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Chapter 14: First Date

After the pumpkin patch, I began to count the days down to our first date. The first time I would be alone with her. The first time that I would be able to possibly touch her. Oh how I wanted to touch her.

For the rest of the week, my routine consisted of Claire and I doing our usual schedule which gave me something to concentrate on besides the brown haired siren that continued to taunt me in my dreams.

Every morning I would go to work and get settled and call Bella. Our conversations were a never ending get to know each other session. We asked each other about where we grew up and about our families. Talking about our school experiences and where we went to college. When we talked about our married life and our exes, it was exactly alike. Bella and I both had sacrificed our happiness for our children's. We were both masochists in our own right.

The more I talked with Bella the more I was becoming endeared to her. She was sweet and kind and put everyone before herself. We were alike in so many ways and I was more than happy to find someone that was genuinely a good person. She was everything a man could want in a woman and more. I am so glad our exes had checked out on us because it brought us together.

Saturday came all too soon and I was nervous. I haven't been out on a date in eight years, so I was way out of the dating scene. Bella had been married for ten years and she was just as out of the dating scene as I was.

Bella and I decided to have dinner at her place. She wanted to cook for me. We also decided that we didn't want to have our first date in public. We told our kids that we were going out with someone, but didn't divulge anymore information than that. We didn't want our kids to get their hopes up if it didn't work out. Although I knew for sure that I would do whatever in my power to make this work with Bella. The more I talked with her, the more I knew; I wanted her in my life.

The anticipation was killing me all day. Even when I dropped Claire off, Alice noticed my anxiety. "Don't worry about a thing Edward. Everything will be fine." Alice smiled slyly taking Claire's bag from me and practically shoving me out the door before I had a chance to say bye to Claire. Whom I might add had forgotten me before I was pushed out said door.

When I arrived at her house I was clearly nervous. I sat in the car for just a moment trying to settle myself. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and opened the door stepping out into the cool night air.

Walking up to her front door I knocked, standing there awkwardly rocking back and forth on my heels, waiting for her to come to the door. I could hear her faintly yelling that she was coming and listened to her footsteps as she made her way to the door.

When Bella opened the door all my nervousness went away. She was beautiful standing there with her apron on over her clothes. Her hair was pulled back in a messy bun and her makeup was natural and not to made up. I couldn't peel my eyes away from her. She blushed watching me watch her and bit her lower lip.

She is tempting me already.

"Hello, Edward. Please come in. Sorry I'm such a mess. It took a while to drop the kids off. Alice was trying to fix me all up and I had to fight her off. Finally I told her that I had to leave before you showed up with Claire. She all but shoved me out the door then saying that she didn't want you to see me before it was time. So I was a little late getting dinner started." She giggled and blushed over her blush. All I could do was stare at her. "Edward," she said again, "is something wrong."

She is beautiful.

"You're beautiful." There the word vomit has already started. "Oh…huh…I didn't mean to blurt that out like that. But you are more beautiful every time I see you." I stammered out hoping I didn't sound like a fool.

She tucked her head and bit her lip again. Then she looked up at me smiling. "Thank you, Edward. That is the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me." She waved her arm past her motioning for me to come inside. "Please come in. Why don't you come into the kitchen? Dinner is almost ready. You could set the table." She said quietly as I followed her into the kitchen.

As I followed her, I glanced around the house. She kept a clean house that much I could tell. There were pictures of her boys all over the walls. The living room was comfortable and inviting. Nothing was flashy or over the top. It was just like her.

Perfect.

Once we were in the kitchen, she set back to work finishing our meal. She looked like she was in her element standing there cooking and preparing dinner. As I watched her, I was captivated, not able to take my eyes off her. Leaning against the counter, I just took her in.

"The plates are there to set the table. It won't be but a few more minutes now." She pointed towards a cabinet letting me know where to get the plates. I walked over and grabbed the plates and went to set the table. When I was finished, I came back around to the kitchen and started watching her again.

"It smells delicious, what are you cooking?" I questioned, hoping that I could engage her in a conversation again so I could hear her voice. It didn't matter that I could hear her in my sleep or that I had been talking to her almost every day. I still would never tire of listening to her.

"Baked spaghetti with cheese. I hope you like it. I also have a salad and some cheesy bread to go with it." She answered and looked at me expectantly hoping I would approve.

"It sounds great. Anything else I can do to help."

"Sure. You can grab the salad out of the refrigerator. There is some wine in there if you feel like it. I don't drink much, but maybe we could have a glass with dinner."

Grabbing the salad and wine from the refrigerator, I took it to the table. When I walked back into the kitchen, I asked, "Where are your wine glasses?"

She made her way across the kitchen to a cabinet and opened the door. The glasses were on the top shelf and she was trying to reach for them and couldn't quite make it. I walked up behind her and stated, "Would you like some help?" I reached around her to grab the glasses and when I did my body brushed up against hers. She gasped then stiffened and stood very still.

"I'm sorry", I whispered, "I didn't mean to scare you."

She let out a breath then whispered back, "You didn't scare me Edward. It's just…it's been a long time since I have been this close to a man." She inhaled a deep breath holding it for a second before letting it out.

After composing herself, Bella walked back over to the oven and pulled the spaghetti out of the oven carrying the dish to the table. She came back into the kitchen grabbing some napkins and a corkscrew and made her way back to the table and sat down.

Grabbing the glasses, I took the wine bottle uncorked the wine and poured us each a glass. While I did this she put spaghetti and salad on each of our plates and sat back down. It all felt very natural to me like we had done this same thing many times before.

She sat back down and looked as if she was contemplating something and jumped up so quickly I thought something was wrong. "I forgot the bread!" She exclaimed and dashed back into the kitchen claiming the bread bringing it back to the table. She placed a piece of bread on each of our plates and then sat back down.

"This looks wonderful. Shall we eat?" I asked quietly watching her every move. I was hoping that she wasn't upset from our encounter in the kitchen.

"Yes, let's eat." She stated. A slight blush spread across her face and she bit her lip, I guess nervous about my reaction to the food.

Taking a bite my mouth was met with the most tantalizing home cooked meal that I have had in a long time. While I was chewing I looked up at her and she was staring at me waiting for my response. "This is amazing Bella, how did you learn to cook like this?"

A small smile crossed her face as her eyes lit up from my compliment. "When I was a freshman in college I got tired of eating macaroni and cheese all the time. So I signed up for a cooking class off campus. And voila there you have it. I love to cook." She shrugged like it was no big deal but I couldn't agree with her there.

The rest of dinner went off without a hitch. We talked all through dinner just as easily as we had on the phone all week. There was one thing we hadn't talked about and it had been bothering me since the field trip.

"Bella, I want to ask you something about Pacey." In all of our conversations, I waited to ask her this until we were face to face so I could gauge her reaction.

"Sure Edward. What do you want to know?" Bella asked before she scooped another bite of spaghetti up.

"How bad is his asthma? Alice told me a little, but didn't go into great detail. The other day you were worried about him when we were at the farm." It was a statement not a question.

Bella nodded and sat her fork down folding her hands together. "It is better than it used to be. He has struggled with breathing problems pretty much since he was born. He has been hospitalized twice for respiratory distress." The confusion on my face registered with her so she started explaining it to me.

I sat and listened as she described to me how that when he was a baby, he had several different breathing related illnesses causing her to provide breathing treatments. She explained each illness and the treatments he had to go through, all the doctor's visits and sleepless nights of worry she had.

There were tears in her eyes when she told me he had to be hospitalized at the age of nine months and again when he was three. My heart tightened in my chest as she described how each time he stayed under an oxygen tent with IV's poked in him and breathing treatments around the clock.

"Since the last time he was in the hospital, he's been very lucky." Bella said softly. "The medicine he is on now has been like a miracle for him. But I still have to watch him carefully."

"I can't imagine going through that. That must have been so hard on you. Watching your child suffer when there was nothing you could do to help."

"You have no idea." Bella muttered taking a sip of her wine. There seemed to be more to what she was telling me, but I could tell that she didn't want to discuss it further. There would be more opportunities to talk, but right now I wanted nothing more than to hold her.

Bella started to clear the table and I helped her take everything back to the kitchen. She started to shoo me out of the kitchen to let her wash dishes, but I wasn't having that.

"No, Bella. Let me clean. You cooked this awesome dinner, now let me clean up." Blocking the sink, I held out my hands in protest.

"Fine", she huffed sticking her lip out in a pout, "I'll put the leftovers away and then I will dry dishes." She started putting things away in the refrigerator. Once she was finished she started taking the dishes and drying them and putting them away.

"I have a movie we could watch." She stammered, "If you would like too I mean." She looked nervous again. We hadn't discussed what we were going to do after dinner.

"That sounds great." I answered honestly. Bella led the way to the living room. She motioned for me to sit on the couch while she put the movie in the DVD player. Her couch was comfortable, not stiff.

"I'm not sure what kind of movies you like. I watch Disney movies so much; I can't remember what an adult movie is anymore." She giggled turning around and handing me the box the movie was in. "I hope this is okay?"

I glanced at the box and nodded my head. "Looks good to me. I'm like you. I can tell you every new release from Disney, but can't tell you what's new at the box office." I chuckled earning another giggle from her. In all honestly I could care less what the movie was, I just wanted to sit beside her on the couch. I wasn't sure where things were going to lead to, but I hoped I would get some cuddling and steal some kisses.

I sound so hopeless.

Once the movie started, she made her way over to the couch and sat beside me. She glanced at me out of the corner of her eyes almost like she was asking permission if it was okay to sit that close.

Can I say a Hell Yea!

As the movie played, I couldn't tell you one thing that was happening. The whole time I was staring at her wishing I could get closer. Finally I mustered up enough courage to put my arm around her. She glanced at me for a second and gave me a smile letting me know that it was okay.

I started playing with a piece of her hair twirling it around my finger. Her hair was as smooth as silk. Now that I was closer to her, her scent was invading my senses and I was consumed by it.

She leaned into me, laying her head against my chest. She inhaled deeply and sighed. Caressing her arm, I rested my head on top of hers. We stayed that way until the movie ended.

When the movie ended we both stayed in that spot not even moving when the screen turned blue. I wasn't sure how to ask what I wanted to ask, so I just let the word vomit begin again. "Bella", I whispered not wanting to break the quiet that surrounded us, "can I ask you something?"

She never moved from her position as she answered. "Yes, Edward." She whispered back to me.

Letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding, I continued. "May I kiss you? I mean if that is okay. I mean if it is too soon, I understand." She turned her head up to me looking me in the eyes. From the look in her eyes, I knew the answer before she said it, but there was hesitation there to.

"Before you do, there is something that I have to tell you." She paused taking a deep breath and exhaling before continuing. "I'm nervous. Like I said before, it has been a long time since I have been with a man. Mike hadn't touched me in almost a year before our divorce. I have to admit that I'm scared. I' m scared of opening myself up like that again." She spoke so quietly I almost didn't hear her.

Taking my hand, I cupped her cheek. She leaned her head into my hand. "I know your scared, Bella. I'm scared to. But, Bella, you and I are nothing like the selfish people that we were once married to. I couldn't hurt you, no more than you could hurt me. Let's just be here, and now, and not think about how badly we were treated. We're not like them."

As I spoke to her I slowly closed the distance between us. When my lips were so close that I could feel the heat of her lips, I whispered against them. "Please let me kiss you. I won't hurt you Bella. Please." I begged and I felt her nod in agreement. And then I brushed my lips to hers. Her lips were soft and she didn't hesitate at all as I continued to press my lips to hers. We both opened our mouths at the same time to deepen the kiss and our tongues touched. It was just like my dream, but so much better. As our tongues touched there was no battle or domination. There was only feather like touches and caresses.

I slid my hand that was cupping her face to the back of her neck twisting her hair in my hand, sliding my other arm around her pulling her body closer to me. When our bodies touched, I moaned into her mouth. She reciprocated by running her arms around my neck entangling my hair in her hands. Our lips continued to caress one another's moving slowly. When our tongues would touch I could taste her sweetness. My entire body was set a fire by our kiss.

I wanted her.

Pulling her closer, our bodies molded together perfectly. She moaned into my mouth and I could tell she was just as desperate for air as I was. I moved my lips from hers and started kissing along her jaw down the side of her neck. When I released her lips she took a deep shaky breath and tightened her hold around my neck.

I kissed her neck moving down towards her collarbone lightly darting my tongue out and tasting her flesh as I went. Savoring her essence, I moved my lips against her skin slowly. She tilted her head to the side granting me access to her beautiful neck. "Oh Edward", she moaned, "I have thought about you kissing me like this so many times. Please don't stop."

Her words encouraged me that much more. I continued kissing her and as I did I whispered against her skin. "I won't stop. Not unless you ask me to." She shuddered against me and I pulled her so close that I could feel her heart beat thudding against my chest.

She gripped my hair tighter in her hands and then tugged gently so that my face could meet hers. When our lips met she starting kissing me with a passion that I had never felt before. She deepened the kiss and our tongues starting caressing each others again. Releasing my hair, her hands gradually slid down around to the front of my shirt. I could feel her fingers start to work on my buttons slowly undoing each one until she reached the last one. When she did she pulled my shirt apart and ran her hands up my chest slowly then around my shoulders freeing me of my shirt. My body shuddered with the tenderness of her touch against my skin.

Bella pulled out of the kiss only to start kissing along my jaw line moving her way down the side of my neck. Each time her lips would touch my skin I could feel the fire run through my body. I could feel her tongue darting out to taste me as I had done to her. Her hands continued to caress my skin more intimately than I had ever been touched before.

Could she possibly want me as much as I want her?

Moving my hands to the front of her shirt, I started to unbutton her blouse. She never hesitated once with her kisses so I took that as a sign that she wanted this as much as I did. When I undid the last button I ran my hands under her shirt around her stomach to her waist causing her to shudder. Her skin was soft and warm under my fingers.

"Edward", she whispered against my skin eliciting another moan from me as her hot breath blew across my skin. "Please. Touch me. I have never felt like this before."

"Anything. Anything you want." I murmured back to her as I slowly ran my hands up the smooth skin of her back and unlatched her bra. Sliding my hands back around to the front taking my fingertips running them slowly across her shoulders pulling her shirt down and off her arms. My fingers traced there way back to her shoulders pulling her bra straps down unleashing her breasts to me.

"You are so beautiful." Her blush ran across her face extending down to her breast. She moved to cover herself with her hands and I stopped her. "No. Don't cover yourself. I want to see you. I want to touch you. May I touch you Bella? I will be gentle. And if you feel uncomfortable at any time, just say the word and I will stop."

She bit her lip and stared at me for a fleeting moment. When she finally spoke her words surprised and encouraged me. "I don't want to do this here." She stood and grabbed my hand and tugged at me to get off the couch. "Can we go to my bedroom?" When I stood in front of her, I couldn't help myself, I pulled her close to me placing one hand on the small of her back and the other running up and down her spine relishing in the fact our skin was touching. Her nipples hardened against my skin. I moved my hand up to her neck and pulled her head to me so I could kiss her again. As our lips touched there was that same softness to our kiss. Neither one of us wanted to rush this moment.

My arousal was throbbing in my pants. I pressed myself to her rubbing it against her. She let out a low moan and molded her body even closer to mine. Running my hand down her back across to her hip slowly down to her thigh, I hooked her thigh with my hand pulling it around my waist. She complied and brought her other leg up and wrapped her legs around me.

I could feel the heat coming from her core as we made contact. I started walking towards the hall hoping I was going in the right direction never breaking our kiss. As I walked down the hall I saw her stick her arm out towards a door showing me which bedroom was hers. I walked through the door taking time to close it with my foot. Walking over towards the bed, she loosened her legs and slowly slid down my body till her feet hit the floor.

She kept her arms wrapped around me looking up into my eyes. I could see the same emotion in her eyes that were in mine, desire. "Edward, I don't want you to think less of me if we continue. But I have never felt like this. Every time you touch me it sets my skin afire. I want you so badly. Each time I saw you at school I couldn't help but fantasize that this would happen some day." She murmured reaching up on her toes so she could kiss me again. My lips moved with hers as our tongues danced the all too familiar dance. Kissing her was better than the years of sex I had with my ex.

Our kiss was deep and passionate. We both broke away at the same time our breathing ragged. Her bottom lip had tempted me enough and I finally gave into to biting it like I had seen her do so many times before. Moaning, she nipped my lip in return.

Cradling her face with my hands, I held her gaze with my eyes. "Oh, Bella" I whispered to her, "I would never think badly of you. The only thing I ask is if we make love that you will let me stay with you tonight. I want us to fall asleep in each others arms and wake up in the morning together. I won't just have sex with you and leave. I'm not that kind of man."

It may be word vomit but I hope she wasn't offended. I meant every word.

Her eyes started to glisten with moisture building up from unshed tears. She smiled then blushed. She brought her hands up to my chest her fingertips running smoothly up and down. "That sounds perfect to me Edward. I need you. Please." She whispered and then lowered her head down placing a lingering kiss right over my heart. That simple act made my heart clench.

Skimming my hands down her arms, to her waist, I started to undo her pants. I unlatched the button and started tugging the zipper down. Lowering her pants down, she kicked them the rest of the way off with her feet. She stood before me in nothing but a pair of blue lace panties.

"You are beautiful. I want nothing more than to lick and kiss every part of your body." Lowering her to the bed, I hovered over her taking in her beauty. Her hair was splayed out across the pillow. Her skin was glowing in the moonlight.

She is breathtaking.

Starting at her lips, I placed soft lingering kisses moving my way from her lips down her neck. Finally, I reached her breast and darted my tongue out and licked her nipple. She moaned in pleasure as I slowly sucked her nipple in my mouth as my other hand massaged her other breast.

Bella was breathing deeply and arching her back up to my lips. "Edward that feels so good." She murmured taking her hands and running them through my hair lightly scratching my scalp. Lavishing kisses across her chest, I started sucking lightly on her other nipple. My hand slid down across her stomach down to her hip. As I made my way down, I kissed and licked her skin tasting her sweetness. I traced my finger across her skin to the top of her panties. Slowly I started to pull them down, as I continued massaging and sucking on her nipples.

Throwing her panties off the side of the bed, I kissed my way back up her from her legs to her hip. I then brought my hand down to her core cupping it with my hand feeling the heat radiating from within inside her. Something else I noticed was that she was completely bare down there.

That is the sexiest thing ever.

I ran my fingers through her folds and immediately was aware of how wet she was. "Bella you are so wet. I want to lick you. Taste you. Please." I whispered against her skin as my lips kissed along the inside of her thighs.

Bella gasped at my comment. She took a shaky breath and mumbled to me, "I'm wet because of you Edward. Only for you Edward. Only for you. Please."

Reaching my destination I spread her open with my fingers darting my tongue out to her opening tasting her. I licked around her sliding my tongue up to tease her clit eliciting a moan from her. "Edward that feels so amazing. Please don't stop." And who was I to deny her.

As I continued to lick and suck her, she reached down running her fingers into my hair. She started rotating her hips to get more friction. I grabbed her hips holding her still so I could drive my tongue deeper insider her. "Oh Edward I am…I'm…Oh please don't stop." She begged. My tongue darted in and out of her and I brought my finger up and started grinding onto her clit. "Edward" she screamed and I was elated to know that I was making her feel this way. It was my name she was screaming in ecstasy.

I rose up upon my heels looking down on the beauty before me. Bella's body was flush from her orgasm. Her eyes were hooded with desire. Her arms were above her head now gripping the pillow tightly. As I stared at her while she came down from her high I knew I had to be inside of her.

I moved off the bed and stood unfastening my pants. When I started to unzip Bella sat up and rested her hands on mine. "Let me." Bella whispered and pushed my hands aside and took over. Her fingers ran around my waist band reaching to my hips. Nimbly she pulled them down along with my boxers freeing my erection. She reached up and took my arousal into her hands and started to slowly stroke it with her fingertips. "Edward? I want to try something. I have never done it before. I have never wanted to. But I want to do it. For you."

"You don't have to Bella", I mumbled to her. All reasoning was leaving me. My mind was clouded with lust.

"Please Edward. I want to. Please." When she begged like that I knew I couldn't deny her.

Who am I kidding here?

I just nodded letting her know she could. Her face came closer to me. I could feel her hot breath on my erection causing it to twitch. She giggled and lightly griped my cock with her small fingers. Then she darted her tongue out and licked the head of my erection. Hissing in pleasure, she looked up at me through her eyelashes. I took my hand and started stroking her hair in a reassuring fashion. She rolled her tongue all around my sensitive head before taking me into her mouth. As she sucked and licked me I felt like I was about to explode

"Stop Bella." I was so close. "I need to be inside of you. Now. Please!" It has been a long time since I have any physical contact, besides beating myself off in the shower, and that was nothing compared to this.

Yea I am begging now. So what!

She slowly released me from her mouth. Gently I gripped her by her shoulders pulling her to stand in front of me. I bent down to kiss her our taste mingling together driving me wild. I pulled her to me taking pleasure in our skin to skin contact. Suddenly a thought occurred to me. "Bella, I don't have any protection with me."

Bella sighed then took a deep breath before she answered me. "Edward, I'm on birth control pills. After I discovered my exes' infidelity, I had a complete physical and tests run. Even though it had been over a year since we had had sex, I didn't want to take any chances. I made the doctor check me for every sexually transmitted disease there was. I am clean."

I brushed a piece of stray hair out of her eyes. My face was about to crack from the wide smile that I had on my face. "We are so much alike Bella." I chuckled softly, thinking how true it was. "After my ex left me I did the same thing. She never admitted to cheating on me, but I didn't want to take the chance. I am clean too."

Bella's smile mirrored mine. She climbed on the bed pulling me down with her. "Well, Edward, that's all I need to hear." She giggled lying across the bed raising her knees up slightly spreading herself open to me.

In Alice's words, I'm in.

It was an invitation, one I could not and would not refuse. But before I did anything I wanted to make sure she wanted this as much as me. "Bella, are you sure? I want nothing more to be with you, but only if you are sure." I murmured.

"Please Edward. I want you." She whispered back. I lowered myself to her, kissing her softly. My erection pressed against her entrance. Slowly I pushed forward entering her. Her heat was enveloping me and she was as tight as a virgin.

"You are so tight Bella." I moaned to her moving within her slowly trying to let her adjust to my size. I bent my head down and took one of her nipples in my mouth sucking lightly. I was trying to go slow but she was so tight I wasn't sure how long I was going to last.

When I looked up at her, she had her eyes closed. "Look at me Bella." I urged wanting to see her beautiful eyes as we made love. Bella's eyes opened and I was not disappointed. Her eyes were filled with lust and adoration and I knew the look in my eyes would mirror hers.

Our eyes locked and I couldn't look away. As I continued moving slowly in and out of her, Bella started moving her hips to meet mine. Our movements increased to a rhythm that was incredible. "Oh, Edward, you feel so good. I never knew it could feel like this."

Her words spurred me on. "Bella I am not going to last much longer. Cum with me Bella, please." I could feel my release coming and then I felt her tighten around me.

"Oh, Edward…Yes…Yes." She cried out and I let go as we hit our orgasm together. I fell down on her trying not to crush her with my weight. I laid there with her for a moment our chests moving almost in synchronization with each other. Finally able to move I started to withdraw from her and move away.

"Please, Edward, don't move yet. Your body feels so good against mine." Propping myself up on my elbows trying to give her a little breathing room. I took my finger and traced along her face lost in her beauty.

"You are so beautiful, Bella. Especially after what we just shared." She blushed. Then she brought her hand up running it through my hair in a soothing gesture.

"What we just shared was amazing Edward. My dreams never did you justice." She whispered to me reaching up placing a searing kiss against my lips. We just laid there staring into each other eyes. Neither of us wanted to lose our connection.

Bella's right, dreams didn't do it justice!

Finally I rolled to my side pulling her with me so that her head rested on my chest. Our bodies as close as could be and our legs entangled. I heard her yawn. She giggled before she beamed up to me. "I'm sorry. I'm so tired." Then she yawned again.

I yawned back at her, and then chuckled. "I'm tired too. Your yawns are contagious. Go to sleep Bella. I'll be here when you wake up in the morning." I told her honestly. There was no where else I wanted to be at them moment. No where else I wanted to be again.

I felt her breathing even out letting sleep take her. I was following her letting my eyes flutter shut. Just before sleep overcame me I heard her whisper. "Thank you Edward for being here with me tonight, it means more to me than you know."

"Thank you Bella for letting me stay. I want nothing more than to wake up with you in my arms." I whispered to her and then let sleep take me.

A/N: I left this alone and only did corrections before posting it. You all seemed to like it the way it was, so I thought I would let it be. The next chapter is the morning after. I hope you aren't disappointed with this chapter. Please review and let me know what you think!