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So, the next two chapters will be on Christian's and Kate's view on what happened between these two. How they would have wanted things to turn out. I am going to be redoing chapter 11 soon. It's going to be a lot less steamier. But, it will be how these two just let the barriers go down. I will fix it today or tomorrow. I don't know when. My sister always so how needs the laptop! Arg! I need my own! It's just getting annoying! My friend and her brother got their own laptop, because they kept fighting about it. All I said was that not all of us can afford that. I said it in a really nice way. My friend is awesome though! Her name on this story is Emerson. Actually, I came up with that name when she was coming up kick-names for me with my friend. So, I came up with Emerson! I just like the name! Even, though she said it's actually longer than her name! Ha, oh fond memories... Anyways! On with the story!

Warning: May contain swearing.

Chapter 14: Why Must Everything Not Go My Way?

Kate's point of view:

Ugh. I tried to tell Christian how I felt, but so many things get in the way! The stupid bell. His stupid dreamy eyes I got lost in. The stupid test. The stupid test! Crap! I hope I did well. I mean, we have been learning all those things. I hope I didn't fail it. Anyways, back to the list. Crew. It gets in the way of everything! Don't get me wrong, I love being a coxswain and being at crew. It's just so time consuming! I just have no time for anything! Ah!

I was going to crew. I have long black spandex and long black pants over it. I have a tee-shirt and a sweat shirt over it. Then, I have a zip up poof jacket. It didn't cover up my arms. Only covering up my chest, stomach, and back (I don't know what those coats are called.). I have my hair tied up in a ponytail. I usually have a black hat or my black sport sunglasses on. And my black tennis shoes. Even when it's hot, you want to dress warm, always.

I was at crew. I went straight to the stairs. Where the novice girls and guys met. We go out on the water straight away. The guys went out at 4:30. We went out at 3:30, just clarifying. I went there waiting for more people to come. Once more people came, we went to drop the launch. The boat people went out in, if they weren't rowing/coxing or doing land workouts.

I checked the board. I was in the launch. Which, today, I was kind of glad about. So, I could think about what I did with Christian. I usually cox the C boat, or just in the launch. I once coxed the B boat.

Our coaches were there. We got both the launches down with little water in them.

I went to go get my coat on. I was the only person, besides one of my coaches in the launch. The others were in a different launch. I got my jacket from the Cubby Room. I saw that they got the boats out. I went to go untie our launch. We went off. Luckily, today was drill day. I started getting lost in my thoughts.

Oh, why couldn't I just tell Christian how I felt? I was so close, but we both chose to be just friends. But, we could be more later, just not now.

Why not now? All of these questions flooded through my head. And yet, still, no answers.

What if things ended up differently yesterday? I am partially glad that things ended up the way they did yesterday. I mean, the things I wish changed, were that we could be dating, or at least I could tell him how I really feel about him. The things that I am glad that they ended the way yesterday was the fact that I may lost my best friend to something as stupid as our feelings. Or, that this may be a sign that we weren't meant to be together. Then, I might have been happy with him one day and never be friends with him again. That's a price that I cannot pay.

"Okay! We're heading in now!" One of my coaches said.

"Hey, Kate, are you okay? You seem out of it today." She asked me.

"Oh, um, yeah. I am totally fine, trust me. Just school stuff." I said. I felt bad about lying to her. At least I said it was about school stuff. That is partially true at least.

"Okay, well, try to figure it out soon. I don't want you being distracted."

"Oh, I will soon." I said with a small smile.

We got back in. We had a timed lake run. So, all of the coxswains stayed behind so we could time it. This is when we usually talked about just random things, our rowers, personal things, coaches, our lives, or personal things. I just zoned out. They just went on talking about how they were excited about the regatta coming up. They didn't really notice me not listening or not answering.

"Hey, Kate? Are you okay?" One of my coxswain friends said. Rebecca, who cox's the A boat. We call her Becca. She is as small as me. He has short light hair with glasses. She does par core. She always has her par core shoes on. She is a freshman. She is really good at drawing.

"Yeah, totally." I said not sounding convincing.

"No, Kate, you're lying." My other coxswain said. Isabol, who cox's the B boat, or some times the C boat. We call her Bo. She is the youngest coxswain we have. She has long curly brown hair. She is shorter than me. She is around eighty-five pounds! But, hey, that's how much I weighed in eighth grade too. She was in eighth grade.

I sighed. I told them everything. About the situation I was in with Christian. How close of friends we are. How he made a bold movement. How now everything was awkward. How we both feel about each other. How we both tried to make everything less awkward between each other, but just made me feel worse. Everything. My face was in my hands. But, more like resting rather than looking sad and depressed.

"Wow, Kate. I had no idea you were going through that." Bo said. Patting my shoulder.

"You need to tell him that." Becca said.

"Yeah, how that made you feel." Bo said.

I sighed. "It's not that simple. I already tried. But, we both agreed to be friends. I just want to keep my friend more than anything." I said.

"Well, Kate, it's up to you. But, from the way you described him. He really likes you. And by the way you sound, you really like him." One of them said. Samantha, the newest coxswain, who coxs the B boat. We call her Sam. She has long black hair. She has dark skin. The rest of us were pale. She joined here in the Spring. I came back two weeks late, because Becca sent me a 991 text that we need more coxswains, when we really didn't. People barely talked to her at the beginning. Except me. I was really the only one who talked to her. I introduced myself to her and the other coxswains to her. And I told her, if she needed any help, she could ask me or Becca. And that she could learn a lot from Becca. And now, she is one of the most popular people at crew. We don't really talk anymore. She is a junior.

Well, the lake was over. Most of everyone was back. Crew was over. Before I left, all the coxswains told me good luck. I said thanks.

I went home. Ate and did my homework. That took about three hours. Then, I took a shower. It was around 9:00. So, I read. I finally fell asleep. Dreaming about how Christian and I would make a good couple. Ugh, could I stop thinking about Christian for once?!

I woke up at the sound of my alarm. 5:50. Ugh, too early. I got up. Got dressed. Put my contacts in. Went and got breakfast. Got my stuff ready. Went to school.

I was in Jazz Band. After that, I went to Religion, then C.P. The day went by really fast.

I went to my locker after C.P. I got my German books. Then, I went to lunch. When I was going to lunch. I saw a sign.

Winter Ball coming up! Guys, ask your girls fast! This year's theme is: Ice! Baby Ice! Semi-formal! Hurray up and ask some one and get tickets!

"Damnit." I muttered under my breath.

So, how was that? Good? Bad? I know it was really rushed, but, I am having writers block! Ah! Tell me what you think! Next one is going to be in Christian's point of view. At lunch. And Winter Ball is coming up! I used last years theme, because our's this year was lame. Or, tell me a theme that you want! I might just do that!

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Tschau!

~ Lost Girl