"I missed going out with you. And sneaking into your room when your dad is out of town and you're home alone." Beck chuckled as he and Jade arrived at the girl's house, sitting on her bed with a large distance and a rabbit between them, and the door wide open. It was the only way they got to be together in her bedroom anymore, but he wouldn't complain at all.
"I missed it too. You're a lot of fun to hang out with." Jade admitted as she stroked the bunny's fur, smiling softly. "We hadn't done this in forever."
The boy moved in a little closer, reaching for his girlfriend's hand and giving her a little smile when she took it. Her response was to just stare at the floor, a thoughtful look in her beautiful blue eyes.
It felt nice, holding his hand. Beck's skin was warm and soft, the contact completely unthreatening, and there were few people she could laugh as much with. But something was off; it'd been off for a while. Sure, it felt good to be with him as a companion. Anything else was comfortably hidden under a layer of too early to think about this.
"Dime for your thoughts, pretty girl."
The comment made her blush and shrug it off, going back to caressing the sleeping bunny. It was flattering, but no butterflies, no tingly feeling in her gut when he touched her or called her a cute name. It was actually beginning to feel a little uncomfortable, like he wasn't allowed to say those things anymore.
"I'm just… Thinking about the song I have to write for next week." She lied through her teeth. The words to the song were all written, the melody stuck in her head from countless times singing it in the shower and trying to get the prfect rhythm. It was just a lot easier and safer than voicing her feelings to him, given that Jade herself didn't know what they were exactly.
"And hey, how… How'd the tests go?" He asked worriedly, eyeing her, while her gaze was still on Bugs.
"All clean. No stinky goo or baby head expected to come out of my privates anytime in the predictable future."
"That's great!"
A customary, friendly, innocent hug.
Beck pulled away just a little bit, enough to look deep in her eyes and make sure she wouldn't refuse before he pressed their lips together in a soft kiss.
And that's when she was sure.
"Beck. Stop. This isn't right."
The boy pulled away promptly, sighing.
"Sorry."
"Not your fault. I mean, it's not because of- of my thing." Jade's heart started to race, her teeth digging into her bottom lip. It sure wasn't right to string her boyfriend along if she didn't feel it anymore. But he'd been so nice, so amazingly supportive throughout the whole thing – even went with her to some of the appointments, never ceasing to offer a hand or a shoulder – how would it affect him?
"Then why is it?"
She took in a nervous breath and turned to look deep into his eyes, sighing. This wasn't supposed to be so hard. She always knew what to say! Of course, that was when she didn't care about hurting the other person. Right now, it was a very firmly glued band-aid that needed to be ripped off.
"Look, Beck. You're a wonderful boyfriend, and I love being with you. I do. You're sweet and funny and you've been so supportive, and… And I'm really sorry I have to do this, but it wouldn't be right not to."
It took him a moment to get it.
"You're… Breaking up with me?"
"I kind of have to. It's not fair to keep stringing you along if I don't have that kind of feeling for you anymore."
Silence. Jade bit her lip harshly, staring resolutely into his eyes.
"Well… Do you regret it? Being with me?"
"None of it." She assured him immediately. "I loved being your girlfriend, and I don't regret a day we spent together. Not even losing my virginity to you. I'm glad it was with someone I loved, and who actually loved me back."
Beck smiled at that. His hand reached up to tuck Jade's hair behind her ear, his face looking thoughtful.
"Is there someone else?"
"Not that I've done anything at all with. But I think I'm starting to have feelings for her. Big feelings."
"Her? As in… A girl?"
"Yep."
More silence. Both the boy and the girl stared at the little rabbit, smiling awkward at him to avoid having to look at each other.
"Are we… Okay? I mean, I definitely don't wanna lose a friend. Please tell me we'll still be able to hang out."
Beck just smiled softly and gave Jade's hand a little squeeze, then slid out of her bed. He only spoke again when he stopped by her doorway, shooting her a slightly bigger smile.
"In the predictable future, definitely."
Tori's phone buzzed on her lap and she pressed the pause button on the remote, freezing the scene on one of John Travolta's silly dance moves in black leather. The text was from Jade, and it made her smile just to see the name on the screen.
Hey, have you seen my man wearing a bowtie?
Enclosed was a picture of Bugs, a presumably handmade (but still fancy as hell) black bowtie around his furry neck. Tori laughed softly to herself and texted back quickly.
That's one fancy-ass bunny, Jade. Didn't your other man get jealous?
The response came just as fast.
What man? Bugs is the only man in my life now. And before you ask, yeah, I'm the one who dumped him. He was totally cool about it, too. Just like a true gentleman. :)
Tori only answered with a smiley face, but as she pressed play and John Travolta resumed his dancing, she couldn't help but join in.
A/N: Yay, Jori! Yay, they broke up! Yay, I spent the entire afternoon in the hospital getting my arm poked with needles! Anyway. On a semi-related note, some of you have been asking me how Sinjin overpowered Jade with physical strength, and that's an easy one. First, she was taken by surprise. Second, before she had time to react, on the first time, Burf was already holding her wrists behind her back. On the second time, there was the very strong element of surprise, and poor Jade was scared shitless.
And I *promise* next chapter will feature the gang's reactions to the revelation that it was Sinjin. I just have a lot of ideas and they keep competing for space in my chapters, so I need them to pipe down for a bit in order to write a chapter that actually makes sense. :)
Thank you so much for the reviews and the love! You guys are awesome. And you have some of the weirdly awesomest pen names. Yes, "awesomest" is a word.
