Disclaimer: All the recognizable characters in this story are the property of the Twilight saga's creator and author, Stephanie Meyer. I only own this crazy plot of this story and are borrowing her characters because I'm a big fan. No copyright infringement intended.

A/N: Here's the chapter that answers more questions about Alice and Jasper. Warning: Some very angsty, sob-worthy truth is revealed. Bring tissues if you're prone to being emotional. Sorry if it disturbs anyone-wasn't my intention.

One thing I've learned from this exercise, I'm not really as fast as a writer as I think I am. I am in admiration of those authors that can embark on something like this and churn out chapter after chapter, sometimes multiple times a day without any trouble. I can get lost in the writing, and before I know it, too much time has passed. Maybe it's just too much start and stop, because of my household; it really is that way for me, most days. Or maybe I'm just slow-tee hee. Anyways, just bear with me.

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Chapter 12: Truths, Lies, and Alice

"The Truth"

by Good Charlotte

So here we are
We are alone
There's weight on your mind
I wanna know
The truth
If this is how you feel
Say it to me
If this was ever real

I want the truth from you

Give me the truth even if it hurts me

Alice sat back in the desk chair and tried to refocus on her project. Her mind was being traitorous, however, because all she could now think about was Jasper. There was so much more she needed to and wanted to say to Jasper, but at the time she just couldn't bring herself to talk to him. She was ill-prepared to have him waltz back into her life like he did and she was overwhelmed by his presence. She also didn't want to have a breakdown right there in the library courtyard, which would most certainly have happened, if she allowed herself to get affected by all that he said. However, now that she had called her brothers, Alice feared that she might never get the chance again to hash out some necessary things with Jasper.

As if there was some strange or rather maniacal magnetic force that drew Jasper to her now that she was thinking of him, he had burst in and was now unexpectedly standing there in her study room's doorway. She knew that she should have locked that door.

They just stared at one another for the longest time, neither one willing to speak first. Jasper made no effort to move further into the room.

Alice remained seated, pulled out her cell phone, and glanced at the time. Her brothers would arrive any minute and Jasper couldn't be around when they do. Without any regard for the place or the time, they would hurt him for sure. They had waited a good long year to enact their own brand of revenge for the pain that he had caused her, not that she'd asked for them to enact any sort of justice. Alice knew she would be helpless to stop them, especially considering their tempers of late. Just the mere mention of Jasper earlier had Riley heated. She shuddered at the possibility of Jasper coming face-to-face with her overprotective brothers. Alice suddenly envisioned her brothers in jail for assault and battery. She had to get Jasper away from her now.

Besides, Alice couldn't deal with him now. They had much to talk about, but it was neither the time nor the place.

She finally stood and broke the awkward silence in the room, "What the hell are you doing here? You had your minute like you asked. That's all I'm willing to afford to you for now. Like you said, I was more than gracious. Get out."

Jasper narrowed his eyes and straightened his form to stand as tall as he can be, "Alice, you can't expect me to stand for that."

"Oh yes, I do," Alice quickly spat back. "You walked out on me without explanation. You left when I needed you most, Jasper. You abandoned me and our unborn child, so I don't think you get a say as to whether I want to talk to you now or not. And the answer is no. This is neither the time nor the place, Jasper."

"But, I think it is. Look, I know it must've been a shock to have run into me like this. Frankly, I never expected to see you here at the library either. Now, we're here and there's no perfect time like the present to talk. You can't deny that there's a lot we have to discuss. My apology, my confession...well, that doesn't even begin to cover things."

"I understand that, but...," Alice tried to say. Jasper kept on, though.

"No, I don't think you understand. Alice, if you must know, after you left me standing there in the courtyard, I debated within myself whether to come after you at all. I guess I deserved you leaving me coldly like that after what I had done. But then I realized that this may be my only chance to talk to you...to explain myself, so I scoured this library to find you. I was never more grateful to find you alone in this study room. I figured if you could just hear me out."

Alice interrupted, "You don't have to explain anything to me, Jasper. You've made yourself perfectly clear a year ago and just the fact that you thought to stay away all this time with absolutely no contact... well, that says a lot."

"I guess I deserved that," Jasper acknowledged. "Please, just don't hold that against me. I...I was fucked up back then. I didn't know what I was doing. I'm here now. There's so much we need to talk about."

"Like I said this is neither the time or place. Besides that, I'm just not ready. You shouldn't push." Alice glanced at the time again. She need to hurry Jasper on out of here.

"Then when, Alice?" Jasper said hotly. "I'm not trying to push. I don't think anybody would be prepared to run into their ex like this and hash out some things, but it's got to be done. I actually don't see a better time or place. Despite everything, I thought that you'd want to hash out some things with me, but instead you've been avoiding me. This avoidance...it isn't you, Alice. You tackled things straight-on, whether you are ready or not. You wouldn't have passed up this chance to rip into me, if you are so inclined."

"Oh, Jasper, I let go of my anger a long time ago, so there would be no ripping going on now or otherwise," Alice said thoughtfully. "You...you've caught me off-guard. I agree that we have to talk and there's much that we both probably have to say. I'm just saying I'm not ready for us to have that conversation yet. I still need time. You can't expect me to just drop everything now. And I especially can't have us be talking like this when my brothers could walk in at any minute. If you must know the truth, I'm only trying to get rid of you so you can avoid them."

"You've blocked me at every other turn, Alice. I'm taking this opportunity while I can. I don't care if they're coming. Let them come. I can stand up for myself. I'm not afraid of them," Jasper replied, his voice full of determination.

"Every other turn?" Alice questioned.

The next thing Alice knew Jasper let out an "oomph" and then he was pressed face first against the wall, his arms bent at his back, and he was being restrained by Riley and Edward. Their eyes were ablaze with anger. Emmett was then shielding her view and he held a rather smug look on his face.

"You're not afraid of us. Well, you should be, fucker," Alice heard Riley say.

Jasper just struggled and spluttered. With the way Riley and Edward had him held, he couldn't even speak, let alone move.

Alice moved from aside Emmett and around the table. "Stop this...please stop this now. You are in a library for godssakes. I would prefer not to be banned from this establishment. Let him go."

"You've got some explaining to do, little sis," Emmett declared.

"Oh, for pete's sake," Alice exclaimed. "Let Jasper go first and let him get out of here. I can't...I don't want to deal with him or all this now."

She gave an imploring look to her brothers. Riley and Edward hesitated, but they let loose their hold on Jasper. Jasper turned around, only to be shoved by Edward back against the wall. Riley and Edward held Jasper in place, but at least Jasper could speak now.

"It...it took me long enough to get a hold of you, Alice. I'm not leaving until we talk some things out." Jasper asserted.

"I thought I heard Alice say that she didn't want to talk to you right now," Emmett gritted out from clenched teeth, as he glared daggers over at Jasper.

"What the hell is he even doing here, Al?" Riley asked. "You said over the phone that you weren't meeting with him and I got the feeling that you were appalled that I even suggested such a thing."

"Well, I wasn't and am not. I just ran into him here at the library and he chose to follow me into this study room when I walked away from him," Alice explained.

"We needed to talk," Jasper added.

"So, that's how it is? You're stalking my sister now. You're really unbelievable, Jazz," Edward stated.

Jasper defended himself, "I wasn't stalking Alice. It's by pure coincidence that I ran into her here. But now that I did, I can't help but take this chance that was given to me. All of my past efforts have been fruitless."

"Past efforts? What are you talking about, Jasper?" Alice was perplexed.

"He's been trying to get in contact with you, sis. Maybe ever since he got back into town. We don't know. But, we've intercepted a couple of his efforts," Riley divulged.

"What?" Alice shrieked. She placed her hands on her hips, then looked to each of her brothers for confirmation, for which they all nodded.

"So, that's why," Jasper uttered, earning him a shove from Riley.

"Hey, none of that," Alice admonished.

An elderly librarian appeared in the doorway, staring down the scene before her. "Is everything all right here?" She asked, looking between all the men and Alice.

Everyone relaxed their stances immediately. Edward softened his look and threw a beaming smile the librarian's way. She blinked, blushed, and briefly turned her head away. Edward always had a way with charming women just from that smile of his, even if they were elderly.

"Yes, everything is fine," Edward said lowly to the librarian. "We were just having some creative differences. We let it get too heated. We're sorry. We won't let it happen again." Then he gave that smile again, causing the elderly librarian to once again blush like a young schoolgirl.

"Okay, see to it that it doesn't. We just can't be having disturbances in the library," the librarian said, trying to sound firm. She then made her leave.

Once the librarian was gone, Emmett spouted, "Damn, bro. Remind me to have you get me out of a ticket if it's a female cop."

Everyone else in the room just gaped at Emmett. He shrugged.

Alice placed her hands back on her hips and glared at her brothers. "I will deal with you guys interference later. I didn't call you here to beat up Jasper, okay. I'm not a damsel in distress that needs my three big brothers to come rescue me. I could handle Jasper."

"Then why did you call?" Emmett asked.

Alice sighed, "Initially, when he came up to me in the courtyard, I was taken aback. I called you guys without really thinking. I...I don't really know why I called you all. I'm beginning to see now that, perhaps, I shouldn't have made the call at all. I never expected Jasper to burst in here and I tried to get rid of him, but I see when he sets his mind to something, he's still unwavering. Now, look where we are."

"Huh, you really were in here doing some mumbo jumbo research," Emmett observed. "What the hell is this stuff about?" He asked, picking up a book of astrology and flipping through the pages.

"Uh, uh...," Alice stalled for a response.

"Excuse me, but there are more important things that Alice and I need to discuss," Jasper proclaimed, receiving glares from Alice's brothers.

"She's not talking to you if she doesn't want to," Riley asserted.

"Well, can I at least know about the baby? Will you allow me to see my kid?" Jasper requested.

Alice's eyes widened, so did that of her brothers. Of their own volition, Alice's eyes filled with tears and they brimmed over. Emmett immediately enclosed his arms around Alice and hugged her closely to his chest.

"Way to go, dickwad," Emmett spat.

"What is it?" Jasper inquired. He was suddenly disturbed by the room going silent, except for Alice crying.

Edward grabbed a small, blank piece of paper from off the wall, which the library provided, and an accompanying tiny pencil. He scrawled out something quickly, then handed the piece of paper to Jasper.

"Two babies, Jazz," Edward whispered to Jasper. "A boy and a girl, but we don't speak of them ever, especially not now."

Jasper looked at Edward, quite confused. Emmett was trying his best to comfort Alice, so Jasper looked to Riley.

"I imagine that piece of paper Edward gave you has all the answers you need," was all Riley said.

Jasper looked at the paper. Two babies names were written, their birthday and their stats, and then the name of a cemetery and its address. Jasper swallowed the lump that formed in his throat.

"Is this a joke? What's the meaning of this?" Jasper bellowed and Alice began to cry harder.

Riley and Edward looked to each other than nodded. They each grabbed Jasper by an arm and practically carried him out of the study room. Edward closed the door, leaving Emmett with Alice. Emmett was still trying to console an increasingly inconsolable Alice. Jasper was being hauled by Riley and Edward to a nearby, empty, study room.

"What the hell, guys? What's going on here?" Jasper was puzzled.

"Doesn't what I wrote down spell it out for you?" Edward questioned back.

"I...I don't understand," Jasper admitted.

"Holy shit, man, are you that dense? She was a high-risk pregnancy because of her heart condition. She took a huge risk by trying to carry the babies to term. Unfortunately, luck wasn't on her side. At about 5 ½ mos, they found that the babies weren't viable. Her heart was already working too hard and her body just couldn't give the babies what they needed to grow. They had to be delivered still-born in order to save her as well. We buried them at the Gardens of Peace and Serenity in their Little Angels section. Those are their names. If you want to see them, there you go. We aren't going to stop you," Riley laid it all out for Jasper.

Edward added, "We should also tell you that after you abandoned her, and she didn't see that coming at all, she went into a sort of depression, man. She couldn't really eat or sleep. She had to take a leave of absence from school. It wasn't good for her and the stress, well, it wore on her heart. She's still having a hard time with your babies' deaths. That's why we don't speak of it, really. She blames herself, you know...for them not being viable. We've all tried to tell her it wasn't her fault, her body just couldn't handle caring for a baby and two at that; however, she doesn't want to listen to us."

Riley continued, "She thinks that if she had taken better care of herself early on, that she might've been able to save the twins, but there's no way of knowing that for sure. Now, isn't it any wonder why we hate your guts and want you to stay away from her? After all you've put her through. I think I speak for Emmett and Edward in that we're barely containing the urge to just pound your face in." Edward nodded in agreement.

"It's for Alice's sake, though. If we got a hold of you, alone...well," Riley trailed off.

"She's in a very delicate way, right now, Jazz. Yeah, she rebounded pretty nicely from where she was a year ago. She's managed to stay strong, but we all could see that with the death anniversary coming up, she's starting to falter. She tries to hide it, but know better. You couldn't have come back at the worst time," Edward expounded.

Jasper pounded his fist into the table and winced at the pain it caused. He whimpered, "My babies...they're gone? I had a son and a daughter? Oh God!"

Riley and Edward looked upon Jasper sympathetically. What they divulged to Jasper would never be an easy thing to hear?

"I need to talk to Alice," Jasper said as he tried to escape the room. Edward blocked his way.

"Now is not the time," Riley stated. "As I look at it now, I guess you and Alice need to talk some things over. You guys need each other's support now in the mourning of your kids. I'll speak for my brothers and say we aren't going to stop you from talking to her one last time. But, you gotta give her some time and space right now."

"Agreed. We'll make sure she comes to you when she's ready. She'll arrange something," Edward added.

"Just don't go disappearing again," Riley beseeched.

"I won't. I'm back for good. I want to make things right with Alice," Jasper charged.

"That's up to her. But, apart from giving her closure, we don't think you'll be seeing any more of her," Riley affirmed.

"We better go check on Alice. Emmett isn't exactly the best one for consoling," Edward told Riley.

"Don't come to her. She'll come to you," Riley called over his shoulder, as he and Edward left Jasper to himself.

Out of earshot of Jasper, Riley told Edward, "Fuck! What I wouldn't do to give that guy the beating of his life?"

"Indeed," was all Edward said.

Back in Alice's study room, she had begun to dry her tears on Emmett's shirt. He didn't mind.

"Damn him. Always knowing how to catch me off-guard and throw me off kilter," Alice pronounced.

"Well, that's the way love goes, doesn't it? Why do you think your brothers have remained self-confirmed bachelors? It's fucking too much trouble. You would know that, if you'd come to us before you fell in love with that sorry excuse for a man," Emmett responded, trying to cheer Alice up some more.

"Oh, he's not. He's misguided," Alice defended Jasper.

"I can't believe you still want to stand up for the guy. Shit, never mind. So, back to an original question of mine. What the hell are you doing here? What's all this stuff?" Emmett asked pointing to the piles on the table.

"Oh that? Just a little project I'm working on. No need to concern yourself," Alice answered. She didn't exactly lie. She just didn't give the finer details.

"Okay, suit yourself. Are you sure it won't be too much for you? C'mon, Alice, you got to be realistic here," Emmett's voice oozed concern.

"No, not at all. In light of Jasper coming back, I think it'll prove the perfect distraction," Alice replied, a smile now graced her lips.

END A/N: Try my best to have the next chapter up sometime tonight. I'm going to try and move faster, if my kids and husband are willing.

Chapter 13-We'll table the Jasper and Alice story for now. Back to Alice's mission.