathed out. "Last door at the end-" I wasn't given a chance to finish as his lips were quickly moving furiously against mine and we were suddenly fighting our way up the steps.
I threw all caution to the wind as he carried me down the hallway towards my bedroom. I knew the risk of this, the chance I was taking; but to be perfectly honest…I didn't give a fuck. I wanted Jacob and I was going to have him one way or another.
The rational side of me knew that at any moment he could leave, that he could regain some sense of morals. He was an engaged man, tied to another woman, destined to be with her, not me. Yet here he was, wrapped around me, kissing me, moving towards making love to me.
Call me a whore, but I was milking this for all it was worth.
"Jacob!" I cried out as my back slammed into the door of my bedroom.
My sudden cries of slight pain and overwhelming lust were cut short by the softness of his lips moving roughly against mine. His body pressed tightly against me; trapping me against the door as his tongue fought incessantly with mine. I could feel every ridge, bump, and dip of his torso, through his drenched t-shirt.
Jacob let out a deep groan as my hands made their way under his shirt, running up the front of him, rubbing across his chest. I dragged my fingers up and down, back and forth feeling the contractions of his stomach with each ragged breath he took. I let out a gasp as he ground his hips against my center, the length of him igniting a more intense fire within me. I tugged on the bottom of his t-shirt pleading silently with him to remove the offending item of clothing. Jacob obliged, tearing his mouth from mine and whipping the shirt off, his lips quickly returning to mine.
He let out a deep guttural moan as I snagged his bottom lip between my teeth tugging on it.
"Fuck you're driving me crazy," He groaned.
He thrust up against me causing a low whine to escape me. I ran my hands over his bare naked flesh loving the feeling of his skin taut and warm beneath my fingers. My hands danced their way up his chest to wind around his neck where they found solace buried into the hair at the nape of his neck.
He continuously thrust against me as he removed his hands from my bottom and moved up and around to cup my breasts through my soaked t-shirt. A definitive rip sounded loudly through the hallway and my suddenly bare chest was met with the tantalizing warmth of his.
I tore my lips from him and looked down at my chest with wide eyes. Jacob had ripped straight through my shirt and bra, each item now hanging loosely off my shoulders.
I flicked my eyes to Jacob who wore a smug smirk on his face.
I smacked his shoulder lightly. "I liked that bra," I mock scolded as I allowed my shirt and bra to fall away from my shoulders.
He shrugged and suddenly his mouth was on me.
My head fell back and hit the door with a thud, as he palmed my left breast whilst biting and licking at the right. I was increasingly growing wetter and wetter by the minute the longer we kept at this foreplay.
I held his face to my breast tightly and couldn't escape the gasps of pleasure leaving my lips. All through this his hips had not ceased their movement against me. The friction was driving me mad.
I nearly lost it when his hand snaked down the front of my conveniently unbuttoned and unzipped jeans (when did that happen?) his hand slipping beneath my underwear; cupping the heat of my sex.
"Yes," I gasped as he began to move, rubbing against me. "Jaaacobb" I whined as he inserted a digit into me.
He removed his lips from my breast and nibbled on my ear lobe; two more fingers added. I clenched my thighs tightly around him.
"You like that," He growled, his fingers pumping relentlessly moving faster and harder with every breath I took.
I opened my mouth but was overcome with the sheer bliss of the feeling of his fingers moving inside of me. I could only nod a response.
"I want to hear you say it," He growled in my ear, his fingers falling into an even quicker pace.
"I-I…uhh" I cried out as his fingers moved rapidly within me bringing me closer and closer to the edge. I clawed at his shoulders, my head resting against the door of my bedroom.
"Come on Bells," He taunted, his thumb circling against my sensitive nub. "Say it for me,"
My thighs clenched tightly about his waist my heels digging into his backside, my inner walls clenching around his fingers.
"F-fuck," I gasped out as I fell over the edge, my forehead falling forward to rest against his as my body shook with pleasure spasms.
"That's it," He said as he ran his nose across my jaw and down to my neck where he began to place feather light kisses across my heated skin. "Cum for me," He whispered his fingers continuously moving within me, preventing me from coming down.
"Jacob," I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck pressing his body flush against me. The feel of his naked chest against my own was intoxicating.
He leaned away from my neck and removed his fingers from me, I groaned at the empty feeling. He smirked at my distraught expression and brought his fingers to his mouth, placing them inside licking his fingers clean of my essence.
I watched him with wide eyes, his never leaving mine. It amazed me how comfortable he was in his own sexuality.
He removed his fingers from his mouth and traced them upon my lips, the smell of my own arousal reaching my nose. I flicked a tongue out and tasted myself upon his hand. He let out a guttural groan and leaned forward; pressing his lips to mine in a sensual kiss his lips moist and warm.
"God you taste good," He spoke against my lips, his tongue reaching out to slip across my bottom lip.
I kissed him deeply, my tongue tracing patterns inside his mouth, my chest heaving with breaths of want and desire.
"I need you," I groaned, grinding my hips against his. "Now…please"
My thighs gripped tighter around his hips as my ears registered the faint sound of his zipper being undone. I groaned inwardly as he loosened my legs around him as he roughly yanked his jeans down effectively freeing his arousal.
Jacob gasped as my hand snaked down in the valley between us and I gripped him roughly, his length long, hard, and hot for me.
"Bella," He cried softly, as I stroked him. He thrashed his tongue against my neck biting down on my collar bone as my strokes came harder and faster.
I sucked at the skin of his neck, breathing heavily against him as I pleasured him. He thrust wildly into my fist, his breath hitching as he neared his peak.
"Fuck I'm gonna cum," He growled into my ear, fisting my hair and bringing his lips roughly to mine.
"Cum for me Jake," I moaned.
He thrust harder and then suddenly stopped, my hand still moving against him, my movements almost desperate. I wanted to make him feel as good as he had made me feel.
He reached a hand forward and ceased my movement, silencing my protestant outcry with his tongue against my lips.
"Jake," I moaned fisting a hand in his hair the other squeezing him. "Please,"
He shook his head. "I need to be inside you,"
A spasm of pleasure rocked my body as my jeans were ripped from me, the sudden heat of his naked skin on mine overwhelming. How was he able to do that? My legs shook in anticipation of what was to come.
I dropped my head back against the door as he teased his tip against my entrance, his head sliding up and down against me.
"God you're so wet," He growled, looking up at me his eyes blackened with lust.
I could only breathe heavily, too overcome with the heat of my desire.
"Jake," I gasped as he suddenly plunged into me, burying the entire length of his erection within me. He was hot and thick, pulsing inside of me.
He let out a heart pounding moan and dropped his forehead to mine. My body was overcome with an intense tingling sensation at being connected with him so intimately once more. We remained still, soaking in the moment, our breaths falling rapidly over one another.
I brought my hands forward and wrapped them around his neck, my fingers tracing light circles across the back of it. Jacob's breathing sped up even more, his sweet pine breath dancing across my lips, seeping into me.
I whimpered when he thrust forward, an entirely new sensation sweeping through me. I had never done this position before, Jacob being only the second man I'd slept with. He thrust again, bending his knees and angling upward. The feeling exquisite and new; hitting a spot that I'd only ever heard of.
I was panting heavily and Jacob began to swirl his hips as he thrust forward, my backside thumping slowly against the door. I lowered my head and rested my chin on his shoulder, biting down as I experienced the feel of every ridge and bump of his length rubbing against my inner walls.
"Shit," He groaned, bringing his hands round and squeezing my butt, palming my cheeks using them as leverage as his thrusts came quicker.
"Jacob," I whimpered as he thrust against my pleasure spot continuously.
"God you're so fucking tight," He hissed, bringing a hand round to toy with my nub. His fingers circled and pinched, sending courses of bliss shooting through my veins. "I fucking love it,"
I leaned away from him, raking my nails across his shoulders and up into his hair, tugging at his scalp. A shudder raked through him and the pace of his thrusts and dancing fingers accelerated.
I kissed him roughly as I met his thrusts match for match.
"F-faster," I whimpered against his lips.
"You want it faster?" He cooed in my ear slowing his thrusts considerably.
"Yes, Jake yes" I cried. His thrusts had grown painfully slowly, though much deeper than before.
"I can't hear you," He teased pulling all the way out and then slowly pushing back in.
"Faster," I whimpered clawing at his shoulders.
"What was that?" I glared at his wicked grin.
"Faster, please" A little louder.
"What?" His pace a little faster, a harder thrust.
"Uh!" I cried.
"Can you say it again for me?" Quicker still.
"Fuck me faster!" I screamed.
"That's it," He cried before slamming into me with an inhuman speed.
I let out a string of profanity as he pounded into me relentlessly, my entire back slamming into my door repeatedly. No doubt I would be sporting bruises in the morning. This was no longer about making love, this was pure unadulterated fucking.
"Sh-shit" I fumbled out as he hooked my legs over his arms his hips roughly meeting mine.
"That's it baby," He growled in my ear. "Fucking take my cock,"
I was so unused to this side of Jacob; the dirty talk, the cussing, but I loved it, I wanted more.
"Fuck your so fucking huge," I cried, my head thrashing round at the intense feeling.
And I wasn't lying. Everything about Jacob was huge. I guess you could chalk it up to being an ex-werewolf. Ian had been a good size, large for an average, human guy, but this was Jacob…nothing and no one could compare to him.
I whimpered as his quick thrusts became harder. My eyes momentarily rolled into the back of my head as I was overcome with the most intense burning pleasurable sensation within my groin. I was reaching the edge and moving there fast.
"You like it?" He hissed.
"Uh huh," I whined biting down hard on my lip, as he removed an arm from under my leg and reached forward pinching my right nipple.
"Shit I love watching your titties bounce," He leaned for and tugged my right nipple into his teeth, tugging and pulling sharply.
His tone was vulgar his demonstrations rough; and I loved every second of it.
He allowed my other leg to drop and wrap tightly against his waist once more as he opted to run his hands up and down my body, caressing every inch of my skin. He leaned forward and ran his tongue across my jaw, sliding down to my neck and then on to in between my breasts.
His eyes were coal black as he pounded in to me, his jaw clenched tight as his thrusts became more frantic.
"Oh…oh shit," I cried, squeezing my eyes shut as I bounced in his lap against the wall. "Fuck yes!"
"That's it Bells," He ground out. "Ride my cock,"
"Jacob," I whimpered squeezing his shoulders tightly. "I-I can't…can't take it anymore," My head hit the door with a loud smack.
"Take it Bella," He ripped my hands from his shoulders and slammed them above my head, against the wall. I was at his mercy, vulnerable in this position as he slammed into me.
I screamed as his thrusts became more violent, all of his pent up sexual frustration releasing onto me.
"Shit, Jacob I'm gonna cum,"
"Cum for me baby," He groaned in my ear. "Cum on my cock,"
"Jacob," I groaned out as I fell over the edge, my limbs convulsing violently as I was rocked with an outstanding orgasm.
Jacob grunted his own release, my name falling gracefully from his lips as he spilled into me, his thrusts more frantic and desperate. His grip around my wrists tightened to the point of pain as he throbbed inside of me.
We remained there for several minutes, our heavy pants and the incessant rain hitting the roof the only sounds to fill the house. His body was slick with sweat brushing against me as my chest heaved with heavy breaths fighting to refill my lungs with much needed air.
He slowly loosened his hold on my hands and they fell away to rest upon my hips, his head sinking to lie upon my shoulder. I lowered my feet to the ground and allowed my arms to drape over his back pulling him closer to me. I hugged him tightly and felt the trembling of his body as he was overcome with silent sobs.
I placed a gentle kiss to his neck, and squeezed my eyes shut tight willing myself to remain calm, to fight the painful tearing in my heart at the feeling of his tears hot and slick falling down my back. I gripped the back of his neck and allowed a terrible shuddering breath out.
"Stay, please." I whispered.
He breathed in deeply and exhaled slowly.
"Sure, sure."
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I awoke the next morning with a familiar pleasant feeling. My muscles sore from use, but a satisfying ache within my bones. I was curled up in my sheet on my bed, my comforter discarded on the floor, the light of the sun falling on my bed incasing me in glowing warmth. My hair was an unruly mess about my head, causing a smile to light my face.
"Sex hair," I giggled running a hand through it.
Though with all the familiar wonderful feelings after sleeping with the man I loved, there was the ultimate feeling of dread as I found myself alone…again.
It didn't hit me right away as I reveled in the soothing ache of my body and the warmth of my room. I hadn't noticed his absence until I rolled over finding the side of the bed, his side, where he had slept last night was still warm, though he was not in it.
I took a deep breath and fought the throbbing feeling in my heart and clambered out of bed quickly, wrapping the sheet around my body. He couldn't have left long ago, the heat of his body still present around me. I could feel him in the air.
I raced down my hallway and stumbled down the stars into the front foyer. I moved towards the door to check if his truck was still parked out side when a loud bang and particular nasty curse word reached my ears from the kitchen. I walked towards the kitchen cautiously unsure of what was waiting for me. I nearly lost my cool at the sight before me.
Jacob stood at the kitchen stove, clad in only a tight pair of black boxer briefs frantically dousing water on a smoking pan. From the looks of it he was trying to make breakfast.
I giggled softly and wrapped the sheet closer to me and moved to stand behind him. He let out a heavy huff of frustration as I wound my arms around his waist, pressing my lips to his back.
"Good morning," I mumbled against his strong back.
He placed one hand over mine and turned the stove off with the other.
"Morning," He mumbled running a ragged hand through his equally disheveled hair.
I blushed at the thought of our matching sex hair.
"You stayed," I kissed his right shoulder blade.
He removed my arms and turned to face me, ducking his head down to kiss me while his hands cupped either side of my face. His kiss was gentle and sweet against my lips, tasting of rain.
"I said I would," He mumbled kissing me again.
I ran my hands down the front of his chest and smiled into the kiss.
"I'm glad you stayed,"
"Me too," His hands moved into my hair. He kissed me deeply, his tongue leaving delicate traces on my bottom lip.
"Though I wish I could have woken up next to you," My voice was shaken and breathy.
I couldn't contain the rapid beating of my heart and the feeling of sheer joy that coursed through my veins at the simple fact that he had stayed with me.
"I wanted to make you breakfast," He gestured lazily to the pan of what looked to be charred cat food.
I stepped around him and gazed down at the still smoking frying pan.
"Scrambled eggs?" I raised a brow at the concoction.
"Pancakes," He grumbled folding his arms across his chest, his bottom lip jutting out in an adorable pout.
I laughed at his childish behavior unable to contain the wide smile that spread across my face. This, this right here felt right. Waking up with Jacob still here, in my home, with me, downstairs in the kitchen burnt 'pancakes' and all; this was right.
I stepped towards him and rubbed my hands up and down his arms, feeling the tight bulge of his biceps. I leaned upward and kissed his pouting lip.
"I love you for trying," I smiled.
He grinned. "Yeah?"
"Uh huh," I laughed, kissing him again. "A for effort,"
"An A?" He wrapped his arms around my waist and captured my lips again.
I nodded grasping at his arms as he leaned me backwards, arching my body into his as he kissed me longer, sweeter. His lips moved gently with mine in a perfect synchronization as if we were made to do this.
"Is that all I get?" His voice husky laced with desire.
I gazed into his darkening eyes and shot him a sexy smirk.
"What else could you possibly want?"
He tilted his head to the side as if considering the question and then fixed me with his own version of a sexy smirk, which completely blew mine out of the water.
"Oh I can think of a few things," He said smoothly, dipping his head once more.
"Is that so?" I stretched on my toes to meet him halfway.
"Uh huh," he growled taking my bottom lip between his teeth and tugging slightly. I groaned loudly wanting more.
He pulled away from me chuckling, his laugh deep and rumbling against my body. I pouted up at him sticking my lip out and he leaned forward.
"You know I can't resist you," He said into my lips before kissing me again.
I moaned and pressed my body into him, trailing my fingers up his arms and into his hair. He wound his arms around my waist and pulled me against him roughly as he bit down on my lip. I gasped loudly parting my lips and he slipped his tongue in massaging the inside of my mouth. My body was growing steadily heated as our kiss grew more passionate, his hands now roaming freely about my body.
I let out a satisfied sigh as gripped my waist and lifted me, plopping me down onto the counter of the island. He stepped between my legs and I brought him closer to me, our lips in constant contact.
My heart was racing rapidly as my hands roamed over the contours of his strong back, committing every dip and bulge to my memory. I was elated at the feeling of his body against mine, the feeling that screamed this was natural and that it was right.
For me this is what life should be like, what love should feel like.
"This is nice," I whispered. "This is good right?"
I could feel him smiling and it made my heart swell.
"I love you Bella," He kissed me deeply, his hands threading through mine. "Always"
Those same five words, spoken what seemed worlds ago.
"Always," I repeated leaning into him once more.
"And forever," He went on.
"Forever?" I breathed. This seemed too good to be true.
"Forever," He reinforced.
I couldn't silence the dull aching beat of my heart or the little voice in my head that screamed this was wrong.
I squeezed my eyes shut and steadied myself. Jacob stiffened at my sudden withdrawal.
"Bells?" His voice was concerned, bordering pained.
"How long does forever last?" I whispered, dropping my head.
"What…what do you mean," His words came out strained, as if he didn't want to discuss this, wasn't ready to talk about it.
"You know what I mean," I sighed.
"No, I don't." He just had to be stubborn.
"How long?" I paused and raised my eyes to his. "How long Jacob, before I'm back at square one without you, alone?"
He took a step away from me and shook his head. He let out a ragged breath and ran a hand sloppily through his hair. His shoulders tensed and he turned away from me. He leaned heavily against the opposite counter and bowed his head.
There was a long stretch of silence between us, an unbearable, barren desert of cold hard silence.
"Please don't do that," I buried my face in my hands. "Please don't turn away from me when things start to get rough."
"What do you want me to do?" He scratched out. It killed me to hear the pain and anger so clear in his voice.
"I want you to talk to me," I folded my hands in my lap and watched him as he was unresponsive.
"I don't know what to say," He retched out. "I have no fucking clue as to what to say to you."
I could feel the tears racing towards my eyes, a desperate race to see who could break the damn first. How did we always end up here? Happy one moment, then torn to pieces the next.
"Say anything," I pleaded. "Tell me anything Jacob, I want to know everything that happened, what might happen, I need to know everything. What you felt, how you feel now-"
"You won't be able to stomach it," He growled out; a challenge.
"I can," I was determined. "I will Jacob, just tell-"
"Fine then," He faced me in a sudden flourish, his eyes ablaze with anger. I shrunk away from him, though rooted to the spot of the counter. "How about what it was like when you left?"
"Jake-"
"How it hurt Charlie," I flinched. "How it nearly killed me Bella, how you destroyed me and everything we'd worked for!" His chest heaved with angry breaths. "I didn't know where you were, where you'd gone" He roared. "It was a nightmare Bella, you could have been a fucking leech for all I knew, you could have been dead!" He cried. "Is this what you want to hear?!" He roared in my face.
"I'm sorry-"
"Oh no, save it," He growled. "It gets better,"
"Jake,"
"How about the fact that I just couldn't let go of you; that I still held onto you after everything you'd done!" There were tears in his eyes though he refused to let them fall. "How I nearly turned my back on my pack for you because I couldn't bring myself to hate you, I couldn't condemn what you had done. You nearly tore us apart." A single tear fell and it shattered my already mangled heart. "Or the pathetic fact that you were all I could think about, that there wasn't a single day that went by where I wasn't thinking of you!" He grabbed at the roots of his hair, conflicted with this confession and wanting to keep in all bottled up inside. "That even after you were gone and I knew you weren't coming back, after Lana, after all these years I still loved…still love you," His shoulders shuttered and his face was that of a wounded shoulder, broken and tattered, tired from a long hard fought war. "I shouldn't love you Bella."
His confession was tearing me apart from the inside out. It was killing me to hear what I had done to him, how I had turned my back on him and broke him again. I didn't want to face it but I knew I had to. I needed to face this if we were going to make it through this, if we were going to have a chance.
"Jacob," I whispered painfully.
"At first I thought it was all some sick dream" He laughed bitterly. "That you'd never showed up on my doorstep, that you'd never told me you loved me at all. And I wanted to believe that was true," His choked on his words, his tears relentless in their violent storm. "God I wanted to believe it was a dream."
I moved to get off the counter but he stilled me with a gentle hand on my arm.
"Then I started asking myself what if," He moved his hand along my arm until it was held loosely around my wrist. "What if you'd never met Cullen? What if there was no such thing as werewolves and vampires? What if you had never left? What if I had never met Lana?" My heart ached for him at the last mention.
"Jake," I sniffed.
"I once told you that I was the natural path your life would have taken, if the world was the way it was supposed to be," He moved his hand from my wrist and took hold of my hand. "But the world is different, riddled with folklore that I'd only dreamed of as a kid," His voice was soft as he spoke this.
I watched his gentle ministrations with my hand allowing him to rub tiny circles into my palm, and to thread his fingers through mine, now and then.
He breathed a heavy sigh and leaned his forehead to mine.
"And then I asked myself if it was me, if I was the problem," He wrenched out. "Was I not good enough for you?"
"No, no Jacob that's not true," I cried, cupping his face in my hands. I forced his eyes to meet mine and the pain in them was unbearable. "You have always been good enough, too good for me,"
"No, Bella" His tone defeated. "That's not true,"
"Yes Jacob, it's true! It's absolutely and completely true!" I pulled him in closer, pressing my check flush against his. I grabbed at the back of his neck and allowed my tears to fall gracefully across the skin of his neck. "There's always going to be those little what ifs Jacob. But we can't let them run our lives," I whispered. "Right now, right here all I need is you; fuck everyone else, forget everything else." I pulled away and grasped his hands tightly. "I just want you…and I know you want me too."
He stood before me in total silence, a battle waging within himself. His grip on my hands loosened and tightened as he fought the good fight and worked towards his decision.
"Jake I-" He cut me off with a sweet and simple kiss.
My eyes fluttered shut and I fell into him once more. His hands wound their way into my hair as he kissed me deeply, pouring all of himself into it, his tears intermingling with mine.
"What does this mean?" I gasped when he pulled away.
"Shh," He spoke kissing me again. "This is good," Another kiss. "This is right,"
"I love you," I said.
His sweet and gentle kiss was fast approaching love and lust filled passion. He moved his lips roughly against mine, his hands falling away from my hair and running along sheet clad body.
"I want you," My voice was laced with desire. "I always want you,"
I wrapped my legs tightly about his waist and pulled him impossibly deeper into me. I wanted to sink into his skin, to bury myself inside his love. I wanted to feel his body against mine; I wanted to feel him within me. My heart was his and his alone, I didn't want it back. I was Jacob's and I wanted nothing more than for him to be mine.
"I love you," He replied. "Always you,"
"Bella!" a loud and recognizable female voice called as they barged through my front door.
Our eyes popped open wide at the intrusion, Jacob mid grope. He looked down quickly taking in the sight of his left hand gripping my right breast, his other dangerously close to my naked center.
"Leah," I blanched. Her footsteps could be heard moving towards the living room.
"Shit!" He whisper shouted jumping away from me.
I scrambled off the island counter, my ankle giving and rolling slightly as I hit the ground.
"Ow, fuck!" I cried crumpling to the ground in a pathetic heap. Jacob's eyes widened at my loud mistake taking in the sound of Leah's fast approaching footsteps.
"Bella is that you?"
Our eyes widened impossibly further in horror. If we didn't move and move quickly she would find us.
"Are you ok?" He asked crouching low behind the island hiding from view.
"I'm fine, go!" I whispered waving him off. "Go before she sees you!"
He nodded his head quickly and dashed around the corner to the connected dining room just as Leah stepped into the kitchen. I took a deep breath and plastered on a fake smile, turning to her and cheesing it up to act as if nothing was amiss and I wasn't lying on my kitchen floor, naked, wrapped in nothing but a flimsy white sheet.
"Bella?" She questioned.
"Leah, hey" I smiled and gave a pathetic wave. "What brings you here on this…lovely morning," I gestured lamely to the world outside the kitchen window and smiled again, my cheeks aching with the stretched skin.
She quirked a brow and crossed her arms.
"Where is he?"
"W-what?" I could feel the blood rising in my face.
"Where is he?" She repeated.
"Where is who," I drew the sentence out, playing the flighty unknowing girl.
"Don't play stupid with me Bella," Leah smirked.
I shrugged my shoulders. "I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Ok then," I heaved a heavy sigh of relief at what I thought was her submission on this topic. I couldn't help but look on nervously as she began to pace the kitchen, drawing closer and closer to the room in which I knew he was still hiding.
I took a quick glance towards the dining room and turned my eyes back to Leah who was staring at me all knowingly.
She shot me a devilish grin that rivaled that of the Cheshire cat.
"Leah," I said her name in warning.
Her fingers twitched as I rose to my feet attempting to block her path. She bounced lightly on the balls of her feet. I knew I could never possibly out run her, but maybe I could tackle her if need be.
Who am I kidding? She'd demolish me!
"Don't," I warned.
She lunged to the left and I followed but was quickly thrown off balance as she pulled a spin on me and skirted her way around me skillfully by switching her direction to the right. I cried out in frustration as I fell to the floor once more tangled up within my sheet.
"Leah!" I roared.
A loud bang and a long slew of courses both from Jacob and Leah's mouth was the only response I received. I listened helplessly as their bodies collided in what seemed to be a fight to the death, no doubt they were wrestling.
After a good five minutes there was complete and utter silence.
I wobbled to my feet and gripped the sheet tightly around me, walking slowly towards the deathly quiet dining room. I wasn't sure what I would find but I figured it wouldn't be pretty.
As I rounded the corner I couldn't help the onslaught of laughter that possessed my entire body at the sight before.
Jacob and Leah were tangled up within their own limbs upon the floor. The only thing that came to my mind, in that moment was a game of twister gone horribly wrong. If not for their size and gender differences I don't think I would have been able to tell what body part belonged to whom.
But what I could see was Leah's arm wrapped tightly about his neck in a headlock, a look of triumphant victory upon her face.
Jacob rolled his eyes at my laughter and attempted to free himself from Leah's chokehold.
"Ah, ah, ah" She scolded. "Not until you say it,"
"Fuck off," Jacob growled. He choked suddenly as her grip tightened.
"Say it," She cooed.
"Fuck you,"
"Language Mr. Black," She mock scolded, causing another round of laughter to break free from me. "Now be a good little boy and say it."
Jacob let out a menacing growl.
"Fine," He huffed. "All hail Queen Leah, mighty warrior and Goddess. May she forever reign in peace…and burn in hell" He sneered as an after thought.
My laughter grew louder at his torture and the wicked grin on Leah's face.
"Eh, close enough." She shrugged releasing her chokehold on him.
Jacob let out a loud gasp of air, the sound of air rushing into his lungs filling the tiny room. Leah hopped off the ground and sauntered away from him to stand by my side.
"You're a real bitch," He growled.
"Blah, Blah, Blah," She flipped her hand about and came to a stop next to me. "Tell me something I don't know."
Jacob stood slowly to his feet rubbing at his neck.
"If I was still phasing I would have handed your ass to you on a silver platter," He growled brushing past her roughly.
"Newsflash buddy, I'm not phasing anymore either," She teased following behind him.
I shook my head at their playful banter, confused beyond belief. I thought she despised him.
"Newsflash" He mocked her. "I've been human now for three years, you've been human for like 3 weeks."
"You're point being?"
"My point being that wouldn't have happened under other circumstances."
I joined them in the kitchen and stood off to the side as I felt a sudden shift in the air, a palpable taste of sudden tension.
Leah's eyes narrowed as she took in his half naked appearance.
"I wouldn't have had to hand your ass to you," She took a second to glance over his figure, her scrutinizing glare causing a sudden flash of anger within me, jealously rearing its ugly head. "If you weren't sneaking around Bella's home half naked."
"It wasn't sneaking," I interjected into the conversation.
Leah turned her head towards me and cocked an eyebrow.
"Really now?"
"It's none of your business Leah," Jacob huffed.
She kept her eyes on me, assessing my appearance.
"It's my business when it comes to her feelings and the way you toy with them," She spat back.
His eyes widened his face suddenly furious.
"Me? Toy with her emotions?" he blanched. "You've got to be fucking kidding me."
"And it's also my business," She continued on ignoring his outburst. "When we've got about a dozen movers outside with Bella's furniture and her father" My eyes widened at this and Jacob and I looked at each other in fear. 'Who just so happens to be stopping by before he heads out to target practice with some of his buddies."
"Oh shit," Our jaws simultaneously dropped.
He took one look at me and then dashed for the hallway, his feet suddenly pounding against the stairs in less then five seconds.
"Your welcome!" Leah yelled after him.
There was a short stretch of silence in which I backed myself into a corner desperately trying to escape the eyes of Leah. After what seemed like hours she let out a heavy sigh and shook her head.
"I'm not going to tell you that this is wrong or that it's risky," She said.
"Thank you," I replied weakly.
"Just…just be careful," She mumbled. "I'm always here for you Bella, but I'm tired of seeing you guys kill each other."
I nodded. "Yeah me too."
"I just hope you know what you're doing,"
"Actually I-"
"Bella!" I flinched at the sound of Charlie walking through my front door, his voice filling the front foyer; he did not sound happy. "You want to tell me why Jacob Black's truck is sitting in your driveway."
"Oh shit," I gasped, wrapping my sheet around me tighter.
Leah's eyes widened and then she moved into action.
"I'll stall, you circle round to the stairs and go get dressed," She pushed me towards the dining room as Charlie's feet approached the kitchen. "And try and think of a legit excuse to get yourself out of this one."
All I could do was nod frantically as I took off my sheet barely whipping around the corner before Charlie stepped into the kitchen.
As I sneaked up the stairs as quickly and as quietly as I could I could hear the light voice of Leah as she made small talk with Charlie, buying Jacob and I time.
I burst into my room and frantically shut my door locking it, just incase. Jacob stood by my bed, one foot in my room, the other out on the roof of the porch. He had managed to pull his jeans on but had forgone the shirt and shoes.
"What the hell are you doing?" I hissed.
He faced me with wide eyes. "I'm getting the fuck out of here before your dad finds me and kills me." He pulled his leg out the window. I rushed towards him and grabbed his hand before he disappeared. I couldn't help the sudden feeling of panic and dread that overwhelmed my heart. I needed to know that he wasn't leaving for goodbye.
"Jake don't go," I pleaded.
"Bella if I don't go now, I won't be able to come back," His words didn't process with me. "Because I'll be dead." He finished slowly.
"You're coming back?" I couldn't grasp that fact.
"Of course," He said, leaning back in to press a kiss to my forehead. "I'm not giving up in this Bella," He cupped my face in his hand. "Sweetheart I just got you back, there's no one in hell I'm letting you go now."
With a gentle squeeze of the hand and a swift kiss he was gone, taking across the front lawn towards his truck as several dazed and confused mover's looked on.
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