I apologize for the long gap between updates. I have had a lot of stuff for school going on and other stuff that the last thing on my mind was this story.
The only reason I even updated I Forgot To Remember To Forget was because I found a chapter just lying around and I thought, hey ill update.
So again, I'm sorry, but I just didn't have time. School is stressful.
So Merry Christmas, and will try to update again before school starts back up again.
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Oh and thank you to xXalienatedXx for the song suggestion that you suggested chapters ago! I had been waiting to use this song so thank you!
Chapter 13: Skyscraper
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
-Demi Lovato
It was a weird feeling… to be happy. To not worry about what waited for her at home. He made her forget everything else. She didn't think that was possible, but somehow he did it. He hated that she wouldn't let him help her, but she was almost done. She only had seven months and then she would be gone. Brooke had seven months before she didn't have to worry about beatings. Too bad that Fiona would never let her see the outside of Tree Hill.
She had noticed that before Lucas she didn't really think about her future. She told her friends that she didn't plan on leaving Tree Hill, but something about Lucas made her want a future and could picture it.
Peyton and Brooke had made up. The second Peyton found out Lucas and Brooke were together they stopped fighting and even though Peyton still wasn't happy about the Fiona thing, she told Brooke she'd rather be friends with her then not.
"I don't remember the last time I saw you smile, Brooke" Peyton told her.
"Yeah," Brooke mumbled as they stood at her locker.
"He is the only that can do it isn't he?" Peyton asked.
Brooke shrugged.
It was then Lucas walked up to them and wrapped an arm around Brooke's shoulder and she turned into him, giving him a very small smile.
But to Peyton, a small smile was so much improvement in her best friend and by the way her best friend was looking at her brother, Peyton couldn't help but let a smile break out across her face.
"You two look comfortable," Alex teased walking up, her hand intertwined with Chase's.
"To think you two have only been together a month," Chase taunted.
"You'd think they'd been together for years," Alex added.
"Well, we have been waiting for it to happen for years. Glad you two saw the light," Chase smiled at them.
"Shut up," Brooke mumbled wrapping her arms around Lucas' waist as he kissed the top of her head.
"Aww, what a darling couple," Jake joked as he made his appearance with Nathan and Haley close behind.
"I hate all of you," Brooke muttered.
"Yeah, she only likes Lucas," Peyton smirked.
"I'm okay with that," Lucas shrugged.
"Oh leave them alone," Rachel commanded.
"On to first period!" Quinn smiled as she stood next to Rachel.
They all slowly started down the hallway laughing and joking together as Brooke and Lucas trailed behind.
"You okay pretty girl?" He asked her and she nodded.
"It's hard to get used to is all,"
"What is?" Lucas asked her.
"Having someone make me happy,"
Lucas smiled down at her.
"You are gonna be happy, Brooke. I promise,"
She leaned up giving him a small kiss before they continued their journey to first period.
"It's coming up" He told her and she nodded wishing he would just let it go.
"I know, Lucas."
He sighed as she continued to take notes.
"Stay with me that night, Brooke." It wasn't a suggestion or even a command. It was a plea. He just wanted her safe.
"I'm not scared of her Lucas."
"But I am. So please, pretty girl. Please stay with me," He begged and she shook her head.
"I'm not fighting you on this."
"Fine," He said aggravated turning back to the teacher and ignored her the rest of the class.
When the bell rang, Lucas left quickly and Brooke sighed running to catch up with him. She grabbed his arm to pull him down a hall and made him stop to listen to her.
"Lucas, I'm sorry I just… I can't just run from her my whole life," Brooke said and Lucas shook his head.
"You don't run you don't have a life" He snapped and she stared at her hands.
"Don't come in and try to fix me Lucas,"
"I'm not trying to fix you. I'm trying to save you,"
"I don't want you to. I am getting along just fine. Look, soon i'll get out of here and never have to see her again so why should I go through everything else when I will be gone soon anyway," She shrugged.
"Brooke, please…"
"No,"
She walked away from him.
He didn't know it was going to be this hard. He wished she would just let him take care of her but she is too damn proud to let anyone try to help her.
"Are you ever gonna tell her?" Nathan asked Lucas as they sat at lunch and Lucas watched as his girl weaved through tables to get to the lunch line where her friends stood.
"Someday,"
"Don't wait to late, Luke. She needs to know how you really found out," Nathan told him.
"I know, I just…"
"Just what?"
"I finally have her. After years of denying my feelings I have her and I just don't want to lose her," Lucas reasoned and Nathan nodded.
"You can't keep it secret forever and knowing Brooke… it might bother her that you knew and pried,"
"I know. I'll tell her, I will. "
"Here you are, Brooke" Karen smiled handing Brooke the large Beatles cup.
"Thank you, Karen" Brooke said resting the side of her head on her hand as she sipped on the drink through the straw.
"How are you?" Karen asked the brunette.
"Better than a month ago," Brooke told her honestly.
"And why is that?" Karen smiled and Brooke shrugged continuing to chug her drink.
Karen shook her head turning back to cleaning the counters.
"Hey pretty girl," Lucas said into Brooke's ear and Brooke turned in her stool to give him a small smile.
"Hey boyfriend,"
Lucas leaned down to give her a quick peck before taking a seat down next to her resting an arm around her waist.
"Hey ma," Lucas said to Karen.
"Hey Lucas," She responded walking into the back and Lucas turned to Brooke.
"What do you want to do?" He asked her and she shrugged.
"I just want to be with you" Brooke told him and he nodded.
"I can do that" He smiled kissing the top of her head.
"Do you ever think about life outside of Tree Hill?" Brooke asked him as she stared into her cup.
"I think everyone does,"
"Where do you wanna go after high school?"
"I don't know… I want to come back here. My friends are here, my family is here… you're here," He shrugged and she smiled at him.
"I have nothing holding me here," She told him honestly.
"Good,"
Karen watched through the kitchen window at her son. She knew it was going to happen. The second Brooke and Lucas got close; they were going to get together. Everyone knew that. She never thought they would get so serious so quickly, but she was happy for them. Brooke was finally starting to smile again and Lucas truly cared for her, and if the way the brunette looked at Lucas was any indication, Karen was fairly certain that Brooke felt the exact same way.
"Brooke, I have to tell you something," Lucas didn't know why he said it, but as he was watching her smile at him as they sat in his room, he just needed to tell her.
It wasn't a huge deal. At least he didn't think so. It was just a few texts, but he wanted her to know.
"What?"
"Well, a few months ago, before we started this, Nathan, Kellerman and I were waiting for Peyton," Lucas started.
"Okay,"
"And we had Peyton's phone," He continued.
"Where are you going with this?" She asked worriedly.
"Kellerman text you,"
"So?"
"He text you a few times,"
"About what?"
"Asking you how many guys you had slept with," Lucas stated.
"What?"
"And I text you and you told me about Fiona,"
"Why would you do that?" She asked hurt.
"I don't know, I just-"
"That was personal, Lucas. So tell why you thought it was okay to do that?"
"I don't know!"
"I need to go, I need to be away from you," Brooke muttered racing out the door.
Lucas jumped up to follow her.
"Brooke"
"We aren't talking" Brooke said in a clipped tone making her way down the long hallway. She wasn't positive where she was going she just needed to get away from him.
"Yes, we are"
"What is there to talk about, you asshole? How you lied to me? Made me tell you things, made me care about you… God I hate you!" She ran her hands through her hair frustrated hearing his footsteps growing closer.
"I'm sorry… but just because I talked to through a phone and lied doesn't mean the guy you got to know face to face lied" He tried to grab her arm but he didn't have a firm grip on she pulled away harshly.
She spun around with a icy glare and shoved him backwards. "Yes you did! You lied to me when you acted like you just happened to find out about… everything was just a chance encounter when you weaseled it out of me. You would take what you found out and then act like it was because you have what… intuition? Good observation skills? I hate you Lucas. I hate everything about you" She screaming shoving him two more times.
"Stop" He said when she went to punch his chest and he grabbed her hands holding them tightly.
"What was your plan… to humiliate me?" She hissed.
"Stop it, Brooke. I wasn't doing it maliciously or to mess with you. I didn't even start it! You text Peyton. Kellerman text back, Brooke. And when you text that fucking text I didn't let him see it. Nathan saw it and that was it, but I couldn't not reply."
"It's simple. You tell Peyton and forget. You don't pretend to be her and meddle into my problems!" She yelled ripping her hands once again away from him.
"Brooke, please-"
"You asked about how many people I slept with Lucas" She seethed. She didn't understand why that hurt her so bad, but it did. It made her so angry and she wanted to throw something at him. "Did you want to see if you were still number one? You want the truth Lucas? I regret it… I wish it never happened. I hate seeing you knowing you were the one that took something so special to me and because we were drunk."
"You don't-"
"I regret every second I have ever spent with you and I never want to speak to you again"
She knew as she said it that it was the farthest thing from the truth, but she had finally opened herself up and she felt betrayed.
Lucas watched her leave hating himself. He should have just not said anything.
She stared up at her house from where she sat. She had been having the feelings all day… no they had been going on for awhile. And even though she was so angry at Lucas for what he did, even now as she sat here she couldn't but help her thoughts run to him. And she had this feeling that even thought she was angry, she wanted them to get passed it. She knew it was crazy because she had just told him she never wanted to see him again, but she already missed him.
Before, she didn't really care if Fiona did whatever Fiona did to her. She was so numb that nothing bothered anymore. But now, every time she walked into that house, she feared never seeing Lucas again. She knew it was probably wrong to have such strong feelings for someone she had only been with for a month, but in her mind she had been falling for him for ten years. Maybe it took her awhile to realize it but she knew it was true. And now that they were together, she was starting to think about things that before she never thought she would reach. She thought about life after Fiona which she used to think there never would be one.
She felt this inner strength she forgot she had and she wanted nothing more than to pack her bags and go. She wasn't going to lie down and take it anymore.
She was so tired of being beaten down by that woman.
Brooke took in a deep breath before walking into her house to see Fiona walking through a door that led to her room. Brooke knew Jake was in his room and Brooke glared at Fiona before starting up the stairs.
"Brooklyn,"
Brooke stopped her climbing to slowly turn to look at a surprisingly sober Fiona.
"What?" She groaned.
"Don't you dare take on an attitude with me," Fiona warned and Brooke shook her head.
"You don't scare me Fiona," Brooke muttered and Fiona's climbed the steps till she made it to Brooke.
"Oh?"
"Oh, you don't hate me, not really…"
"And what gave you that idea?"
"You hate him," Brooke shrugged.
"Excuse me?" Fiona glared.
"You hate my dad, not me"
"I loved your father," Fiona said through a clenched jaw.
"But he didn't love you. And you didn't love him… you were obsessed. You thought my mom took something that should have been yours,"
"He was mine and she stole him from me!"
"He was never yours and you hated it. The second she died you took that as your chance to finally get him and guess what Fiona, you didn't get him. The sad part was you didn't even realize that until they gave you his dog tag… and it was her ring that hung around it. Her ring that I'm sure he kissed before he went into the field… and it was her picture they found withering away in his back pocket, not you. He didn't even wear his wedding ring that he had with you." Brooke let out a laugh, "You are pathetic and you can hit me and beat me until I'm gone Fiona, but beating me will never make him want you."
Brooke felt like a weight had been lifted off her chest at the feeling of finally saying what she had been wanting to say for years. She turned away from a shell shocked Fiona and went to start back up the stairs when she felt herself being pulled in the other direction. Before Brooke even had a chance to catch herself, she was hitting the hard uneven wooden steps. She soon couldn't stop the tumbling and the hard blows that came.
It was slow motion and everything she held dear to her ran through Brooke's mind.
She thought about she didn't give Peyton back that Beatles record.
She thought about the first time she met Jake.
Memories of her and Alex's crazy outburst over Harry Potter ran through her mind.
She wished she had a chance to tell Rachel and Ian they needed to stop being so stupid.
She wanted to tell Chase she was okay with him going into the army.
She thought about how she was gonna miss Clay and Nathan calling her Cookie.
She wanted a hug from a Haley.
She wanted to hear Quinn's camera going off as she snapped froze a memory.
And as she felt that final blow of her head hitting the railing, and finally hitting the ground, she heard Jake charging down the stairs screaming at Fiona.
She never got to tell Lucas she loved him.
She would never get to tell him that she didn't hate him and that she forgave him.
And then it all faded away and she didn't think anything anymore.
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Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
So there's nothing left of me?
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
[Bridge:]
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you, feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
[Bridge:]
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here, watch you disappear
Yeah oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
(Like a skyscraper) huh huh huh
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper