Chapter 13: You can't

Maya's pov

Just when Josh left I noticed that on the seat he left his phone, and a sudden *DING* came from it. Then *DING* and another, *DING*. I knew it was none of my business to look at his phone cause I'm not the type to get paranoid about who my boyfrieind was texting. But then again, here I am, a girl with cancer full of boredom and I'm his girlfriend right? So don't I have some right to just take a quick peek?

So I took a quick look around and picked up his phone and it read:

Ash 32 seconds ago

Hey Josh, I had a great time last night *winky emoji*

Ash 1 minute ago

Hit me up when ur free

Ash 3 minutes ago

*Kissy face emoji*

Just outside I heard someone pacing then a sharp *KNOCK KNOCK*

My head was spinning and I couldn't even comprehend what I just read

This voice that sounded so familiar but so distant said:

"Maya, it's me, Josh. Please let me in."

My voice felt weak just like the rest of my body, but yet I still managed to let out

"Come in."

He rushed in with his hands pulling at his hair and the same expression he had on his face just before he left.

He began to say:

"Maya, I know this is a tough time and proposing to you probaly made it worse, I mean, with the chemo, and our relationship, I'm suffocating you and I get th-"

"When I was 6." I interrupted

"What?" he said

"I was crying because Bea Charp called me an ugly monster at school. You saw me crying on my doorstep an you came over and told me that whatever Bea told me was wrong because I was beautiful. I asked you if you meant it and you looked me in the eye and told me that you promised. And I believed you. That's when I knew that somehow, I loved you."

I kept stuttering because of all the tears that were pouring out of me.

"Maya, don't."

"No, it's true. I fell for you way longer than you fell for me and I always reminded myself about how lucky I am to have something with the man of my dreams that some people won't ever find in a lifetime."

I saw that in the corner of my eye he began to smile. But his smile quickly faded after I showed him his phone.

"It always turns out like this doesn't it?"

He had the phone in his hands and quickly read the texts and looked up at me with this expression like the night we had when I was in middle school.

But I kept on talking anways, cause I sure as hell wasn't done.

"Girl falls for guy. Guy doesn' t want girl. Girl get heartbroken over and over. Girl and guy move on. Guy meets girl again and both find love in each other. Girl and guy live happily ever after. Something bad happens to girl. Girl is still happy because guy still loves her after something bad. Girl finds out that guy cheated on her."

My voice kept cracking because of the constant times tears kept falling.

He took my hand but I pulled away

"Maya. Look, it's not what your thinking."

"Really Josh? Because what I'm thinking is that you didn't want to take care of the "sick girl" anymore, you wanted more than I could offer and eventually you got tired of me."

"Please listen to me Maya."

TO BE CONTINUNED...

hey hey y'all sorry about that "goodbye" it's because i did horrible in some of my classes and i decided that i didn't want to let you guys down by not posting so i decided to end it, but something gave me so much happiness to keep me writing, and it was this: From: AngelGirl (Guest)

AngelGirl:Alright just listen to me, I'm not pressuring you to start back up... But haters are gonna hate! You didn't "dig yourself a hole" by giving maya cancer! That was GENIUS! You can't have a smiley story with no other emotions! I'll give you some ideas to continue the story on cause you're a great writer :Ideas: Maya decides to run away and josh has to find her. Or Maya breaks up with josh and it makes we cancer worse with the stress, and Topanga convinces her to marry josh. Or Riley starts dating Zay and Everyone is mad at them for dating except maya... Just ideas cause your FREAKIN' AWESOME! PPPLLEEEEAAASSSSEEEE cotinue your story! Love always

Awwww, man that gave me the feels and I really REALLUY wish I could reply to you. Thank you so much. You mean the world, and if your reading this AngelGirl thank you for making my day. :) And love to you too. Btw YOU'RE "FREAKIN' AWESOME!" so i dedicate this chapter to you. ;)

Love all of y'all,

xoxox,

Katie