Grayhap: Sorry for ending it there! XD Got a new puppy today and have been super busy, but I knew I couldn't keep you hanging like that! Hope you like :)
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BigTimeRushGirl13: I can't break them up...I just love them too much! Haha, hope you like this! It gets a little cutesy :)
Suckerforlovestory: Lol take her broom with her XD That is too great! And ikr? She needs to just leave these two the fuck alone. I hope you like this! :)
CHAPTER 14- IF I LAY HERE
Being a girl is a bitch. We have to deal with all of the fucked up emotional shit, while the guy just comes along with flowers and a teddy bear and you melt into his arms. Then he hugs another girl and you feel like you're breaking into a million pieces. Then he says, "Aw baby, I love you" and the fucked up cycle starts over.
Well. I'm not getting caught in it again. And if that's how Tracy wants to play it, then let the games begin.
Instead of taking my usual short stroll to the stage, I took the long way around them to make sure they saw me. Oh, and they heard me. High heeled boots. Gotta love those sexy fuckers.
I held my head up high as I passed by, turning once to nod at them. I felt James' eyes on me the whole time as I moved away, but I forced myself not to look back. If he wants me, he better fucking show me.
Ha. Show Me.
Wow... When I get home, I'm staying away from their music for at least a month.
I spent about an hour with the band, rehearsing the set. When we were finally satisfied that everything sounded right, we split, and I headed back to our dressing room. I knocked on the door to make sure the guys were all...decent.
Carlos opened the door with a smile and let me in. I put my guitar back on its stand and turned to Kendall, Logan, and Carlos.
"Alright who knows anything about this Tracy chick?"
Logan tentatively raised his hand. I smiled at him. Perfect.
"Logan, gimme the run down on her relationship with James."
"Um...they dated a few months before you guys started. She was kind of clingy but I heard that she broke up with him. They-"
"Yeah great," I cut him off. "I'm talking about things I can actually use. Y'know. Gossip. Fears. Allergies."
Kendall raised an eyebrow. "What are you up to?"
"Psh. What? Nothing." He leaned back against the couch and crossed his arms. "Ugh fine! I wanna mess with her a bit. But just a little."
"Katie!" Carlos laughed.
"What?" I whined. "I gotta get back at her somehow."
Kendall stood up from the couch and placed his hands on my shoulders. "Kate, you have to show James that you love him and only him. You can't mess with Tracy to get him back."
"But...she fucked everything up."
Kendall let out a soft chuckle. "I know. But I have a feeling James will come around and listen to you." And with that, he walked out of the room.
Wait a minute... "KNIGHT, WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?"
There was an awkward tension during the concert. The audience couldn't tell, but the five of us could. And I'm pretty sure the band sensed something was off. James didn't look at me at all and I kept my head down and stared at my guitar.
The guys finally said their goodbyes and headed out to sign autographs. I walked out in a daze, not really paying attention to anything.
"I'm so happy you guys broke up!"
My head snapped up and a fire burned in my eyes. Before I could jump the little bitch who said that, Kendall grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the bus. I struggled, but he kept a firm grip until the door banged shut behind us.
"Kendall!" I shrieked.
He stared me down. "We don't need you going to jail for child abuse, Katie!"
I crossed my arms and pouted. "Are people really saying that we broke up?"
Kendall cleared his throat. "Well um...not exactly 'people'..."
"What do you mean?" I asked him.
He held up one finger and took his phone out, then searched for a while before handing it to me.
TracyDiamond:
With my favorite man, James Diamond, again! XOXO
I slapped Kendall's phone into his palm and moved to the back of the bus. "Going for a shower, don't bother me."
"Katie wait!"
"Don't bother me, Kendall!"
I shed my clothes and stepped into the shower, letting the hot streams of water run down my back and relax my aching muscles. I can't believe she did that. I just...ugh god damn! I don't even have words to describe the fiery anger inside me right now.
I took my own sweet time in the shower and finally stepped out when my head was clear...somewhat. I changed into shorts and a t-shirt and left the bathroom to find James, Kendall, Logan, and Carlos sitting on the couch watching Entourage.
I shook my head and stormed past them. I heard a slap and "Go talk to her, dumbass!" God, I love Kendall.
James poked his head into our bunk. "Kitty?"
"Oh, has his majesty James forgiven his loyal subject?" I snapped.
He sighed and shoved me over to climb up. "Did you see the reply?"
"What reply?"
"Here." He handed me his phone.
TracyDiamond:
With my favorite man, James Diamond, again! XOXO
JamesDiamond:
Fun hanging out with you, too, Tracy! And to all those rumors going around, Kate and I are still together and will be for a long time...if she forgives me. Wish me luck! XOXO JD
I thrust his phone back into his hand and turned away from him. "Katie come on! What did you expect me to think when I saw those pictures of you and Kendall?"
I glared at him. "I expected you to trust me, god dammit! And Kendall. Your BEST FRIEND. Remember? And by the way, that's really cliché. The whole 'best friend and girlfriend' hookup."
"I...I know. And I'm stupid for believing it. I just... I dunno. I want you all to myself. And Kendall was definitely looking at you lovingly."
"Yes, lovingly. He's like my brother! And he was comforting me because you were being a dumbass," I huffed.
"Well I know that now," he said quietly. "Come join us later?" I shrugged and he slid out of the bunk. "Kate, I'm sorry. And I love you." I leaned against the back wall and sighed. I let myself get pulled in again. Damn.
I guess I fell asleep because I suddenly started when I heard someone singing softly. Curious, I climbed down from the bunk and saw that it was pitch black outside. Must be after midnight. I moved to the back of the bus and saw James lying across the couch, singing Chasing Cars.
"If I lay here. If I just lay here. Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"
Tears sprang to my eyes when I realized how worried he was about our relationship. I sat down behind him and pulled his head into my lap. He looked up with his bright brown eyes and I leaned down to give him a sweet kiss.
"All that I am. All that I ever was. Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see."
My finger grazed over his lips as our voices blended.
"I don't know where. Confused about how as well. Just know that these things will never change for us at all. So if I lay here. If I just lay here. Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"
And just before we drifted off to sleep, we whispered those most important words.
"I love you."