Chpt.14
"Do you think that when I turn eleven, I would go to Hogwarts?" Livy questioned as she sat on the bed and braided Letta's hair.
"I suppose you might get a letter if zey knew vhere to send it." Letta smiled. "Vould you like to go to Hogwarts?" she inquired and Livy paused for a moment.
"I guess it would be fun… but I'd miss Jason. If Jason could go with me, then I'd go to Hogwarts." The little girl answered. "Speaking of Jason, where is he and Amal? Don't you think they'd be back yet?"
Letta sighed as she looked out the window. Jason and Amal had gone to Burk's house to talk to him about breaking off the marriage.
"Zey'll be back soon, Lify. Burk is crazy, but Papa und Jason are persistent. I'm sure everything vill be fine." she informed, smiling reassuringly at the girl.
"LIVY!" Livy heard Jason shout as the door opened, and she and Letta sprinted down the steps to the door.
Jason stood in the doorway trying to hold Amal up. The man was bleeding from a stab in the chest, and his breathing was shallow.
"Lay him on his bed." Livy stated and ran back upstairs to get the medical kit.
"Jason, vhat happened?" Letta questioned as she and Jason dragged a barely conscious Amal up to his room and laid him on the bed.
"Burk was a nut, and stabbed your father." Jason informed shortly.
"Did you call for help Jason? The authorities-"
"Letta." Jason stated sternly. "I killed Burk after he stabbed your father. I can't get the authorities involved." Jason explained and Livy came back into the room, holding the medical kt and a cloth damp with water, ready to work.
Jason and Letta watched as Livy operated, but Letta grew pale and almost fainted several times.
"Livy, tell me if you need anything, I'm taking Letta out of the room." Jason stated, and Livy gave a quick and quiet 'okay' as she continued to concentrate on the work at hand.
"Vhy did you shoot Burk?" Letta questioned, once she didn't feel faint anymore. Jason shot her a hard look.
"He stabbed your father, and he beat you. A man like that doesn't deserve to live." He stated, and Letta smacked him.
"Who are you to say vhether he should live or not? You are not God! You are just a man!" she exclaimed in anger.
"What if your father dies right now? I wanted to avenge him if he died! Amal is one of the few people I trust in this world, I refuse to let him die without avenging his killer!" Jason shouted.
"You are alvays so consumed in refenge and anger! Vhat is wrong vith you? Do you zink zat is a good vay to act vhen raising a little girl?" Letta spat, and Jason furrowed his eyebrows.
"What do you mean?" he growled.
"Lify is a small girl who looks up to you. Howefer she vill forefer see a man who looks for nozing but refenge and she vill feel cast aside. Vhen it comes to your lofe, Jason, a person vill always come second to revenge." Letta stated.
Jason paused for a moment, letting what the woman said sink in.
Do I really love revenge more than Livy? Livy is safe when she's with me, because I can protect her, and she helps me. There's nothing to worry about. Livy will grow up fine. Right? I only want what's best for her. Jason sighed, shaking his head. But staying with me isn't what's best for her.
Jason looked at Letta, and whispered in a low voice,
"Do you swear to never let anything bad happen to her?"
"Vhat?" Letta questioned, confused by Jason's random statement.
"I said," Jason grunted, as if it hurt to speak. "Do you swear to never let anything bad happen to her?" Letta nodded her head.
"I svear." She stated. Jason looked over at the door, knowing that Livy was behind it. He was close to crying because it felt like he was ripping his heart out.
He looked over at Letta and whispered,
"Then she's yours."
Letta was speechless as she watched Jason run to the guest room, grab his pack, and sprint out the door.
He knew Livy would be heart broken. He knew how much she would miss him, and he knew that the feeling would be mutual.
Jason could feel an ache in his heart, already missing his little companion. Jason felt as if he needed her to be with him, so he knew that she was safe.
"No." Jason whispered, shaking his head, and keeping tears at bay.
"She will be safe there." He told himself.
He knew that with Amal's injury and Livy's healing skills that Amal would be alright. Amal would spoil Livy silly, being the grandfather the girl never had, and Letta would be an excellent mother. She would read Livy stories, and teach her how to dance.
Why can't I do those things? Jason thought to himself but shook his head. No, Livy will be happier and safer. He said to himself, but he still felt horrible.
I'm doing the right thing, so why doesn't this hurt go away?