A/N – I was very torn on what direction I wanted to go with the blood drinking thing. I decided on the direction I went with because ultimately it fit better with the direction I am going in.

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It was quiet between us for a few seconds. "Does it hurt?" I asked. "I mean for the human."

"If done right…no it can be just as pleasurable for the human as it is for the vampire." He said looking out into space.

I had always been curious about the blood sharing between vampires and humans and the minute Damon said it would be pleasurable made me ten times more interested. "So what if sex isn't involved? Would it still be as pleasurable?"

"Yes." Damon answered after a few seconds. "Look Elena, I really don't think you should try this with Stefan. He can't control himself when it comes to human blood and in an intense situation he may not be able to stop."

I placed my mug of hot chocolate on the bedside table and moved my pillow down to a flat passion. I scooted myself down and layed on my pillow facing the ceiling. "I want you to do me a favor and show me how pleasurable being bitten can be."

Chapter 14

I couldn't believe what I was asking him to do. For months it terrified me to even think about getting bit by a vampire but I trusted that he would make it a pleasurable experience.

Damon turned on his side to face me. He ran his hand down the side of my cheek. "Elena, a vampire taking blood from a human for pleasure is…it's like the human equivalent of sex. And I know you wouldn't want to do that to Stefan. And as much as I want to do it, I won't do that to him either." He said with a small sigh. "Get some sleep." He said softly before bending down and placing a gentle kiss on my forehead. I closed my eyes and Damon reached over me to shut off the lamp. "Good night sweetheart." He whispered in my ear before laying down.

I felt embarrassed that Damon had to be the one to stop things before they got out of hand. I felt ashamed that I even asked him to bite me. Everything just felt so natural with Damon; I didn't feel like I had to hide anything with him. I loved him. There was no denying that anymore. I just couldn't bring myself to hurt Stefan. But was lying to everyone really fair to any of us? A single tear rolled down my cheek. I turned on my side and slowly drifted off to sleep.

I woke up the next morning alone. There was no note and no text message waiting. I hoped I hadn't upset him with my stupid request the night before. It was a pretty quiet morning and afternoon. I didn't hear from Damon or Stefan all day. Finally around 7PM I decided to give them a call to see what was going on with Isobel. I picked up my cell phone and scrolled through until I landed on Damon's name. I sighed and kept going till I reached Stefan's. I hit call and waited for him to answer.

"Hello?"

"Stefan, hi."

"Hey, how are you?"

"I am good." I said in a confused tone. "I haven't heard from you all day. What's going on with Isobel."

"She wants to meet tomorrow night in front of the school."

"Oh OK."

"I was going to call you to see if you wanted to have dinner and maybe spend the night since you haven't stayed over in a while."

My mind quickly went to Damon. If I spent the night at their house we wouldn't have our normal nightly chats. But I had been neglecting Stefan and decided that I probably should spend some time with him when we are not coming up with plans to fend off evil vampires. "Sure that sounds great. I will be over in a little while."

I hung up with Stefan and started to get my stuff together to spend the night. I threw a pair of jeans and a t-shirt into a tote bag along with underwear and some pajamas. I went into the bathroom and through my toothbrush and makeup bag into the tote bag and made my way downstairs. I grabbed a pen and paper out of the kitchen draw and wrote Jenna a quick note.

I arrived at the boarding house and Stefan was standing in the doorway before my foot even hit the first step.

"Hey." He said with a smile.

"Hi." I said trying my hardest to imitate his huge smile. I walked in and placed my tote bag on one of the chairs in the living room.

"So I ordered some Chinese." He said gesturing towards the coffee table with the Chinese food containers.

"Great. I'm starving." I said as I walked over to the couch.

Stefan sat down and I sat down next to him. I grabbed one of the containers and turned myself so I had one knee on the couch facing him.

"So what did you do today?" He asked as I took my first bite.

"Nothing really; just hung around waiting to hear from someone about the Isobel situation."

"I'm sorry I didn't call you."

"Don't worry about it." I said before taking another mouthful. I looked down at my container of food. "So, where is Damon?" I asked. I wanted it to sound like a natural question but for some reason it didn't.

"I haven't seen him since this morning."

We finished our food, well I did Stefan stopped after a few bites. Unlike Damon I don't think Stefan enjoyed human food, I mostly think he ate it because of me. Stefan got up and threw some more wood into the fire. He sat back down, this time closer to me and put his arm around me pulling me even closer. A few minutes later the front door slammed against the side wall. I jumped and turned around. Damon appeared in the living room doorway holding the hand of a women. The women was a little shorter than him. She had long dirty blond hair and light eyes. She wore a short black skirt, a white sleeveless low cut shirt, and black high heels. She had long legs and boobs at least 2 cup sizes bigger then my own. My eyes focused in on their attached hands; he was slightly rubbing her hand with his thumb and it was making me sick.

"Hello brother, Elena." Damon said with a smile. "This…" He brought her hand up to his lips and kissed it making her giggle like an idiot. "Is Mandy."

"Damon…" Stefan said in a warning tone.

"Relax little brother. We are just going to go upstairs to…talk." He said with a wink.

It felt like someone had stabbed me right in my heart. I wondered if this is how he felt when he saw me kiss or hug Stefan. Regardless, I am sure he would forget all about me once lil miss whatever her name is was naked in his bed. As soon as the thought crossed my mind I felt sick.

Damon and his friend disappeared upstairs and Stefan turned around shaking his head. "He will never change."

I bit my lip and slowly turned around also. "Yea." I said with a small fake laugh.

After a while Stefan and I headed upstairs. I could hear Mandy's giggling when I reached the top of the stairs and just wanted to fall to the ground and have myself a good cry.

"I'm gonna take a shower." I said turning to face Stefan.

"OK." He said. He handed me my tote bag and kissed the top of my head before walking towards his room.

I walked into the bathroom which was about halfway between both Damon and Stefan's room. I turned on the shower and shed my clothes. I stepped in and just let the water run over my skin. I had taken a shower a little while ago but just needed some time to myself. A few tears ran down my cheek and I took a sharp breath in. I had no right to cry over Damon spending the night with some other women. He was single and had every right to do as he pleased. But it still broke my heart. And that made me feel awful because I was supposed to be in love with Stefan and not caring who his brother was shaking up with. I turned off the water and grabbed a towel to dry myself off. I threw on my light blue tank top and black pajama pants. I grabbed my old blow drier that I had left there last time and dried my hair.

I took my time making sure every strand was completely dry. Part of me hoped that Stefan would be asleep by the time I got to the room. Although we weren't having sex he wasn't opposed to a heavy make-out session in his bed when I would stay the night and I just wasn't in the mood for that. And I wasn't in the mood for the awkward conversation about why I wasn't in the mood. I unplugged the hair dryer and placed it back under the sink. I walked out of the bathroom and slowly made my way down the hall to Stefan's room.

"Hey, that was a long shower….everything OK?" Stefan asked.

Stefan was lying on his bed on top of the blankets with one arm behind his head. He had on black loose sweatpants and no shirt. I put on a fake smile and made my way over to the bed. "Yea, fine. I am just tired and the hot water felt amazing, I didn't want to get out." I lied, hoping that would give him the hint that I wasn't up for our usual sleepover activities.

Stefan grabbed the blankets that were under him and wrapped them around us. He put his arm around me pulling me into him. He leaned over and gave me a few kisses on my cheek. "Goodnight." He said.

"Night."

I closed my eyes and tried to force myself to sleep but it was useless. Every time I closed my eyes I saw Damon and whatever her name was together.

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