Confession
I'm in love. She seems so perfect to me – perfect for me. I always want to be with her. I can't imagine a future without her in it.
She's the one.
I know it.
It makes so much sense. Maybe not to the world, but to me it does.
Everything she does pulls me in. I have no control over it; I do it instinctively. I always want to be near her.
She leaves me breathless. All it takes is one touch, one glance, and it's as if the wind is knocked from my chest. Whenever I look in her eyes, time freezes. I don't know how much longer I can hide it from her.
I love her.
I love her and I want to tell her a million times a day.
When she meditates, eyes closed and body relaxed – I want to tell her. When she reads her books and does her best to ignore the racket in the room – I want to tell her. When she quietly sips her tea – I want to tell her.
When she sits alone or retreats into her room - I want to tell her. When she doesn't join in, purposely distancing herself from us - I want to tell her. When she smells of fear or loneliness - I want to tell her.
Every time I see her hide in her shell - I want to tell her. Somebody loves you, Raven.
Never mind that the somebody is me, I just want her to know she's loved.
She doesn't realize the reason why I do it all. Every joke I tell to try and make her laugh. Every time I interrupt her meditation. Every time I knock on her door and coax her to come out. She doesn't know everything I do is born from love.
I don't think I can stand it anymore. I'm going to have to tell her soon, or I know I'll go crazy.
She deserves to know that she is truly loved, even at the expense of my pride and dignity.
Suddenly, I feel determined. Tomorrow - I'll tell her tomorrow. I smile and look up at the moon.
"I LOVE YOU RAVEN!!" I yell, a wolf howling at the moon. Satisfied with myself, and with new purpose, I turn around confidently to go inside.
She's standing there, her mouth open, staring at me. And just as suddenly as it came, all of my confidence vanishes.
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Short, but I really like it.
