Note: I just finished The Tease and I have a new one shot story up called On Friendly Terms, it is a guy on guy/ Edward/ Jasper fan fiction, if you're interested. Anyways, here the chapter, hope you like it. ;)
CPOV
I walked out to my back porch looking out at the darken sky above, seeing that it was going to rain any minute. As if on cue, little water droplets started to hit the ground. I closed my eyes taking in the fresh smell of the rain. I smiled to myself thinking of my family, wishing I could see them.
Suddenly my thoughts drifted from my family to Bella. She asked me to join her at the dance just the other day ago. I hoped she wouldn't be too upset I stayed be hide.
I wanted to be there for Bella. I wanted to make her happy but as much as I wanted to I couldn't. I had too much to lose. I was here for one mission and that was to make sure Bella was okay and she was. It was time to leave.
How can I explain that to Bella?
How can I break her heart as Edward has already done?
I watched as the rain started to come down hard on the ground soaking everything in sight. I sighed closing the sliding glass door heading inside.
I did the only thing I could do. I headed to the piano, which I did many times before when I was feeling confused, frustrated about something and I let the sweet melody fill the air, easing my stress away.
I started to relax, playing a good ten minutes when out of nowhere someone started shouting at me. "Why didn't you show?!" I turned startled to see an overly upset, drenched, Bella. I immediately felt remorseful.
Her dress was clung to her skin due to the rain, her hair, wet and messy laying against her neck. I looked down to see she was barefoot, she held her heels in her hands. I remained silent as she tried to calm her breathing.
"I didn't know you played."She stated noticing I was at the piano. "Not many people do." I replied giving her a weak smile, glad she was now calm. "Come." I said seeing her curiosity, patting a spot on the bench next to me.
I watched as Bella hesitated briefly before coming over taking a seat next to me as I started to play a new song on the piano. "You play beautifully." Bella praised. I smiled warmly up at her.
"Of course, where do you think Edward learned?" I watched Bella cringe at my son's name and I realized my mistake, stopping my hand movements. I wanted to apologize but I was sure Bella was probably sick of people pitying her, so instead I settled for changing the subject.
"I'll teach you." I announced, looking over at Bella. I could see the uncertainly in her face. However I wasn't going to take no for an answer. She needed to try new things and learn not to be so afraid. I took one of Bella's hands before she could protest and placed it on the keys.
I moved Bella's fingers in the right spots before moving my hand to other side of the piano."Like that, now just follow me." I began to play on my side, showing Bella what keys to press. She made a couple mistakes but she never gave up.
That was one of the things I admired about Bella, she was a fighter.
The peaceful moment however was quickly gone as soon as the lesson was over. The room instantly filled up with silence. I knew I couldn't run from Bella's questions, so rather than sidetrack her I waited for her to start, telling myself that answering honestly was the best thing to do.
"Why didn't you come?" Bella questioned through a pained voice. It hurt to know the pain was because of me. I was doing this to her. I sighed looking down at the piano in front of me, too scared to look into her eyes.
"Bella I been thinking, this isn't right, whatever this is. I have a family, a wife. Even if this family is going through a crisis right now I should stick with my family, it's what I do." I confessed turning towards her.
She looked like I just shot her. I watched in silence as her eyes started too filled up with water. "You're going to leave me like he did!" She blurted out, running out the room. I was so taken back by her outburst it took me a minute before running after her.
I didn't know what she would do. I didn't want her to get hurt, she was my responsibility and I'll be damned if she got hurt on my watch. I ran out of the room just in time to see Bella open the front door running out into the pouring rain. "Bella!" I called out coming after her.
I quickly picked up my pace which wasn't hard to do thanks to my vampire speed. In just a few seconds Bella was in arms reach, I grabbed her arm pulling her to my chest.
I felt Bella cry hard onto my shirt tightening her hold on my back as the rain continued to pour over us. As much as I wanted to comfort her, outside in the pouring rain was not the place to do it. The last thing I needed was Bella to get sick.
"Come on, let's get inside." I said breaking Bella's hold on me, I swiftly guided us back to the house. We headed inside completely soaked. Though the rain didn't bug me I was used to it, Bella was shivering badly from it.
I looked out the window seeing no end in sight with the heavy down pour. "You can stay here for tonight; I don't think the weather will clear up anytime soon." I said turning around to face Bella.
She shivered on the couch wrapping her arms around herself desperate for warmth. I walked to the hall closet where our extra blankets were stored. We kept them strictly for decoration, just in case a human ever came to our house, trying to fit in.
I picked out a nice thick one bringing it over to Bella. "Here." She happily accepted it wrapping it around her thin body. "I'll call Charlie; he's probably worried about you." I announced starting for the phone.
"No!" Bella suddenly called out grabbing my arm, freaking me out. "He can't know I'm here." She stated panicked. I looked at her bewilder, confused why Charlie would care that Bella was here, seeing how she used to date Edward.
"Why not?" I asked wanting answers. She hesitated before explaining. "He doesn't know you're here." I shook my head in disapproval. I couldn't believe Bella wasn't being truthful with her father.
What kind of a relationship is that?
"Bella." I sighed stressed. "What do you tell him when you leave the house?" "The truth sort of, I tell him I'm going to the hospital, I just leave you out of it."
Not wanting to waste anymore time I reached the phone dialing the Swan's number. I waited patience and soon was rewarded with Charlie's voice. "Hello?" I sighed in relief glad he wasn't stressed out, looking for Bella.
"Hey Charlie, its Carlisle." I heard a pause on the other line before Charlie responded. "Carlisle, how are you, It's been what two months?" He questioned. "Yeah I know long time no see." I replied not really wanted to go into details with Charlie.
"What are you doing in town; I mean I assume you're calling from town." He questioned. "I'm just finishing up some business and getting a couple of things left be hide." I stated. I could hear Charlie shuffle his feet. I went on before he could ask anything else.
"Listen, Bella came over to say hi and it started pouring and it looks like there is no end in sight, so, I figured you wouldn't mind if she stayed the night." There was another pause. "Really." I could hear the annoyance in his voice.
He sighed heavily. "Okay, just have her back as soon as possible; I need to have a serious chat with Bella before I head off to work." He announced. "I'll have her back in the morning well do." I agreed.
"Nice talking to you Carlisle." He responded though I was sure he wasn't as pleased I called as he led me to think. "Okay you too, take care." I ended the call turning back to Bella on the couch.
I headed over taking a seat next to her, giving her a weak smile. "You okay, all warmed up now?" Bella looked at me with a mixture of different emotions on her face. "Is that true?"
I scrunched my face up in confusion. "What?" "You're leaving?" Bella asked though it came out more like a statement than question.
"Well eventually yeah, this was only till you were strong enough to live your life, I think you're ready." I said trying to encourage her. "What?!" Bella exclaimed running for the front door. However I expected it this time and quickly grabbed Bella's arm before she reached the door.
I held the back of Bella's shoulders as she viewed the door. "Bella it's for the best." I stated in a calm voice, hoping if I stayed calm it would somehow ease her nerves. Bella turned around to face me. Her anger was apparent, understandable even.
It killed me to know that I was doing the same thing to Bella that Edward had done. I was demolishing her hope. I was abandoning her. I was breaking her heart.
"Okay." I heard Bella voice as she gave in. She looked so betrayed, she put so much trust in me not to hurt her and that's just what I did. I couldn't stand hurting her anymore. I had to hold her; I had to soothe her thoughts.
I pulled her to me as she tried to calm her nerves. I gentle ran my hands up and down her back peacefully. After a couple of minutes I heard Bella's breathing slow down. I knew it wouldn't be long before she was asleep.
In one quick motion I picked her up bridal style heading up the stairs. I reached the guestroom my family never used, setting Bella down on the bed and pulled the covers over her. "Sleep well." I spoke softly to her sleeping form, before turning the light off heading downstairs.
I headed back to the piano trying to soothe my nerves, letting the music over take me. It wasn't long before I felt the shine of the sun coming through the living room window. I stopped playing, glancing upstairs. I knew it wouldn't be long till Bella woke up.
I headed towards the kitchen, looking through the fridge. Even though my family never ate human food we always made sure we packed our fridge with food for Bella. I smiled to myself as I grabbed all the ingredients I needed and started working on cooking the bacon and eggs.
As the bacon started to sizzle spreading it's aroma in the air I couldn't help but think back to the first time Bella met my family. It felt like it was just yesterday when Edward walked in with Bella by his side.
Bella looked nervous as my family eyed her up and down. I was amazed how easy it was for her to fit in with my vampire family. They meet her merely minutes and she already felt like a part of the family.
I gave Edward an approving look, secretly telling him he was right, Bella wasn't like the others. He gave me a quick knowingly nod in return.
I suddenly heard Bella's footsteps at the end of the staircase causing me to break from my thoughts and glance over at her. Her hair was a complete mess and her dress was full of wrinkled from sleeping in it, but even after all that she still looked beautiful.
"I figured you would probably be hungry." I said placing the food on the kitchen table. Bella looked taken back as she eyed the food on the table. "You cooked for me?"
"I'm sorry about last night I should have been more forthcoming about how long I was planning on staying." I apologized hoping she wouldn't get upset again.
"I'm sorry too; I know you were just trying to help." She stated as she took a seat at the table. I wanted to tell her it was more than that but I couldn't. She had to know this was our only option. It was the only way things could stay the way they were.
I smiled warmly moving the plate of food closer to Bella. "Come on; eat up before it gets cold. I don't want to keep Charlie waiting." Bella did as told bringing the warm food to her awaiting mouth. She smiled in satisfaction bringing her fork back for more.
After Bella finished her food I lead her to my car. She quietly got in without complaint. I was waiting for her to fight back, say how unfair I was being but she didn't say a word.
As we reached her house sure enough Charlie's car was still there. I remembered what Charlie said last night about having a talk with Bella I just hoped she was strong enough to take it. She quickly thanked me before heading inside.
Charlie gave me a quick wave from the window he was looking out of; I gave one back before heading back on the road.
A million things came to me at once on the drive back. Bella's sweet scent, the feel of her warm body next to mine, her sweet innocent touches that made me shiver, her voice, her hopefulness, the fighter in her, the way she looked at me when I told her there would never be an us.
Most of all I thought back to how much I wanted to kiss her.
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