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The next morning I was up moderately early getting ready for the Order induction. I decided to dress nicely and on the outside I looked carefree as usual, while inside I was in turmoil.
I knew I had to speak to Dumbledore without anyone knowing. I'd rather James think me a traitor than a coward for not fighting Voldemort. Call it Gryffindor pride if you must. I just don't want him caught up in it, I want him safe. I will be neither traitor nor coward, I will take Voldemort down from the inside.
I arrived to huge hugs from my parents. Before they could speak I asked, "Is Dumbledore already here?"
"Yes," Dad said, "In the study upstairs."
"Thank you," I said already on my way up the stairs.
"Hey Sasch – "
"Not now," I cut my brother off at the landing, "This is important."
I knocked on the study door and entered, locked the door, and cast a silencing charm, "Professor, I need to speak with you."
He sat and motioned for me to do the same, "Tell me Miss Potter, is everything alright?"
I stayed standing and rushed out, "No, Voldemort is trying to recruit me. He did so in person. I am going to accept and take him down from the inside. Nothing you say can stop me Sir. Though I understand if you do not want me in the Order of the Phoenix."
He was silent for a bit, "All the more reason for you to be an Order member. I wish you would reconsider, this is surely a death wish Sascha."
"We all die Sir, if I die because of it I will know I dies for the greater good, he must be stopped," I stood even taller. I'd thought it over an unimaginable amount of times the night before and was set in my decision.
"I understand, your friends and family should be proud to be in your acquaintance."
"I request you never speak of this to my family or the Order, it's safer that way. Maybe when he's finally brought down or if I die you can tell them the truth."
"Your secret is safe with me Miss Potter."
"Thank you Professor, I will see you at the induction."