Chapter 14:
Sorry I was an idiot! This is the right one now:)
Christian POV
"Ana, you ready?" I shout from the other side of her bedroom door. I hear some shuffling then out she comes from her bedroom. I look at her and smile. "You look beautiful." She smiles back. She's wearing a long peach coloured dress, that goes in at the waist then fans out slightly at her hips. She looks breathtaking. I'm wearing my black tux with a bow tie and I see Ana checking me out as her eyes roam around my body.
"As do you." She says. I smile and kiss her softly.
"Let's go then." I say, grinning at her. I walk out holding her hand and we get in the back of the suv, then Taylor takes us to Bellevue for the charity event. The car ride is pretty silent, but it's comfortable. When we arrive Ana's staring into space out the window so I tap her hand. "You ok baby?" She looks up at me and smiles.
"Mhm." She step out of the car and we make or way up to the house where the marquee is. Grace opens the door within seconds of knocking.
"Ana! Christian! Oh I'm so happy to see you two!" Ana and I look at each other. Yeah, she's drunk. Though to be fair to her these events are the only time she drinks and that's not very often so I don't chastise her about it like I normally would with Mia. Though with Mia it's more of a weekly thing, even though she knows how I feel about her drinking. She just laughs at me when I lecture her, then she'll give me one of her adorable smiles and I'll huff and forgive her. It's annoying how she knows how to get around my anger. We both chuckle as we hug her, one after the other. We are escorted by my slightly stumbling mother into the tent and we both make it over to our friends. Kate starts talking to Ana as Elliot wanders over to me.
"Hey bro. What's up?" He pats me on the back and I smile at him.
"Nothing, everything's fine. How are you and Kate?" He beams at me and I know he's completely head over heels for her.
"She's perfect man. In fact." He looks over his shoulder to see Kate and Ana in a deep conversation so they don't notice. He puts his arm around me and starts walking, I take a sip of my drink. "I think I'm gonna ask her to marry me." I choke on my wine and spit it all over the floor. I wipe my mouth and look up at him in shock.
"What?" I splutter and he hits my back until I cough and get my breath back. I look over to Ana and she looks worried, I just put my thumb up and she nods, turning her gaze back to Kate.
"I know, I know. It's quick but, she's the one for me man I just know it. She makes me so happy." I can't help but feel elated for my brother. I'm so happy he found his person.
"That's- great. That's great El, I'm so happy for you. When are you planning on asking her?" His whole face lights up.
"Well, I have this whole thing planned right? I'm gonna take her to Paris and propose in front of the Eiffel Tower. It's so romantic." I laugh at his enthusiasm and he tells me what he's going to say and what he's going to do afterwards. It's all very touching but I can't help but feel a pang of jealousy. I don't know if Ana would be open to marriage. I mean, I've only just got her to have a real relationship with me, I don't think she'd want to marry me just yet. Though I definitely wouldn't say no if she pondered the idea. Elliot tells me he's going to talk to dad about it and I say that I'm getting more drinks for me and Ana. I wave to her and she looks over, I point to my glass and she nods, smiling at me. I walk over to the bar and order two champagnes for us. While I'm waiting a familiar face walks up to me. Shit. I didn't know Gia Matteo would be here. We used to be fuck buddy's about three years ago. And she's making her way over to me now.
"Hey Christian. Long time no see." She says, flirtatiously. Oh god.
"Yes, hello Gia." I say, putting in my best fake smile as she edges closer to me.
"I haven't seen you in a while, what have you been doing? Or should I say, who have you been doing?" She winks and it makes my stomach turn. I can feel her moving closer to me as she starts stroking my arm lightly.
"Um actually I got myself a girlfriend." I say proudly, hoping she'll back off. She doesn't.
"Really? Is your little girlfriend here right now?" I nod and point to her, she's looking over at us with a frown on her face and a man that has his back to me is talking to her.
"There she is. Beautiful isn't she?" I say, trying to get her to stop brushing my thigh with her leg.
"She's ok. But what we had was so good Christian, don't you want it again?" Just then the bartender comes over with our drinks and I grab them quickly.
"Nope. Sorry. I'm sort of in love. Bye!" I leave her as quickly as she appeared and make my way over to Ana. The man who was talking to her has left and she's just standing looking irritated and a bit scared. What's up with her?
Ana POV
As Elliot walks off with Christian Kate takes my hand. "Have you decided yet?" I nod and she smiles. "Well?"
"There wasn't a decision to make. Anything else what out of the question. I'm going to keep it." Kate beams at me and smiles and I try to hold in my tears. "And I'm also telling Christian tonight. It's been way to long." Kate nods and hugs me.
"Oh I'm so happy for you two." Just then I hear coughing and I look up to see Christian spluttering after spitting his drink out in what I assume is shock. I obviously look worried so he puts his thumb up as he gets his breath back. I turn back to Kate.
"So what about you? What's going on with you and Elliot?" She sighs contently and I immediately know how it's going.
"Honestly Ana it's amazing. He's perfect. I want to spend the rest of my live with him." I raise my eyebrows.
"Wow, that's a big move Kate." She shakes her head at me and smiles.
"I know, I know. But Elliot is the one." I smile at how happy she is. I'm thrilled she's found the person she wants to be with for the rest of her life. I'm not opposed to marriage but I don't know if it's for me. I just got comfortable with the idea of a real relationship. Oh god, and now I'm having a baby. Can I do this? Can I be a mother? I have so much self doubt that I don't know what's right and what's wrong with this. I look over to see Christian wave over to me and point at his glass. I don't want him to think anything is up so I just nod and smile and he walks over to the bar. "Oh and Ana." I turn and look at her. "Ethan's here." My mouth drops open.
"What?" I turn and look around, scanning the room when I see a woman talking to Christian, and she's getting pretty close to him.
"I'm sorry Ana, I forgot to tell you. Wait, is that Gia Matteo?" I look at her and she looks horrified.
"Why? Who is she?" Kate looks at me and opens her mouth to say something then closes it. I narrow my eyes at her. "Kate."
"Um, she's, Christian was a friend of hers a few years ago." I frown as I watch them converse. Kate walks away to find Elliot I presume, while I stand watching them.
"He seems to be pretty close with her don't you think?" I turn my head slightly to see Ethan in a tux. I roll my eyes at him, but then I see her stroking his arm. Yeah, that's not the stroke of an old friend, that's the stroke of a fuck buddy, I know it well. Then she says something and he replies, both of them looking over with Christian pointing at me. She looks at me like 'This bitch?' And that puts me more on edge. Ethan comes closer, with his back to Christian. "I just want you to know I would never leave you alone to go and chat to one of my old fuck buddies. That's the problem with this guy. He's got history with a lot of girls. He's only going to break your heart Ana. You don't deserve that, you deserve a man that would be with you forever." I look at him and glare.
"Get the fuck out of here Ethan." He shrugs and smiles smugly, walking away, knowing that he's affected me with what he said. Christian walks towards me frowning slightly at what must be my expression. Before he can get to me I walk away, outside and down into the boathouse. I breathe heavily and shake my head. Don't be a bitch Ana, just have a calm conversation with him about that whore you saw him with. Oh shit. He walks in after me a few seconds later and looks confused.
"Ana, what's wrong?" I turn to him.
"Who's Gia Matteo." His face falls.
"I'm gonna kill Elliot." He murmurs to himself.
"It wasn't Elliot." He goes to ask me who is was but I cut him off. "It doesn't matter who told me the problem was that you didn't tell me that one of your fuck buddies would be here." He frowns at me and shakes his head.
"She's not my fuck buddy anymore. I mean, she was but we don't even speak anymore." I breath heavily and press my hand to my stomach.
"Well it looked like you two were speaking pretty animatedly in there." He frowns.
"Ana, I was trying to get her off me." I try to stop the tears falling down my cheeks. "Ana don't cry."
"I just don't know! Jesus Christian can you not go to one event where there aren't girls all over you!" He frowns at me.
"That's hardly my fault. Why are you being like this?"
"Because! You attract so much attention and I get jealous and I've never felt jealousy before and it's fucking annoying! I don't trust them Christian."
"But it doesn't matter if you don't trust them! It takes two people to cheat Ana! As long as you trust me then you shouldn't feel like this! I would never jeopardise what we have." I shake my head and turn, walking away. "No Ana, you are not walking away from me again! You can't hide from me! I don't understand why you bottle yourself up, I can never get through to you!" I turn and walk towards him.
"God because, I love you more than anything but I'm new to this relationship shit! I don't know how to feel I don't know how to behave around you! I don't know if we tell each other all our secrets or keep the ones we're not sure of locked away. I'm just so confused with all this." He walks forward.
"But you don't have to be, I've never done it before either. It's only fair that you feel like this. But it's ok, we both guide each other in this relationship Ana, and we can do it." He holds my face and kisses me. "I love you, and that will never change." I nod and he kisses me again. I turn and lean against the wall, closing my eyes. "Wait." I open my eyes and see Christian frowning at me. "What do you mean keep secrets we're not sure of locked away? What are you not sure of?" I close my eyes again and sigh. "Ana." He says, warning me. I look up at him and gulp. Ok, here goes.
"I- we're- I'm-"
"-Jesus Ana just tell me!" He shouts and I wince.
"I'm pregnant." I whisper. His eyes widen.
"You're what?" He says, quietly.
"I'm pregnant." I say a bit louder. He walks towards me.
"How long have you known?" He says calmly. I avoid eye contact with him.
"A week." He steps back, rubbing his head.
"A week? You've known for a week? How did you not tell me? How did you not tell anyone?" I look up at him and he obviously sees the guilt on my face. "Oh my god. Kate, you told Kate?" I nod and he sighs. I may as well tell him all of it, he can't get anymore disappointed.
"And Elliot." He looks up at me.
"My brother? You told my fucking brother before you told me?" I look down at the floor.
"It wasn't my first choice. I was just so confused Christian." He scoffs.
"Then you should have come to me! But you told my brother instead? Why? Is it not mine? Is it Ethan's?" I frown.
"No! It's yours Christian! Of course it's yours!" He shakes his head and walks towards me, taking hold of my arms and looking deep into my eyes, as if he's searching for the answer in them.
"Ana, tell me the truth. Is it mine or is it Ethan's." I roughly pull my arms away.
"I am telling you the truth! It's yours Christian! Why are you so insecure? Do you not trust me at all?" He continues to look at me and I just close my eyes. "I'm sorry. I am so sorry. But we can't do this if you don't trust me not to go back to Ethan." He clenches his fists together and I know he's getting angry at the thought of Ethan.
"I do trust you for fuck sake. It's just that you've hurt me before Ana, a lot. And now you've gone and kept this from me. It's like you're trying to intentionally hurt me." I look up at him and walk forward.
"I would never intentionally hurt you Christian-"
"-Then why did you keep it from me?" I shrug. "Fucking hell Ana!" I can feel the sting in my eyes as I say the next sentence.
"If you don't want the baby then-"
"-Of course I want the baby Ana! I'm absolutely thrilled that you're pregnant. I'm just fucking pissed that you didn't tell me first. That you told your roommate and my brother of all people! Do you know how that makes me feel? I feel like the biggest fucking idiot in Seattle!" I frown and look up at him.
"You're not mad that I'm pregnant?" He lets his anger slip for a second and smiles. Then he holds my face.
"It's my dream to have a family with you Ana. I love you." We gaze at each other but then he shakes his head and the anger returns. I look up at him and he backs away. "I just can't believe how selfish you are." I continue to look at him, trying not to show the hurt on my face.
"What?" I say, my voice wavering from unshed tears. He looks up at me.
"Don't you dare cry Ana. You have no right to-" I see tears build up in his eyes. "You kept this from me. Time after time again you make me look like an idiot. But not this time. How fucking immature can you get? Were you going to get an abortion? Is that it? That's why you didn't tell me?" I shake my head and look up at him appalled.
"How could you even think that I would get rid of our baby? I am a lot of things Christian but I am not so hideous a human being that I could kill our baby without telling you." He throws his arms in the air.
"Then tell me. Communicate with me Ana. What are you so afraid of?" I shake my head and look down but he walks over to me and gently lifts my chin with his fingers. "Tell me." He says, softly. Tears spill down my cheeks and I take a deep breath.
"I can't be a mom." He steps back and sighs.
"What?" I can't stand the face he's giving me so I turn and walk away.
"I've only just learned how to love a man Christian, how can I love a child? I'm an angry person, I am not in a stable enough condition to raise a child and I'm terrified I won't be a good mother. I had to live with several women who were in no way fit to look after children and I will not let my baby grow up thinking I am the same as them." I don't hear anything so I turn around. He's shaking his head and looking confused.
"Ana, you are the kindest, sweetest, most beautiful woman I know. You don't know it but have so much love in your heart. You need to sort out your issues because you have a lot of them. You need to learn to trust me first of all, I would never ever cheat on you. Second of all, you really need to think about my feelings before you do something in the future. And lastly, you need to stop thinking like you do, you will be the best mother in the world, and we will be a family." He walks towards me and holds me to his chest. "This is scary, but I need you to understand that you're good enough. Stop doubting yourself." I look up at him.
"You want to have a baby?" I say shocked. He nods and smiles.
"Only if it's with you." He Eskimo kisses me and I smile.
"We're having a baby." He nods and picks me up, spinning me round. I laugh and when he brings me down he kisses me passionately. "I love you so much."
"I love you too. And our baby." We kiss again and make our way back to the marquee. When we enter Christian goes to get himself a glass of wine and me a coke. I look over and see that bitch there again, this time being more forceful and rubbing his chest flirtatiously with Christian looking extremely uncomfortable. Anger surges through me and I march forward towards them. I loop my arm around Christians waist and lean forward.
"Can you not see that he doesn't like you? Get your hands off him and take a hike." She glares at me and steps back, gives me a fake smile then walks away. Christian puts his arm around me and smile smugly. "What?" He continues to smile.
"I like jealous Ana. She's crazy hot." I smirk and look over to see Gia with Ethan, walking towards a corridor.
"I'm just going to the bathroom." Christian nod and with a kiss I walk towards where they left. I walk down the corridor then I turn a corner and stop, moving back when I see them talking.
"I fucking told you to seduce him and what do you do? You get caught! Do you not understand English?" Ethan shouts at her.
"Well I'm sorry but he doesn't want me anymore! I already told you that, yet you still made me make a fool of myself."
"You obviously weren't being sexy enough." She scoffs.
"You know I tried my best but it's not my fault he's in love with that girl. It seems like she really loves him too, I don't see how you can't just get over it Ethan, it's fucking pathetic." I hear a slap and she gasps, then Ethan starts shouting at her.
"She doesn't deserve to be with him! He's an asshole!"
"Now that's where you're wrong. Christian's a nice guy, you're a parasite. This is so not worth the money." That's when I flip, I turn that corner and storm towards them, they both turn and I see Ethan cornering her up against the wall and she's holding her cheek that looks red and sore.
"Ana, what are you doing here?" I put my hands on my hips and glare.
"What are you doing Ethan? Did you hit her?" He looks down and I look at Gia. "Did he hit you?" She nods, looking ashamed, I hold my hand out to her. "Come here." She looks up at Ethan then back at me, then she takes my hand and I pull her towards me. I smile at her and then turn to Ethan. "What the fuck is wrong with you." He shakes his head.
"I wanted to show you that he's not the one for you. He was supposed to flirt back! But you fucked up!" He points to Gia and she backs away, obviously scared. I step in front of her.
"You're deluded if you think I would go back to you after all you've done." I hold up my arm so that he can see the yellowish green bruise around my wrist. "You need help Ethan. You also need to give up and leave me alone." I turn around and Gia walks with me, but Ethan grabs my arm. I turn and swing my right arm round, using all my force to punch him directly in the nose. He stumbles back clutching his face, when he removes his hands there blood flowing out of his nostrils. He looks angry and I grab Gia's hand, telling her to run. As he runs after us I see Taylor standing close by. "Taylor!" He turns and eyes up the situation and within seconds he reaches out and grabs Ethan. Christian runs over and when he sees Ethan he changes and walks to him. I pull him back. "Don't. I sorted it." Christian frowns in confusion, then he looks at Ethan and smiles at his bloody nose. Then he walks up to him and points his finger in his face.
"You need to get it the fuck out of your head that Ana is still yours. Leave her alone, or we'll have a problem. Do you understand me?" He nods hesitantly and then Christian turns to Gia. "So where does she fit in to all this?" I tell him what happened with some help from Gia. Turns out he offered her a thousand dollars to break us up. Gia isn't doing very well with money so a thousand could really have helped her. Christian says he'll take care of her money problems and we make our way home after saying goodnight to everybody. He takes me to bed and with all that's happened I'm just out like a light, wrapped in Christian's arms.
A/N - Hi guys! Sorry it's been so long but I've been in hospital the past few days. I'm all good now though so I'll try and make them more regular, but I'm starting school next week so there maybe some periods where I don't update for a while, but I promise you I would never give up on my stories. Thank you for all your support and keep the reviews coming! :)
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