Bella's POV! :) Thanks for reading and please review !! :) hey everyone, sorry not updated for a while, had lots of exams. There all out of the way now. So I should be updating more regularly. Thanks for reading, and please Review x

The Break

"Renesmee darling." Edward called from the living room.

"Yeah?" She shouted. "What's up?"

"Can me and your mother talk to you for a second please?"

She walked in from the hallway with Alyssa on her side. She sat on the chair opposite Edward and I and sat Alyssa on her knee facing us.

"What's up?" She questioned while jerking Renesmee up and down on her knee. She had grown rapidly, her cheeks were chubby and constantly red. Her eyes were a dark brown- just like how mine used to be and her hair was dark, just like Jacobs. Her bright red lips was always in a huge grin.

"Well." Edward began. "I know we've all been a hard time recently. But, me and your mother would like to go on a break for a while... If that's okay with you."

"Of course. You don't have to ask my permission to go. I can deal with it now. It's been a month, I have to get back to normal some time. Go, seriously, I don't mind." She said, still jerking Alyssa on her knee. "Besides, i've got a family now. I have to be responsible and look after them, it's my job. And, I want to do it alone. Well, sort of. You know what I mean."

"Okay hunny. Thanks, and you will be a great mom, a great wife and you are an amazing daughter! We love you so much." I said.

"Hey mom, can I have a word with you in private for a second?" She said. "Dad, can you take Alyssa, please?" She lifted Alyssa up for Edward to grab hold of her.

"Of course." Edward said, grabbing hold of Alyssa. I nodded. Edward left the room with Alyssa. Awkward silence. I hated awkward silence.

"So, what is it you were wanting to talk to me about?" I said, after two minutes.

"How have you been, Mom? I know you kind of had a bit of a meltdown after Eddie. I just wanted to check you were okay."

*flashback*

I sat in this dark, cold, empty room all alone. I isolated myself from everyone, from it all. I needed to get away, I didn't want to face upto my fears, but it looked like I had no choice. The pain was tearing away at me, cutting through my heart like a knife was being inserted then removed repeatedly. Six hours passed, the pain sustained.

"Bella?" Alice called from in the kitchen.

I didn't reply. For five minutes, I sat in darkness, completely black. No light was to be seen and no sound to be heard.

"C'mon Bella. Answer me. If you don't answer me in 10 seconds, I will karate chop down this door." I didn't reply.

"Ten.." She began.

"Nine.."

"Eight..."

"Seven.. "

"Six.."

"Five... "

"Bella, Im serious. I don't think Esme will be happy if I have to kick the door down."

"Four, Three..."

"Bella, Two seconds now."

"One? Still no answer then. Fine, you have left me no choice."

I stood up quickly, unlocked the door and opened it. "What's up Alice?"

"I wanted to see how your doing?"

"Im great thanks!" I said sourly.

"I don't think you are." She said.

"Really? You don't. This is all your fault you know that. I feel this way because you made me face upto it. I wouldn't feel all this anguish and pain and sadness if you had just left me alone to deal with this my own way. But no, not you Alice. You have to make me face upto my fears." I ranted.

Part of me felt this was true, that was a very small part. The bigger part of me, the more dominant part said that I was a bad friend, a bad sister-in-law- sort of- and most of all, a bad person. I knew these words would hurt Alice, and to be honest I think I crossed a line.

Surprisingly, Alice just stood looking at me. We stared and stared at each other.

"You finished now?" She said happily.

"Why you being nice to me? After everything i've just said, you just take that with a pinch of salt?"

"Bella, I saw this coming. Physic. Duh!? I already saw your little speech and I also saw you feeling remorse for it. Why do you think I pushed you?" She said with a little grin on her face, clearly feeling content with herself.

"Alice, im sorry. None of this is your fault. And whether you saw it coming or not, I shouldn't have said those things. I really am sorry. It's just this, this whole thing. It's just caught up to me. And i'm really hurting right now, and I need you. I need you now more than ever."

Alice pulled me into a huge hug. Edward walked around the corner.

"Bella? Are you okay, darling?" He said, a worried expression on his face.

"Im fine, I'm going to be okay. Thanks Alice, you're the best."

*present*

"Im fine, darling. Don't worry about me. Are you sure your going to be okay?" I said to Renesmee as Edward and I packed our stuff into the car as we were about to leave to go to London.

"Mom, Ive got Jake. We're going to be just fine." She said as Jacob wrapped his arms around her.

"Have fun, Mom!" Jake said, jokingly. "Don't do anything I wouldn't." He winked.

"Jake, a bit inappropriate don't you think." Edward said sourly, looking at Renesmee.

"Oh sorry." He said, embarrassed. "Have fun you guys!"

The flight lasted seven hours. Seven long hours. The only good thing about it was having Edward sat next to me. People stared at us, girls looking at me with envy. I knew how lucky I was to have Edward at the side of me. He stared at me most of the way. I hated when he did this. I was nowhere near good enough for him, I was plain and not very beautiful in the slightest.

As we landed, Edward grabbed my hand and we moved at a high pace through the crowd.

"Edward, what are you doing?"

"The quicker we get to the hotel love." He winked at me. I realised what he meant. Well, true, the quicker the better.