The Showdown Chapter 14
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Brittany wakes up to an empty bed. She sits up slowly looking around the room for Santana. She glances towards the bathroom, the door is open and it's empty as well. On her dresser she notices a piece of paper with her name it. Brittany stands stretching as she rubs her eyes walking over to the note. The blonde knows Santana isn't a morning person so whatever made her get up this early had to be pretty important. As she opens the note she smiles instantly seeing the way Santana wrote Britt Britt at the top and dotted the I's with big hearts. Her girlfriend could be so sweet. She wished everyone could see this side of her. She placed the note back down and hurries into the shower. After a quick shower she heads downstairs clinging onto her cell phone.
"Morning honey, where's Santana?" Mrs. Pierce asks.
"Morning Mom!" Brittany answers cheerfully "she went to talk to her Mom but she said she will text me in approximately 9 minutes and be here right after that to pick me up for school."
"Ok okay well did she say why?" The elder Pierce responds.
"Nope, but Mom, last night she actually laughed, like a real laugh and she told me she loved me and would never leave me. I think she is getting better" Brittany replies enthusiastically.
"That's great honey, but don't get too excited yet. She has a long way to go to feel better about herself, but you obviously are helping" Brittany's mother states walking over to refill her coffee.
"I want to make her happy. I would do anything to make her better. I won't even care if she wants to call Rachel names. I love her so much Mom" the younger Pierce states grabbing her phone as it vibrates "she's on her way."
"Honey, you act like you haven't seen her in weeks" Brittany's Mom says laughing. Brittany smiles shyly at her mom as she quickly eats a banana.
"Hello!" Santana calls out walking through the front door "Britt? Are you ready?" She enters the kitchen as Brittany lunges at her catching her by surprise "I missed you too" Santana responds smiling.
"Morning San! I did miss you. How's your Mom?" Brittany questions, not really wanting to force Santana into telling her why she went if she didn't feel like it.
"She's good. She said to tell you both hello. Oh and Mrs. Pierce she asked if you could call her later. I think she thinks I'm not behaving or something" Santana says shrugging her shoulders.
"You dear? Never" Mrs. Pierce laughs.
"Um….San why did you go?" Brittany asks softly "I mean if you want to tell me."
Santana takes Brittany's hand "I won't ever hide anything from you again Britt. I had a message from my Dad about the therapist he wants us to see. I am kind of nervous about it so I went to talk to my Mom. I don't know what my Dad will say. I mean what if he can't love me because I'm…"
"No Santana he loves you. It's just hard for him" Brittany states leaning into kiss the brunette's cheek. "It will be okay."
"Thanks Britt. I also talked to her about coming home if my Dad is okay with us being together" Santana speaks quietly thinking it may upset her girlfriend.
"But why San? Did I do something? Do I snore? Brittany asks seriously.
Santana laughs "actually you do sometimes, but I think it's adorable. I love you but I love my family too. It will be fine, I promise. We will still see each other all the time and hopefully we can still stay at each other's houses sometimes. Besides I don't know when and it all depends on how things go today."
"Yeah, about that staying at each other's houses, we will have new rules" Susan Pierce announces with a smirk. "So you go today?"
Santana nods smiling at the elder woman "yes, today after school I have to meet them there."
"Today?" Brittany asks lowering her head.
"Hey, I don't think after one session my Dad will be okay with who I am. So if it's still okay with you I would like to stay until I am ready to go home" Santana replies reaching her hand across to the blonde's shoulder.
"You're not leaving tonight? You promise?" Brittany questions.
"I promise no matter what I will stay tonight. I love you so much, I don't know what I would do without you," Santana states laughing at how Brittany is pouting her lips. She leans in kissing them until she feels her lips curl upwards into a smile. The brunette quickly pulls away once she remembers that Brittany's mother is still standing there. "Ah, I am so sorry….I didn't mean to…."
"Santana relax. It's okay honey. I know what couples do. You don't think I know what goes on between you two?" Mrs. Pierce responds as Santana's mouth drops. "Really, it's okay. You don't have to be afraid to show affection, you can be yourselves here. But you two better think about getting to school soon."
Brittany could tell Santana was nervous about going in to school to face everyone by the way she gripped her hand the entire ride. Santana was trying to find herself again but she knew that after hearing Mrs. Pierce say that it was affecting Brittany that she had to fix it and she had to do it soon. She was not going to hurt Brittany ever again. The brunette had already planned to let everyone know that Brittany was off limits. As they exit the car Santana waits for Brittany as she reaches out her hand.
Brittany smiles at her as she grabs her hand. "Are you sure?" Santana smiles at her as she nods her head.
They walk through the doors and to their lockers hand in hand. "I'm going to go grab my book. I'll be right back Britt" Santana states winking at the blonde who laughs out loud at her girlfriends antics.
"Hey Brittany" Quinn calls as she walks up to her. "Where did you guys go yesterday you never came back to Glee club?"
"Hi Quinn, um…. we went home. Santana wasn't feeling well" Brittany responds.
Quinn takes a few steps closer whispering "is she alright? I mean, you know…"
"Quinn you want to know something, ask me" Santana announces as she steps beside Brittany. "In fact if anyone would like to know anything about my life, come to me, ask me!" She yells causing several students to turn their heads to look at her.
"San, it's okay. She just wanted to know what happened to us yesterday" Brittany replies confused by the brunette's outburst.
"I don't care Britt everyone in this school needs to stop asking you questions about my life. You don't need that" Santana responds angrily.
Brittany reaches for Santana's hand "wait, is this about what my Mom said last night? I'm fine. Really." Quinn watches the two confused by their conversation.
"Look Quinn you and everyone else need to leave Brittany alone. If you want to know about me, ask me okay? Cause I promise one more person makes her cry and they will deal with me" Santana announces closing the blonde's locker as she takes her hand leading her away. Quinn just stood their taken back by her friend's behavior. She knew the old Santana wasn't far behind.
Santana rarely left Brittany's side the whole day. If they didn't have class together she walked her there. At lunch they sat with their friends but Santana spoke to no one other than her girlfriend. She saw how everyone was looking at her and whispering. But she focused on Brittany, held her hand, looked at her. She is what makes the brunette happy and if she was going to get through this she needed Brittany more than anything.
When they arrived at Glee club most everyone was already there. Brittany smiles as she takes her seat in the back. Santana sits her bag down next to her chair as she notices everyone watching her again. She just shakes her head letting out a small laugh as she sits down. The blonde reaches over placing her hand on her thigh as she could see her leg bouncing. "Hey San, it's okay, relax" Brittany says smiling at her before laying her head on the brunette's shoulder. "I love you" she whispers. Santana smiles against Brittany's forehead.
As the last few people come in so does Mr. Schuester and Ms. Corcoran. Both glance at Santana as they enter. Ms. Corcoran places a hand on her shoulder as she walks by to sit a few chairs away. "Okay listen up guys" Mr. Schuester calls out getting everyone's attention. "I know what we have been planning but Ms. Corcoran and I both feel that it's just not the right time for it. Santana it was actually for you. We wanted to help you with coming out and let you know we support you but after the chat we had earlier in my office….well I think I will just let you explain."
Santana stands as Brittany gives her a questioning look. She squeezes the blonde's hand before releasing it and walking to the front of the room. "Thanks Mr. Schue. I appreciate you guys wanting to support me and Brittany. We both do. We didn't plan for any of this and it's still very confusing. I mean I love Brittany that's not confusing but the looks we get and the words that we hear are very confusing. Mr. Schue told me what you guys were doing and I just don't think it's appropriate right now. I know you want to let me know you support me but I can't let you waste your time when I don't believe any of it myself. I don't believe in myself right now. As I am sure you all heard yes, I tried to kill myself" Santana swallows hard. "I was scared….I am scared. My family threw me out and besides Britt I felt like I had no one" Santana looks at Brittany trying to fight the tears back. "Brittany and her family let me stay with them but my Dad was not okay with that. He didn't want me anywhere near Brittany. I couldn't lose her too. I felt like I couldn't breathe, I was angry, I hated everyone, I hated myself, so I decided to end all of it." Santana quickly wipes a tear that escapes and runs down her cheek as Brittany stands, "I'm okay Britt," the blonde smiles at her before sitting back down. "My Dad saved my life. Things are getting better. He said he would try and I am seeing a therapist that will help me deal with all of it. But what I need from all of you is patience. I am trying. I don't need to be pushed and I don't want anyone pushing Brittany for anything. If there is something you want to know you come to me, leave her alone" Santana states as she glances over to her teacher. "I think that should cover it Mr. Schue sorry for taking up your time."
"Not a problem Santana and remember if there is anything you need from us you let us know" Mr. Schuester answers as Santana takes her seat next to Brittany.
"Um...Mr. Schue can I say something please?" Finn speaks up as his teacher nods. "Santana, I just want to apologize to you. I did not mean for any of this to happen. What I said was stupid and I only said it because I was angry. You didn't deserve any of this."
"No Finn she didn't" Brittany announces.
"Britt!" Santana calls.
"No San it's time I say this. You know we sit here and talk about how it's us against this school when in reality we are our own worst enemies. We hurt each other more than anyone else. We put each other down, we call each other names, it's us. Why does someone have to be hurt or degraded before we stand up for each other? This should have never happened. San and Finn should not have been fighting to begin with. We need to support one another at all times. I am tired of it. My God Santana tried to kill herself how much more real does it need to get. I almost lost the love of my life…." Brittany tries to continue but the tears are falling too fast and it's hard for her to catch her breath.
Santana quickly stands wrapping her arms around the blonde "shh…Britt, it's okay, I am right here, I am fine."
"Look guys Brittany has a point we need to start being there for each other. Stop with all the names and putting each other down" Quinn replies trying to take the attention off of her friends.
"I agree and I think we all owe it to Brittany to try" Mr. Schuester says.
Santana sits down holding Brittany tightly. She doesn't care that everyone is seeing how loving and sweet she can be, that her reputation for not having a heart is far from the truth. She just wants to make sure Brittany is all right. After all she did just call her the love of her life.