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Chapter 13

Irresponsibility

The next day Alice and I ran into Edward's room straight from gym. We skipped getting any drinks or food from the vending machines to make sure we got there as early as possible. We ran straight to our desks from the previous day. I half tripped and ended up falling hard into my seat. Edward looked at me with concern and Alice just laughed. I shrugged at them and turned in my seat so that I could watch the door and still see Edward to talk to him. The other students began filing in as break ended. Jessica and Lauren were the seventh and eighth people of our fifteen classmates to walk in. They stopped just in the door and glared and Alice and me. We just smiled at them sweetly and turned around. They grabbed two desks that were two rows back from me and Alice and I could feel there stares on the back of my head.

The bell finally rang and Edward called everyone's attention to the front of the room.

" Since we have a few issues in this class about seating, I have decided that I will assign seats to everyone." The whole class with the exception of Jessica , Lauren, Alice, and myself started to groan in displeasure. The four of us girls just stared at each other smugly. " So from today until school has released for the semester, your assigned seat is the one you find yourself sitting in now." Everyone in class cheered, except for Lauren who looked very angry at the decision and Jessica who just slid down in her seat and sulked.

"You guys can sit and talk amongst yourselves for a bit while I write down a seating chart to avoid any future issues, but please remain in your seat until told otherwise." Everyone did stay seated even though noisy conversations began. Everyone excited that they could stay seated beside their friends. I was surprised when Lauren walked by me and pressed herself against Edward's desk.

"Mr. Cullen, I thought you were going to assign Jessica and me our desks back" she wined.

"Ah, Lauren. Well although I told you I would assign desks, I never promised a desk to any one person." He told her annoyed. "Now if you will please sit back down, I need to finish this chart so we can get on to today's studies." He never looked at her and kept filling out the paper he was recording the seating arrangement on.

Lauren turned and began walking back to her desk. She stopped beside mine. " I should kill you, Isabella. You know that desk belongs to me."

Before I could say anything, Edward stood up behind his desk. " Lauren," he boomed a little louder than normal. "I will not tolerate threats to other students in my classroom. Gather your things and meet me in the office."

Lauren looked back at him with shocked awe on her face. After a few seconds of meeting Edward's angry stare, she turned, grabbed her books, and left the room. Everyone sat silently watching her leave. "I will return in a few minutes. I trust the rest of you are mature enough to handle yourselves' responsibly?" Edward asked the rest of us. We all shook our head and some mumbled yes before he left. Alice leaned over and whispered that it couldn't get much better than this.

Edward came back after about ten minutes with out Lauren and called class to order and began the days lesson. The rest of class went by quickly and when the bell rang the room emptied even faster. Everyone off to some practice, work, or just getting away from the place they though of a torture as swiftly as they could. Soon I found just Alice, Edward, and myself standing in the room. We waited as Edward gathered his belongings and then all walked out of the room together. Once we exited the school Edward headed towards the employee lot with a wave and Alice and I turned the other direction. We made our way to Alice's car and headed to my house.

-oOo-

The Thursday before Easter I packed up everything I thought I would need for the next week and a half. We all planned to leave tomorrow morning for the camping trip. Ten full days of bliss. Alice is excited this year. She thinks with me there to distract Edward, she and Jasper will be able to catch more alone time together. She is hoping that once Edward deems that it is safe to reveal our feelings, then she and Jasper can do the same. I drove to the Cullen's home to find Emmett, Jasper, and Edward packing up Emmett's Jeep and Jasper's Chevy 4x4. Rose and Alice were commenting on what needed to go where. Jasper's truck was nearly packed full with coolers, tents, a barbeque pit, and some storage containers. It looked like the back seat was covered with several duffel bags and suit cases already. " Got any room for me?" I asked jokingly.

Jasper smiled. "Of course. We couldn't leave our tumbling partner behind." He and Emmett fell into a fit of laughter. I started to grab my duffel bags, but Edward beat me to it, tossing me my sleeping bag. He loaded them into Jasper's truck. "Well that leaves seating for two in here and four can ride in Emmett's Jeep, so you guys have to fight over who rides with me." Jasper said looking hopefully in Alice's direction.

I grabbed Edward's hand and gave him my best pout. "Can the two of us ride with Em and Rose?" Edward look down at me and stood on my toes and kissed him lightly. "Please." Kiss. " Pretty Please." Kiss. Edward grabbed me by the waist and placed me in the backseat of the Jeep, then climbed up to sit next to me. I looked back and smiled at a thankful looking Alice and waved as Jasper opened the passenger door of his truck for her. I looked down as I felt something being pulled over my shoulders. Edward was strapping me into a five-point harness system. I looked at him with a bit of concern on my face.

"Jasper's truck has them too. We take a pretty bumpy trail to get to our campsite. They like to go through the mud and over some big logs. They are purely just for safety." I nodded at him feeling a little better after his explanation. It took a little over an hour to get to the cut off and another twenty minutes driving though the forest before we come to a beautiful clearing. On the other side was a small river and around the other three sides were huge trees of Oak and Pine. Everyone stepped out of the trucks and looked around taking in the beauty and the silence. All you could hear was the gentle rolling of the river, the wind in the trees, and a few birds chirping happily.

Alice ran forward and broke the serenity of our thoughts. " The fire pit should be built here. Emmett and Rose, your tent can go here." She said pointing to her right. " Edward and Jasper's here." she pointed to her left, " and Bella and my tent can go in the middle. That way we all face the fire, but still can see the river." We took that as our cue to start unpacking. It was mid Friday afternoon before everything was set up and ready for us to just relax. Alice and I set up our tent, then helped Rose with theirs. After that us girls sat up some folding tables and chairs. We decided to use one table for eating and the other to prepare food and drinks during the day and then to sit the storage buckets of food on during the night. The boys made a fire pit, set up Edward and Jasper's tent, then went to gather fire wood.

By the time everyone made it back we had sandwiches and glasses of tea ready. We all sat down and laughed and talked while we ate. Afterwards we all laid around on large blankets beside the river for a good while. The boys giving up on us going into the icy water willingly picked us up and dropped us into the water simultaneously before jumping in themselves. We eventually wrestled our way out of the water and decided to go get stuff ready for dinner. Emmett ran up and grabbed some beers from the cooler before running back to the river.

"You idiots could wait until after supper!" Rose yelled behind him.

"Oh I know. Lets make mimosas!" Alice exclaimed to Rose. Rose quickly agreed and we ended up sipping on them while we prepared the food. The boys magically appeared just as we set everything on the table. They grabbed new beers and took a seat. Alice poured us a new glass of the mimosa drink. They were really good. We ate and played around. The boys lit a fire in the pit and we all gathered around. We sat on the large logs that the boys had laid down around the pit. I was having a great time. We talked and joked, and told stories for what felt like hours. I stood to go have a private moment in the woods when things started to blur and spin.

"Oh!" I said as I swayed trying to catch my balance as the world spun quickly around me.

"I thinks Bells is drunk." I heard a quiet voice from beside me. Alice?

"I don't think Bella is the only one." I heard Emmett laughing from across the fire. I was able to shake the blurry images from my mind and make my way behind some bushes to relieve myself. What as in those drinks? Obviously some sort of alcohol. How many had I had? I thought as I walked back to the others. I saw Edward sitting on a log by himself and walked over to sit beside him. I ended up falling over my own feet and falling into his lap. We stared into each other's eyes and then he leaned down and kissed me.

I wrapped my arms around him. Bring my hands to the back of his head and curling my fingers in his hair, I pulled him closer to me. I deepened the kiss and heard him groan into my mouth. He pulled me closer and kissed me a little more fiercely. I wanted this. I realized. Tonight. Now. I wanted to be in his arms. To be a part of one another. I needed that.

"Lets get you to bed, Bella." He whispered.

"s'kay I need to." I mumbled as he picked me up and I wrapped my arms around his neck again. He laid me down on my sleeping bag and I pulled him down with me. "Stay." I demanded as I pulled him into a kiss. Edward brought his hands around me and pulled me to lay beside me as he once again deepened the kiss.

-oOo-

That night I had the best dream of my life. I dreamt that Edward made me his. I dreamt of what it would fill like to fall asleep after having been exhausted by making love with him. It was the most beautiful thing I could remember ever experiences. I felt complete joy when I heard him whisper his love in my ear and being able to admit that I also loved him.

"Shit! Damn! What the-" I woke up with a start to find Edward pacing in my tent in nothing but his boxer shorts. He had his hands threaded into his hair and he looked panicked. I sat up looking at him.

"Edward," I whispered. "What are you yelling-" I noticed then that I was completely nude under my sleeping bag. "Oh. Not a dream. Wow."

"Wow?" He yelled. "Wow?" He looked at me with a mix of anger and disbelief.

I began to feel slightly hurt. "I don't know what you would call it, but last night was wonderful!"

"It was a mistake, Bella! We were drunk. It never should have happened!" he snapped at me. I didn't know what to do. Tears welled up and flowed freely down my cheeks. I stood up ran from the tent. I stopped when I noticed the four mortified stares from across the path and hitched my sleeping bag around me tighter as I took off towards the river.

"Bella!" I heard three voices call out. I couldn't stop though. I had fallen in love with Edward Cullen and had given him every part of myself, heart, and soul and he had just tossed it back in my face. My heart was shattering into thousands of pieces. I tripped over my bag and fell hitting the ground just feet away from the river. I tried to stand, but I couldn't move. I felt two sets of arms go around me and Alice and Rose both shushed me hugging me between them.

"Go away, you've done enough." I heard one of them say. Then I heard someone walk away and back towards camp. I sat there between Alice and Rose, hugging them to me as hard as I could. I was trying to stay above the swirling black hole that was threatening to swallow me whole. They got me back to camp and when I refused to enter my tent, they placed me inside Emmett's and Rose's. Alice left to get me some clothes. I heard her argue with Edward for a few minutes before returning and helping Rose to dress me. I spent that night huddled between Rose and Alice wafting between crying and sleeping.

The next morning I asked them to let me have a while by myself. They agreed and left the tent. I rolled up into a ball and cried myself back to sleep. I woke up a couple of hours later when Rose came in with some soda and a sandwich. "You haven't eaten in while." she whispered softly. "I know you don't feel like it, but please try? I'm worried." I sat up with her help and took a small sip of the opened soda she offered. Surprisingly I was thirsty. I couldn't eat the sandwich though. Alice came in and gently brushed my hair. We didn't talk. I just sat there. Alice and Rose would come and go. They gave up talking to me also.

On the third day, Rose burst into the tent and got a few inches from my face and started screaming. " That's it. You have tucked yourself into this tent for three days. All you do is cry and sleep. I am scared to death for you. Now you will sit up, dry your face and walk outside for some fresh air. Even if I have to have Emmett drag you out of here kicking and screaming, you will get out. Of. This. Tent!" We sat there glaring at each other for what felt like hours. She turned and stepped out of the tent. " Emmett." she yelled as loud as she could. I stood there looking at her for a moment before I stood up and stomped out. I walked over to one of the chairs and sat down, pulling my knees to my chest. I stared t the trees in the distance not really seeing anything in particular. I sat like that until nightfall when Alice tugged me over to the fire pit to get warm.

Alice and Rose huddled on a log on either side of me. Edward sat across the fire from us giving me look that was somewhere between anger and tortured. Emmett and Jasper shared the last log. Almost like they were floating between the two sides not choosing one way or another, but still supporting both sides of the fence. That night no one spoke. We all sat staring into the fire.