AN: Just something to note, I received this letter around mid-April, about the same time I started publishing Nick's letters here. And with that said, I am here to inform you that this is the second to the last most recent letter that I have in my possession.

Letter # 14

Sorry if I haven't written to you in a long time Jackie. Things have been pretty hectic around here. Maybe I shouldn't have left the cliffhanger after all…

But yeah, life has really been freaking chaotic here. For starters, we lost Regionals again against The New Directions but I don't really care about that. I'm happy they won because they really gave a beautiful performance. David Karofsky is also out of the hospital and he's doing fine nowadays. Sebastian and I actually visited him once in the hospital and it turned out great.

Speaking of Sebastian, he's actually one of the reasons why I've been so busy. The guy is clingy in a surprisingly endearing way. Ever since our little heart to heart, he started to change for the better and he really became, dare I say it, a good friend of mine.

The Warblers were actually shocked by the transformation. They even asked me what kind of witchcraft or voodoo magic I did to change Sebbie (that's what I call him from time to time) like that; or if I had some sort of big dirt on Sebastian that I'm using to blackmailing him. The Warblers just never change. They are all Conspiracy Keanus.

But anyway, that's not the biggest reason why I've been so busy the past few weeks. The real reason is that my Tisch audition is coming up next week. I've been preparing "Halloween" from RENT for so long that I literally punched a wall when I received another letter from Tisch detailing the changes for the audition process.

Instead of the traditional monologue/solo performance, the admin wants to see a dialogue for our auditions. This was due to some problems with successful applicants who couldn't play well with others. Since I was the only one who applied for Tisch in Dalton, I had free reign on who I wanted to be partners with and I chose Sebastian. Since he volunteered to help me and all. I would have asked Jeff but he was having problems of his own with one of his classes so I didn't want to add more things onto his plate.

The first thing that popped into my mind for the dialogue was Mark and Roger's part in "Goodbye Love" (Yes, I really, really want to do RENT…) but Sebastian told me that it failed to highlight me more; which was sadly true. He gave his own suggestion though and it was perfect since it had a good dialogue at the start and it was still part of a musical so I can show off my musical talent. It also highlighted one of the characters more in that scene so it will work on my favor. The problem is, the scene Sebastian suggested was the reprise of "The Word of your Body" from Spring Awakening and he wanted me to play Hanschen while he played Ernst.

What's wrong with that, you ask? Well… why don't you search a performance of the song yourself? You'll see why. But yeah, since I couldn't find a better material to perform to, I agreed with Sebastian's suggestion. We've been practicing it a lot and it actually looks and sounds great (we record it so we know what lines we need to improve on). And to really show my versatility as an actor, I agreed to the kiss in the scene. Yes, you read that right, Sebastian and I have been kissing for this performance. It was a stage kiss so it's nothing much to worry about but it feels weird from time to time. And I meant that in both a good way and a bad way. And no Jackie, there was no tongue. It's simple, basic kisses… In case you get any wrong ideas…

Oh right! I'm here to talk about the kiss that happened at Wes' party. Not the kiss that Sebastian and I have been doing. Sorry about that. It's just that this audition is the biggest audition of my life so I'm really excited and anxious about it… It's literally the only thing I have been talking about for the past week.

Anyway, right, the kiss in the party. Gotcha.

I couldn't fall asleep after I woke up from that dream. I tried to, but my brain was just going on overload and a lot of the guys were snoring like jackhammers pummeling the concrete. Blaine was even sleep talking. Something about him thinking Kurt was the love of his life. It was cute but then he started jabbing about hair care products and how he loved them too…

Around six in the morning, Johnny started to stir into consciousness (I really am thankful that the guy was an early bird). The moment he was wide awake, I asked him how Jeff suddenly popped beside me in my sleep, hoping that he was still awake when that happened. He looked at the sleeping Jeff and told me that he had no clue whatsoever. He then asked me what was bugging me and I immediately told him about the dream, in whispers of course. We didn't want anyone overhearing things or anyone waking up unexpectedly because of the noise we were making. Some Warblers have the weirdest tempers when they wake up from a hangover… Kurt being one of them which you'll see (err read?) later.

Anyway, his assumptions and guesses were just as good as mine which practically meant nothing so we were both stumped. It looked like the only person that could really answer the mystery was Jeff, and I didn't want to ask him for obvious reasons.

Johnny and I exited the room quietly since we were starving. We made our way to the dining room and I saw that some of the hired help were actually setting up breakfast. They offered us to eat, which we did, and then asked us if there were others who were already awake. We told them that it was just the two of us so far and they left us to our own devices after that.

Johnny then stopped eating and started staring at something in the ceiling. I just ignored his sudden interest in interior design and continued consuming the leftover pigs in blankets last night and the killer Eggs Benedict they placed on the table. Johnny started tapping my arm and told me to look at the thing he was looking at. I stared up and all I saw was this small thing lodged in the corner of the room. I didn't understand why Johnny was interested in it at first but then it hit me.

It was a security camera. The Montgomery mansion had eyes. And yes, I paid homage to "The Hills have Eyes" in that sentence. Pat yourself on the back if you got that.

We went back to the guest room after we finished our breakfast to check if the room also had a security camera. To our delight, there was. And to add to the pile of good news, Jeff was also up and about (along with Cole and Kent but it's not really that important to mention). We approached Jeff and asked him if he felt alright after all those drinks. He said that he was just nursing a small hangover and that I should be more worried about Johnny who drank almost twice as much as he did. I turned my head towards Johnny because that was really a surprising thing to hear but he just shrugged like it was no big deal.

Jeff then thanked me for taking care of him last night. I was thankful too that he was still too hungover to notice me blushing, partly because of the compliment but mostly because of what Johnny assumed I was doing to Jeff. He went to the bathroom to freshen up and nurse his hangover and Johnny and I were left in the room again, mulling over what to do as a symphony of snores still echoed throughout the room.

David then entered our room (he slept on Wes' room), followed by Wes who carried a megaphone. Why Wes had a megaphone in their house, I have no idea. Wes then turned the thing on and shouted at everyone in the room to wake up and then he turned the blaring emergency alarm on for good measure. Everyone shot out of their sleep. Kurt screamed out loud something along the lines of "I did not spike the punch Coach Sylvester" while the others were also in that similar form of panic. David and Wes were laughing at the chaos they caused and when things finally died down, all the guys were screaming protests and curses at the duo. Kurt was in such a bad mood that he threw a hairbrush towards Wes; though he missed his mark and it hit David's forehead instead.

Wes and David raised their arms up in surrender and just told everyone that breakfast was ready, which wasn't really news for me and Johnny. Everyone just groaned because of their rude awakening but some of them did start to stand up, out of hunger. Jeff finally came out of the bathroom looking fresher but still hungover. Kurt immediately shoved Jeff away and locked himself in the bathroom to perform his 'daily morning moisturizing regimen'.

We accompanied Jeff back to the dining room since he was starving and well, I wanted another round of those Eggs Benedict. While walking, Johnny asked Jeff how he suddenly appeared beside me that morning. I silently thanked him for asking Jeff because there was no way I could pop that question. Wow, that sounded like I was going to propose to him or something.

Jeff held a look of confusion for a while before his alcohol streamed brain finally processed the question properly. He told us that he went to the bathroom to hurl (we were already asleep when that happened) and that he was too dizzy to cross the human littered pathway back to the bed so he just laid down beside me since there was some space; a very tight and small space but still a space.

He then asked us if he did something bad. Like if he puked on me or if he accidentally gut punched me. My mind was screaming, "Nope, we probably just kissed in our sleep, nothing out of the ordinary" but I just remained pensive. Johnny then returned the question to him and asked him if he thought something bad happened. Johnny was really interrogating Jeff without revealing too much information and for that I was thankful. Jeff just shook his head and before you knew it, the conversation has stopped. That was because of two reasons. One was we didn't know what to follow up with and two, the dining table had chocolate chip pancakes… and French vanilla infused syrup… So yes, screw my heart's concerns, my stomach mattered more.

Wes and David arrived in the dining room with feathers in their clothes and hair (for Wes). We asked them what happened and they told us that it was because they tried to wake Sleeping Curly (Blaine). As we ate breakfast again, everyone kept exchanging some funny stories that happened while everyone was drunk last night. Trent mentioned how the twins, Evan and Ethan, were dared to play gay chicken and of course, he told everyone the kiss Jeff gave me which made the two of us blush… To change the topic, I also gave my own stories of how Blaine fell down the pool and then tried to pull Kurt in and how Thad accidentally hit himself in the groin while playing foosball.

We all went silent when Kurt finally walked in and asked where the coffee was in all enmity. All of us already knew by now that the only way to appease a bad mood Kurt is with coffee, and lots of it, so we just let him be.

I waited for Wes to grab his fill of breakfast and when he was done, I asked him if we could talk outside, away from other pairs of ears. When we were out of earshot, I asked him if it was possible to view some security footage from last night. Of course he asked me why I wanted such an absurd favorbut I just told him a half-truth. I told him that I wanted to see what crazy things the Warblers did last night for like future blackmails/crazy storytelling sessions. He looked at me suspiciously but he agreed nonetheless, with the condition that I wouldn't use any of it against him.

He asked me which room I wanted to view and to hide suspicion, I asked for both the guest room and the gaming hall's footages. He told me that he'll give it to me later since he couldn't bring me to where they actually kept the recordings. He said that with such a mysterious voice that I actually wondered what other secrets the mansion held. If Wes told me that they had a secret dungeon by their wine cellar or a three hundred year-old ghost plaguing their library then I would have believed it.

I spent the next hour playing with Wes' dogs along with Jeff. He was a dog person while I was an animal person in general. We petted and played fetch with Wes' dachshunds till we had the dogs (and ourselves) panting. I went back to the guest room after that to grab a shower and while I was washing away the sweat and filth on my body, Wes knocked on the door and told me that he had the 'secret package' I requested for. I dressed up as quickly as possible then I took the discs that Wes had brought.

I texted Johnny to meet me in the guest room and when he got there, we viewed the discs on his laptop.

Okay… Sebastian just texted me to meet him in his room so we could practice again for my audition so I'll finish this letter quick. Wow… I'm meeting a guy in his dorm room to practice a scene with kissing in it and suggestive dialogue. There is seriously nothing wrong with that.

Anyway, we viewed the disc we wanted and with our luck, we could actually see where I was clearly on the video. Jeff did get up from the bed at around 3:40 as marked on the video and he did lie down next to me after he went to the bathroom. We then fast forwarded it till we reached the point where I woke up. Before Johnny rewinded the video to reach the point where the kiss probably occurred, Johnny asked me whether I really wanted to go through with this. Good ol' Johnny, building the suspense for us. I told him that I was ready and we finally hit the slow-mo rewind button and the moment of truth finally came.

The kiss didn't happen.

No I'm just kidding! It actually did.

Hahaha, okay fine, Honest Abe mode engaged and yes, the kiss really didn't happen. We searched for it for quite some time and we replayed and rewinded the video for like five times but the sad conclusion really was that the kiss never happened. It was all in my head.

Johnny closed his laptop and just patted me on the back for comfort. He then told me that at least I already knew the answer to my little inquiry so it wasn't really bad news. And you know what, he was right. Because I actually didn't know what I would even do if the kiss did happen. In fact, I think my life would have been even more complicated if the kiss did happen. At least with the knowledge that it didn't happen, I was able to resume my life normally; without much paranoia and questioning. I certainly didn't want to be the spokesperson for the Y U NO meme so I just accepted the answer I got.

The rest of the day was just more fun times with the rest of the gang. We finally woke up Blaine when we tossed him into the pool and Kurt's bad mood was lifted upon seeing that. We all got our own versions of happy endings.

So yeah Jackie, that's the story of the kiss that missed. Up to now, Jeff has no idea about that dream I had and I pretty much have no intentions of telling it to him anytime soon. I mean, what good will it do if I told him anyway?

Anyway, my meerkat faced Ernst is already waiting for me so I really have to go. I'll talk to you next time then, when I'm free again. Whenever that'll be.

One thing's for sure, I'll still write to you before I graduate here. I still have one more story to tell you and it has something to do with Rosie so I think that'd be interesting.

Signed, Nicholas James Duval