Chapter 15 is up!!! ENJOY!!!
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When they got to her apartment, they got inside and the next thing Sara knew she was in Grissom's arms. She pushed away, but Grissom kept a grip on her.
"I love you Sara,"
"What about Sofia?" Sara muttered, not looking at him.
"Sofia was done the moment I knew she had tried to keep us apart, and it wasn't that you didn't care anymore."
"God, I never stopped loving you Gil, but, God, this is,"
"Its right, Sara,"
"I know you love me, and I love you too, but,"
"No buts," Grissom said and gently kissed her. She pulled back and said,
"You'll hate me when you find out what I did to you." She pulled free and sat down on the couch, hugging herself. Grissom sat next to her, and said,
"Sara, I could never hate you,"
"Yes, you can, especially when you find out what I've been hiding from you for the past, well, long time."
"Tell me now, Sara, the past is the past,"
"I, I can't, not until tomorrow."
"Okay, I can wait, I think."
"You shouldn't have to, but it can't be helped, I suppose." They fell asleep that night on the couch, entwined in each others arms, and then when Grissom woke, he woke to the smell of coffee and breakfast. He inhaled deeply, and caught Sara's scent. He got up and saw her engrossed in the newspaper. He sat down and ate with her. She jumped, and then said,
"Oh, morning Gil."
"Morning." When they both finished, Sara said,
"Uh, can you go into work and get my coat for me, and tell my boss I'm taking a few days off?" He could tell she needed to do something without him in her apartment, so he nodded and left. She went to pick up Carrie, and then put her in her room at her apartment. Then, Grissom knocked and walked in with her coat. They sat down, and suddenly Carrie's cry split the air. Grissom jumped, while Sara silently went into the guest bedroom. She called,
"Gil, c'mere, it's time you meet someone you should've known since before she was born." Gil, perplexed, went into the bedroom and saw a toddler cradled in Sara's arms. The girl was cooing, and Sara grinned, as she was in her element.
"Gil, meet Carrie Beth Sidle. Care-Bear, I want you to meet Dr. Gil." Carrie looked over at Grissom and thought really hard. Sara bent down and whispered something in the girl's ear, and Carrie's face dawned with complete understanding. Sara put her down and she toddled right over to Grissom. She put her arms up and squealed,
"Dada!" Gil looked shocked, and didn't move. Carrie said in a bossy voice,
"Dada! Up! Now!" Gil slowly bent to pick her up, and Carrie shifted until she was comfortable. Gil cradled her, and Sara got tears in her eyes watching her daughter and her daughter's father, the man she loved, together for the first time. Carrie soon started fussing, so Sara silently handed Gil a bottle. When Carrie was finished eating, she started to get sleepy, and then Sara stood next to Gil and said,
"Here, I'll put her to bed," He gladly shifted Carrie to Sara, and watched as Sara lovingly put Carrie down and sang softly,
"Hush a bye, don't you cry, go to sleep ye little Carrie, when you wake, you shall have, all the pretty little ponies, blacks and bays, dapples and grays, coach and six a little ponies," When she finished, Carrie was out, so Sara slipped out and saw Gil on the couch. She silently grabbed a couple beers, and handed one to Gil, which he downed in two sips.
"Whoa, Gil, slow down," Sara said handing him a second. He listened, because he only took one small sip. They sat in silence for a moment and Sara said,
"Go ahead, yell at me, rip at me, I deserve it all and more." Gil shook his head and said hoarsely,
"I'm just trying to understand why you didn't tell me in the first place."
"Do you not remember what you said to me a week before I left?"
"What?"
"About having kids? How we wouldn't be good parents, how you didn't think it was fair to bring a child into our kind of life, how you wouldn't be a good father, how I wouldn't be a good mother, how you point-blank didn't want a kid."
"Oh," Gil said, that night rushing back to him.
"I'll be danged if I was going to let my child grow up in the same kind of environment that I did."
"We are not your parents! Jesus, Sara," Gil said, standing up and running his hands through his hair. Sara stood up too, and defiantly said,
"How do you know that I won't become my mother?" Gil tried to come up with an answer, but no words came to him.
"But I would never have become your father, Sara," He took her arms and said, "Never, and I wouldn't let you become your mother." Tears came to Sara's eyes and Gil wiped them away without thinking.
"Told you you'd hate me after finding out," Sara said quietly, and Gil said,
"Sara, no, I could never hate you, I hated loving you for a moment there, but," Sara pushed away at the words, hated loving you, and she sat back down and hugged herself.
"Yeah, that's what I thought. We can work something out, I suppose," Gil sat down next to her and said,
"The only thing I want to work out is how we can fix our relationship."
"How?"
"I'll make it simple. Do you love me?"
"God yes, Gil, I love you so much it hurts sometimes. Do you love me?"
"Heck yes I do, I couldn't bear to lose you."
"Me neither." Sara whispered, and Gil hugged her. She clung to him and cried for a moment in his arms. Then, they backed up and Grissom went to kiss her.
"You sure?" Sara said, and Grissom murmured,
"I've never been so sure of anything before now." She smiled and he kissed her. He pulled back for a moment and said,
"There is one thing I'd like to know."
"Go ahead," Sara said, and Gil said,
"How did she know I was her father?" Sara blushed and said,
"I've been teaching her what you look like, with a photo of you I took with me." He smiled and said,
"I'm glad you did." She kissed him in response, and he deepened it.
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Yea! They're back together! Still more to come, so review if you like it, even review if you don't and tell me!! Thanks for reading and adios for now!!!