Hi every one! So here is a new chapter, and yes it is an Edward chapter. I hope you like it =)I thought this was a really hard one to do, because I havn't read four books from Edwards prespective, and don't feel like I know him the way I kind of know Bella. But oh well, I had to give it a go, this story was suffering from NEE-syndrom, (Not Enough Edward).
Song: Shine by Anna Nalick
Chapter 14: Shine
It was a mistake to come home, I knew it the moment I stepped inside the house yesterday. But I had to check in with Esme and Carlisle from time to time. I knew they were hurting because of my decision to leave Forks, to leave Bella. They all were. Both because they missed Bella and because I couldn't stand to be close to them, listening to them worrying about me and thinking about Bella all the time. Not that I wasn't thinking of Bella constantly anyway. I would think of her face, the way her lips curled when she was smiling, the way her voice sounded when she said "Hello" to me. God, I missed her.
"Hello everyone!" a way to familiar voice said from somewhere in the house. It was a bit different than her usual voice, but it was defiantly hers. My Bella.
No, it couldn't be, she was home in Forks, safe! I jumped up from my sofa and raced through the house, searching for the source of the sound. If I'd had had pulse, it would have been racing like mad.
I stopped dead as I entered the TV-room. Every single member of my family was siting on or in front of the large leather sofa, there eyes fixed on the massive TV-screen that covered the west wall. They were looking at some kind of concert, the crowd was screaming now. All their minds were a mess, but one sentence was repeated over and over again in all of their heads:
"It's Bella. It's Bella."
The camera zoomed in on a beautiful blond girl on the stage. She had a little red dress on that fit her tiny frame perfectly, and her high heels made here legs look miles long. There was something all too familiar about her.
"So, how are you all doing tonight?" the girl said with a shaky voice, and it was Bellas voice. My shy, brown-haired Bella was talking whit those velvet lips. I was in total shock as the girl, Bella, smiled when the audience clapped and screamed. I blocked out everything but the TV-screen and the sound it made as I fell to my knees, just gawking.
"Well, I know you are all looking forward to Daniel Howies new movie, Sally's Choice, and in 10 minutes or so, you'll all get you will." She paused for a moment as another round of applause drowned out all other sound. She was a bit nervous, you could tell by the way her jaw was tensing and her voice was shaking. But it wasn't that shaky, so I doubted anyone else would notice.
"As you may know, my band and I were asked to participate in this movie, and we have all had a great time, writing music and acting." She stopped for a sec to clear her throat loudly, and the the camera zoomed in on a movie star sitting on the front row, laughing. Bella smiled at her and winked, yes I said WINKED, at her before she continued, more steadily now. "We would like to thank Warren Brothers, Daniel Howie and everyone else who gave us an opportunity to be in this movie, and was patient with me when I did my first peace of acting ever."
As the audience applauded, the camera zoomed in on the middle-aged, dark-haired director how blew a kiss to Bella as he smiled.
"We, Seattle Sunrise, have been given the honorable job of kicking of this premier by preforming one of our songs, so for the first time ever outside North Star Records, written by Amanda, Johnny, Jack and Allen.. " she said, and was interrupted by a dark-haired girl with a base-guitar.
"Actually, this song was written by the rest of the band to Blondie-Bella here, because she is just the most brilliant person ever, and we love her!" The audience laughed as the base-player placed a kiss on Bellas check, leaving a red kiss-mark that almost melted into her beautiful blush. Bella shouted something at the base player, away from the microphone. In response to what ever she had said, the drummer threw a drum-stick at her that narrowly missed.
It was amazing, she was so different. But for all her smiling and laughing, something was wrong, I could just feel it. The smile never really reached her eyes, and her laughter wasn't as free and careless as it had once been. What had happened to her? She was supposed to be fine now, away from me.
A stage-worker brought her a well-used half-acoustic guitar, and for the first time since I had seen her and heard everything she had said to the crowed, it hit me. She was on TV to sing. SING! AND she was in a movie. I had no idea that she could sing, or play the guitar for that matter. What had happened to my Bella?
"Ladies and and gentlemen, this song is called Shine," she said into the microphone. The theater went quiet as Bella closed her eyes.
Then she opened her mouth and sang.
Oh the night
Makes you a star and it holds you
Cold in it's arms
Your the one to whom nobody verses I love you,
Unless you say it first.
So you lye there
Holding your breath and it's strange
How soon you forget that you're like starts.
They only shows up when it's dark.
Cos they don't know their worth.
And I think you need to stop following miseries lead,
Shine away, shine away, shine awa-a-ay.
Isn't it time you got over,
how fragile you are.
We've all waited,
Waited on your super nova.
Cos thats who you are and you've only
Begun to shine.
There are times when
the poets and porn-stars aline and
you don't know who to believe in,
well that's a good time to be leaving.
And your past
comes knock on your door and throw stones at your window
at to in the morning well maybe
he thinks it's romantic, his crazy
but you knew that before.
And I think you need to stop following miseries lead,
Shine away, shine away, shine awa-a-ay.
Isn't it time you got over,
how fragile you are.
We've all waited,
Waited on your super nova.
Cos thats who you are and you've only
Begun to shine.
Won't you shine, shine shine, shine over shadow
Oh, oh
Shine, shine, shine, shine over shadow
Oh, oh
Shine, shine, shine, shine over
And I think you need to stop following miseries lead,
Shine away, shine away, shine awa-a-ay.
Isn't it time you got over,
how fragile you are.
We've all waited,
Waited on your super nova.
Cos thats who you are and you've only
Begun to shine.
Yeah you've only begun to shine!
It was a Bella I had never dreamed of could exist. She was so different, both in appearance and in her actions, but still the same. She seamed more confident when she sang, but it was apparent that she was the same, shy girl she had always been when she didn't have a guitar to hold on too or something to sing.
Her voice was amazing. Sure, it wasn't the strongest vocal I had ever heard, but it was more than that. It was something about the way she sang. The way she listened to the music as she sang, and she meant every word she uttered. She was a part of the music, not the self-proclaimed diva that some of the singers of today was.
On stage, she was more an actor than just a singer. Her face enforced the feelings of the song, just like she would have done if she had spoken the words to another person. Nothing about her performance looked forced or nu-natural. On stage, she was at home with her band, sharing her feelings with whom ever wanted to listen.
"Bella can sing," Jasper said quietly, breaking the silence.
"Bella is blond," Alice said, shock clear in her voice. She must have kept her promise of not looking into Bella's future.
"Bella is in a movie," Emmett stated, stunned. Wait, what?
"Bella is BLOND" Alice shrieked, jumping out of the couch in one fluent motion and before I had a chance to react, I was lying on the floor, straddled by a crazy and extremely angry little monster.
"This is ALL your fault you stupid, know-it-all vampire!" she screamed at me as punches rained down on me like a million of hard baseballs. "You left her, and now she is blond for crying out loud!" Under all the shock I felt and the mumbo-jumbo that was my feelings, I still manged to feel slightly amused that Bella's hair color was the thing that annoyed her the most.
"She has got a good life now, she is..." I started, but an animalistic growl cut me off.
"Don't you dear tell me she is fine! Cut the crap Edward, I know her better than that," she hissed through clenched teeth. "You know her better than that."
Alice had stopped punching me, and , and I closed my eyes as I let the events of the past five minutes sink in over me.
Bella had been skinnier than when I had left her. In the world of celebrities, she looked like any other "to-small-to-be-real" star. But to be my Bella, she was sickly thin.
Then, it was her eyes. Just thinking about them made me wince internally. They weren't the brilliant, full of life brown eyes I knew and loved. They weren't bottomless wells anymore. They were filled with so many emotions, that I couldn't pick you one of them. But they told me very clearly that she wasn't the happy, life-loving girl I had abandoned in Forks.
I had broken her.
But at the same time, she seamed better than ever, rocking out on stage, being in a movie. That was what every girl dreamed about, wasn't it?
"Since when had Bella ever been like "every girl?" my mind whispered to me gently.
I looked over at the TV screen, and someone had frozen the picture, and Bella. She wasn't great, I could see that. Put this was better for her than a life in constant danger. I had made the right choice.
Alice huffed, and my focus automatically shifted to her. Her mind was a mess, but one thought came through clearer than any other.
"Screw you Edward."
Then, she was gone. Just a couple seconds later, I could hear the engine of Carlisles mercedes purr to life and shoot out of the driveway in an alarming speed, even for a vampire. Where the hell was she going? Oh dear God, let her just be driving out some steam, and not driving too... Shit, shit, SHIT!