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Bella's Perspective

After a few more games of benchball, we went to get changed back into our school clothes. Ugh! I hated the sweaty feeling, but at least it was the end of that day, the end of the week, and the end of a term! Wow, that's a lot of ends!

I hadn't spoken to any of the Cullens since i spoke to Emmett during the game. I wasn't sure what to do. Did he expect me to talk to him all the time now? Did they all think they were forgiven? I wasn't ready for that, not by a long shot.

They could just be acting you know, like they did in Forks I thought.

I didn't know what or who to believe. I wanted to believe them, to believe that they all really did care about me, to be part of a family again, to be loved. But i couldn't trust them, i didn't know if i ever could. Everything they said, i would always doubt, and i don't know if i could ever be as close to them as i used to be. I don't know how they i can trust them. I wanted to, i wanted to make myself trust them, but i knew that there would always be a little doubt in the corner of my mind.

I got changed in silence, my friends not noticing my quietness, too busy talking and laughing amongst themselves. Of course, Alice and Rosalie were in the changing rooms with us, i could see them on the other side of the room. They kept on looking at me, and smiling. What could i do? Smile back? Ugh! What should i do?

The bell went shortly after that, and everyone rushed out of the changing rooms, eager to get to form and then go home. I prayed that they weren't waiting for me or anything, and for once, my prayers were answered. The corridor was a Cullen free zone. I waved goodbye to my friends, promising to meet them at the gate like we usually do. I walked slowly to form, thinking on whether i did the right thing or not.

This is pointless! Whats done is done. You'll just have to take the repurcussions for your actions I thought.

I sat in form, and waited for the bell to go. All around me, people spoke to me, congratulating me on beating the Cullen's,a nd begging me to be on their team. I just nodded and said maybe, acting interested in what they were telling me. But, really i was far away.

I met everyone at the gate, as usual and walked across the field. I looked for the Cullens, not sure if i wanted to see them or not. But, the pulling sensation was getting stronger, so i guess i was getting further away. I sighed. During the walk home i was silent, the air around me was filled with excited chatter about holiday plans and meeting everyone tomorrow in town to see a movie. I reached my gate, and told them that i would text them i i could or couldn't come.

I got into the living room, and sat down heavily. I put my head in my hands and just sat there. I heard my gran come in from the garden and take her gloves off. She must have sensed my emotions, because she came in and sat down next to me.

"Bella, i have to talk to you about something" She said, she sounded reluctant.

I lowered my hands and turned to her. She looked sorrowful and apologetic. Oh no, this couldn't be good.

"Err.... your mum called when you were at school. You are going to spend the holiday over at the house they are staying at in London" She said rather fast. She paused waiting for my reaction.

"What?! Why?" I shouted at her, though i knew it wasn't her fault.

"She isn't happy that you've been ignoring her, and she was worried. She said that unless you came to visit, she would take you back to Forks with her" She said sadly.

"So, why are they in London?" I didn't really understand.

"Well, Phil has a game and Renee needed to be close, especially in her condition." She said, referring to that fact that my mother is pregnant.

"But, i thought that...Charlie? That's why she came to stay with us in Forks in the first place" It was true. Phil had to go abroad for games, leaving my mum behind. Of course, my dad said that he would look after her, and she came to live with us. It was strange having both parents under the same roof.

"Charlie is there as well. Someone has to look after your mum while Phil is away" she said never taking her eyes off me.

I sighed. I knew there was no getting out of this.

"'kay." I said dejectedly.

I got up, and went upstairs to pack. Using magic, i packed my bag. It did cheer me up fpr a while. until i went downstairs and saw my train tickets. My gran put on her coat and got the car keys out. I knew she didn't like this anymore than i did. She agreed with me about the whole situation, even though she is glad that it got me here.

As we arrived at the station, i got my huge duffel back out of the boot, and stood in the rain. Yep, it was raining, true Scunthorpe Style. It was actually called Sunny Scunny! the name made me laugh. It seemed like it was sending me a farewell present, and i have to admit, the little town has grown on me. Putting my huge bag on my shoulder i kissed my gran goodbye and watched as she drove away, going way too fats as usual.

I sighed as a thought occured to me.

No magic, no powers, no strength, no speed. I was going to have to act all boring and human! Uhg! I actually found it hard to remember how i actually survived being so weak. But, i would make an effort this week, and i am sure that a very angry and hormonal Renee won't make that easy for me, and neither will Charlie.

I trudged into the station, ignoring the staffs smiles and cheery moods, and handing over my ticket. I wasn't exactly in the best of moods. I got on the train at about nine at night, after waiting for three hours, sat in those horrible plastic chairs. The squashed, dirty, holey seats on the train felt lovely on my numb bum.

I got on three other trains after that, and one tube train. It was a good thing i slept last night, otherwise i would have probably missed my connecting trains. But, i was bored. I had texted my friends telling them where i was, and had called Sarah for so long, that my phone died. She was going on about getting her cousins Gecko, or something. I just let her ramble on, until my phone died. I then listened to my i pod, which died as well. I would use my magic to charge them, but the train was surprisingly packed and i couldn't risk it.

It was times like these when i wished i had my wuthing heights with me. Of course, i hadn't touched that book since they all left, i hadn't read any books since they left. So, i was now staring out of the window, bored stiff. The tube train was better, and more entertaining. I found it funny the way everyone wobbled the same way at the same time. There was this bald man in front of me, and his head just kept on bobbing up and down, but, his wig was caught in the head rest, so it kept on coming off. I had to stifle the giggles that had me gasping for breathe.

When i finally got off the train, i had to get a traxi to the house that Renee and Charlie was staying at. It was one of Phils friends that he had given him to live in while he was here. For some reason the taxis amused me, being yellow. I don't know, maybe the colour yellow was funny to me or something?

So, after six hours on trains and two hours of waiting for my connections it was five o'clock in the morning, and i had to sit in the taxi for another hour! My bum had lost all feeling long ago, and i feared that it would never return. Why did the station have to be so far away form the house? it cost me a fortune just to get there, but luckily, gran wasn't exactly strapped for cash.

I handed the driver the money and thanked him for the ride as he helped me with my luggage. Their street was pretty run down, nothing spectacular at all, and the house wasn't that much better. The bricks looked ready to collapse, and one of the windows at the front had a hole in the window! Obviously, the area wasn't too good around here, and i wondered why Renne had come here when she was pregnant.

Ugh! Pregnant! I can't believe it! And then who does she turn to, but her ex husband, who she knows would do anything for her! She is so manipulative with everyone! I walked up to the door, hesitating as i thought about the early hour. Well, they are expecting me, i thought. I knocked on the door, and waited. Luckily, it wasn't raining here, so i wasn't getting wet, though i was still damp from Scunthorpe.

A very disshevelled looking Charlie answered the door. He didn't do anything for a second, he didn't say hello, or smile, he just stood there and looked at me. I stared blankly at him, still angry that he had tricked me.

After a second he stepped aside. "Come on" he said. He was happy to see me (note the sarcasm there) ! He didn't turn to look at me, but let me in anyway. I was in a tiny little hallway, the only thing on the walls was a clock. Charlie led me straight straight upstairs, never speaking a word. I followed cautiously, a bit unnerved by his strange behaviour. There were three door on the tiny landing. He led me to the far left one, which turned out to be a little room, the only furniture being a bed and a wardrobe. He stopped halfway in and spoke.

"You must be tired. You can sleep in here" And with that, he turned and walked out, closing the door behind him. The darkness engulfed me, depsite the fact that i could see just s well as i did in the light, i felt alone. Without changing, i climbed on the bed, and curled up. I wasn't going to sleep, i wasn't tired.

I wanted to speak to gran, but she was asleep at the moment. I could see her dreams playing out in my mind, as i stepped back from her mind. Here, in the dark, all alone, the pull, that i had noticed getting stronger and stronger as time went by, came to the front of my mind. It also seemed that the further you got away, the stronger the urge to go back was. I concentrated on Edward, but the connection wasn't that strong, and i could only get vague emotions. He felt guilty, sad, pain, and curiosity. I wondered if he could sense my emotions. If we do get stronger, he will be able to read my mind, something he has always wanted to do.

I thought about Edward, and eventually drifted into a deep sleep. I awoke a long time later, astounded by how exhausted i must have been. I got up, and changed into some different clothes, brushing my hair afterwards. I made my way hesitantly downstairs. I checked the clock in the hallway, it was nine o'clock at night? Oh, maybe they are already in bed?

I cracked open the door, they were both in there watching television. As soon as i walked in, their heads snapped up, and they both looked at me, but their faces were empty. Oh no, this had happened before. I entered, and sat on a sofa, as far away from them as i could get, and i waited for it to start. Sure enough, i only had to wait a few seconds.

"WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING, YOU STUPID GIRL! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT HAS BEEN GOING THROUGH OUR MINDS? I THOUGHT THAT YOU HAD ACTUALLY GONE AND DONE IT THIS TIME, AND JUMPED OFF A CLIFF" My mother shouted at me. Charlie put a hand on my mothers shoulder, calming her down.

"Bella, we are so disappointed in you. We send you to your grandmas in England, and we hear nothing for seven weeks! Seven weeks!" Charlie said, trying not to raise his voice. I clenched my teeth and took a deep breathe, restraining the retort that was forming.

"This is all their fault! If they had just left you alone, none of this would have happened, and i would have my daughter back" Renee said harshly, though nearly sobbing at the end. I felt like they had just stabbed my in the heart. They always brought the Cullens into our arguments, blaming them for everything. I didn't use to mind, but now, it seems i have changed my opinion. I still couldn't believe it though. Thats what they thought? But, surely not Charlie....

"I know..... I know." Charlie? How could Charlie say that?

"It was that BOY, he ruined everything, he destroyed her! And that girl, Alice! Ugh! I hate the lot of them. That doctor and his wife are as bad as the rest, pretending to be all nice, but you can tell they are two faced. I hate the lot of them, and the others.." This went on for another two hours. She basically pointed out my every flaw and attacked it, Charlie backing her up the entire way. Every remark and insult was like a twist of the knife.

They spoke like i wasn't there, like i had died. I didn't speak for the entire attack, remaining silent as i felt myself slowly falling apart again. When the Cullen's left, my parents kept me going. Now, they were giving up on me! But, i was better now, how could they not see that? I don't know what they said, or what they did, but i snapped.

"SHUT UP. JUST SHUT UP!" I screamed at them, getting up from my seat.

"HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO US LIKE THAT! SIT DOWN!" I had never heard Charlie raise his voice before, it scared me slightly.

"NO, I WON'T! YOU DON'T EXPECT ME TO SIT HERE AND TAKE ALL OF THIS SHIT YOU ARE GIVING ME? NO! NOT ANYMORE!" I screamed, and Charlie got up too.

"I told you Charlie! I told you not to send her to my mothers, and now look at her! She's let her run wild, letting her speak like that! I should have kept you" She glared at me, and i flinched away "away from her. She has always had some facination with you, begging you to come over in the holidays, and now look what she has done! You aren't going back there, not to live with her!" My mother said, deadly calm, Charlies hand still on her shoulder.

"How can you say that? Gran is the best person in the world! I have to go back, she's my gran, i love her!" I shouted at her

"This is all their fault. I knew that sending you to your grans would cause trouble! Those Cullen's poisoned your mind and now my mother has done the same and-" That was it. I couldn't take it anymore

"THE CULLEN'S WERE THE PROBABLY THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME! CARLISLE AND ESME WERE MORE MY MOTHER AND FATHER THAN YOU WERE! THEY WERE MY FAMILY, AND I WON'T STAND HERE AND LISTEN AS YOU INSULT PERFECTLY GOOD PEOPLE" I screamed at them, trying to control the trembling that wracked my body again. No, i couldn't afford to loose control here.

"THEY LEFT! THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU, THEY NEVER DID! WE WERE THE ONES THAT PUT YOU BACK TOGETHER NOT THEM! THEY LEFT YOU BEHIND TO ROT!" My mother screeched at me, trying to get up, but my father pushed her back down.

"They do care, and i know! They came back, they go to my school, they are in my classes." I said willing my voice to be calm.

"They are back?" Charlie said, his back still turned form when he pushed my mother back down.

"yes, all of them" I said strongly.

"does your grandmother know about what happened with them?" Charlie asked, still not looking at me

"Yes" I answered simply.

"And she lets you....... talk to them?" My mother sounded astounded at the very idea

"They are in my school mum, and besides, gran wants me to be happy. They wouldn't hurt me, i know it" When did i decide to trust them? I was speaking more to myself that anyone else, willing myself to believe my own words.

"Well then, since they are such a better family than us, why don't you go and live with them?" He said strongly, i saw my mother nod slightly.

"What-?" I couldn't believe this, this couldn't be happening.

"You heard me, get out! Get out right now, and don't come crying to us when they break your heart again, you ungrateful bitch! Go back and live with your grandma, go shack up with the Cullens! We don't care anymore! As far as we are concerned, we never had a daughter" Charlie swore, for the first time. The calmness of his voice terrified me, and i knew he meant it, every word. I didn't cry, i didn't even feel sad. I didn't know what i was feeling to be honest.

Silently, i went into the hall and up the stairs, packing my bag. It took all of twenty seconds to do, and i shoved it on my shoulder and walked downstairs. I didn't bother to say goodbye, i just walked out of the house, and didn't look back. They never came after me, so, i just walked away from the house.

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It was midnight when i arrived at the tube station. I thanked god that i had remembered to pack my purse, which was, thanks to my gran, bursting with money. I payed for my ticket and waited. I got on the tube, and sat down, taking a deep breathe. What the hell had just happened? I couldn't comprehend it! I had never seen either of my parents like that, ever! When did they start thinking like that? How could they say that they never had their daughter?

Thanks to my pondering, it took my half an hour to discover that i had the wrong train. I had to buy three more tickets before i was back where i started, so i could start again. Finally, getting back to where i started, i payed for another ticket. The ticket master giving me a strange look as he handed me my change and ticket. I had to run to catch the tube, just getting there in time. I sighed as i set my huge bag o the floor at my feet, leaning my head back on the head rest, closing my eyes.

The compartment was empty, and i was grateful. I let my mind wander to the events of the week. All the Cullen's approaches and ways of trying to get my attention, all the times i had avoided them. The bench ball game, the trip down here, Charlies behaviour, the fight..... My thoughts carried on like this, and i was blind to the outside world, too wrapped up in my own mind.

Maybe if i wasn't, i would have seen the man who got on after me, the one sat staring at me at the other end of the compartment. I would have seen when he moved, slowly, until he sat in the seat behind me. But i was too late.

I felt something cold and sharp on my neck and it brought me out of my day dreams.

"Alright beautiful? Now then, don't make any noise, i wouldn't want to ruin that pretty face of your, now would i?" A gruff voice said behind me, and i could smell the alcohol on his breathe.

My heart beat accelerated, and my breathing hitched. My palms sweated, as i tried to use my magic to get away. But i couldn't. My mind was a mess, it was running to fast, and i couldn't concentrate, i couldn't find a hold on my magic. I was powerless.

"That's better. Now, I'm going to take you some place special, and you and me are going to have a good time tonight, yeah?" he said, digging the knife into my throat. He pushed it so far that he cut me, causing blood to drip down my neck. What? I thought i healed? I didn't think i could bleed anymore, at least thats what my gran told me!

I tried to contact her, but i couldn't reach her. It was like i was human again, with no powers. I couldn't use magic, or contact anyone, so what was i going to do?

I stayed silent, willing this all to be a nightmare. I felt the knife cut deeper- "I said you and me are going to have a good time, aren't we?" he said, his voice getting angry at the end.

I gulped, willing my voice to work.

"yes"

I re-did it, because it was a bit vague, and not very detailed in places. Please read the newer version, i didn't chnage it much, but still...
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