Ch. 14. Getting the fuck back

At the Council building Cas ran into his dear friend Balthazar, where he learned he'll be in town just for a week or so, until his next trip. They went out for coffee and, the moment Castiel told him about his current love and work situation, Balthy just had to take him out to celebrate he delivered his first commission and got rid of his asshole ex-boyfriend (apparently he wasn't fond of Tom...)

Cas got drunk, and danced, and laughed, and hooked up with a beautiful brunette girl. It was exciting because a)she was hot, b) he was drunk so everything was just exciting and c)he needed to get laid, as not so delicately put in Balthy's words, rebound sex or something…

Anyway, daylight found him very hungover and entangled with another body on his bed.

Castiel's arrival from his night out wasn't as inconspicuous as he would have liked, and Jo was sent to his room to serve them breakfast. And check on them, see if they survived their vigorous night.

While Jo was placing the tray on the table, she saw how the girl kissed her Master, covered her body with a bedsheet to then walk towards the lavatory. Once she closed the door, Master Castiel motioned for Jo to approach him. He had bags under his eyes and was groaning a little, apparently, sunlight wasn't his best friend right at the moment.

"Joanna, I need your help… I can't remember her name… and I can't ask her now after last night's…" he was running his hands on his hair, accentuating his permanent but now justifiable bed hair.

Jo had a hard time controlling her laughter, his distress was almost endearing. "I'll see what I can do…" She assessed the room for a bit then set a plan simple enough that to put it in motion she just needed to collect the lady's clothes and put them out of sight. "Would you allow me to be a bit… talkative?" Jo needed his permission but her Master just nodded as an answer and let himself fall into his bed again, he surely wasn't ready to face the world. Jo used that time to gather her Master's belongings as well and tidy up the room a bit.

When the woman stepped back into the room she eyed the place looking for her garments but, of course, couldn't find them. "Where are my clothes?" she asked to the room in general so Jo plastered a wide and fake smile on her face, it was her cue.

"I put them away Miss, but I can get them back Miss, do you wish them back Miss? I can help you dress Miss, do you care for my help Miss? Or maybe I can do your hair Miss…" Jo was handing her piece by piece and fumbling with every item, taking more time than it should. Cas was watching the scene and biting his lips to avoid a chuckle, he had never expected to see that.

"it's Miss Carly for you! My fucking name is Carly and no, just give them to me… Damn it, Cassie, she's fucking annoying, see the girl gets what she deserves for bothering me this early…" Miss Carly wasn't a morning person…

"Of course Carly. Joanna, you can leave now" Cas said out loud but mouthed a silent 'thank you' to Jo.

She left the room with a smile knowing she had done something good.

Cas, on the other hand, after an extended breakfast in bed discovered that Carly, besides sporting beautiful green eyes, had nothing else he could find appealing. She was boring and obnoxious, and rather clingy, so it took him a few hours to finally make her leave the house to never come back, all said and done as politely as possible. The task was achieved when he could manage to properly place her in a coach. By the early afternoon his hangover had finally ceased trying to part his head in half. Cas chuckled, he knew he had behaved as a teenager and it was stupid, but he just wondered where his rebellious soul would take him next.

Luckily, he didn't have too much time to wonder though, Balthy came looking for him after dinner so they could repeat their previous night's activities. Oh well, Balthy will be in town just for a week, they had to make the most of it…

Jo had to assist him in the same fashion for the next few days, to the point Cas knew he needn't worry, he could count on her. One morning Jo wasn't sent to his room so Cas asked that other slave to help him figure out the name of the person lying next to him in bed. It didn't work out the same so, once his hangover and companion were gone, he requested Martha for Joanna to be the one helping him in the mornings, not because he expected to repeat his sexcapades but because she somehow made him feel at ease about them.

Jo unveiled Matt's name, Russel, Anne and Taylor's. He even asked her to escort Taylor out, not even bothering on doing it himself and trusting she would do an excellent job.

Balthazar left, leaving a very tired Cas that just wanted to resume his calm and peaceful routine. Once he was finally alone with no prospect of an evening out he just wanted to have a nice long bath. The warm water helped him relax his body so his mind was free to consider what had happened all through the last week. Castiel had repeatedly got drunk and went after the first person that got his fancy. Usually they just had pretty eyes and a dirty mouth, but that wasn't important, he just had looked to get off. Balthy was right, he needed to get laid, that much was evident, but it just felt… it felt like it could've been anyone, like he just needed another body… maybe he was just a piece of meat after all.

Cas was about to wallow in self-loathing when he realized that even when they all had been empty fucks, he was the one choosing for it to happen, and maybe those one night stands were the first honest sex he had in years so yes, he was a piece of meat but by choice, and it somehow felt great. Or not so bad. It was a wild week, and it was also a very liberating one too. It hadn't been a very productive one but you just can't have it all…

After Balthazar left Castiel refocused on his work. Even when it had been in a less than mature way, he had claimed his body back, now it was time for his mind to figure out how he wanted the rest of his life to be.